November 8th 2001

Well I was right. My knees are bothering me from that long walk down the stairs. Are knee transplants possible? I don't want mine anymore.

David Wells was just on Howard Stern and Howard who knows nothing about baseball was saying, "The Yankees made a big mistake. They should bring David back." Ok Howard? The Yankees went to three World Series and won 2 of them after he left. Where was the mistake?

Mmmmmmmm, I am drinking freshly squeezed Orange Juice and it's so good.

So anyway, David Wells was talking about Derek Jeter banging Mariah Carey and I nearly throw up my breakfast.

Some dude took my seat on the train this morning. That pissed me off.

I think I may go out and get another haircut.

I want less hair it's too poofy.

My left eye has been aching the last couple of days. It's very strange. It's not sore but achy. Like I feel like my eye is getting sick. I can't explain it.

It is so bright in here today.

Damn.

I was looking at stereo components and systems last night on the Internet and everything is so cheap! I was shocked.

I haven't had a stereo in 2 years. My brother smashed mine, literally. He got pissed that the CD tray was slow and bashed the top of my stereo with his fist and cracked it open. Jackass.

I almost killed him when I saw it.

Why must everyone yell by my desk?

Jackasses.

The girl with the hacking cough grossed me out so much this morning that I lost my concentration while I was on the phone. It was pretty damn funny.

I almost forgot my own name.

It smells over here. Why must people insist on eating gross smelling food?

Ick.

Stace
November 7th 2001

Now that I have had a couple of days to process everything I have come to a conclusion about the World Series. The Yankees were doomed from the start. Not because they couldn't hit, field or pitch. It was because they had people who don't normally despise them, rooting for them this year. People who usually root for the Mets and Red Sox were on the Yankees' side this year and it screwed everything up. The way the Yankees lost on Sunday night, is the way Boston would lose in a World Series. The "loser" aura was hovering over them the whole series. Games 4 and 5 were a tease.

Still, I am proud of my boys. What they accomplished between 1996-2001 will not be done by anyone else for a while.

I cried Sunday night, not because they lost they way that they did, but for the fact that the team won't be the same. There are going to be some major changes happening this winter.

Paul O'Neill and Luis Sojo are retiring. Scott Brosius and Chuck Knoblauch are most likely gone and Tino Martinez also may have played his last game in pinstripes. I wish they would get rid of David Justice, he sucks ass. Jay Witasick can go too.

A word to George M. Steinbrenner: DO NOT GET RID OF TINO MARTINEZ!!!!! We don't need Jason Giambi. Well, we don't want him. I'd take Tino over Giambi any day.

I don't want Gary Sheffield or Barry Bonds. I'd rather have my grandma play the outfield.

Are you listening George? No, of course he's not but I would like for him to listen to me.

Okay let's rewind and go back to October 31st. I was away this week so I am behind in my rants.

I attended Game 4 of the World Series, which was one of best games I have ever witnessed.

Most of the people left when the score was 3-1 Diamondbacks and I'll admit I wanted to get the hell out of there in the bottom of the ninth when there were two outs. But I had a feeling in my gut that made me not get up from my seat. And boy I am glad I didn't leave.

So Tino Martinez smacks the homer to right center field and it took until he got to third base for my brother, best friend and I to start cheering. We were in shock and we couldn't believe what we saw.

I screamed so much when it happened and I looked to my brother and said, "They are soooo winning this fucking game."

So then comes the bottom of the 10th inning and my boy steps up to the plate. I look to my best friend and say, "He's due for something." Cause I'll admit it, my boy sucked in the ALCS and the World Series up to that point. Then "smack"….he hits it to right field, game over, Yanks win 4-3.

And now that they didn't win the series Games 4 and 5 are merely a footnote…DAMN IT.

Okay what else is happening…I went to North Carolina this past weekend. I saw my boy Josh Jackson at a bar. He looks so adorable in person., and tall and lanky. TV makes him look like he's 250 lbs while in person he looks like he's barely 165.

We had an "evacuation" drill today and we had to go down all 26 flights of stairs to the lobby. My knees are killing me. It only took 5 minutes. But I am sure if a real emergency happened we'd be stuck in the stairwell because not everyone walks as fast as I do. I am glad I only work on the 26th floor. I would never work any higher. And there are rumors that we may be moved down to the 6th floor.

Conway Tweety is on CBS FM! LOL!!!! It's only make believe!!!!!! This song makes me laugh.

I am wearing a black long sleeved "hooters" shirt. The men in the office love it but my supervisor wasn't that amused. It's not like it's a short sleeved T-shirt or something.

I thought it was funny.

Bah.

One of my coworkers has this hacking, gross cough and it grossed me out so much that I couldn't finish my lunch. Ick.

I have to get my eyebrows waxed.

WOO HOO! My favorite Marvin Gaye song is on. "Gotta Give it Up" from the summer of 1977.

I have my radio loud so I can drown out the coughing.

I am preparing to move out of my house in a couple of weeks. I have to decide what color I want to paint my room.

I wanted Crimson but someone pointed out how dark that would be. Darn it. I like red but I don't want to do a regular red. Bah.

Maybe I'll do the white walls with the navy pinstripes like I wanted to do for my son's room. I am so far away from marriage and kids. I might as well paint my own room like that.

I can paint a giant 23 on one of the walls.

Just kidding.

I have to get my tattoo soon. I am getting an interlocking "NY" and I may even put a little "23" with it.

Yippee!

I already decided that I am naming my first child Mattingly. And yeah it doesn't matter if it's a girl or boy. And if I happen to have twins they will be Mattingly and Jeter. Hee. Okay I am so kidding about the Jeter thing. But I am not kidding about the Mattingly thing. I just hope whomever I marry doesn't have a funky last name or it won't work.

Mattingly Jeter. Just kidding. Mattingly Jackson. Nah.

If it's a girl I can call her "Mattie" and if it's a boy "Matt". I think it's friggin cool.

The Thong song is on. This song is goofy but it was good to dance to.

I need to go dancing. I need to shake my ass.

I also need to go furniture shopping. I want nice furniture for the apartment.

This song reminds me of when Josh Jackson and the Rock hosted SNL in March 2000. They hosted in successive weeks and the Thong song was always on..

Yeah I was in heaven.

Speaking of heaven, the Duran Duran behind the Music was on yesterday evening. I love them.

