I had to shut off the State of Union Address because President Bush was scaring me.
I hate hearing about how there are thousands of trained terrorists on the loose all over the place. And that they are ready to strike anywhere.
It freaks me out. I already freak out whenever I hear sirens and airplanes.
Maybe I won't go to LA in May.
Damn. I'm hungry. I didn't eat dinner. I got home too late. I was told by a doctor that eating after 8:00 PM is not a good thing.
That's probably because my mom called me FAT.
I'll never eat again.
I wonder how long I can starve myself.
Oh so what was I going to rant about? Ah yes...
I take the Staten Island Ferry everyday to and from Manhattan. When the ferry pulls into Manhattan there are two subway stops we all walk to. You can walk up a couple of blocks to the Bowling Green station to catch the 4 or the 5, OR you can go to the Whitehall Station which is right outside the ferry terminal. I go to Whitehall to take the N or the R (which ever comes first). Anywho, when you are walking up to the station the entrance is to the right. So why would someone who's not going to the Whitehall Station walk over to the right? HMM??!?!?! People are so stupid. AND why do people always wait until they get to the turnstile before they try to find their Metrocards? AHHHHH!
So annoying.
My hair's long enough to wear in a ponytail again. It's time to chop it off.
When I was walking out of work to the subway I saw a giant "Queer As Folk" billboard on the corner of 49th Street and 7th Avenue. What a nice sight to see. A giant picture of Gale Harold. I can't believe I never noticed it before.
The weather in New York was unbelievable today. It was so nice I actually left my desk to go outside and enjoy it!
Of course, it will probably snow on Monday but hey it was nice while it lasted.
Work was okay today. It was very strange how much better it was today then yesterday.
Wait, that sentence isn't right.
Ah who cares.
Okay I have someone picking me up early in the morning. I best be going to bed semi early.
Adios.
StaceJanuary 29th 2002
I cannot believe how hot it was here today. Is it January or is it May?
We were all dying here today. The office was stifling.
It's not normal to be fanning yourself in January. Usually we are all freezing our asses off in here.
My manicure is finally peeling away.
I think I may get another one.
I went to Banana Republic and bought a sweater coat for $40. It was originally $178! How great is that?
Tonight's Tuesday...what the hell is on? Ooo Scrubs! I love that show. I am actually supporting my own network.
I hate being here this late. EVERYONE is gone. It's the cleaning lady and me, alone.
My roommate made me take a vitamin today and it made me nauseous. I am not used to taking them. Gee I wonder why I got so sick earlier this month!?
I gotta go home and relax. Maybe I'll write more. Oh yes I will! I have something to rant about! I was so busy at work I completely forgot about it.
StaceJanuary 28th 2002
There's a girl at work who really pissed me off the other day.
Everyone knows I watch "Queer as Folk", it's no secret. Even my poor father accidentally walked in while I was watching it. I wish I had a camera because the look on his face was priceless. Anyway, this idiot at my job was talking about how disgusting the show is and how all of the actors have to be gay because they kiss someone who's the same sex. Um, douche bag it's called acting. Yes, they are really kissing but they're not really having sex. I understand if "Queer as Folk" is not your cup of tea but to say something that stupid about a show you've never watched is really dumb. She went on to say how she almost shut "Sex and the City" off because they showed snippets of gay porn. OH MY GOD! It's gay porn! RUN!!!
Jackass.
People need to accept the fact that homosexuality has been around since well ancient times. My Greek and Roman male ancestors were fucking little boys.
Wow was that blunt or what?!
So did everyone have a nice weekend?
I went to my parent's house. I missed my cat. She's so cute.
Work was crazy today! I had a massive stress headache by 4:00. My poor left eye was throbbing.
Can you believe the weather here in New York? It's crazy! I'm surprised people weren't wearing shorts.
We had to submit our "review" forms at work. I had to tell my manager how great I think I am. This year I praised my work, last year I didn't. What a switch! I never think I am good at anything but I think I performed pretty well under the circumstances of the last year. I went from doing nothing to having the busiest desk.
Sure I get stressed out and want to kill people but I am good at my job. I just wish I wanted to be a salesperson so I don't have to be an assistant anymore. But I have no desire to be a salesperson.
I still don't know what I want to do when I grow up.
I just want to be happy in whatever career I end up pursuing.
I downloaded a whole bunch of music off the Internet this weekend. Most of it's dance music that I've heard on Queer as Folk or stuff that I hear on the radio but I am too lazy to buy the whole CD.
My mom called me fat on Friday. That pissed me off.
I am still not back to normal. The mystery illness hasn't left completely and I still find it hard to walk fast in the morning. How am I supposed to work out if I get winded so easily?! Stupid lungs.
Damn it. I think I need to go out and get that "Trim Spa" stuff that Howard Stern is always talking about.
Speaking of Howard, he nearly made me pee in my pants on Friday morning. My coworker and I were dying. He was soooo funny.
They were making fun of John Walker's dad. I was crying from laughing so hard.
My boss was laughing at me.
I love when I laugh like that in the morning because it makes the rest of the day better.
So I wore my "covers my ass" shirt today because my mom said I was fat. To everyone else I look like I always look but my mom always knows when I gain 10 pounds. It's so annoying.
The great thing about my giant frame is that I can gain 20 lbs and no one (besides my mom) notices. The downside of my giant frame is that I am built like a football player.
Okay not a football player, a lacrosse player, which is funny because I played Lacrosse in high school. Well, maybe played isn't the right word.
It's the end of January. I need to lose 20 lbs by the end of May for my LA trip. I am visiting a good friend from college out there and he's going to get me a man out there to play with! Yeehaw! Nothing like hooking up with a guy you'll never see again.
Wait I've never done that before!
Cool.
Oh wait, hello! Yes I did. But that was college.
Is everyone excited about the Super Bowl? I'm not. I could care less. I am just glad that the Steelers lost because I am still a bitter bitch after 5 years.
Hee.
God I love this song. 'Filthy Mind' by Amanda Ghost.
I brought my keyboard from home. My parents' got it for me Christmas 1984 and it still works. I love it. It relaxes me when I play it.
"And I'm drowning so come inside, welcome to my filthy mind...." Awesome.
I need a CD burner, badly. I need to make CD's for work. Stuff to pump me up so I am not always pissy.
Yeah like that's possible.
One of the people I work for brought his daughter in this afternoon for a little while. She is sooo friggin cute. She drew me a picture and I hung it up in my cubicle. I felt so loved until she made other pictures for other people. HA!
Just kidding.
Sometimes I get depressed when I think of how far away I am from having kids.
My brother actually misses me. He told me this weekend. I was like, "Aw..." My baby brother who will turn 24 in April. God that is soooo scary.
All of my Yankee shirts are shrinking....unfortunately some of the people I have are no longer on the team. Sniff sniff.
Wow, when I think back to four years ago I have to laugh. I was getting ready to (finally) graduate college. I was still working at the pizza place. I was involved in an almost scandalous "affair". Good times. I miss them.
No I didn't almost sleep with my professor.
Yuck. I didn't have any attractive professors. Wait, nope.
I would love to go back for a weekend.
Aw. I made my first website four years ago.
It was so funny. They didn't teach us html. We used an apple program. I think I put Yankee stuff on there and other crap. I didn't write though.
I should have written stuff about school. I had a lot of funny experiences.
And a lot of humiliating experiences.
Everyone does in college.
Many high moments, many drunk moments, happy moments, sad moments, angry moments.
You can even see pictures of me and some of my friends.
Those pictures are from 6 years ago.
Jesus SIX YEARS!!!!????
I'm depressed.
I'm going to bed.
Wow I was really all over the place wasn't I?
StaceJanuary 25th 2002
So other countries are complaining that we are not treating the Taliban/Al Qaeda prisoners "humanely"? If I were President they'd all be dead already. How about that?
And John Walker loves America?
Uh huh.
And Enron? Wow. I am so glad I don't work for them.
