Tales from the Heart


by:

"AnjelStar"


Copyright 1999



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Poem vs. Tree


"I think that I shall never see
A poem as lovely as a tree..."
It's not that I don't think it'd be
As poignant as a Hickory


But I think, visually, to compare,
A poem shouldn't, wouldn't dare
To catch a Yew in a worded snare
Or give a Maple a spelling scare


'Tis true a poem written 'tis naught but flat
Fake as the smile of THE Cheshire cat
Upon the Oak's large branches sat
Wondering perhaps where Alice is at


1D, 2D, 3D, 4
Its dimensions, they make me snore
But in this petty rhyming lore
I'm sure I'll mention it, I did before


So when someone tells you it cannot be
Think "Poem", think "Birch" and then you'll agree
That "I think that I shall never see
A poem as lovely as a tree..."
8/8/01




Blue



I look into the morning sky as the sun stretches it rays around
A gentle wind blows my hair and ruffles the grass on the ground
First a gentle purple pours into my sight like wine
Then a bit of orange and pink causes shivers to travel down my spine
The blues -- so many hues -- cause my eyes to glow
With their radiant softness they cause the plants to grow
And why do these hues -- so many blues -- cause me to smile
It's because of them that I see you across a thousand miles
Your warm smile, your gentle grin are like the sun's rays
Your tight hug, the feel of your hand touching me in so many ways
Then I look into your eyes, eyes so very blue
All these things make me realize why I think of you




Sweet Dreams...

When you close your eyes tonight
Remember to think of me
When you place your hand against your sheets
With your hands I hope you'll see
The warmth that I do feel for you
Seems to grow within my heart
Dream of me, I hope you'll do
Then we'll never be apart
A winter breeze sails across the land
It awaits the sign from Nature to allow the Springtime in
The sun rises and it falls for many days
Until one day the birds return, the winter did not win
I sit in my room watching the rays of the sun
They dance across my window sill
I smile and close my eyes at the warmth
It's going to be a beautiful day, I know it will
Then I think of something that has been on my mind
It has to do with skin and flesh
Palms touch, fingers lace, the hands reach out and find
A smaller pair, a larger pair, the fingers to entwine
Warmth mingle with warmth
Soul touches soul in hopes to find some sign
A sign that maybe one day they will meet again
Around the nearest bend
Beneath the stars in heaven
Fingers laced cause pulses to race, a feeling to defend
Two different hands, two separate hands
Create a being: One
Though time seems to be passing so very fast
And we are aging in body and mind
Don't forget that our love will last
Even though our days can make us feel so far behind.
I'll hold your hand through thick and thin
Including all those days of frustration.
I'll hold your heart and soul deep within
Until they reach maturation.
Neither of us may feel like ourselves some days
But I just wanted to make sure that you see
That I'll love you in so many ways
Forever and for all eternity.
10/9/97



My Birthday Wish

There is only one thing that I have deep in my heart
One thing that goes beyond hope and desire
There is a secret hidden down deep in my heart
That is more than a craving or a burning fire
This wish has more power than the fiercest of kings
This wish is more valuable than gems, silver, or gold
My wish is more dear than diamonds rings
Or wonderful heirlooms from times untold
No amount of money can buy it
It is priceless beyond belief
It cannot be earned by those who would quit
Trying to find the magic of its relief
This treasure, this find, this magical gift
That cannot be heard or seen
Is something that will give my soul a life
And make me feel like the most noble of queens
My wish, my love, can only be
Something that only you have to give
This secret found deep inside of me
Will give my soul a reason to live
It's your everlasting love I wish to keep
Against my breast at night
And in return for this love so deep
I'll love you with all my might



Smile

Look into my eyes, my friend
And deep within you will see
All the warmth within me
It is a warmth that I share with you
From my soul and heart
And from this kindling a fire will start
A fire that you've caused within me
Because of who you are
A life-force as bright as a star
I have stars in my eyes sometimes
These eyes express deep emotion
And in them I hope you feel the devotion
The devotion that I have for you
I also feel myself needing
To stop your heart and soul from bleeding
I don't feel burdened by this need
I want to give you something
I want to give you anything
That will make you smile
11/4/97