The hotel we stayed in had that SoapNet channel and my best friend and I got addicted to old Ryan's Hope episodes. And it's kinda funny because the one scene from Ryan's Hope that I clearly remember was a scene where a baby died due to an explosion. I was 5 when I saw it for the first time and I had nightmares. Well, that was the storyline that they were airing this weekend. I freaked out. Isn't that strange?

Okay I must get going. I need to sleep.

Stace
October 24th 2001

I better see Army tanks outside of Yankee Stadium when I go next week. Army tanks, 1000's of cops, etc etc.

Yes I am paranoid.

The World Series is a big American event. The Yankees are the team that symbolizes America. We need major security there. Is anyone listening to me? They must establish a no fly zone over Yankee Stadium, they must reroute planes taking off from LaGuardia and Kennedy and they must search everyone going into the event. And I mean EVERYONE, not just every 4th person.

I am still tired from Sunday and Monday. I need to go to sleep early tonight. I did it last night but I still don't feel like I got enough rest. I passed out on the train this morning. I hope I didn't snore.

What the heck am I going to do without baseball until Saturday?!

The people at work are making fun of me everytime I talk because I sound like a pubescent boy going through the voice change. 'When it's time to CHANGE!"

I attended my first two Yankee games in June 1983. I think it was June, maybe it was July. Anywho, it was a doubleheader and I think it was against Toronto. Well, I wanted to find out the exact date and I can't find anything anywhere on the Internet. I searched for an hour. Darn it!

I can't believe I don't remember.

That pisses me off.

I didn't really eat much for lunch and now I am starving. I just ate a pickle that someone had and didn't want.

I'll probably go downstairs and get a pretzel. Hmmmm a buttery pretzel.

Okay I am eating the buttery pretzel. I tell ya, this building is not conducive to losing weight. Every bad place is here. I can walk underground to Wendy's, Burger King and McDonalds. We have a Ben and Jerry's downstairs as well. Good Lord.

Stace
October 23rd 2001

"Your record don't mean a thing, if you ain't got that ring!" That was a sign I saw on Sunday night at Yankee Stadium. How great is that?!

So as usual the Yankees prove that the regular season DOESN'T MEAN SHIT. Seattle could have shut them out in every game in the regular season and it wouldn't have mattered.

Ooo CBS FM is doing a top 5 countdown from 1977. They just played one of my favorite songs of all time, "When I Need You" by Leo Sayer. That was my song. Well, that and "You Light Up My Life" by Debby Boone. I used to belt those out when I was three years old. My mom says she regrets not recording me because she said that it was hilarious how passionate I was when I sang those songs.

If they play Andy Gibb "I Just Wanna Be Your Everything" I'll really flip a shit pickle! I love that song. I love him.

The Stars Wars theme is on! I feel like I am three years old again. Actually I wasn't three yet when Stars Wars was released. It was released in the beginning of the summer and I turned three in August. Yikes. I was 2? Oh this song is funky. I forgot how funky it was.

So far we had Leo Sayer, The Emotions and now the Stars Wars theme. Okay Debby Boone must be played….what else could they play? Hmmmmm…..1977. Let's see Andy Gibb could be number 2. Disco was big that year. Maybe Donna Summer's "I Feel Love"?

DEBBY BOONE IS ON!!! I am so fucking good! So wait what the hell could be number one? Andy Gibb? I would be so psyched if I'm right.

"And fill my nights with song…." I can remember singing this song in my apartment, in my Kelly green room. I also used to sing myself to sleep with "Evergreen" by Barbra Streisand. I loved that song.

Andy Gibb is number one. Okay I am more than fucking good. I am BRILLIANT!

Think about it. I was 3 in 1977 and I knew what songs would be on the countdown. It would have been scarier if I knew the exact order.

I rock.

Man my voice is gone. I totally lost it. I sound horrible.

Stace
October 22, 2001

Wow! What a game last night! I have never been to a game where the Yankees won on a walk off home run. It was so awesome.

The game itself was nerve-wrecking because neither team was scoring and I was afraid that it was going to go into extra innings and that we'd be there all night. But thanks to Bernie Williams, Mariano Rivera, Scott Brosius and Alfonso Soriano the Yanks won the game.

Everything happened in the 8th and 9th innings. Both teams hit solo home runs in the 8th inning. Mariano Rivera came out in the 9th,, pitched 3 pitches and got 3 men out. (Which was amazing!) Now what was really coincidental was that they decided to show a montage of "walk off" home runs that the Yankees have hit in recent seasons on the Diamondvision screen between the top and the bottom of the 9th inning. I thought to myself, "How funny would it be if they won the game on a walk off home run?" I looked at the scoreboard and saw that Shane Spencer, Scott Brosius and Alfonso Soriano were up. Spencer came into the game for O'Neill late in the game and he only had one at bat so I didn't think he do anything (and I was right). Scott Brosius who had done NOTHING all post season, hits a ball to Mark McLemore and it looks like it's going to be the second out of the inning but McLemore throws the ball wide, pulling John Olerud off the bag and Brosius is safe. So we are all excited and Alfonso Soriano comes up and I say to my best friend, "He better not hit into a double play!" He takes the first pitch, which is shocking, because he usually swings at everything. Then he sends an 1-0 pitch out of the ballpark and they win the game. Everyone was jumping up and down and screaming. It was soooooo great! The upper deck was literally bouncing up and down which freaked me out a little at first but then we all were high fiving each other. When "New York, New York" started playing, we all started singing at the top of our lungs (even my dad!) I could hear "New York, New York" 100 times in a row and not get sick of it.

We were doing "rockette" kicks and just having a ball.

Of course this morning I felt like I got run over by a truck when my alarm went off at 5:16. We got home earlier then we had the last two games we went to but I was so pumped up from the win that I didn't end up falling asleep until after 2:00 A.M.

I had a lazy weekend like I said I wanted to have but I didn't laundry like I wanted to. I had all day Saturday and all day Sunday to do it and I didn't. I am so bad. Thank goodness I had something to wear for today.

Paul McCartney was at the game again last night. He's awesome. He was dancing and singing along to the music. They kept showing him on the Diamondvision. My best friend was like, "Holy shit! We're in the same building as Paul McCartney!"

In the 7th inning they had that Irish tenor I like so much sing "God Bless America". He gives me the chills everytime I hear him.

Speaking of singing, I watched the entire benefit concert on Saturday night. Okay, The Who kicked some major ass. So did Elton John and Billy Joel. I loved Melissa Etheridge's version of "Born To Run", I liked how she did it without a back up band. The short films were really great. I got teary-eyed watching the film with all of the people from other states saying, "I'm a New Yorker." Jerry Seinfeld's little film was great. Adam Sandler as "Operaman" cracked my shit up. Even my dad was hysterically laughing.