I am at my parent's house this weekend. I gave in. I cave so easily. Christ.
So work was a lot better this week. I am caught up on a lot of my stuff so I am less stressed. Thank goodness. I was about to have a Mariah Carey.
Speaking of the tacky whore, I think she needs to take a leave of absence, re-think her image and then attempt a comeback.
Go away! You have $50 million dollars. Take a vacation.
I used to like Mariah Carey. I love her first album. Some of the stuff on there is so great. Listen to "Vanishing" it's one of the best songs on her debut.
Spring training is a month away!!!
Yippee!!! I am sooooo excited for baseball season.
My boys...sigh...well they're still my boys even though a bunch of them are gone.
*insert sad face*
I love my brother's computer. It rocks. It's fast and new and I love it. I wish I could steal it.
Just kidding.
I'll be back later.
To be continued January 20th 2002
So I was checking up on my web site tonight just to see what pages are being viewed and whatnot.
Yahoo Geocities has this great feature that basically tells you how people are getting to your site. A lot of people use Google.com, which is a pretty cool search engine. A guy typed in Cal Ripken one time and my rant page came up because I mentioned him. Others are coming from other web sites that are either linked to mine or maybe someone told them about mine.
So I went into this page's statistics and was frightened to see that 13.05% of the people that visit my rants page are from a private forum run by people I had a run in with last year.
I'm sure they are having loads of fun making fun of me when I have no chance of defending myself.
GET A LIFE.
Seriously.
Okay so the dresser is built but my roommate's boyfriend has to finish the drawers tomorrow. It was getting too late for him to hammer in the nails. We didn't want to wake the neighbors.
It's a lot bigger than I thought it was. But I did see it in a huge ass warehouse and not in a 10' x 12' room.
So it actually snowed here. I cannot believe that the weather people were right.
I made dinner again tonight. Nothing fancy just spaghetti. We are running out of food.
Man it's cold in here tonight. Thank God I bought that down comforter.
I am being a good girl and going into work on Monday even though it's a holiday.
Being out sick for nearly a week made it impossible to catch up on my work with everyone giving me stuff every five seconds. So I volunteered for the skeletion crew. Hopefully I can get everything done that I couldn't get done this past week.
By the way, I am 100% better now. Whatever that ailment was disappeared completely.
It was very odd.
I am so itchy! It sucks being allergic to the cold.
Listen to this, I'm at work on Friday morning and my phone rings. I have caller ID (thank GOD) and I kinda recognized the number so I picked it up.
It's my dad who asks, "Who won the Super Bowl MVP three times?" So I answered Joe Montana. I don't know if it's right but it sounded good to me. Then he asks me, "Why aren't you coming home this weekend?" So I explain that I have stuff to do blah blah blah. We shoot the shit for a couple of minutes and we hang up.
Then I get back from lunch and my phone rings, this time it's my parent's home number. So I pick up and my mom is all depressed sounding which is so unlike her. She says, "Why aren't you coming home this weekend?" I explain that I have stuff to do and she says, "Okay well maybe I'll come down tomorrow." HUH?!
I should move out more often!
She made me feel so guilty about not going home this weekend. I mainly did it because I volunteered for work on Monday. I also did it because I am sick of having to go home to see my friends. I live in Staten Island, not California. And it pisses me off that no one has come to see me. I'm not bitter or anything.
I probably won't go home for a while because I am stubborn. If they want to see me, they can come here and venture out of our hometown and our county.
Wow I feel a lot better.
And did anyone call me while I was sick?
No.
Still not bitter.
On Wednesday I decided to get my eyebrows waxed and while I was there the woman talked me into getting a manicure. I felt so girly! Until today when I broke one of my manicured nails. I was so pissed! I am missing the top right corner of my left thumbnail! I could cut someone with this thing.
My first manicure in six months and the only one I've ever gotten just because is ruined!!!
I hate being a woman sometimes.
But at least I don't hate my uterus this week.
So what are you guys discussing? I have to go back to my previous rants to see what the hell is so fascinating.
I'll try to keep you entertained as best as I can.
I still need pictures for my walls. No posters, unless they're framed. And I will keep it to a minimum. I don't want my walls to be cluttered.
A bunch of friends of mine from college are planning a weekend for us to get together and hang out. That should be a lot of fun. Although I find it strange that the girl who introduced me to this group of people isn't invited but I am.
We are trying to figure out where to meet. We are scattered across the Northeast. I don't care where we meet, as long as I get to be drunk and silly for a weekend I'll be happy.
Sometimes I miss college so much. Like when I am stressed out at work and want to kill someone I think back to college and how I worked at a pizza place and served pizza and chicken wings to drunk people. That was so much fun.
I miss Oswego.
I really do.
Aw now I'm all sad. It's time to look at pictures.
Goodnight.
Stace
P.S. Man this rant sucks. Can you tell I'm tired? I promise the next one will be better.
January 13th 2002
I hate my uterus.
It's irritating me today.
Guys have it so easy. They claim they understand how it feels to have cramps. Yeah right! No you don't. You won't ever know.
Okay so yesterday was a banner day in the life of Stacey. I cooked my first meal last night. I know it's hard to believe that I cooked my first meal at 27 but I just moved out of my house. I have cooked before but nothing more than spaghetti and meat sauce, or just mashed potatoes. Last night I cooked a London Broil and it came out great! My roommate's boyfriend, who is a bit of a picky eater loved it. I felt so great about myself.
So I am marriage material. I can cook a whole meal!
I didn't think I could do it.
I made baked potatoes and snap peas along with the meat. It was good. I was so excited. I called up my dad and he was proud of me. My mom wasn't home but when she called back my roommate picked up and I heard her saying, "No it was really good. Your daughter can cook!"
So when I picked up the phone I was like, "Are you shocked?" My mom laughed and was like, "Yes!"
So I accomplished what I set out to do this weekend which was to rest and get better. I feel like myself again. I can breathe and I am not out of breath anymore! THANK GOD!!!
I am a little bummed because I couldn't go to see my boys from Queer As Folk on Friday. Well, I could have gone by myself but I didn't want to go alone. My best friend got sick and couldn't come into the city. Oh well. I had already seen them last year but I would have loved to have seen them again. Especially Gale....sigh. He's so sexy.
I am still hungry. I might just make myself spaghetti or something easy like that. Oooo or just a baked potato.
With broccoli and cheese!! YEAH! That sounds good.
I was just looking around my room and noticing that I have nothing on the walls. That is very rare. I ALWAYS have something on my walls. My cubicle at work is filled with people's pictures and other things. I just don't know what to put up on my dark pink walls.
I also have to put the dresser together soon. It's been here for almost two months! I just can't do it alone. I need help to do it. Once that's done, my room will be finished.
So I am planning a trip to Los Angeles at the end of May. I am so excited. I have never been out there. I am visiting a college friend and he said we'll have lots of fun.
Woo hoo!
I hope I meet some cute boys.
Okay I just hope I meet some boys. They don't have to be cute.
Just a pulse will be good at this point.
Pathetic I know.
Unfortunately 2001 didn't turn out the way I had hoped. Oh well. This year is still young. I still have time to get a boyfriend for my ten year reunion. *crossing my fingers*
Or just a date, without having to resort to a dating service.
The thing that's so sad about my situation is that I am not ugly. I'm not beautiful either but guys have found me attractive in the past.
I need to go out.
I need to hang out more after work...I have to find someone to hang out with.
People are either married or just not the "going out" type.
I also need to organize things in my room.
It's Sunday night, Sex and the City and Queer As Folk are on.
Some guys ask me how I can watch Queer as Folk and get turned on by watching two guys have sex. Well, let me explain the phenomenon. I don't necessarily get turned on by every pair of guys on the show who have sex. There's one guy in particular that I find to be the sexiest man on the planet. He plays the "slut" of the show. And he's a top. So he's always the one doing the fucking. So it's not hard to get turned on watching him, moaning and groaning, his stomach muscles contracting while he's doing the deed, sweat dripping down his face from his temples...Good lord. All a girl has to do is picture herself as the one he's "doing" and she'll get turned on. It's so very easy.
