July 13, 2000

Today was hysterical. I was in a bit of a huff because the infamous Leo Laporte scoffed (IMHO) at ScanDisk for floppies and encouraged more the use of such things as PowerQuest's Lost And Found (which is a wonderful program, but not the cheapest available). So I wrote a note and it was read on the air. Except, instead of reading to the bottom of my e-mail, which I signed as Rosie (duh) he tried to read the from line - not pleasant, as it was in Japanese. "Aino Tenba" isn't particularly difficult to pronounce, and he did a good job considering, but he hesitated a bit and was so unsure..I found it hilarious.

My latest project seems to be coming along well, although it doesn't help that ma chere amie I'm going to do it with is in a bit of a depression-funk stage right now. Maybe the cow purse would cheer her up ^_~ but unfortunately I can't just up and send it to her. It cheers up most people, though. Especially me. My purse is so me.

Yesterday my AP results came. I only had a 4 in CS! *whine* The good news is I had a 4 in English Language (I thought I would have a 2 or thereabouts) and a 4 in U.S. History (I hoped for a 4, but expected a 3). So overall I did quite well, especially in my two weakest subjects. Yippee.

I bought MechWarrior 2 and an inexpensive joystick this past week. Without the joystick, it's impossible, but with it, I'm having fun. Except I keep failing my training missions..I'm never sure exactly what it wants me to do. Oh well! ^^; I do my best. At least it's fairly enjoyable. I'm using the Gravis PC Gamepad for my joystick, plugged into the gameport on my sound card (a SoundBlaster). It works extremely well, considering the pad only cost $5. It would have been free, had it actually had the mail-in rebate promised by the advertisement in the newspaper. I was highly insulted, but since it was only a $5 loss, I put up with it. I usually get angry about stuff like that, though..

I'm trying a new shareware journal program to see if I like it. Maybe I will, maybe not. So far, it's pretty nice. Very similar to MS Word, but less intrusive. I like the way you can look at past journal entries as well as save other work in a notebook area. It's awesome so far. We'll see how long I like it, though.

C'est tout!

Love, Rosie

July 14, 2000

Okay, maybe Leo didn't pronounce ai no tenba as well as I thought he had the first time I heard it..I won't even say what it sounded like the second time because it's not really very good. I did record the clip of him doing it, though, so I'll probably put it up on the site next time I update. Then you can hear for yourself *blush*

I'm doing this project I hate because my parents are forcing me to and they can't understand why I dislike it so much. I guess they've forgotten why building websites is so important to me. Every page is from my heart and soul. Anything I do with my free time must come from there. I can't toss away my dreams for something stupid. Even if it's not stupid. Even if I get fame, fortune, and whatnot. What is it worth if I don't enjoy what I'm doing?

I feel a quote coming on - my favorite of all time:
"The mind is its own place, and in itself
Can make a Heav'n of Hell, a Hell of Heav'n.
What matter where, if I be still the same,
And what I should be, all but less than hee
Whom Thunder hath made greater? Here at last
We shall be free; th'Almighty hath not built
Here too his envy, will not drive us hence:
Here we may reign secure, and in my choice
To reign is worth ambition though in Hell:
Better to reign in Hell, than serve in Heav'n."
          -John Milton, Paradise Lost

I found my 1998 SCVA honor choir tape on the table, as well as my tape copy of "A Few Small Repairs," Shawn Colvin's album. I wonder why I never received a 1999 SCVA honor choir tape? I want it.. *L* Those meanies..oh well. I'll ask someone else later (Sally or Andrea) if they ever received their tapes, and if they did, I'll just dupe theirs, since I was supposed to be sent a copy. Hrrumph. Or maybe I'll call Stephanie from Redlands East Valley and see if she ever received her tape..^_^

[RN - I just have bad memory. I found that tape on the table the next day (?)]

Since tomorrow I really do need to wake up, now I shall go to sleep. Ja ne!

Love, Rosie
"ai no tenba"..hehe - your resident "flying horse of love"

July 21, 2000

I've been talking with a friend I went to elementary school with a lot in the last few days. I think I've missed her a lot more than I ever allowed myself to believe - she's the one person who's actually a little like me that I've been around..I'm having a lot of fun just typing my brains out. ^_^

We fixed the camcorder so I'm going to call in to the Screen Savers next week. Next Thursday is DMV day, so I'll have to do a quick study for that. Otherwise, all is well here.

Love, Rosie-chan

July 23, 2000

I'm almost finished with the new diaries site. It's going to be at this site - the flash presentation I did is sort of neat. I'm really proud of myself. Hope you all like it!

My day was quite uneventful. I chatted a bunch and sent in an audition for another VA role, even though I'm more hoping for a part as an extra. I don't really need another large part! *groan* Not that I don't like important parts, but only one at a time..really..I do have a life! *g*

Love, Rosie

July 28, 2000

Ooohhhhhh!! I get SO mad..

I am perfectly capable of opening a computer case. I am not afraid of a screwdriver. I am not afraid of lots of microcircuitry flying out from inside and eating me alive. Although I didn't do it all by myself (a certain someone wouldn't even let me try), I did help in building my own computer. Every time I swap cards or drives in and out, I do it myself. I'm as good as most other people my age. I don't need to be treated differently because I'm a sixteen year old female. Trust me, I'll shout if I don't know what you're talking about. You don't need to water it down, baby me, treat me like an insufficient being because I'm a teenage girl.

I didn't have the highest grade in my APCS class for nothing. I don't choose my own computer components for nothing. I don't help get rid of viruses, help fix other people's HTML and JavaScript, or sit around learning C and Perl for nothing. Well, excuse me, I can be just as good as anybody else. I don't need it to be dumbed down.

I'm not permenantly mad. I'm ticked because people fall into society's trap regarding girls in science. No wonder so many women turn to the liberal arts! Women can earn respect and are equals in liberal arts. In science? I guess teenage girls can only be second rate.

C'est tout.

Rosie

July 29, 2000

I have but one thing to say, early this Saturday morning. I was wandering around grumpily when I came to a conclusion of sorts.

The soul is a candle of sorts. A single glimmer in a sea of darkness, it stands alone, despite the bitter wind and fierce cold. When all seems to be lost, the faintest spark still remains - the spark of hope. As long as the tiny sparks of hope remain, meaning still exists. However, if the faint glimmer of hope is lost, it may take quite a bit to relight the candle.

Sometimes I feel all my hope is gone, though I know it never is so. In my dreams, though, I sometimes see the candle, protected by a strong light. The light cannot prevent attacks by the cold and wind, but it can protect that tiny glimmer of hope, keeping it alive. That glimmer, and the glimmers of all people, are vital to advancement. Without hope, one can never succeed.

After reading yesterday's entry, do you now understand why I wish to change the world? My hopes and dreams are stronger than ever, and I fully plan to implement them when the time is right. I just hope it's not too late..

Love, Rosie

P.S. I know I shouldn't be so hotheaded towards people that mean me no harm..I just am very sensitive. Especially since I know I need to be three times as good, in a lot of cases, to be considered merely equal.

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