MY LIFE - AUGUST

Friday, August 30, 2002

I hurt right now. I hurt a lot right now. I hurt so much that I can barely move at times. What is the problem? I'm sick. I started feeling a sore throat early yesterday and by the end of the day, my throat was hurting pretty bad. Then in the middle of the night, around 4am, I woke up in a sweat and feeling achy all over.

I ached so bad that I needed to take four advil, and this was on top of the benadryl that I had taken to try and ease my allergies. I was so woozy that I could barely stand up initially just to go to the bathroom, nearly falling into the desk beside my bed. Then I nearly fell over the couch as I tried to get to my advil. I eventually made it back to sleep, but I knew if I still hurt like this in the morning, I wasn't going to be able to get to class.

My alarm went off at 7:30 and I knew right when I tried to turn it off that it wasn't going to work. I could barely move at all now and the aching was much, much worse. I tried to stand up and go to the bathroom, but that wasn't really successful. After three tries, I finally made it, but I knew I was going to make it to class. I went back to bed, but not before pumping four more advil into my body.

I eventually had to call off work because the aches made it too much trouble to move. Most of the day, I couldn't stand up for more than five or ten minutes at a time before it became too much. I tried to eat some soup, but all that did was exasperate another situation I was trying to deal with, my body temperature fluctuating. One minute, I was freezing (under three blankets no less), then I was burning up. I'm pretty sure I've had a fever the whole time as even to my own hands, my whole body was very warm, even when I was freezing.

The soup didn't really do anything but make me even warmer than I was before, something that made laying down even more uncomfortable.

It's 10pm right now and this is the first time I haven't felt like keeling over after sitting up. As a consequence of my sickness, I missed class and work, couldn't take the dogs back to the house, and couldn't do much more than sit on my ass and watch baseball (thank god no strike) and football all day, which isn't bad except when you ache.

The night has been made more tolerable by one simple fact: tonight was the first time this NFL preseason where I was able to watch the Cleveland Browns play. Right now, it's 19-6 Browns with 10:44 left in the fourth. Now, I love the Indians, no matter how badly they've played this year (it was 15-4 Boston last time I checked on the Tribe) and I love baseball, but thank goodness football season is back. The Browns have me excited again. I've been watching them since I was little kid (I have pictures to prove it, or at least I used to) and even when they played like crap the first couple years back, I watched. So I'm a little excited to see them play again.

Let's give some updates right now while I'm at it. The situation with Lindsay, I have no idea. I haven't seen her online in almost two weeks now it seems and she has not replied to any of my e-mails. I like the girl and love talking to her, but if I can't find her or hear from her, it makes it hard for me to think that anything would happen.

In the last week, I've also met another girl, Erin, who lives in Willoughby, about half an hour from me. We actually went out one night and a pretty good night, making asses out of each other shooting pool and then watching movies back at her place. It was a great time and she's a great girl who made it pretty clear very quickly that she liked me a lot.

Right now, she's on a trip to West Virginia, but I got to talk to her last night and let her know what I felt, and she let me know that she'd miss me too. She's a girl that really got my attention and I think she's something special. I'm hoping that it continues to go well in the future.

School has gone well. Most of it has been a refresher for me thus far and I don't anticipate any real problems with any of my classes. It's actually been a pretty good experience so far. I don't feel any of the dread that I used to feel and I don't feel as bored in the classes as I used to. I've also made a couple of friends in my bio class, a girl named Katie and this guy whose name fails me right now. Katie's kind of funny to listen to and we both share a mutual hate for this older woman that's in our lab and lecture.

This woman, now she shows up late to the lab both days so far and the first day, she asks a stupid ass question, then starts talking like she's some really smart person (making obvious observations the whole time) and generally aggravating the shit out of most people in the room.

The second time, she practically steals Katie's pen and lab book to copy down the work that Katie had done with us, and this woman's not even in our group! So Katie gets her pen and book back and the rest of the time is bitching under her breath about how big a bitch the woman is.

Then in the lecture, she asks one stupid question after another, interrupting the lecture and generally making a fool of herself. This woman, she can't be older than my mom, but she's a complete airhead. It's amusing at first, but after the seventh question on the same topic, you tend to get a little annoyed.

Otherwise, school's going well. Now if we would only hire some more people at work, that wouldn't be such a disaster. But that will never happen.

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Updating on this site will be sporadic at best, especially if more develops between Erin and me. If that happens, then updating will be very sparse at best, although I'll try and do better than the effort I gave when Tab and I were together. As you know, I didn't do any work on the site in the time that we were together other than a couple of excuse-me entries early on.

It's not that I want to document any relationship, just keep everyone up to speed on me and what's going on. It'll also be a better chronicle of my life if I ever want to look back and try and re-examine things.

In short, don't expect much.