I got 3 people into the show. My best friend, a co worker and my roommate.
And yes they are all women.
In fact I have to tape it tonight for another coworker so she can watch the first two episodes of the season.
I shouln't say I have to tape it. I just tape it anyway so I can watch it whenever I want.
I love having my own TV and VCR and DVD player. I can watch whatever I want, whenever I want and not have to worry about anyone walking in and bothering me.
I have to plug my alarm clock back in before I go to bed tonight or I'll be waking up at 10.
I have already missed enough days.
I was watching MTV Cribs and I caught the tail end of Mariah Carey's segment. That woman's closet is bigger than my apartment!!! Jesus! I almost died. And that's not even counting her shoe room! Her closet looks like a store. I thought that's where they were at first. Then I figured it out and was like, "Holy shit!"
She's still an ass.
She only likes stillettos even though they kill her feet. Asshead.
I would probably fall on my ass if I wore high skinny heels like that.
Although I have to give her credit, her closet is color coordinated. That's pretty impressive. Wait...like she did it?! Please.
Am I am getting a fever?
If I ever saw Mariah Carey I would ask her about Derek Jr. I heard he's, um, well, he's healthy. Hee.
Jesus I am being frisky this weekend.
My roommate and I have those magnetic words for poetry on our fridge. We have two phrases, "Stroke his glorious sex piece" and "Observe the hard wood". HA!
She's just as bad as I am, but at least she's getting some.
Ooo the People's Choice Awards are on tonight. I forgot. Wait when are the Golden Globes on? Shouldn't I know that? Aren't they on my network?
I am so bad.
I never know when anything is on.
I was going to try and watch "That 80's Show" to see how much they screw up. No one ever gets the timelines right and that pisses me off.
If the show takes place in 1985 and they play a song that was released in 1987 I'll be pissed off because I hate stupid mistakes like that.
One of my biggest pet peeves is when radio deejays screw up a date. "That was David Bowie and Chinagirl from 1985." Uh no asshole try 1983.
My friend's brother called up a radio station because a deejay confused "Axel F" from Beverly Hills Cop with the Miami Vice theme.
She called me to tell me he did it because she knew I'd do the same thing.
Just over an hour until Queer As Folk. Yahoo!
And Sex and the City will be on in a few moments. I wonder if they'll have full frontal male nudity again!
I want to be as skinny as the girls on SATC. I figured once I moved out and starved myself I'd be skinny but instead I got sick and couldn't breathe. Der.
I want to be 135 again. I miss those days. I could wear anything and not have to worry about sucking anything in.
That's my goal. I want to be a size 8 by the time my ten year reunion rolls around in November. I have 10 months to drop 15 pounds. Yikes I just told you all how much I weigh.
Ah who cares. I don't look 150 and I am almost 5'10". I am a big chick.
Ooo they are showing gay porn on SATC. Hee.
Okay I gotta go.
StaceJanuary 9th 2002
My first day back at work sucked ass.
I need a new job badly.
If anyone knows of anything outside of sales, let me know.
PLEASE! I am begging you.
I cannot take it anymore. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.
Okay hissyfit over.
I am feeling better today. Thank God.
Well, no, I wish I was feeling worse because I don't want to go to work EVER AGAIN.
Okay sorry. That's the last outburst about work today.....
MOTHERFUCKERS!!!!!!
They know I was sick for almost a week, they know that I still felt crappy this morning but do they fucking care?! NO! They don't give a shit. God. I just don't understand people sometimes.
I got my Queer As Folk DVD's today. That made me happy, briefly but then I got pissed off again.
I was going to go to sleep when I got home but I wanted to watch some of the stuff on the DVD's. They have out takes that are pretty funny and the Season 2 preview trailer FUCKIN rocks!!!
They also have deleted scenes. One of them wasn't really deleted it was shortened for time, so they showed the "director's cut". Oh my Lord. It is my favorite sex in the entire first season and the director's cut shows, well, let's just say it shows a whole lot more, if you catch my drift. I was dying! And I had to watch it twice.
The spot where they took my blood gas test on Saturday is in a very bad place. It's my right wrist. And whenever I use a mouse I rub the spot and it hurts like a bitch!
Holy shit!!! "The Wild Life" is on VH1!!! I love cheesy 80's movies!
Okay I had to remove the QAF DVD's or else I would have stayed up all night watching them.
I cannot believe this movie is on!
Chris Penn is so funny in this movie.
Ugh Creed. Scott Stapp is so annoying. Who does he think he is? God? Good lord.
"My Sacrifice" sounds like "Higher" people. Why must you make the new album be number one??
Paul O'Neill is going to an analyst for the Yankees' new TV network.
Oooo!!! I want a job there!!!!!
Please God. I would do anything to work for the Yankees!!!!
Well, almost anything.
No, anything.
PLEASE!
"Oh, oh Sheila..." 80's music rules!
The shower curtain in our bathroom keeps falling down. It's a good thing we also have glass doors.
Stacey's going to be a good girl and attempt to go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Howie from the Backstreet Boys is such a tool. Why does MTV insist on showing his crib three times a week?
I have no desire to see 'Vanilla Sky'. I think the last Tom Cruise movie I saw in a theatre was "Jerry Maguire". I was still at school.
Holy shit! Cameron Crowe wrote this movie!? I had no idea.
And I'm talking about the "The Wild Life".
I really don't want to go to work tomorrow.
If I have another bad day I will quit on the spot.
And when I go for an interview I will say that my job was stressing me out so badly that it made me sick.
Okay it's after 10:00. I better get to bed.
Goodnight Kids,
StaceJanuary 6th 2002
So what did you guys do yesterday? I spent all day in the emergency room at St. Vincent's hospital in Staten Island. I have been, wait, no I am having trouble breathing lately. Yesterday my mom didn't like how I sounded so she came down to Staten Island and took me to the emergency room.
I was there for over 8 hours! They did all kinds of tests and everything came up negative. They are baffled.
There are two possibilities as to why I am getting easily winded. One, fatigue. Two, hyperactive airway which is brought on by breathing in the cold. It's fairly common or so they say.
I still feel like ass. If I feel crappy tomorrow I am not going to work again. I didn't go on Friday because I could hardly breathe.
They can survive without me. I am not risking my health and making myself worse for a job that pisses me off on a daily basis.
So I sat there for a little while before they did anything with me. But they did a blood gas test. Let me tell you, that hurt like a motherfucker! Normally they will take blood from a vein but for this test they take it from an artery. YIKES!!! It lasted five seconds but it hurt for like 5 hours! I was holding my arm when I went in for my chest X-ray and they guys were like, "I thought you were getting a chest X-ray." I explained to them that I had just had the blood gas test and they were like, "Oh okay."
I have to say the people at St. Vincent's were great. My nurse Don and my doctor Jenny kicked ass. They made feel comfortable and they were very caring.
So I had the blood gas test, a chest x-ray, a cat scan, and a VQ, scan. I had a busy day. I felt like a lab rat.
I don't know how the nurses and doctors work in an emergency room day in and day out. I give them credit.
After the blood gas test I felt like I could handle anything and I could. They put an IV in me and I hardly felt anything! I felt it coming out though and the blood that poured out of my arm nearly made me throw up. But I made it home alive. Thank goodness.
I am nowhere near a 100% but I am not dying. Sorry to all of my enemies. You'll have to contnue dealing with me.
Thank goodness my computer chair has wheels....I can wheel myself around my room.
Okay what the hell was that fifteen year old kid thinking, flying a plane by himself?
I guess we'll never know because he's dead.
And what the hell is a 15 year old doing learning how to fly a plane??!?!?!
I don't understand that at all.
Man the Giants suck.
