Another week away from K
and I almost couldn't cope with the strain. She hadn't
been able to write for a while, so I became really
worried about her, and could barely sleep some nights.
When I received her latest letter on Friday I was so
happy I almost danced to work. I forget so easily how
lucky I am to have access to a computer and email, and
how confusing it all was to me the first time I used it.
From now on, I resolve to be more understanding. Also K
rang me this evening and I practically forgot how to
speak. I'd been working all day, and thought I could
maybe doze for half an hour before she rang, but my love
was so eager to call, that I when I spoke to her I
sounded like a complete fool. I hope she forgives me and
isn't worrying too much about my state of mind.
The week brought some good news. I called
my university to see if my Mexican TEFL would count to
towards my degree, and the reply was a guarded "yes".
I now have to wait for a letter, to see if I will be a
graduate at the end of this semester. Like Riggs, I was
beginning to feel I was too old for this shit. I'm hoping
to study more as well, for a Cambridge qualification, but
if the amount of money I have to save means I can't see K
this summer, I'm going to forget it. I can't imagine
being away from her for too long. It's been too long
already.
The day has taken a strain on me. I meant
to write many more things, but washing dishes all day
does take it out of you. They've hired someone permanent
for the job for next week, so I may not have many more
hours. It'll be a shame, I was just getting to like the
Newcastle chef, and I'd already worked for the Irish chef
before. He made sure I got a beer before the end of my
shift today, which was quite generous. The office job
also ends this week, so I'm going to have to do the
rounds of the agencies for more work again. I was hoping
that the language schools I'd applied to would need
English teachers, but apparently they're already staffed
for Easter. I'll have to write more applications if I
want to teach in Spain this September.
Another week, another wish list. At least
I'm busy, it keeps my mind active and I'm not too
despondent. I love K and will do everything possible to
be with her. For now, all I can do is work and let her
know that I love her as often as possible. Now I think I
need some rest, so I'll sign off now. Next week I will
write with a little more clarity.
¡Hasta luego!
