Live and Learning

The idea of live and learning came to me slowly...there was alot of events in my life that took place before I could appreciate life to the fullest. I suppose my bad marriage was one of them...having a lover in my life at the time was a big contribution into learning to appreciation of life....and my near death experience played the roles into my mind.

There was alot of things my lover taught me...I remember him telling me "Life can be so short, so spend take it easy and relax,  and make the most of it, laugh everyday, be crazy everyday, do something you wouldn't normally do, and meet lots of people....for tomorrow may never come.  Forgive yourself for your mistakes and for those who have done you wrong or have been hurtful to you, love everyone you meet, adore them, care for them, touch their lives with happiness, and never walk away from a loved one in anger, walk away with the happiness you had with that person...even though it couldn't last forever...don't spend anytime with negative energy, laugh it away and look forward to better things, you have to live with all that you do in you life, no one else does."

I took his words to heart...and looked at my marriage...it was falling apart at the seams and there was nothing there anymore....so much emptiness...and I was so alone...the only time I felt complete was when I was with my
lover...and after trying to communicate with my husband to try and make things work, he just brushed me away and I knew it was time to end the relationship.

I looked back at the fun times and the laughter my husband and I had at one point. I said good-bye to the anger and hatred I had felt for him, and filled it with love and happiness of the memories we shared. It was much like burying someone you loved, but you always have the good memories of what you want to keep inside you, and cherish those. At that time I let my husband go, I had no regrets about what we had or what went wrong. It was just another experience in my life that I had to learn from. I took a big step back and took mental notes of how it was, and I was happy with the end results of how I managed to cope with it. I loved him for all he was, and that was all I could do in the long run for the sake of my sanity and happiness.

Although there have been relationships I had with others that came and went after, I've always held onto my lovers words. For he taught me how to enjoy everyone and everything that passed by me in my life. I can only do so much as one person, and I've shared my knowledge with people in hope that what he shared with me can be as passed onto you as a reader.

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