My brother didn't even know I was in the hospital yesterday. My best friend saw him out last night and told him.
Could this day go any slower???? You know why it's going slow? Because new episodes of "Sex and the City" and "Queer As Folk" are on tonight.
And I best be feeling better by Friday. I am supposed to see three of the Queer boys at a personal appearance here in New York.
I really have to lower the ringer on my phone. It's too fucking loud.
It scares the shit out me everytime it rings and that's not good for someone with breathing problems.
Jeez...
Speaking of too loud, my TV is too loud.
I watched the movie "Angels in the Outfield" this morning and it made me cry. Every movie makes me cry lately. No matter what the genre.
Well, I have to go lay down because typing is making me tired.
That sucks.
StaceJanuary 2nd 2002
Happy belated New Year everyone!
My throat has been bothering me the last couple of days and it was really scratchy this morning so I looked at it in the mirror. And what did Stacey see in the mirror looking back at her? A big, giant pus spot on her right tonsil! Yes, I may have strep throat. HAPPY F'IN NEW YEAR!
They took a throat culture at the medical office downstairs and I will know tomorrow afternoon.
So for now I am sitting here infecting everyone I work with.
They gave me Penicillin just in case so at least I'll have a head start if it does turn out to be strep. Why me?
And why do I always get sick this time of year?
December 27th 1997 I got a real bad case of strep. I had a fever and couldn't get out of bed for 4 days. It sucked because I had to go up to school early for winter session. I was sick from the 27th until the 3rd of January.
That was the last time I had strep.
So I hope everyone's New Year celebration was safe and fun. I went out with my cousin and hung out at a primarily lesbian bar.
There are some scary looking women out there! And some of them are really cute and pretty and you want to hit them for being that cute.
I felt like everyone was watching me even though I know, no one paid attention to me. I don't think anyone was sitting there going, "Hey look at the straight girl!" Well, one girl was staring at me. Maybe she thought I was cute or something.
There was one chick that had the world's worst hairdo. Literally. My cousin and I were like, "What the hell is up with her hair?!"
She looked like a black poodle with dyed blonde hair. It was so bad.
There was a couple who looked alike except one girl was blonde with pale skin and the other one was African American. You must be saying, "How could they look alike?" But they did! They had the same shaped eyes and lips and they both had long hair. It was very strange.
I am not into public displays of affection at all. Well, hand holding and hugging is okay but making out and molesting each other is a bit much. I witnessed a lot of that on Monday.
If Monday night made me realize one thing, it made me realize that as much as I hate men, I love them and could never be with a woman.
Sure there are attractive women in this world but not attractive enough for me to want to do anything sexual with them. So I guess I have to suffer with a man. Just kidding!
Resolutions: to be happier, which will make the people around me happier as well. To be healthier, eating the right things and eating less of the crappy things and to prioritize.
I was a senior in high school ten years ago. How depressing and scary. It some ways it definitely feels like it was ten years ago and in other ways it feels like yesterday.
I wonder what my resolutions were then.
I would guess something like, to lose 5 lbs and to do better in school.
I would always resolve to do better in school and never did. I was so unmotivated.
I am so excited for the premiere of Queer As Folk. I can't believe it's here already. I remember bitching in June about having to wait until January to see it again.
I just took two Advil because my neck was bothering me. I slept weird and now my back and neck are out of whack. Jeez, can anything else be wrong with me?
And then this morning I was convinced that my surgically repaired eye was turning out again. I nearly cried.
Great it smells like smoke in here. Well, at least I know where the stairs are.
Oh great other people are complaining about it.
I'm going just in case.
Okay I am back. According to Fire Marshall Bill the smell is coming from outside. I don't think that's good either but whatever.
I am going to rant about something I read over the weekend.
After the Diamondbacks beat the Yankees 15-2 in Game 6 of the World Series, the PA system at Bank One Ballpark began playing, "New York, New York." Isn't that nice? Jerry Colangelo said "it was just a joke!". He said, "They play it over and over again after they win. We thought we'd have a little fun with it." Asshole the Yankees have always played "New York, New York" after a victory. Whether it's the 2nd game of the season or the 4th game of the World Series. And after everything that happened here, for Mr. Colangelo to use "New York, New York" in a joking matter is tasteless. Someone should really tell him that.
Now he's bitching and moaning because George Steinbrenner "stole" David Wells from the Diamondbacks. Boo hoo. Don't fuck with us again Jerry and we won't fuck with you. And what are you crying about anyway? David Wells is 38, he's coming off of major back surgery and once again he's 38. I don't really see the big deal. Why would you want another "old" pitcher anyway? Oh yeah and just so you know, 2001 will be the only year you win the World Series. So don't even think about trying for 2. Wenis.
When I heard about the "New York, New York" incident I got so pissed off. That's the highlight after a victory in New York. 55,000 people singing and dancing to New York New York that is about as good as it gets. And during this past post season it was extra special because we were singing out hearts out to let those FUCKERS in the caves know that they didn't break us.
Ugh.
I am feeling better.
The penicillin is kicking in.
Stace December 28th 2001
This is going to sound strange coming from someone who doesn't even have a driver's license but people should be re-tested when they reach a certain age. The horrifying accident that occurred yesterday outside of Macy's in Herald Square may not have happened if the man behind the wheel wasn't 76 years old. Six people died! It's unbelievable! And I was there less than an hour later and I had no idea anything happened. Well I saw flashing lights but didn't think anything of it and kept walking. I was a block south of the accident scene. I found out late last night what happened.
The thing that disturbs me the most is that the newspapers find it necessary to show the blood and gore. There's a picture in Daily News of an arm sticking out from under a sheet.
Did I need to see that?
I met a friend of mine out last night. He's in from L.A. for the week. We had fun. I was sharing embarrassing stories from college with his roommates. I want to go out there to visit but I am not a big fan of flying. I'll do it but I am a wreck for most of the flight. I'll have to be drugged or something.
So when I left I grabbed a cab because it was too damn cold to walk 3 Avenues to the closest subway station. He drove me to the Staten Island Ferry terminal. When we were driving down Broadway I could look into Ground Zero from the cab. I saw a pile of rubble and the workers and the tears started flowing. I couldn't stop them. It was very strange.
My roommate's boyfriend bought me a computer desk and chair! Wasn't that sweet of him?
So I didn't have to sit on the floor to work on my computer last night.
I was thinking of New Year's Resolutions. Last year I wanted to get my eye fixed and I did it.
I also wanted to lose weight and get a new job (which I didn't do)
For 2002 I think I will just try to be nicer to people and not snap so easily at the idiots who surround me daily.
I had to get that dig in.
There's like no one here today. And people are leaving because they are "sick".
Whatever. At least we get out at 3 today.
I think we should get out at 12:30 like we did last Friday.
Oooo Stacey got two new CDs today! You gotta love Amazon.com. I ordered them yesterday!
I got Pete Yorn "musicforthemorningafter" and Ivy "Long Distance".
That brings my grand total to 325 CDs! I know people with 1000's of them. That scares me.
Everyone is leaving early. I'm going. I don't care.
Stace December 27th 2001
My life just gets more interesting by the day. I am supposed to go out tonight to see friend of mine who's in from L.A. but I don't know if I want to. There are many reasons why I don't want to.
I hate men again.
Oh this made me laugh this morning: SPARKLE AND FADE: EMI's Virgin Records label seeking to buy out its $80 million recording contract with Mariah Carey, after witnessing disappointing sales of her latest album, Glitter, the Los Angeles Times reports.
Hee.
And Chris don't get mad at me for writing that.
I am so hungry.
I gave someone from work money to get me lunch. I just don't feel like dealing with people today.
I literally tripped over a woman who decided to stop right in front of me as I was walking this morning. It happened at Union Square. I called her a 'dumbass'. I felt bad for about 2 seconds then moved on. When I am in a hurry people need to move out of my way.