Untitled

Though Time may be running out for us
I just wanted you to know
That I will carry your heart with me
And everywhere I go
Your friendship does mean more to me
Than all the wealth there is
And I will continue to feel this way
It will always be you I miss
So I will keep my hope alive
And I will look into the skies of blue
Just always remember
That I will always love you...
11/16/97



I Love You

When you look at me with that softness in your golden eyes
When I feel a soft caress against my flesh with those eyes
I feel something wonderful building inside of me
Those three little words that hold so much power
Those three little words that seem to bloom within me like a flower
I want to say those words to you
To hold you in my arms forever
When you touch my cheeks with your soft hands When you caress my face with those gentle hands
A shivering, a quivering sensation travels up my spine
Fairies and pixies dance around inside of me
With those butterflies fluttering
I want to say those words to you
I want to show you how much you mean to me
But there's this lump in my throat
A lump caused by these intense emotions
These intense feelings seem to want to choke those words in my throat
So I look at you longingly
I look at you softly
I smile at you lovingly
I smile at you gently
I hold your hand, I kiss it, I trace it with my fingers
I feel your hair, your soft, flowing tresses of gold, fire and velvet
I let my heart swell with that feeling of wanting
Wanting to say those three little words
And this feeling builds within me until they can no longer be contained
And that is when I look into your eyes
That is when I pull you close
That is when I whisper those three little words:
"I Love You"
11/18/97



Dreaming...



Sounds swirl around and images dance in and out of time
where space and limits have no meaning
Reality seems to weave in and out of a blanket of Technicolor thoughts
and rhythmic pulsations of my cerebral impulses
Unreality moves as swiftly as a stream as it winds its way around
over rocks and through majestic trees of green
Images as clear as a gentle storm washing over window panes dance in front of my eyes
Images as blurry as vision when tears drown out sight
stumble and trip through my mind
There always seems to be a constant, a presence of strength
causing butterflies to flutter above, over, and through me
That presence can appear as fast as millions of glimmering pixels
flashing into the conscious
Or that presence can be a feeling, like someone watching
and waiting
Visualizing is not a problem, but this ghostly apparition can move
like a phantom in the night, a cat in the jungle
When it is near, how safe I feel
When its far away, I feel a loss so deep
But this is only a dream...
Only a dream...
Fire dances in front of my eyes, the universe shining inside of them
like a tiny cosmos of mystery
Comfort surrounds me like a warm blanket, like strong arms
A swirling mass of whiteness covers the world in glittering diamonds
The smell of wood is so strong in the air
It is as tangible as having Nature running through your veins like a stream
It is like roots wrapping themselves around rocks and soil to anchor
Stability...
Quiet...
Peacefulness...
A fragrance wafts in my nostrils
a scent like heaven
a scent like Nature
a scent as sweet as honey
a scent that is as soft and as warm as a teddy bear
A gentle caress moves past my ear, past my neck, past all that is me
to reach deep inside of me for my soul
I want to feel more but sleep is wrestled from me again
It was a dream...
It was only a dream...
Purity is something so hard to maintain
The pain of keeping the pureness, the virginal whiteness of something
can be unbearable
But its not a physical hurt nor is it a mental hurt
'Tis a hurt of frustration
of wanting to spend the leisure time
of wanting to spend the day basking in the sun
Love is as pure as having faith in a higher being:
it must be believed
it must be cherished
it must be constantly maintained in order for it to keep its purity
When love is near, grab onto it with both hands
Feel the soft skin, the creamy skin wash over your fingers as smooth as molasses
Hunger for the taste...
Caress...
Kiss..
But is this a passing thought in my head
Is this a reality
Or am I just...
Dreaming...
11/19/97