Jon Bon Jovi looked so hot. Good Lord. That man gets better with age.

Elton John sang his new song I was so happy about that.

I had a feeling Billy Joel was going to sing "Miami 2017". They played it on the classic rock station here and I was like, "Wow I forgot that song existed!" And of course he sang, "New York State of Mind".

I still cannot get over how good the Who was.

I am surprisingly perky for a girl who had barely three hours of sleep last night. I'll be nodding out on the train home. I know it.

Now if the Yankees can win the ALCS and make it to the World Series I'd have Game Four tickets. That game will be played on Halloween night. That was also the night that my friend and I were going to leave for Wilmington for our little vacation. But hey the World Series is more important than a damn trip. I'll delay it a day!

It seems people I don't like are reading my page. Or should I say people who don't like me. I have noticed that some of the things I say on here are being repeated in other places on the Internet. I am actually flattered that they are taking the time to do it. Thanks guys! I appreciate it.

October 22nd is sticking out in my mind. Did anything important happen on this date in history? I'll have to check.

While I was at the game I had my mom tape a documentary on the Twin Towers that the History Channel aired originally last Wednesday. I had forgotten about it on Wednesday night so I wanted to see it. She fell asleep during it (not because of boredom—she was tired—she's old—JUST KIDDING MOMMY!) but she said the beginning was about the Towers being built. I can't wait to watch it.

Yeah it's lunchtime! I am starving. I didn't eat dinner last night and I only ate like 10 peanuts at the game. The hot-dog vendor dissed me last night. But the beer guy came to our section like 25 times (of course). I can't believe people spend $6.00 on a beer and it's shitty beer.

All of the men in the crowd at Yankee Stadium go to the bathroom at the same time. I can't remember what inning it was but there was a mass exodus and almost every guy from my section (including my brother and dad) left to go to the bathroom. I was laughing.

The cool thing about Yankee playoff games is that when they win everyone's like a big family. Strangers are high fiving and hugging each other, people are singing, people are chanting. I love it.

I expected the Yankees to lose on Saturday but I didn't anticipate a 14-3 drubbing at the hands of Seattle. Jeez. That was very painful to watch.

A woman a few rows below me praised me at one point when I was yelling at Roger Clemens. I yelled something obnoxious and she turns around and is like, "You go girl!" I was pissed because he had a 3-0 count on the 8th batter. Usually there's a reason why a guy bats 8th and usually that reason is that he can't hit the damn ball.

I was pissed off most of the game. No one was doing anything. My boy who is obviously hurt and not telling anyone hasn't hit anything. They left like 50 people on base. You should score when you have 1st and 3rd and 1 out. Damn.

Thank you Bernie and Alfonso.

Yeah it's KTU's midday freestyle mix! Woo hoo! Memories of junior high and early high school come flooding back. Ah the days when I was still innocent and naïve. Uh yeah right.

My brother is so cute. He has an NYPD and FDNY hat in the back window of his car.

He's been home like two weeks and I haven't wanted to kill him yet. What's up with that? I think it's because he works late and I am usually in bed by the time he gets home. So I don't see him for days at a time.

I have a headache from last night. People were banging on the caged in escalators in left field. So I experienced 20 minutes of them banging in an almost completely closed off area. The sound had nowhere to go. "Let's go Yankees BANG BANG BANG BANG BANG!" Yikes. I am in dire need of an Advil.

I have to my own TV.

My boy Justin is singing...what the hell happened to me? I like NSYNC. Good lord how embarrassing. And why the hell am I admitting that?!

Is it supposed to rain today? I hope not. I don't have an umbrella.

Justin wants to try his best to be a man and be strong. He's turning into a hottie. Okay I have to calm down the boy is barely 20 years old. He's a child.

Wow I am writing a lot today. And I don't think I've written anything really negative. What is up with that?

I have to get my eyebrows waxed. They are in dire need of a good waxing. I am beginning to resemble Groucho Marx.

Someone just emailed me something disturbing, well it's disturbing to me. David E Kelley is having Mariah Carey guest star on "Ally McBeal" this season. I think she's only singing. God I hope so.

Chuck Knoblauch is a funny guy. While the groundskeepers were doing their YMCA dance he did it for a couple of seconds with them. I was dying! It was so great. One time during a game Luis Sojo and someone else I can't remember was doing the YMCA dance in the dugout. At first Knoblauch was looking at them like they were nuts but within a few seconds he was doing it as well. It was so funny.

"Your Kiss is on my List" by Hall and Oates is on. I loved that song!

Our system went down at work, again. It's a once a week occurrence.

So I can't do any work. Thank goodness I am caught up and I don't really have anything to do. I am in one of those 'I don't hate my job' moods which is really disturbing. I am usually miserable but people are leaving me alone today.

Um hello someone is blasting music here! This is a place of employment not a concert hall people!

I thought it was funny when the crowd of policeman and fireman were booing Richard Gere. As soon as he came out I knew he was going to say something about peace and forgiveness and blah blah blah You can't say that to a group of 6,000 people who lost brothers, husbands, fathers, mothers, daughters, sisters and wives in the attacks. Peace is the last thing they want. They want revenge and I can't blame them. Firefighter Mike Moran said it best when he told Osama Bin laden to kiss his royal Irish Ass. I don't think Osama should even have that opportunity. We should just kill him.

Howard Stern showed his ass again on TV. There are some things people don't ever need to see in their lifetime... Unfortunately I have seen his ass TWICE. Yikes.

Ok I need to do some work. I need to find some work. The system is still down.

Stace
October 19th 2001

Well, I saw the area that used to be the World Trade Center from pretty close up. I took the Staten Island Ferry to my friend's house last night and back into Manhattan this morning to get to work.

Last night was my first real close up look of the skyline without the Twin Towers. When we were pulling away from the ferry terminal I could see the lights and cranes at ground zero. After 5 weeks there is still a cloud of smoke by the area. I actually cried at the sight of it. It is just so devastating. And even though we all saw what happened on TV you don't really get a sense of how horrific it was until you see the area. Also the smell near the area is just unbearable. I give the workers credit. I almost passed at one point as we made our way past Wall Street in the subway.

And I got a little depressed because I couldn't even remember where the Towers actually stood. I think I was picturing them too far to the left. Isn't that weird? I took it for granted that I had a view of them from my building every day before September 11th. And now, I don't remember where they stood.