It was great when I had my lazy eye. I also had a long black trench coat that I would wear and with my wild hair, wild eye and dark coat I looked menacing walking along a train platform.
Now I don't wear that coat anymore, my eye is straight and I chopped off half my hair.
The intimidation factor is gone.
My scowl probably still scares some people.
So I watched "Bridget Jones's Diary" last night on my DVD player. YIPPEE!!! My DVD player, VCR and computer are all hooked up now. I am all set. Now I just need a better stereo and I will be done.
Now that I have a computer in my room that is hooked up to a cable modem I'll be able to write whatever the heck I want.
I feel bad for you guys.
Ha.
I will probably bitch and moan about how bad the subway in New York is, how bad the ferry is, how dumb the people are I encounter everyday which is what I originally intended with this page. I began to get a little personal after a while but I don't mention too many people's names. I allude to them, so sometimes if they read the rants they'd know I am talking about them.
I've had some people think I am talking about them when I wasn't. That's always funny.
Where's my lunch?
I sent in my Yankee check. I am getting season tickets again. I refuse to lose them. If I have to starve for a month so be it. I am never giving my seats up. EVER.
My roommate's boyfriend was working on my computer while I was watching Bridget Jones's Diary last night. He was saying how he thought Hugh Grant was better looking than the "old guy" aka Colin Firth. I had to explain the attraction to Mr. Firth and why all of England adored him. He laughed at me.
5:00! Time to leave!
Stace December 26th 2001
I hope everyone who celebrates it had a nice Christmas. I did.
It is torture being at work the day after Christmas. I feel like I have a hangover even though I didn't drink.
Icky.
So did everyone get cool gifts?
I did. I got the one thing I wanted badly, "Bridget Jones's Diary" on DVD. Yeah! Now I have Mr. Darcy and Mark Darcy on DVD!!!
My friend Julie also got me "Shag", "Youngblood" and "The Mighty Ducks" on DVD. I have a little collection now!
My mommy, er, Santa got me a Coach bag! A little red one! I was so excited but I also yelled at her for spending too much money on me.
Maybe yelling isn't the right word.
It was cold this morning!
Our Senior Vice President bought us pizza. I guess because he feels bad that we are here and not at home resting. I had 2 pieces. I was hungry.
So has anyone thought about their New Year's Resolutions yet? I have only one. I just want to find a new job closer to the field I want. I don't want to be in sales anymore.
The display on my phone does not work, so now I can't see who is calling me. I am not answering the phone. If they need me they can leave a voicemail. And it's FUCKING lunchtime!
GOD I HATE PEOPLE!!!!!
Why can't people wait until 2:00 to call? Is it so hard?
It's not like they don't know that we have lunch. Most people have lunch somewhere between 12-2!
ASSHOLES!!!!
I am listening to a "House" mix that must be annoying the shit out of the guy who sits in front of me. He's a jazz person.
Hee!
They played a song on Queer As Folk that I had been trying to find for the longest time. I looked it up and figured out that I had heard a remix of the song on the show. So I finally found it last night and it made my night!
I was so happy!
Little things excite me these days. It's really quite pathetic.
Stace December 13 2001
Osama Bin Laden must be killed. That's it. He should be killed, shot in the head, point blank. I almost threw up after reading the transcript to that tape.
Ugh.
So Jason Giambi is now a Yankee. He will wear the number 25…hmmm Mattingly wore 23 then Martinez wore 24 and now Giambi is wearing 25…that's odd. Only I would think of something that irrelevant. He wears numbers that add up to 7 because of Mickey Mantle. His father was a huge Mantle fan.
Bye Tino…I'll miss you. So will Racquel.
And I will never forget the moment you hit that HR to tie Game 4 in the 2001 World Series. That was the most exciting game I have ever been to. Thank you.
YEA! Christmas songs!
"Simply having a wonderful Christmastime!"
I am sitting here at 5:51 PM at work. What the hell?!
For some reason like 6 people have tomorrow off and my supervisor is kinda making me in charge…I am so frightened by that.
I guess that means I am good at my job.
So Monday is our Christmas party. I cannot wait to make fun of all of the stupid drunk people!
I made the mistake of watching 3 Queer As Folk episodes right before I went to bed last night. Man I had some funky dreams. Wink wink, nudge nudge.
Hee.
I have the freedom to watch as many Queer As Folk episodes as I want now that I am living in an apartment and I have my own VCR. It's great! I can do whatever the hell I want.
I love having that freedom.
The elevators stopped working earlier today, it was for only five minutes but it was kinda freaky. I'd rather sleep here, then walk down 26 flights of stairs.
Why do radio stations insist on playing the same 5 songs all day?
It's so annoying.
Okay I need to go home. What the heck am I going to eat?
Stace December 12th 2001
My two pet peeves of the day: People who don't wait until you are off the elevator before they get on the elevator. And people who block the entrance to the elevators.
I called one guy a dickhead and the security guard laughed.
I am so excited, I will have my computer by Sunday. THANK GOODNESS! I am going insane without it!
Okay the more I read about Osama Bin Laden the more I want to kill him myself. That motherfucker better be dead soon. I really get heated whenever I read stuff about him. He is useless and should be dead.
All of the other people the government has in custody should just be shot in the head after they give the government important info and if they refuse, shoot em' anyway.
Fuck them all. If they want to go straight to heaven to see Allah we should grant that wish.
Give me the gun. I will shoot them.
Another Israeli bus was shot at today. It's unbelievable what goes on there everyday. I couldn't live like that and I have to give the people there credit for being so brave.
I sure hope that doesn't start happening here.
Wow I reread my rant from Monday and I couldn't believe how pissed off I got! Damn. Well, the woman I deal with at my LA station needs to stop bothering me every 5 f'in seconds. Good Lord. We don't talk for months and then at the end of every quarter there are problems that I have to solve! It's so annoying!
Imagine sitting at your desk and having one person call you 10-15 times in one day!!! It's enough to drive someone to drink.
I think she got me sick!
She's not really psycho so I'll retract that statement.
She's just REALLY annoying.
I think I want to get a new computer anyway and let my brother keep the other one. I saw a really cool Dell computer that I like.
DARN IT DARN IT DARN IT! The Yankees are most likely going to announce the signing of Jason Giambi tomorrow. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I am so angry.
I love Tino.
I lost an order and I have no idea where it is. The fact that it was the size of a phone book should make it easy to find but it seems to have disappeared off the face of the earth.
I hate when that happens.
When the lights go down in the city and the sun shines on the bay….
Give it up for old Journey.
Wow another short rant, what is up with that?
I need to go home.
Stace December 10th 2001
Okay so I got a lot of stuff done this weekend. I am very proud of myself.
I ordered a bed and I got a TV stand. Wow it seemed like I did more yesterday. Oh wait! I bought a phone and hooked up the VCR!
Now I just have to build everything (CD tower, dresser, TV stand).
Any volunteers?
My roommate's boyfriend said he'd help me with my dresser. THANK GOD!
I called my parent's house yesterday and my dad was genuinely excited to hear from me. It was very odd. He was very talkative and frankly, it scared me.
But it was nice to hear. I've only been gone a week and he misses me. Aw.
My mom calls me at work today and leaves a message saying that she set her alarm for 6PM instead of 6AM and woke up at 7:22. She's usually at work by then. Oops!
God I hate people sometimes. How come people like to make my life a living hell when I haven't had any kind of contact with them in months?
I don't understand…I really don't. I wish I could fly out to California and strangle a certain wacked out psycho bitch who likes to harass me. She needs a good New York Style smackdown and with the mood I am in she'll fuckin get a smackdown.
ARGH.
I need to go home, I think I am getting a fever.
I am not happy about that. I have no sick days left.
Stace
December 7th 2001
It's my friend Jeannine's birthday today. Happy Birthday Neaner!
That's what I called her in high school.
We had a lot of funny times together in the place we affectionately called the "Hellhole".
Man, I hated high school.
