MY LIFE - AUGUST

Saturday, August 31, 2002

I'm still sick and it's been determined that I managed to catch the flu, not the upset stomach kind of flu, but the true kind of flu that comes with aches, sore throat, coughing, and just a complete energy drain.

Then I got a write-up for calling off last night even though I couldn't move. I understand why Bob did it though. I've called off seven times this year, about five times more than I usually do. It's been a combination of sickness and things happening. Hopefully I'm done with it since I can really care less for the threat of being fired.

Now, I'm sorry, but I've been working for the company five years and this is the first time I've ever called off more than four times. If someone was concerned about it in the pharmacy, then something should've been said to me by them. Nobody did though, so I didn't really realize how much scrutiny I was under.

Know what? I could care less about the whole thing. Fire me if needed, but don't treat me like I was just trying to get out of work. I was in bed almost the entire day yesterday, unable to move, and yet I was supposed to go in? It's not happening. This company is so concerned over petty shit that they forget that things happen. I've been sick more this year then I ever have been since I was in high school.

I'm still getting chills every now and then, my neck and body ache, I can barely talk, but it's not legit. What the fuck.

I'm not mad at Bob. I'm mad because I'm being treated like I'm dodging work. Bob did what he had to do. Keith, our pharmacist in charge, said not a thing to me ever. How is that happening?

In any case, I still feel like shit and do not plan on going anywhere, even though we need groceries and I need to do my laundry, I don't have the energy to do any of it. I just feel very weak right now.

I just don't get what's in the air at this room that's making me so sick so much. I've been sick more in the last three months than I had been the entire year up until the fire, and it's very rarely been minor. I've had a stomach virus twice. I've had a near-case of strep once. I just caught the flu. I have the allergy to our cats.

This has not been my year at all.

It's hard to write right now as well since I feel so bad and have a hard time focusing. There are a couple things that I want to mention though.

First off, I love the comments in my guestbook. It's nice to see people signing it again, even if I don't always like what I see. Tab, yeah, the dog pissing on me was funny, after the fact. Lindsay, what's going on with you? Never see you on anymore. Katie, what happened was messed up. It just didn't work the way it probably could. Shit happens though.

The baseball strike was averted at the last minute, but it's football season now so I don't think a lot of people care. I love the Indians, but bring on the Buckeyes and Browns. I'm ready for some football.

However, it's the first time that a strike was avoided. The previous eight labor problems resulted in either a lock-out or a strike. For once, fans got the point across.