I must change the subject. I cried enough last night.

So the Yankees are up 2-0 in the series. They can't get complacent. They need to keeping playing Yankee baseball, smart baseball. They can't let Seattle score first tomorrow. They must win. They can't let Lou Pinella's prediction come true. There must not be a game six. They Yankees can't let that happen.

When I was taking the train downtown last night we were stuck in the tunnel for 20 minutes. We were right outside of the Union Square station on the 4-5-6 lines. At first they said it was just a red signal, then after 15 minutes they said it was due to a police investigation. Actually it was more like 25-30 minutes. We were there a while. I was getting freaked out. Everything turned out to be fine but the subway is like a different world. When you are down there anything can happen above you and you wouldn't know.

My friend who lives in Staten Island works for CNBC and one of the editors there edited a segment "remembering their friends". CNBC lost a few of their regular guests in the terror attacks. So my friend had me watch it. I was in tears. The girl had footage of someone on CNN crying over the footage of the second plane crashing into the South Tower. Whoever it was just kinda whimpered and said, "Oh my God."

I know I've said it before but it bares repeating. I think the worst shot of all of the footage was the shot of lower Manhattan (it appeared to be taken from either Staten Island or New Jersey). The one that was taken immediately after the North Tower collapsed and the entire lower part of Manhattan was covered in a cloud of thick smoke. It looked like an inferno. I will never get that image out of my head. Of course the images of people falling to their death will never leave my mind either.

I wish I was going to the benefit concert tomorrow. I love Paul McCartney. He rocks..

Okay what the hell is wrong with people?!? Some woman is being charged with credit card fraud. Get this, her friend was killed in the World Trade Center attacks and she used the girl's credit card to go on a shopping spree. Throw her ass in jail! Don't bother going to a jury. Stupid bitch. She's lucky it wasn't my relative. She would have had the shit beaten out of her.

Man I cannot stop sneezing. It's ridiculous. Has anyone else ever sneezed so much that their nose gets bloody? Well, mine does. It's gross.

Yeah the day is almost over!

My best friend and I are going away in two weeks. Yippee! We are heading to Wilmington North Carolina. I have been there a few times already and my best wants to see what it's like. I hope the weather is nice while we are there. We are driving down…which should be fun. We're going to make mix tapes this weekend for the 10 hour road trip down there. I cannot wait. I need a vacation badly..

Do you think you love me? I think I love you! God I love that song.

Well I must be going home now. Well, in a few minutes.

I hope everyone has a safe weekend.

Stace
October 18th 2001

Something is wrong with my computer at home. It won't turn on. I was so angry last night. I hope I didn't lose anything.

Okay so my boy was 0-5 yesterday but the Yankees still won. The reason they won…well there were 2 reasons. Andy Pettitte pitched his ass off and Paul O'Neill smacked a 2 run homer. Yeah, the old warrior isn't done yet! Paulie O still has some fight in him.

So for the second Wednesday in a row I watched Dawson's Creek even though I said I wouldn't again. The only reason I watched is for Josh Jackson. He looked cute as usual. And they had a nice ass shot! No, not bare ass, it isn't NYPD Blue but it was a nice 'ass in tight chinos' shot. Woo hoo!

Speaking of bare asses, I got my best friend hooked on "Queer As Folk" which makes me really happy! I am such a bad influence. Hee.

So tonight I will be venturing onto the Staten Island Ferry for the first time in hmmmmmmm almost 20 years. Wow.

I hope the Yanks win tonight. But if they don't it's OK. I won't freak out.

Who am I kidding? THEY BETTER WIN!

Stace
October 17th 2001

I am a couple of days late because I was recuperating yesterday. But what a game Monday night!

I had a good time, my dad didn't yell at me once, the Yankees won and they advanced to the American League Championship Series! Woo hoo!

One of the asses at work that happens to be another disgruntled Met fan said, "Yeah let's see what they do against Seattle!" Well, at least they made it to the League Championships. Where are the Mets? Dumbass!

Man it was cold this morning! I was freezing at the train station. I was trying to hide behind a beam so I wouldn't feel the wind but it didn't help at all. My ass is too big.

Monday night, I had the displeasure of sitting in front of a person who apparently had never been to a baseball game, ever. He was asking the dumbest questions. See these are the people who piss me off. People who really like the Yankees can't get tickets for a playoff game because assholes like the one behind me take them. I had to listen to him asking about monument park in left field, asking why they retired so many numbers, asking who wore #1…I was ready to turn around and strangle him and his idiot friend. The answers to his stupid questions: the Yankees are the best team ever. They have the right to retire all of those numbers and Billy Martin wore #1.Dummy. That whole foursome pissed me off. One guy had no idea what the hell was happening. If you asked what a base hit was I'm sure he couldn't answer. Another one in the foursome kept falling asleep. The one guy who kinda knew what was going on was saying all the wrong things. The Yankees were 4-2 and he says, "We can go now. The Yankees are going to win." It was like the 4th inning I think. Then Oakland scores and cuts the lead to 4-3. He's lucky I didn't hit him. You don't say shit like that. Then he said something else and I wanted to turn around and smack him. I controlled myself.

Good lord.

I made the mistake of bringing someone who wasn't a baseball fan to a game in September. It annoyed me to no end. I wanted to strangle the person because he was being a total idiot. Now I only bring people who like baseball. During the playoffs you have to be a Yankee fan to attend a game with me but during the season I have been known to bring Boston fans to the Stadium.

So I have tickets for Sunday's game. Hopefully the series will be interesting by game 4. I am praying that the Mariners don't have a 3-0 lead.

I got a kick out of my dad. He was dancing to the "Cotton eyed Joe". Well, dancing is not the right word. He was bouncing. And to anyone who knows my dad that's pretty damn funny.

So how about my boy Derek Jeter kicking ass and taking numbers?

He's so awesome.

His girlfriend is cute…bitch.

And young….

And thin…BITCH.

Oh man last night I was convinced I was hearing sirens all night long. I hardly slept because I was tossing and turning all night. I couldn't get the noises out of my head.

It was creepy.

My friend drove by the wreckage downtown and she said her heart started beating really fast. She got so nervous.

I haven't been below 35th street since it happened. I am heading down in that direction tomorrow night. I have to take the ferry to Staten Island. I am nervous. I saw the skyline Monday night without the towers and got very upset.

I feel bad that the people at the Pentagon are being forgotten about.

I feel bad for the families left behind.

