MY LIFE - DECEMBER

Sunday, December 24, 2000

I know. It's been four days since I last wrote anything. It's been four days since you've had the displeasure of reading the junk I throw up in here from day to day. But I've been really busy this week and I haven't really been home much over the last couple days, so this is going to be a culmination of about four days worth of entries, or at least in theory it will be.

Knowing me, I'll write a lot, then get tired (it's only 1:41am right now) and say forget it. But I'll try. That's what counts right? Trying your best and hoping for the best to happen.

So what happened? It's simple. Thursday I worked from 3-11pm and was just flat-out too tired to write anything at all. I don't even remember what I did, but I came home and went right to bed. Reason being I had to get up at 7am the next morning to take my car in to have the CD changer reinstalled. Thursday was also a somewhat aggravating day for me.

It was frigid outside and drive-thru was even busier than usual, at least so it seemed. I didn't have a problem getting drive-thru but was getting annoyed at Linda who decided she wasn't going to get drive-thru because it was too cold and she wasn't going to get sick on account of customers. It didn't matter what I was doing, I ended up having to get drive-thru because of this silly reason.

Otherwise, it wasn't that bad of a night. Friday wasn't that bad either and I remember getting a lot done at one point despite Joan bitching about how I should be up front ringing with Swati even though there wasn't any line. She was just pissed at having to get drive-thru and wanted someone else to do it regardless of what I was doing or in the middle of.

IThen Linda pissed me off with her theories behind drive-thru again. This time, she ranted how she wouldn't date any of us guys (Steve, Nate, and myself) because we weren't getting drive-thru for her or any other girl that was working. She said we weren't real men because real men wouldn't do something like that. I turned towards her and coldly asked her what made her think I would ever ask her out in the first place. She didn't bring up the issue again until Regina came in, probably expecting Regina to agree with her. Regina didn't.

I had this to say to Linda afterwards. I told her first of all, I wasn't at the store to try and court someone, I was there to work. Don't bring shit like that and throw it in my face. Outside of work or if it's someone I actually like, I'll do things like that, but I'm not going to stop what I'm doing and get drive-thru because you think that's what a real man would do. Linda doesn't know shit about real men considering who she's married to (and trying to divorce I might add) and she shouldn't be talking about things like that.

I just wasn't happy with that and made it very clear. She didn't really talk to me the rest of the night and I was very cold towards her in anything I did have to tell her. I was very happy when I got to leave at 8pm and not deal with her anymore.

As for the rest of the night, I kind of forget what I was doing. Oh yeah, I watched a couple of movies before going to bed at like 2 in the morning. I watched "The Haunting" and "Bram Stoker's Dracula." "The Haunting" was good. The effects were amazing and helped carry the story along that sometimes tripped over itself. The acting was decent enough, but like I said, the effects were superb. I have to give credit on that.

"Bram Stoker's Dracula" was just a messy film. It was good, but it was just so messy. I'm not a particularly big fan of gory movies either. I could really do without them sometimes, even in spoofs of horror movies. The acting was pretty good (what more can you ask of Keannu Reeves?) and the story didn't really lag that much. I was interested in what was happening.

Saturday I worked 10-6 and immediately had to go back out to do Christmas shopping I didn't think I was going to be able to do. I thought for sure I was going to have to pay my car insurance this week, but I noticed that the due date said January 16, 2001. I just groaned and realized that I could realistically get my Christmas shopping done.

That meant braving the mall and other stores. I was not the happiest camper in the world and didn't particularly like fighting through crowds of people. I did eventually buy my mom her present, but I couldn't find anything for the life of me for my sisters. I just had no clue what to buy and still haven't gotten anything, although my mom told me not to worry about it. But I can't help it. I hate it when things happen like this.

My mom told me not to expect much this Christmas because I didn't really tell her what I wanted and it would probably be easier to go afterwards anyway and just pick stuff out that I might like from the sales. I agreed with that so I don't expect to get a whole lot this year. I didn't ask for anything because, well, I'm just that way. I did the same thing for my birthday. I didn't say that I wanted anything and really didn't get anything.

If I see something I like, I buy it if I have the money now. So the holidays don't mean as much in that sense anymore. I still like to buy gifts and such, but I don't expect to get anything in return.

Anyway, that was taken care of and I wound up stopping by Mike's store to see what was going on. He was one of the unlucky souls who had to stay open until midnight and he wasn't too pleased with the whole situation. So I stayed with him until midnight and kept him company and helped him amuse the two girls who were stuck working with him.

So that's why I haven't written in three days. I've had a semi-life and have been busy with other things. Sorry, but this isn't the first priority on my list. It's probably in the middle somewhere and that's just fine with me. Things like this are going to happen. I'm not going to be able to write everything everyday of my existence. I have to take a time out y'all. I just can't keep up.

But anyway...It's still cold. It's still damn cold. It's still fucking cold. I don't know, did I get my point across? It has not been warmer than 25° since last Saturday when it was 50° and raining. We paid for that dearly. We've had nothing but frigid temperatures and wind chills near -30°. Guess what? I love it. This is Ohio weather. This is what winter's supposed to be like. It's not supposed to be 50° outside in winter. It's supposed to be in the twenties and thirties with lots of snow. We've had snow every day since last Saturday and it's supposed to snow overnight, as much as a foot in some areas.

I'm living large in this shit too. Sure, clearing off my car has gotten beyond old, and the one day when my wiper blades were frozen wasn't exactly a walk in the park, but I haven't been bothered by the cold that much. I've adjusted to it and looked at the forecast with glee when I saw the warmest we might see over the next seven days is 31° like Wednesday. Oh, and there's a good chance of snow four out of the next six days.

This is what winter's about. Now, if I only had a girlfriend to cuddle with, I'd really be set. But that's not the case. I'm working on it though. I'm hoping that something works out. I thought I had something earlier last week, but it didn't exactly pan out according to plan so I'm not really going to worry about that and just move on with things. Something will work out eventually.

In any case, I like the weather how it is, but that doesn't mean that I want this all the time. No, I like how we have seasons and how they change every three or four months. It keeps things from getting really stale. I know I get sick of each season after a couple months and that makes things so refreshing. I know when spring starts to get close, I'll be happy to see the snow go. For now though, I like it.

It helps that my car's good in the cold and snow. I drove my mom and sister to my aunt's house on my mom's side tonight to spend Christmas Eve there. I'm still not sure about that side of the family. It doesn't help me that I don't really know the people. I know who they are, but I've never really been around them so I don't really know them that well.

I was somewhat uncomfortable around them and wasn't sure what to say or do. I gradually became adjusted to the situation, but I had to keep convincing others that I wasn't all that hungry and if I wanted to eat, I would have. That's what happens though. People think you're dissing them by not eating when you're not that hungry, at least not enough to eat.

We eventually left, but it was too late for me to even consider going to my aunt on the other side of my family. I will be going to another aunt's tomorrow for Christmas to see relatives that I'm more comfortable around and have been around much more frequently.

I'm getting really tired now, so I'll just let this end. Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays to everyone. I hope everyone has a safe Christmas.