I was so ugly! I can't believe my mom let me leave the house.
Oh my God. The Yankees got Robin Ventura in exchange for David Justice…Is that good?
And they signed Steve Karsay…he better be better than Witasik and Wohlers.
I really need a computer at home…I can't stand it. There's only so much TV a girl can watch.
I am getting a kick out of watching Rowan and Martin's Laugh-In reruns. Goldie Hawn played the dumb blonde very well.
"Sock it to Me!"
The people who created and write for the "Family Guy" are some sort of narcotic. That is one of the funniest shows ever.
They need to show in Comedy Central or something because it won't last on Fox.
I watched Bridget Jones's Diary last night so I could get my Colin Firth fix.
And Mmmmmmm Hugh Jackman is hosting SNL. I think I want to go downstairs to sneak a peak at him.
Uno, dos, Tres….
Jason Giambi, if he signs with the Yankees, better produce.
I LOVE TINO MARTINEZ!!!! BOO HOO!!!!
Can't we have them both? No because Giambi won't be a DH. DAMN HIM.
I rearranged my desk this afternoon. It was bugging me.
So I am on a guest list to get into a club tomorrow night for my friend's birthday. Cool huh?
I hope I have fun.
I found out last night why there were so many people outside of my building on Wednesday night. Puffy Daddy, sorry, P Diddy was throwing a party for a charity. I couldn't for the life of me figure out what the heck was happening on Wednesday.
I really have to put my dresser together this weekend…but I don't wanna! I had a little trouble with the night table. I think a whole dresser may be too much for me.
This is why I need a boyfriend.
Of course that's the only reason I can think of for wanting one at this moment in my life.
I am waiting until after the New Year before I make myself look nice enough to attract the opposite sex. Right now I don't care what I look like.
Isn't that horrible?
I hate when people walk by your desk and turn back to see what's on your screen. People are so damn nosy.
Well, I hope everyone has a nice weekend.
Stace December 6th 2001
So should John Walker be tried for treason?
No.
He should be shot in the head. Let's just put his warped little mind out of misery.
Sorry, is that harsh? Too bad, I'm PMSing.
I show no mercy when I am PMSing.
Hmmm it's Thursday. The Family Guy is on!
YIPPEE!!!!
Oh and don't forget:
How cool is that? The QAF people sent that code to me to use on my site!
I love that show!
Man I am not in the mood for work.
My account manager forgot her wallet and I had to walk 7 blocks to get it to her. It was kinda cool to be out of the office before my actual lunch hour but I was tempted to not come back.
I was also starving and decided to get a dirty water dog from a vendor on the street. I figured "What the hell! No one's gonna know I got lunch before my actual lunch hour!"
Well, as I took my second bite of the hot dog, mustard squirted out from under the damn hot dog and landed all over my shirt and sweater coat! I started laughing because normally I am very neat when I eat but of course I get shit all over me when I am sneaking a hot dog.
My shirt's okay but my sweater coat is still wet
Destiny's Child is taking a leave of absence!
Yeah!!!
I want to see Ocean's Eleven.
Cause I'm real…
Whatever JLo. When are you coming back to New York?
I got a keychain! An NBC 4 keychain from our LA station.
I am dancing a jig right now knowing that will be the only thing I get that resembles a gift.
I heard we're not even having a Christmas party.
I shouldn't be complaining but when I hear everyone else talking about his or her company Christmas parties I get pissed off. Supposedly I am part of the #1 network on TV. Whatever!
I was looking up sounds on the Internet and I found my favorite commercial from my childhood. I don't know why I love it so much but I LOVED the Tootsie Roll commercial where everything turns into a Tootsie Roll. "Whatever it is I think I see, becomes a Tootsie Roll to me!"
Now if only I could find my favorite Sesame Street song, then I'd be all set.
One of my coworkers downloaded the Abbott and Costello "Who's on First?" skit.
I was laughing listening to it.
Man I hate 4:00. It's an hour away from the end of the day but it seems like the hour lasts for 4 hours. Wow I am babbling.
Oh I just got a news alert on my computer. Up to 35 people were shot in an Indiana Factory. They don't know how many were injured or how many were killed.
That's sad. Of course we'll find out tomorrow that 4 people were shot. I love when things first come out and it's blown up by the Media.
Matt Pinfield is annoying.
Yeah I am going to buy a CD at the Wiz because Matt Pinfield says so.
NOT!
"Chicks cannot hold in smoke, that's what it is…." You name the movie and you win a prize.
Stace December 5th 2001
What is going on with the weather?
It's crazy!
There are about a 1,000 people gathered downstairs who are over the age of 70. It's matinee day in New York so everyone, his or her mother and his or her grandmother is out today.
I am on a Colin Firth kick.
I need to watch Bridget Jones's Diary and Pride and Prejudice this weekend!
Then I need to rent everything else he's been that I can get my hands on!
Oh it's the breast song. "I put my arms around him, yes and drew him down to me so he could feel my breast, yes." Huh?
Who writes this shit?
My 93-year-old grandma had cataract surgery today. That's scary. I know how crappy I felt when I came out of my surgery so I cannot imagine being her age and coming out of surgery, no matter how "minor" it is.
It's nice to go home and relax by myself. My roommate doesn't come home until almost 9:00 every night so I get undressed and lay down for awhile, watch TV, listen to music, read the paper, etc.
Stace December 3rd 2001
Oh boy.
I hadn't heard about the Charlotte Church controversy until Tina Fey mentioned it on Weekend Update during the Saturday Night Live that my boy Derek Jeter hosted 2 days ago.
I had no idea what Miss Church said or what it was in reference to. So I did a little research today and found a quote: "Everyone there has to relate themselves to it. They are like "Yeah, my neighbor's dog's owner's sister's dog was involved, but he got out just in time" Then she went on to say, "It was a bit sick. People overdramatise and lose perspective."
Charlotte sweetheart we ALL were affected by it., It didn't matter if we knew someone or not. It didn't matter if we were in Manhattan when it happened or if we were at home watching it on TV. So to say that we are 'overdramatising' is a bit insensitive. Every New Yorker was affected by what happened on September 11th. Every American was affected by what happened on September 11th, in fact you should be affected by what happened on September 11th. The entire world changed that day you little shit. God I hate celebrities sometimes.
Let's see what happens when you sing for President Bush, if there are firefighters in attendance just be warned, you will be booed off the stage.
Okay back to happy stuff. Derek Jeter was so good on Saturday Night Live! I know I am biased but he was really good for a non-actor. They got him to dress in drag. (That was the funniest skit out of all of them) They even got David Wells and David Cone to dress in drag to be part of the skit. It was hysterical! (Especially because David Wells has that thick goatee)
David Cone looked pretty good in drag.
Shakira shook her ass for the audience. Oh wow. I just changed the station and she's on! Weird.
I want to tape this episode when it's repeated because it was good.
I just got my eyebrows waxed. I am in pain. Men have it so easy. They don't have to worry about body hair. Guys with hair on heir backs still can get girlfriends. Women who have stray hairs anywhere feel like they can't leave the damn house.
The woman also waxed my lip. Now that was extremely painful. I can't believe I started that. Now I have to get it done all the time.
I cannot imagine having to get a bikini wax. Ow.
Some chick was just wearing a Burberry hat. I want one!
So I don't have a TV stand or a bed. Well, I have a twin sized bed but that's not really a bed! I mean who sleeps in a twin bed over the age of 21!
My bedroom is painted. It looks really cool. I love the color.
I can't wait to get all settled. I need to put my furniture together.
So we have really cool cable and it has music channels. The 80's channel is my favorite. It plays so many songs that I haven't heard in literally 20 years.
They played "You Don't Want Me Anymore" by Steel Breeze! I think I am the only person who remembers that song!
Okay, Barbara from work remembers the song too.
They also played "Desert Moon" by Dennis DeYoung, former lead singer of Styx. I was like, "NO WAY!!!!" when it started. I do that when I hear things I haven't heard in ages.