And how many more stories are going to come out where wives are finding out that they are pregnant and their husbands are gone? It's so heartwrenching. One poor girl's story was in the paper the other day. I wanted to personally send her a check just because I don't trust the organizations. I don't think that they are getting money to everyone.

Damn it! Why can't I be a millionaire? I would donate as much as I could.

Everytime I see Osama Bin Laden I get this fit of rage that travels through my body. I wanted to strangle the life out of his miserable body. I wish I could.

There was an Anthrax scare at my friend's job. She in a media company also. Not a news outlet but a Media buying/barter company. She was freaked out.

I think I am going to spend lazy time with my friends and family this weekend. I just want to be with them.

Journey is on. I love 80's cheese. Wait that's redundant, everything that came out of the 80's was cheesy. Could that be an oxymoron? 80's Cheese, jumbo shrimp, civil war etc.

Oh Louie Armstrong is on. What a Wonderful World…it used to be Louie. Now it's really scary. It's always been scary for other places in the world but not here.

My cousin is in Europe right now. Nothing bothers her she, flew over on Thursday. I think she's nuts. But I love her anyway. I wish I had her guts.

I am wearing a turtleneck and I am freezing my ass off in here! Damn. And I can't drink anymore hot chocolate cause I've already had it 2 times today..

Good news! The Anthrax scare is pretty much over here at NBC. They tested 500 people and no one was positive.(Just that one woman from last week) So they are going to clean up the infected areas.

We shouldn't have another problem here.

Phew!

The Yankee game starts at 4:00 today. That kinda sucks because I work until 5 and then I don't get home until 7. The game will be over by then. Hopefully the Yankees will be victorious. PLEASE LORD…Make them win the first game. That would be AWESOME.

I really need to do laundry tonight. And I really really need to clean my room this weekend. It's out of hand.

Stace
October 15th 2001

So was everyone's weekend as eventful as mine was? Ok so I am lying, the only eventful day was Friday. People were freaking out where I work and I was calm. How the hell did that happen? I am the most freaked out person normally but on Friday I was not freaking out which later on that day, freaked me out. Does that make sense? My friends were calling me and telling me to go home early and I was like, "Nah. I'm okay." Have I become so immune to this shit that I expect something bad to happen? I certainly hope not. The good news is that they found the source of the Anthrax and it was actually a letter from September 18th which means anyone who contracted the Anthrax would have had the symptoms by now.

Let's switch subjects. I get a kick of the people who just three short days ago were getting the brooms out. "Oakland's gonna sweep." "The Yankees have no chance!" Most of the people saying those things were disgruntled Met fans who were bitter because their loser team didn't even make the damn playoffs but I digress. Now here we are on Monday and the series is tied at 2 games apiece. I'll admit that I thought the Yankees would lose the series in 4 games. I was there on Thursday night. I saw how shitty they played and was disgusted by it. So disgusted that I wasn't going to bother watching Saturday's game. I was truly convinced that it was over but I ended up caving and watching the end of the game and I was glad I did. Derek Jeter made one of the best plays ever to save a run. Jorge Posada who applied the tag when Jeter made that great play also hit the deciding solo HR. I figured it would be nice if they could pull out a win yesterday but I honestly didn't think that they would win and score 9 runs. And now my faith is restored in my boys. As long as Jason Giambi doesn't take advantage of Yankee Stadium's short porch in rightfield, they could pull this off. They could win this series. Giambi is 2 for 12 in the series. That is big. On top of that Oakland is having a lot of trouble getting guys home. Thank God. If they can just contain Tejada and Long, then the Yanks could win.

Yippee!

It would be nice if the Yanks won, but it wouldn't be the end of the world if they lost. Now last year I wouldn't have felt that way but things have changed. I actually would feel better if the Yankees didn't make the World Series this year. With everything that's happening, I think it would be in everyone's best interest if the team with the moniker that is given to Americans overseas didn't participate in the World Series. When they were protesting in Pakistan, the protesters were burning a dummy that had the Yankees interlocking NY on the front and the back. Why? Because it is one of the most recognizable symbols on earth.

When the Yankees lost in the first round of the 1997 playoffs I cried an entire night! I even broke my TV remote when I smashed it against the refrigerator in disgust. So I am pretty intense when it comes to my boys. I love them. Yankee Stadium is my favorite place on earth. If I could get married there, I would. I have always been and will always be a Yankee fan. The funny thing about it is that I have been to Yankee Stadium literally hundreds of times and I never get sick of it. Maybe I should get a job with the Yankees?

Nah.

I would really freak out. I couldn't even imagine working there everyday.

It's amazing how all of the idiots who were bothering me on Friday about the Yankees being in an 0-2 hole haven't said one thing to me yet today and it's 12:30. I actually threatened people on Friday that if the Yankees did lose this weekend and they teased me about it that I would throw a stapler at their heads. Don't mess with me. Especially about my Yankees.

OOO!!! My dad just called! He may be able to get tickets for tonight!!! Woo hoo!

Wait if I go I can't change the channel. There is no way of avoiding it. I have to watch the game if I am there. At least when I am home I can switch channels if I am afraid to watch. Yikes….What a dilemma.

And on the flip side of things, I have never been to a deciding game of a series. Like if the Yankees win they go to the ALCS. I have never been to a game like that! And I don't want my first time to jinx them either. But my brother may be going and if he does then they have a good chance of winning because he was at most of the 1996 games and they won the series that year. That little shit was at Game 6 while I was at a bar in Oswego getting trashed!

I shouldn't complain about that. I had people buying me drinks all night just because I was wearing a Yankee hat! It was so great. It was Saturday October 26th 1996, the night that daylight savings ended and they pushed the clocks back. We had an extra hour of drinking that night. So I was blitzed. I drank Labatt's Blue all night. It was great. Then I spent the next day on the couch all day watching TV with my housemates. I vividly remember having 4 freshly opened Labatt's Blue in front of me at the Shed (a popular Oswego bar) and drinking them all at the same time. People were chanting and clapping, "Let's go Yankees!" We were all just really happy that night. I had the best time making fun of two of my housemates who were Met and Indian fans.

Here we are in 2001 and the Yankees have won three championships in a row and 4 out of the last 5. It would be a nice thing for New York if the Yankees could win it all this year.

Aw crap…My dad got the tickets. I don't know whether to be happy or to be scared.

Please let them win. I have never been to a clincher before. I have always been to first or second games never a do or die game. Oh boy. I have ajida.

