Well I need to start out by mentioning that I got all of three hours of sleep last night so I am not necessarily lucid at the moment. Undaunted, however, I plunge forward...So I got tickets for the upcoming Depeche Mode show, which rocks since I am a huge DM fan and beyond that Stabbing Westward is opening. This show would be hard pressed to get any better. Another factor that pushes this up on the coolness scale is that I get to hang out with friends from the Stabbing Fan list. That rocks. I am really glad that I have the opportunity to meet up with other fans at concerts now. It makes the whole show going process much better. Instead of just being me going to a show it is a big gathering which is really cool. I don't think I can describe it any better than that but it just rocks.
Wow I am very tired. I have to go to work tonight at five until one am. That wouldn't be too bad normally. As it is I am really dreading it. I tried sleeping but I am too hyped up. Ethan won a CD and was entered into a drawing to see Rob Zombie on Halloween, which is cool for me because we were doing a tag team thing with calling ( I have two phone lines) and he got in. So if he wins he is taking me. That would rock pretty hard too. I am trying to get entered too just to double our chances and to snag the zombie CD for myself. Man there are such cool concerts coming around. Chris and I are going to go to the Henery Rollins spoken word tour in Nov. I am really looking forward to that as well.
Beyond the cool shows coming up, I am feeling okay. As usual I am sweating my lack of a girlfriend but that is in the background. I can't be sniveling and pathetic all the time right? I have a lot to get worked out between now and the end of the year. I have a shit load of homework to do, most of which is in the next two weeks. Beyond that I have to do a karate seminar next weekend that costs $125 and I need to work out $200 to pick up an electric bass so I can get to learning how to play( just as back up in case the band is in need of it). Beyond that I have to really put my nose to the grindstone in Karate. Only four months until black belt and I am starting to feel the tension.
At anyrate with all this going on it is tough to find time to feel miserable. This is a good thing, just as long as I get the sleep I need and know when to back off and rest. I think that that is the core of my problems of late, just that I haven't been resting and rejuvenating. It is difficult to let go of anxiety when you are too exhausted to be able to reason. So I need to manage time better I think. At anyrate I am pretty damn tired of whinning and being moody all the time. Now if I could just be tired enough to sleep...
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