Forever

Light rays bouncing off of diamonds going in all directions
stretching out to reach for nothing
travelling forever into infinite space
Stars in the heavens glowing ethereally in the cosmos
a constant beacon
eternally twinkling
Time moves backward and it moves forward
it never ends
it never begins
So many things have an infinite quality about them
the constancy of time
the deepness of space
the unwavering light
True friendships
are constant
are deep
are unwavering
The purity of Love
is unwavering
is deep
is constant
That is how I see these things that we share
friendship
love
Forever...
11/20/97



A Short Poem

I'm glad that you're in my life as well
And I'd gladly go through Heaven or Hell
Only just to let you know
How very much I love you so.
11/20/97



Look at Me

Eyes of the Golden One...
they reflect the colors of the rainbow
colors ebb and tide like waves against the sand
meanings change and metamorphosis
The sun rises in your eyes
glowing like the morning dawn
weaving a magical spell on blooming flowers
wrapping warmth around all of Nature
Clouds can gather in your eyes
they become bright with electric fire
they flash green like shocking lightening
they zap the strength from your being
An eclipse can pass through your eyes
two black orbs that can reach into your very soul
two shiny onyx to gaze at in their beauty
two universes swirling in all their mystery
To look at me the way that you do
causes me to shiver
causes me to quiver
causes me to quake
causes me to shake
The warmth in your eyes wraps itself around me
around my heart
around my soul
around all that I am
Sometimes a single look can reach far
into my mind
into my body
into my spirit
The depth of your feelings for me are reflected in those golden eyes
she never cries
No words are necessary
thoughts aren't too scary
No words need to be spoken
silence isn't broken
When the words won't come to you
refuse to come to you
Do not fear a misunderstanding
Because it is quite simple to see
That all you need to do is
Look at me...
11/21/97



Rainy Days

Rain drops fall from skies filled with clouds of gray
Clouds of black
Thick clouds of watery moisture
Splattering against the window panes
Streaking across the glass
Sliding smoothly over surfaces
Goes the rain
Down it comes
Drip, drop, splash
Children running in the street
Filled with laughter
Filled with fun
Splashing in the muddy puddles
Wet puddles
Deep puddles
Many different types of rain
Flowing steadily
Falling fastly
Moving swiftly
Crashing heavily
Floating softly
Look up into the skies
Feel how refreshing
Let it revitalize your being
Comfort in front of fire
Warm feelings wrap you in a fluffy blanket
Friends keeping you company
Feelings of fluffiness and peacefulness
Like chocolate, an aphrodisiac
Like ice cream, a soother
A good home-cooked meal by yourself or with a loved one...
All these are good...
Especially on rainy days...
11/21/97



In the Dark...

Some people love the dark
It allows them to hide from everyone
from the world
from themselves
But there are times when I hate the dark
Threatening shadows dance in contorted shapes on my wall
cavorting like demons in front of a black fire
twisting and turning as if in pain
Evil shapes move in and out of cracks and crevices
creeping up on me
inching towards my bed with evil intent
I pull the covers up to my chin
to my nose
to my eyes
to my forehead
I hide from the dark
I fear the dark
I pray for a guardian angel to protect me from icy hands of evil
deadly hands of evil
choking hands of evil
groping hands of evil
I close my eyes tightly
are those shapes moving?
are those shapes coming for me?
Oh, let the welcoming release of sleep take me from this evil the evil surrounding me
the evil stalking me
Let dreamless sleep overtake me
Let the demons be held at bay
Or let dreams come to me that are full of excitement
full of adventure
full of light
Only...
I hope that it isn't in the dark...
11/21/97