Stace
October 11th 2001

I really can't stand people today. Everyone's an idiot and the whole world can kiss my big J-Lo butt. I don't understand it. Other times people are up my ass about Yankee tickets and today I can't even give them away.

It's a baseball game! It's a distraction from all the crap that's happening! DARN IT!

Ok (it's fifteen minutes later) I may have someone who will take the tickets. Thank goodness!

My ear is ringing.

I hate downloading fonts onto my computer that don't have the symbols as well as the letters and numbers. How the hell are you supposed to write the contractions?

Can I ever be anti social? Why must people make a comment when I am not perky? I cannot always be perky people. I have bad days just like everyone else. I get PMS just like every other woman.

Oh one of the obnoxious higher ups in my office is standing by my cubicle. He looks down his nose at me and I hate that more than anything. Like he's so damn special. Get away from my desk douchebag!

He's such a jerk. One day I said "Good morning" to him and got no response. I felt like saying, "Ok fuck you then."

One of my co-workers gets a really gross cough every winter and it's starting already. Hearing it makes me dry heave. Oh Ick. I am going to puke.

Hmmm it's 11:30 so I am trying to decide what I should eat for lunch. Maybe a Chicken Parm sandwich? We will see what my stomach says.

The IT department is screwing with the computers at work and messing everything up. We got a new printer/fax/copier machine and we took classes like 3 months ago to learn about it. And they finally installed it. Do you think I remember anything from 3 months ago? Of course I don't.

Someone sent me an email with a gif file of the Twin Towers ducking out of the way of the planes. I don't know if I like that.

So is this email about avoiding the malls on Halloween a stupid hoax or should we heed the girl's warning? Well, I know I won't be near any malls just in case.

Then again according to Nostradamus the world was going to end in 1996 or something. And here we are five years later. The world is still here. Unfortunately it's a lot scarier than it was in 1996.

Anyone want to join the armed forces with me? I can still do it right?

When I came up out of Grand Central this morning a couple of guys were selling fake designer purses and some of them were really nice! But I was in a rush to get to work, wait did I really just say that?

Okay lunchtime. What shall I eat? I am leaning towards the Chicken Parm but someone just walked in with Ranch One. I am a sucker for Ranch One. We'll see what happens when I walk outside.

Stace
October 10th 2001

Well, it's playoff time again. Yippee! Not.

I am a little paranoid about going to Yankee Stadium tomorrow night. Some ass at work made a joke that I shouldn't worry, if they blow up Yankee Stadium it would probably be during the World Series not the first round. Jackass.

Sometimes I wish it was appropriate to slap a co worker.

Okay Stacey's pissed off. My dad decides to inform me that he doesn't want to go the Yankee game tomorrow night. Well, that's great. Could he have waited until maybe tomorrow night at 6PM to tell me??? Now I need a fourth person and because he's not going I don't have a ride home which means I have to stay in the city tomorrow night which I did not want to do. I don't want to be in Manhattan any longer than I have to be. What a pain in my ass! I would have given the tickets to someone. Well, not given, I would have sold them to someone. I didn't spend $828 dollars on playoffs tickets to not get any of that money back. Of course, when the Yankees are swept in the first round I'll have credit towards next year's season tickets.

I know I shouldn't be complaining about this right now but he just really pissed me off. Stupid PMS.

I was going to watch the West Wing but I am too tired. I am going to bed.

Stace
October 8th 2001

The retaliation has begun. Yesterday I was on the phone with my best friend when she said, "hold on I have a beep". So she put me on hold and I waited for about 10-15 seconds and she comes back and says, "We started." I immediately ran into my den, changed the channel to CNN and said, "Holy shit."

Is anyone else terrified that they are going to go to a mall and be blown up by a suicide bomber? Or that someone will release some poisonous gas into the subway system? Am I the only paranoid one? Oh good.

One of the local guys who was missing in the Trade Center attacks was a guy named Tom Foley. He was featured in People magazine's 50 Most Eligible Bachelors issue in the summer of 2000. His brother found his leg in the rubble.

I found out that one of the guys who helped renovate my house earlier this year was killed on September 11th. He was a firefighter and he also helped his brother with his contracting business. He was 1 of 9 boys. His funeral was this weekend.

Last night they showed a program about New York City firefighters. It was a documentary showing 'a day in the life' of the FDNY. They had interviews cut in with footage. The first guy they showed was my cousin's childhood friend who perished along with a large number of his company on September 11th. He was saying in the interview that he would tell his kids all the time that there may come a day when daddy won't come home and that they would have to be prepared for it.

When I was watching the news they showed something from our military, I don't know if it was part of a ship or what, but it had "This is for the NYPD and FDNY" carved into it. I got all excited when I saw that.

My dad has little flag stickers on his car. My mom had a "United We Stand" bumper sticker on her car. They are so cute.

This weekend I was watching one of the news channels and they showed that view from across the river right after the second tower collapsed and the smoke was all over lower Manhattan...it gave me the chills.

I am supposed to go to a friend's house on Friday and she lives in Staten Island. I am going to see the skyline up close when I take the ferry over there. I am almost afraid to go. I may start crying.

I still cry when I read articles about the firefighters' memorials. And when my friends told me about Tom Foley's brother finding his leg, I nearly lost it. He found his leg. I cannot believe that's all that was left.

I just can't believe it. I still cannot believe that this happened. The Twin Towers were attacked, they collapsed and thousands of people are dead. It's been nearly four weeks and it still doesn't seem like it's possible. I look downtown and I keep thinking that they'll be there...They have to be there.

Stace
October 1st 2000

I have to get this off my chest. There is certain etiquette you must follow when you attend baseball games, certain unspoken rules you must abide by so you will make your experience and the experience of others enjoyable. With that being said, I must mention something that happened yesterday.

I have had season tickets at Yankee Stadium for three seasons now. I sit near the same people for most of the season. Some of us sell our tickets when we can't attend games, but it's the same people for the most part. Anyway, yesterday one of the groups who usually sit to my left weren't there yesterday. My seats are numbers 5-8, and that means I have to walk past seats 1-4. Okay the idiots in seats 1-4 did not get up to let us in or out, THE ENTIRE FUCKING GAME. My best friend decided to step on their toes purposely whenever she had to leave to go the concession stand or the bathroom. I didn't step on their toes but I should have. What the hell is wrong with people? Those rows are not wide at all. You are SUPPOSED to get up to let people out. Everyone else was doing it. The guys in the row behind me who have become my buddies were saying things out loud whenever they were leaving their aisles. They were saying, "Oh look people are getting up to let us out because that's what normal people do!" It was so funny.