I just yelled at my boss, well, not really. I was talking extremely loud to him. Hee.
Oh guess what I just found out! They shot the WNBC commercial without us this year! They shot it this morning. They replaced us with cops and firefighters. That's a nice thing to do BUT they could have told us.
I am a little bummed because this would have been the first year that I would have looked normal.
Stupid company.
I wonder what song they sang.
It was probably something really easy. Last year the song was "We Need A Little Christmas" which is a little complicated. Give me "Jingle Bells" any day.
I was going to wear a Santa hat that had 'FDNY' in glitter on it. Oh well.
So John Smoltz re-signed with Atlanta. Good,. we didn't want him anyway.
My quote of the week: "Tino is teeny."
HA!!!
So I am doing the Christmas touristy thing with my friends on December 23rd. We are going to see A Christmas Carol and the Christmas Spectacular! I haven't seen the Christmas Spectacular since I was in 5th grade!
I can tell you what I wore that day.
How scary.
It was my pink MTV sweatshirt that my cousin John got me because he worked there.
He was in Bryan Adams's "Reggae Christmas" video!
And then my friends and I are going to walk around the city and go all over the place. It should be nice.
I just found out a man from my old company died of cancer. He was very intimidating. He ran the sales training program and was an ex Marine or something. Very scary. He was one of the reasons why I didn't think I could get through the sales program.
Well, it's almost time for me to leave. I hate not having a computer at home. It sucks.
StaceNovember 30th 2001
George Harrison died of lung cancer yesterday and guess how he got it? He smoked like a fucking chimney. He was only 58. That's far too young to die. People live to be in their 80s and 90s.
And since I am on the subject of smoking it's time for a rant. I hate when I am walking behind a person on the street and their smoke goes in my face. It's so lovely for a non-smoker and a person who hates it so much to have to breathe in cigarette smoke first thing in the morning.
My dad has this habit of smoking in the bathroom in the morning, which is also another pleasant experience. I just love going into the bathroom to take a shower and smelling that shit.
I want to go home. I am not in the mood for work at all.
I went bowling with a few of my coworkers last night. It was a lot of fun. I was really bad last night but it wasn't entirely my fault. It was my first time bowling with my "new" eye and the lane looked different. Also, it was "extreme bowling". The balls were neon, there were flashing lights, loud music and it was friggin dark! It was hard to see the lane. I did get over 100, 2 out of the 3 games I played but I still sucked! It was very frustrating!
I also broke a nail the first time I threw the ball down the lane! I knew I was going to break a nail but not so soon!
Oooo my favorite Beatles song! "Something", written by the late George Harrison. It's funny. This is one of my mom's favorite Beatles songs too.
Derek Jeter is going to be in my building and I won't be there. That sucks ass.
He was shooting the SNL promo yesterday and I missed him. I was very upset.
I SAW HIM!!!! Well he was on the internal TV feed but I watched him rehearse a scene with Chris Kattan, Ana Gasteyer who looks heinous with no make up on. He looked nervous and he kept yawning. He looks like he is 5 feet taller than Chris Kattan.
I am happy although still disappointed because I won't be there tomorrow.
The skit should be a cute one.
I'm not biased or anything. Wink Wink.
My right knee feels like it's going to split apart. That's not a good feeling.
Okay what's with the weather?!
Mother Nature if you are listening, tomorrow is December 1st, not May 1st. I still haven't packed my short sleeved shirts yet.
And speaking of packing. I love when I ask people for help and they ignore me. FUCK YOU.
Thank you and goodnight.
I am sure I'll be ranting about how horrible moving into the apartment was and how exhausted I'll be on Monday. Look out for it.
Stace November 29th 2001
Yogi Berra called Jason Giambi?!! There's no way that man isn't coming to New York. Wow. Could you imagine getting a phone call from Yogi Berra?! He's a legend! That would be like an actress getting a phone call from Katharine Hepburn!
Oh there's a new song out that I can't stand (it's on right now). My best friend and I kept seeing the video for it while we were down in North Carolina and we were making fun of the lead singer's eyebrows. They were obviously waxed by a professional. If it were a woman we wouldn't think anything of it but it is a man with perfectly shaped eyebrows. LOSER. He sounds like the lead singer of Lifehouse who sounds like Scott Stapp of Creed (whose new song sounds exactly like their other shit) who sounds like Eddie Vedder. Eddie Vedder should be suing every single one of these guys. Anyway the song sucks ass and it's icky.
Speaking of Icky stuff, did anyone watch the Christmas Tree lighting last night? My mom and I were flipping back and forth between Dawson's Crack and the tree. Unfortunately everytime we flipped the channel to NBC an annoying person was on. The Queen of Annoying people Kathie Lee Gifford was there. Yippee! I wish she would just disappear off the face of the earth. She is soooo annoying. She's more annoying than Destiny's Child. Beyonce, nice hat.
I am going to talk about Dawson's Creek even though some of you don't watch. Dawson is a tool. His former best friend Pacey (I know nice name) is not, he's relatively cool and played by the charming Joshua Jackson. James Van Der Beek, who has the charm of a jellyfish plays Dawson, Dawson FINALLY lost his virginity last night. He is the character the show is named after and he was the last of all the kids to be "deflowered". Both Pacey and Dawson got laid in last night's episode but unfortunately we were subjected to seeing James Van Der Beek's mostly naked body and not a stitch of clothing was removed from Joshua Jackson's body. IT WAS SO CRUEL! Seeing James Van Der Beek shirtless nearly reversed my surgery. My formerly lazy eye was fighting to turn away from the TV screen. Good lord. It's not like Josh is built or anything but something? A bare arm, a bare shoulder? What the hell?!?!?!
Ugh.
It's crappy out today. It's definitely NOT a good hair day.
No word on whether or not I am going to SNL this Saturday night. Am I surprised? I would have been shocked if I got the tickets. There's a better chance that I will wake up 20 pounds lighter then my getting SNL tickets. I only work here. Fuckers.
I need a job on SNL. How do I go about getting one? I think I have to do stand up comedy but I am not cut out to do that. I am also too friggin old to be an intern or a PA. I need to live. Why can't I be 23 again?
Damn it!
I will say one nice thing about the tree. I like the red, white and blue lights. They are pretty.
Ding dong!
If anyone watched the Tree Lighting special will know what I am alluding to.
Stupid Beyonce.
And Kathie Lee Gifford on air saying to Al Roker, "Say hi to Deborah for me!" Um jackass you could have waited until the camera went to the musical guest. You didn't have to show off. I really can't stomach her and her Christian talk. Blah Blah Blah. SHUT UP!!!
IT IS SOOOOOOOO COLD IN HERE!!!!
Okay so the painter is going to paint my room on Sunday. One thing down, a hundred more to go.
Yikes.
I am so unorganized.
I love the word dude. Just thought I'd share.
You know you're getting old when they play a song on a classic rock station that was out when you were in college.
How depressing, I am not that old!
I have to clean my desk. It's too cluttered.
My whole life is too cluttered.
I went to the commissary for lunch today because I knew that if I went downstairs to the concourse, I'd be arrested for assault. One of my calmer co-workers almost had a breakdown because there were so many people there.
Believe me, I am very happy that people aren't afraid to come and stay in New York (Do you hear that JLo?!) but damn they need to learn how to walk. Between the hours of 7:00 A.M. and 9:00 A.M. tourists should stay in their hotel rooms. Some of us have jobs we need to get to and can't deal with people walking around with their necks craned up towards the sky, trying to look at all of the pretty skyscrapers and 80 foot Christmas trees. And then during the hours of 12:00 P.M. and 2:00 P.M. do not go to Rockefeller Center's concourse to eat. The employees get pissed off when they go to eat and have nowhere to sit because 5 people and their 16 Saks Fifth Avenue bags take up all of the room at a couple of tables. It's pretty simple.