Crying

I just wanted to let you know that I was crying...
I was crying this morning as I put my boots on in your room...
I was wiping the tears from my eyes when we were standing in the hallway...
I cried on the long walk back to my room...
I cried for 10 minutes once I entered my room...
It wasn't pretty...
Why was I crying?
Because I did something stupid before I left...
I hurt you...
I honestly didn't mean to hurt you, but I did...
I cried because I promised you that I would never hurt you...
And I have...
You probably hate me now... I wouldn't blame you...
All I ask is for your forgiveness...
Your forgiveness and a chance to make it up to you...
I can't describe to you the feelings and sensations that ripped through me when it happened...
I felt as though I weren't any different from any of those others...
Those others that hurt you...
I felt and still feel like a complete failure...
I felt and still feel like I've ruined things...
Have I?
I left something on top of your clock...
That little gold "puppet"...
There was a message inside that I hope you read...
It said:
"I love you. Don't you forget it."
I meant, and still mean every word of that...
Please forgive me...
Please...
I know that what I did is probably unforgivable...
And I wouldn't blame you if you never talked to me again...
But please...
Don't give up on me...
I'm not giving up on you...
"I love you"
12/17/97



Touch Me

A gentle wind gently ruffling my hair
A springtime kiss brushing softly against my cheek
Wrap your arms around me
Be my blanket during the storms
Warm me outside and inside
Do you truly see what it is that you do to me?
Can you comprehend the intensity of it all?
It cannot harm me
Because I long for it always
Your touch has become my oasis
A paradise away from the harsh desert
Let me feel your hand against my cheek
Caress me
Hold me
Your eyes also touch me in so many ways
My eyes lock onto your loving gaze
Your intense gaze
They travel over my body
Two explorers digging deep
To perhaps find a hidden treasure?
Words may never be able to express what it is that I feel
Something wonderful
Something special
Touch me in all the ways that you can
Never stop
For it is my heart that is touched greatness
Not by a physical touch
Or a touch that is seen
It is a bonding touch
Two souls joining as one...
2/3/98



Remember Me

When the night is cold
When the sky is black
Stars cannot shine and the moon is hidden
When your heart feels as though it cannot continue beating
Remember deep, brown eyes
Remember a soft warm smiler> Remember that look that melts your heart When memories cut your heart to ribbons
When thoughts of old threaten to wither your mind and soul
Things of which you have no control overwhelm you
Remember gentle laughter
Remember softly spoken words of love
Remember a touch so soft as to be bittersweet
Nightmares surround you
They cut off your breath
They strangle your words
But outside your mind there is a place in which you can turn
A presence full of love for you
A presence of peace for you
Turn to that presence and take comfort
That presence is me
In your heart your will find
A piece the size of a nugget of gold
In your heart beats the warmth
The safety of the love I offered you
Close your eyes when the world threatens
Plug your ears when the world suffocates
Place your hands over your chest and remember
Those eyes, that smile, that laughter
Those words, that touch, that presence
That valuable nugget of pureness, that warmth, that safety
Remember me...
3/15/98



Have Patience

Fears and insecurities grow inside of me
Scratching inside of my brain
An itch so fearsome that I cringe inside
I can no longer hide the pain
These fears are my unnamed demons
They skulk in and out of cobwebbed crevices and cracks
Bidding their time
Planning their attack
Each carries a brick, a stone, a slab of concrete
As the fears grow stronger
They turn to a barrier so familiar and ancient
Their control is hindered no longer
More bricks are erected
More stones are laid in place
More slabs of concrete are poured
A rocky foundation is the base
Looking down from above causes the world to spin
That wall towers high
The height is dizzying
A darkening occurs at great distances in the sky
And now unknown demons are haunting me
They pursue my every thought
I grow unsure of myself as every second passes
My stomach ties itself in a fearful knot
Wanting to turn to you
Wanting to collapse into your embrace
Wanting to cry out all of my tears and frustrations
Wanting to see the love and understanding shining in your face
But those demons inside of me clutch at my feeble mind
They cause my insecurities to grow
They desperately try to reign in my heart
Why are they doing this? I don't know
My loving heart
My needing heart
The heart that desires to hear your words of comfort
Is being torn apart
The frustration in you increased
As I pulled farther and farther away
My mind and heart were blocked to you
I left you with no reason to stay
I could feel the tension
Cutting inside of me and wounding me deep
As tangible as my heart beating fiercely
My heart began to flounder as the demons tried to make it sleep
The wall must crumble
The wall must come down
The wall must disappear
I don't want to drown
Pushing you away is not an option
Pulling you close is a need
Having you walk beside me is what I want
Let me plant this seed
What to do?
What should I do?
What can I do?
What will I do?
All I know is that I am trying
I am trying to deconstruct that barrier
It is difficult for me
As the unknown becomes scarier
At times, I look to the heavens
Pleading for help from Him
I can feel something inside of me
The pain inside me dims
I pray to myself
I close my eyes pleading
I open my heart to Him
Needing...
And when I open my eyes
I hope to find you there
As I try my hardest to tear the wall down
And show you how much I care
So if you would please
For me, in a sense
Don't shut me out
Have patience
4/2/98