So they had a nice ceremony for Cal Ripken Jr. It was his last game in New York. He made a speech, which was cool, because he mentioned Yankee players he has come to admire and then he mentioned Jeffrey Maier. For those of you who don't know and those who think the name sounds familiar. Flashback to October 1996: It's the American League Championship Series, the New York Yankees are playing the Baltimore Orioles. Derek Jeter hits a fly ball to right field that looks like it's going to be caught by rightfielder Tony Tarasco but lo and behold a 12 year old boy from New Jersey named Jeffrey Maier reaches out, over the wall and catches the ball. It was clearly interfered with, yet umpire Richie Garcia rules it a home run and the Yankees end up winning the first game of the series. They ultimately won the Pennant and the World Series that year. Anyway, I laughed at his reference. At least he has a sense of humor about it now.

Cal Ripken is a class act. On September 8th 1995 he broke Lou Gehrig's consecutive games streak and normally I don't like when people break records held by Yankees but I was happy for him. Cal Ripken Jr is the kind of player whose demeanor every ballplayer should emulate. All the little boys who are playing Little League now should see how Cal Ripken performs, how he carries himself, how he goes out and plays everyday. He played over 2600 consecutive games! Some people don't realize how incredible that is. That's an incredible feat, especially now with all of these pretty boys who sit out 6 weeks because of turf toe. And I will include my boy Derek Jeter in the pretty boy category. "Oh my stomach hurts I think I'll sit out for 3 weeks." Cal will be missed.

I was watching ESPN the other day and they showed Barry Bonds hitting his 69th HR. Yippee! Not…Anyway, they also showed morons diving into the bay to fight each other for the ball. Is anyone else worried that someone may get hurt? Ok maybe I'm the only one. Speaking of getting hurt, I witnessed so many people tumbling to catch foul balls yesterday at Yankee Stadium. I can understand trying to get a ball hit by Cal Ripken but people were diving over the people in front of them (on the upper deck) to catch a foul ball by Geronimo Gil. Hello?! What's wrong with people? You are in the upper deck of a baseball stadium! There is no need to jump in the air or dive for a foul ball. They really need to stop selling so much beer at baseball stadiums. People are crazy to begin with but add alcohol to that mix and they are downright scary!

Oh by the way when I saw the news scroll on Thursday it said that Jesse Jackson was doing some sort of peace march in Pakistan, you know when the news scrolls are incorrect at first and then they change their info? Yeah that's what happened on Thursday. I saw that scroll when the news first broke. I suppose Mr. Jackson's people didn't have their info straight. Or maybe Mr. Jackson wasn't sure of which story to use. I liked Darrell Hammond's impression of Rev. Jackson on Saturday Night Live. It was right on.

I write my rants at all different times of the day. One paragraph could be written at 9:38AM and the next one could be written at 8:15PM. I also write what's off the top of my head. I don't pick an order. I am ranting. So to the person out there who keeps bugging me, BITE ME. And don't read my page if you don't like it.

Do I go to the Taliban website? No. Do I go to Mariah Carey's website? No. It's pretty clean cut and simple. Don't go to a website if you don't like it.

Our company sent an email around about Emergency Drills and evacuation procedures. Each floor has a fire warden and people who assist them. Do I know the fire warden? No, of course not. But I do know where the stairs are.

So I guess Mariah Carey's movie will be heading straight to video, huh? Hee. That makes me so happy. I wrote a rant in July about the fact that I was so afraid that the American public would go see her movie and make it number one at the box office. Instead they opted to see "Hardball" which looks like a really cute movie, "American Pie 2" which has been out for two months and about 9 other movies instead.

Who told Mariah Carey she should make a movie? Who are the idiots who casted her? Some people are meant to sing, some are meant to act. Jennifer Lopez should stick to acting. Madonna should stick to singing. Mariah Carey should stick with singing. More singers who are going to be starring in movies later this year and next year: Britney Spears, Lass Bass from NSYNC, and Mandy Moore. And as much as I hate to say this, Lance Bass's movie actually looks cute. Although I will not to pay $10 to see it, I will wait for it to come out on video.

Someone slap Ben Affleck please. What is wrong with him? He was stopped doing 114 mph on a highway in Georgia. Have you ever been in a car going that fast? I have and it's pretty friggin scary. The thing that bothers me about it is that he had passengers in his car with him. It's one thing for someone to speed like that alone but to do it with people in the car?! What a jackass! One miscue while driving that fast and you're dead.

Oh gee how could I forget? Jennifer Lopez got married this weekend. I am actually happy for her. I know she wants to start a family and at least she decided to get married before she had a kid. The thing that I find troublesome is that she got married a few years back to a guy she hardly knew and they divorced just about a year later. Sometimes you know the second you meet a person that you want to spend the rest of your life with them. And I hope that happens for her. But I'll just say that I won't be shocked if the marriage ends within the next two years.

I cannot believe it's October already. September was such a horrible month. Hopefully October 2001 will be better.

One of the firefighters who perished in the World Trade Center attack had just gotten married in July. He lived a couple of towns away from me and was a cousin of my neighbor. The wedding announcement was in yesterday's paper. It was very sad. Could you imagine being a widow less than two months after getting married?

Ok I am back from lunch. I had Burger King today. I really need to cut down on the fast food. It's bad and I think I can hold off on French Fries for the next 6 months.

I don't want to be at work. Do I ever? I'd rather be home in bed, curled up with my cat. I am sick from being out in the cool, rainy weather yesterday. I didn't stay for the whole game (It was called in the 15th inning) but the time I was there did enough damage. I just had a sneezing fit and my coworkers were like, "Enough!" I told them to just bless me for the rest of the day.

Ooo!!!! The Rose is on! I love this song! It's one of my favorite songs of all time. One of the many times I've been drunk in my life, I sang this song at a bar. And no it wasn't for Kareoke and it wasn't on the jukebox. I just felt like it.

My nose has that "I think I'm gonna sneeze feeling".

I was watching "House of Style" on Saturday morning and I was getting motion sickness watching Molly Sims. In case you don't know who she is, she is the Old Navy chick. You know, the annoying blonde who deserves a smack upside her head? I thought Cindy Crawford was bad when she hosted the show back in the early 1990s. Why do these models think that shimmying while talking is a good thing? It's dizzying. I was exhausted after one segment. Good lord. She needs to stop moving. And that goes for that Rebecca Rankin person on VH1 as well. NO it's not a good idea to constantly shimmy your shoulders while speaking. You look like you are on something and can't sit still. I'm not saying be stiff but the shimmying has to go.