And no I am not anti tourist all the time. Just try living and working here for a week during the holiday season and you'll see why I am saying all of this stuff.
Eh, does it matter? No matter what I say, someone will get pissed off at me for saying what's on my mind.
Stace
November 28th 2001
I want a Mr. Darcy of my very own! It could be Mark Darcy from Bridget Jones's Diary or Mr. Darcy from Pride and Prejudice I don't care!
I have to calm down.
I ordered Pride and Prejudice on DVD yesterday from Amazon.com and I got it already. Now I need a DVD player and I'll be all set.
So they are lighting the tree tonight! Yeah, I am sooooo excited! Not.
My boy Derek is hosting Saturday Night Live and of course I am not going. Boo hoo. I have to ride the studio elevators today, tomorrow and Friday to try and see him.
You'd think that working for a network would be full of perks…but no!
I hate chewing bubble gum because it loses flavor within 5 minutes. Oh crap I am supposed to go to lunch. I have to stock up on my hot chocolate and snacks that I keep in my cabinet.
This song is NOT ON!!!! Got no flowers for your guns no hippie chicks!! 11th grade, ah I remember it well and miss it sometimes.
No hippie chick!!!
Sorry.
The Giants are great, aren't they?
And so are the Knicks.
It sucks when baseball season ends because the other New York teams suck ass! At least the Rangers are doing something.
It's okay for me to say like every other word because I am still under 30 but when you are 35 and saying like 5 times in a sentence while speaking with a superior, it makes you sound like an idiot.
My future (as of Saturday) roommate gave me my keys today! It's so close, yet so far away.
I want everything to be magically over. I want my furniture to be assembled, I want my bed delivered, I want my room painted, I want to have a DVD player, and I want to be sitting in bed watching my Special Edition Pride and Prejudice DVDs!
Shakira is going to be the musical guest on Saturday Night Live this Saturday. Who wants to bet that Derek Jeter will try and fail to get into her pants?
Hee.
It's very bright out today. It's hurting my eye.
Okay my Colin Firth obsession is beginning to get out of control. My friend and I were on the phone going to websites and looking at pictures. He is now my wallpaper. Good lord.
Bugger!
Sorry thought I was Madonna and slipped into a British accent.
Hee!
How would a British person say my name?
Hmmmmm. I know there were guys from England on the 2nd floor of my dorm during my junior year but I don't recall ever hearing one of them say my name. I was probably drunk at the time and don't remember.
Oooo I work with a Brit! I'll really listen next time he says hi to me.
I was riding in the elevator with the Executive Vice President of my division and he actually started a conversation with me! I was shocked! That never happens.
It is so cold in this damn office! Yesterday one of my coworkers was bundled so much that she was wearing a scarf and gloves at her cubicle. Isn't that insane?
Sharika is singing about her breasts being small and humble so you won't confuse them with mountains. What the ??? Who writes this shit?
I wish I could shake my ass like she can shake hers, just not with the ass I have. I would seriously hurt someone throwing all of that weight around.
I need to pack! And I need to beg my father for his help on Saturday. God help me! He's PMSing lately so I don't know what the heck's going on. I guess I am NOT moving in this weekend. I'll have to wait.
I am so upset. The Yankees basically said goodbye to Tino Martinez and are going after Jason Giambi.
Jason: You better fuckin do something as a Yankee. You better be MVP caliber like you have been for the last few years.
Tino: Dude. I love you. You provided me with great moments. I will never forget Game 4 of this year's World Series because of you and your heroics. You rock.
I am so depressed. My Yankees are going to be soooo different come Opening Day.
I have to go to bed.
Stace November 23rd 2001
Wow I am really slacking lately. I guess I haven't been pissed off enough.
I hope everyone's Thanksgiving was nice. And for those of you who don't celebrate Thanksgiving I hope you have been safe and healthy the last couple of weeks.
So I am going to IKEA tomorrow to get furniture for my apartment. I love IKEA it's like the Disney World of furniture stores. I am hoping to get at least a dresser, shelves of some sort and a computer desk.
Wednesday night I went out with my best friends because the night before Thanksgiving is like the busiest bar night of the year. It was really funny because all of the little dinky bars in our county had lines. We waited almost a half an hour to get into a place we easily walk into every other weekend. It was actually a good night. I got my haircut Wednesday afternoon and I wanted to show it off. I keep going shorter and shorter, pretty soon I'll have a buzz cut.
I saw people I haven't seen in practically 10 years. It was freaky. I was also seeing kids who I thought were too young to be out in bars but unfortunately they are all over 21 now. I was like, 'I used to baby-sit that kid!' And it's not like I am that old. I am only 27.
That was depressing.
Okay so Bridget Jones's Diary is on pay per view this weekend. I LOVE THAT MOVIE. I love Colin Firth now and I want to buy the DVD so I can watch him over and over again. Hugh Grant was also to die for in that movie looks wise. Hot damn.
Another thing that was depressing about Wednesday night was that I was not interested in anyone. I miss being excited to see someone out (even if they don't return the feelings) but there's no one. Oh well.
I'll just keep watching my unattainable TV guys and having dreams about them.
Thanksgiving 2001 wasn't as wacky as I thought it would be. My family is nuts. I don't think I would ever bring a potential husband to a holiday gathering until I was at least engaged to him. Okay I'm kidding, my family is not that bad they are just loud. I was actually helping out a lot and serving people. What is up with that?! I am the laziest person on earth and I was getting up and getting people's drinks, I was making sure people had things on their plates. I was frightened by my behavior. Damn I am getting old.
I need a DVD player.
And a stereo.
And a husband.
JUST KIDDING!!!
I couldn't even handle "dating" someone. Then again he did act like a complete jerkoff at a Yankee game, so it wasn't entirely my fault that it didn't work out.
Dumbass.
I jinxed that "relationship". I got too excited about it too soon. I should know to never get excited about anything like that ever again. I'll wait at least a year before I tell the world I am "dating" someone.
Is it dating when you were never alone with someone once??
I am so glad I can joke about this now.
And by the way he's the one who acted like an asshole and he got mad at me when I didn't like it.
Of course I am not perfect. I always got pissed off when he smoked BUT I hate smoking. Go back to previous rants and you'll see that. I HATE SMOKING. He knew that and didn't care.
Jackass.
Wow I am a really on a roll with this one.
I did really like him though. He was very cute. He was very funny and I wish things would have worked out with him but who the hell knows. If September 9th hadn't happened we could have ended things a week later anyway.
I don't mind being alone. In fact, I am almost afraid that I will get so used to being alone, I won't be able to let myself be with someone for the long haul.
I really hope that doesn't happen. That would suck. I don't want to be some old spinster with 18 cats.
I knew I shouldn't have taken him to a Yankee game. The funny thing was I was afraid he'd be embarrassed by my antics at the game. I am usually a friggin freak at Yankee games especially when they are playing the Red Sox but that day the Yankees were already so many games ahead of Boston in the standings that the game didn't really count. So I had no reason to be obnoxious. And neither did he. But he was. And not only at the game but after the game. I think that's what bothered me so much. He was drawing attention not only to himself, but the rest of us there.
It's more than two months later so I can say all of this. And it doesn't matter because I haven't spoken to him in two months. So fuck him.
Oops. Sorry I didn't really mean that.
I hope he is doing well, smoking, drinking and acting like a jackass around someone else.
Hee.
And no I am not worried about him reading this at all because I know that when we severed all ties he deleted this page from his favorites.
God I hope so.
Ah who gives a shit. He hurt me. So I shouldn't really care, right?
Why am I listening to this lovey dovey shit?!
I know why, because I am a glutton for punishment.
I cannot wait to shower and shave my legs and just be clean.
I just want to make out with someone tonight....is that too much to ask?
I am so silly.
And on that note I'll end this rant or whatever the hell it is.
Sorry it's been so long. But don't fret, the tree will be lit Wednesday night and I am sure someone idiot will piss me off soon!
