MY LIFE - APRIL


Dave

Friday, April 12, 2002

I just cannot keep myself from getting involved in other people's problems. I can't. I somehow find my way into them and somehow manage to become a huge aspect of the problem in one form or another. I just don't know how yet and while it doesn't necessarily bother me, it's making life a little more difficult.

I bring it on myself. I know that. I end up feeling that someone's being treated unfairly, so I kind of mention it to someone, and before I know what's happening, shit's hit the fan and I'm trying to figure out what happened.

The latest instance is another minor blowup in the pharmacy and I know all the sticky details about the mess, partly because I agreed to listen to a coworker vent for about three hours yesterday from 10pm-1am. She needed to get all that crap off her mind and I didn't mind listening to her complain about things at all.

It's just that this kind of shit keeps on happening and I'm at a loss. It basically involves one of the techs, a girl my age, being treated like crap by a couple of other people that work at the store, a tech and a pharmacist (a pharmacist who seems to have run-ins with someone at least once a week). This girl didn't like how she was being treated and she was right. She's being treated like crap for no real reason other than because, well, I don't know yet.

Yeah, she gets a little aggravating when she doesn't stop talking, but it's no reason to absolutely hate her or give her trouble. The one tech things she can boss this girl around for some reason and that can't happen. No tech can tell another tech what to do and that's the bottom line.

It's just a real mess right now and I know everything about what's happening.

The worst part is I get along with all of the people involved, so it's a difficult position for me to be in. I care about this girl and don't like how she's being treated, yet I also like working with the two people causing the problem. It's a terrible position to be in and I'm in it.

But what's happening can't happen and I don't like seeing it happen, especially in front of my eyes. It's making things tense at work again and this job is hard enough without the extra drama bullshit. It should not be that hard for everyone to get along, or at the least be civil to each other, but it seems to be near impossible at this store.

But shit happens. It's always happened and will always happen no matter what anyone tries.


As I said, I spent three hours listening to my coworker talk last night. The first two hours were interesting because she kept rattling off things that really pissed her off. I almost laughed after a while because she kept saying "The thing that REALLY pisses me off...." It was great stuff. What was even better was she has a yellow Mustang, and every few minutes, you'd hear a car rev its engine as it went by. She'd stop, identify the kind of car, its specs, and point out how it happens all the time. Then she'd get right back into the story.

She was really pissed though. She almost cried a couple of times and I could understand why. I've been in the same position, where it seems like a couple of people just don't give a shit about me and could care less if I fell off the face of the earth.

I could relate. It's a shitty place to be in.

I seem to have found a way into my own shitty place now as well. I really have to learn to stay out of other people's problems, but I seem to have inherited my mom's knack for helping other people out. I should know better by now too. I almost never get anything in return for what I do, yet I keep helping.

I guess I'll never learn. I'll probably always be getting myself involved in someone else's shit.

This situation is bothering me though. I can't get it out of my head and I'm waiting for my manager to talk to me about the mess and see if there's something I know or something I can reveal that will make the situation better.

Unfortunately, it looks like one way or another, we'll be losing one person from this whole thing. That pisses me off because we can't afford to lose anyone at all. But if that's what it comes down to, then there's nothing that can be done in that regard and we'll just have to go from there.

The bottom line is that the shit going can't continue and I don't want to see it go on anymore.


The Indians won tonight 3-1 to raise their record to 10-1. Jim Thome and Omar Vizquel both homered. I'm really drained right now so that's the best that I can do.

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