Feral Eyes

Wanton is my gaze as it stares at you
The desire smoldering deep within my soul The heated breath of my lungs escapes
Brushing against the fullness of my lips
I gaze into those strong eyes
The depth of them I know not
Are they a gateway to your soul?
A chance to get beneath your skin?
Long brows furrow over dark eyes
Constantly those eyes change
Looking at me the way that you want to
I can be molded like heated metal
All you have to do is look at me
The way that you look at me
Not just any look for the passer-by
But a look of ferocity
A primal beating pounds against my chest
My heart keeping the rhythm of my breath
Huge pupils stare at me from the dark
Caressing me with heated passions
Do you want me?
My own dark eyes challenge you
Make your move if you dare
The devil in me daring you with all that is in me
A tiger's eyes, a panther's eyes
A beast of the wild jungle lurks near
Muscles bunched in readiness
The huntress stalks her prey.
I long for you to pounce on me
Let your eyes rip my clothing from my ebony flesh
Use your strong hands to hold me down
Make me submit to you
Those eyes, I am hypnotized
Pupils large and dark and deep
I can see the wild animal within those eyes
A low growl emanates from you, or was it me?
I feel wicked beneath that intense stare
I feel desired beyond compare
I feel sleek and sexy
A meal for your hungry appetite
Let your feral eyes feast upon me
Touch my burning flesh with them
Turn your hunger on me
Let your muscles ripple against mine
That look you turn on me
Turns me on beyond measure
I do not know why
It just does
I feel the power emanating from them
I want to feel that power moving against me
Moving within me
Taking possession of my soul
Gaze at me hungrily with those feral eyes
Let them lick down my glistening flesh
Let them caress my body
Tasting me
Stalk me
Chase me
Overpower me
Ravage me
Let those feral eyes burn into me
Imprint upon me
Brand me
Make me yours
My heart beats fiercely for you
Let those eyes change from garnet
Let them change to golden amber
Let them go gray like storm-tossed seas
or yellow like the sun
Your soul is in those feral eyes
Let me feel a piece of it
Let it tear down my defenses
Let it eat me alive
I watch your jaw muscles tighten
I see your eyes liquefy before me
You want me?
I hope you do
Feast upon me
Sate your hunger with me
Quench your thirst in me
Let me melt around you
Release my primal being
Devour me with your chameleon eyes
Gorge yourself on my desire for you
Let my soul fill you
Feral are our desires for one another
Feral are our souls
Feral are our hearts
I love your feral eyes
9/6/98



Bed of Roses

Take my hand and come with me
Let your guard down and be safe and warm
Warmth from my hand
Infuses into every fiber of your being
Imagine a silkiness if you would
Petal softness against your skin
A fragrant intoxication of love
It causes your sense to reel
With its poignancy
Lay down with me
So that you may feel me brushing against you
Red silk swirling around you
Caressing you
White silk bringing you to a heightened sensitivity
Luminescent silk...
Feel it moving against you
Let the scent infiltrate you
May my love heal your soul
Lose yourself
In our bed of roses...
11/19/98






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