Yikes.

I got one of those dry erase calendars so I can be more organized at work. We'll see how long it lasts.

I checked my AOL email before and I literally had 45 sex site emails. I hate that. I had 73 new messages and 45 of them were porn related emails. That's sick.

I heard people are lining up to go to the observation deck of the Empire State Building so they can try to see the site formerly known as the World Trade Center through the viewfinder thingys.

And tourists are riding the Staten Island Ferry so they can see the skyline without the towers and take pictures.

Jackasses.

On that note I will end my rambling for today...unless of course someone pisses me off during my yearlong commute home.

Stace
September 27th 2001
My brother is coming home!!! My baby brother is finally coming home! I am so excited. Can't you tell? Of course a week after he gets home I'll want to kill him, but that's what little brothers are for. I knew it was strange when he called last night and asked me how I was. He usually doesn't care.

Yeah!

So the season premiere of Friends is finally going to be on tonight which means we will find out who the father of Rachel's baby is. I really hope they don't make it Ross's baby. They are so over and have been for like 5 years.

The office is soooooo quiet. A lot of people in the office and a lot of clients we deal with are out for the Jewish holiday. Thank goodness! I get to catch up on stuff I haven't been able to do the past few weeks.

Okay so now there is a war of words between the New York Mets and New York Yankees about the Twin Tower attacks and how they contributed, who wore the hats, which team donated the most money blah blah blah. Okay who gives a shit? Mike Stanton was out of line and so was Bobby Valentine. Thousands of people died. Who cares if the Yankees gave more than the Mets or vice versa?

Unfortunately some of the stupid people I work with on a daily basis are not out for the Jewish holiday and they are pestering me.

Oh and I did take Barry Bonds's statement out of context yesterday but he's still a jackass. The number of home runs he hits this season and the number of games his team wins this season still doesn't matter.

The Fire Marshall in our building came over the loudspeaker and announced that the smoke we were smelling in the building was from the outside and that the building was secure….yeah and the idiots in Tower 2 told the workers there that they were safe too.

Have I ever told you how much I love Queen? I was listening to the classic rock station in New York and "Fat Bottomed Girls" was on. I love that song.

Speaking of songs I love, Elton John's song "I Want Love" is on. I love love love this song a lot. I am so happy I caught it. I usually catch the end.

My brother's coming home!!!!

Sorry.

My mom is so happy about her baby coming home. Good lord. She's so funny.

Is it 5 yet?

I HATE THIS SONG!!!! "It's Been A While" By Staind. It's on every five seconds. Radio kills songs. The DJ's play them way too much and you get sick of them after a week. That's why I listen to classic rock and to the oldies station.

My grandma is going to be 93 years old October 9th. Can you believe that? The Cubs won the World Series the year she was born and that was the last time they won. She remembers World War I, Prohibition, The Great Depression, World War II, etc. She was telling me stories about growing up in NY back then and what they did for fun. It was interesting and she remembers a lot.

Wow! "Oh Sherrie" by Steve Perry is on! Man I wish I were 10 again. Things were so much easier back then.. The thing I worried about most when I was 10 was whether or not Joe Mackey sat near me in class. Now at 27 I am worried about being blown up in a terrorist attack, worried that no one will fall in love with me and I won't be able to have a family. I don't have a problem falling for people…unfortunately that is a problem.

Ridiculous, right?

Here I am complaining about stupid things while people are still waiting for word on their loved ones.

I went downstairs to get lunch…I didn't end up getting anything. Anywho, Donald Rumsfeld was on TV talking about the crap going on today. While he was on I watching the scroll at the bottom at the screen and it said that the Taliban has invited Jesse Jackson to lead a peace march to Pakistan. Um Mr. Jackson if you go, you're crazy.

I wish people would realize that I am feeling anti social today and that they would stop bothering me. When I don't actively pursue a conversation with you then I don't want to talk to you. Isn't that simple?

I finally found out who is hosting Saturday Night Live this weekend. I am so bad. I never know what is going on at my own network. Ok I did know that the Friends premiere was tonight. Reese Witherspoon is the host and Alicia Keys is the musical guest. I adore Reese Witherspoon, I think she is great.

I saw Michael Jackson's new video. He really scares me.

Enrique Igelsias is a wimp. He sounds like he is crying in his new song.

Critics are panning Inside Schwartz, which is debuting after Friends tonight. I thought it looked funny but then again they could be showing every funny moment in the trailer like they do with movies. Isn't that a bummer? I hate going to see a "funny" and being disappointed because the funny parts were shown in the trailer and the rest of the movie sucked.

Another pet peeve: people who walk into an elevator before the people who are getting out can leave it.

ELVIS IS ON! They showed a clip of his 1968 comeback special last night on VH1. Damn that man was sex on a stick. My mom saw him in concert in the 1970's right before he got really big and bloated.

I got the new issue of Marie Claire yesterday and there were a couple of pictures of Lil Kim. That girl is dire need of a stylist. She cannot dress to save her life. Everything she wears (or doesn't wear) is tasteless. She wears pasties on her boobs in public. She's a pig.

Van Hagar is on right now. "When It's Love" was out 13 years ago, right now. AHHH! That's scary. I was a freshman in high school. And yes it's Van Hagar because it's a Sammy Hagar song. I do like this song. I like most of the songs from the Sammy Hagar era of Van Halen. I think my favorite from that period is "Why Can't This Be Love". I think that may have been the first release from Van Hagar.

Is it Friday yet?!

NO it's not!!!! I want the weekend to get here already. I have to clean my room. I have a friend visiting from Atlanta next weekend and if she's staying in my house I should be able to have her at least walk into my room at one point.

One of the guys in the office adopted a little girl from South America. His wife brought her in today. She is soooo friggin cute! They named her Lilly Maria and she is just precious. She was trying to eat my coworker Takiyah's hair! It was very funny.

Oh that's it. I am about to quit my job. I am going to go postal. I hate everybody. I want to go away for like 6 months and be a bum. I cannot handle this place anymore. EVERYONE SUCKS. And they are not helping my already foul mood. I am in a foul mood. A very foul mood; an extremely foul mood. I suggest everyone just stay the hell away from me.

Stace
September 26th 2001

Michael Jordan is coming back…again. The one bright spot is that he is donating his first year's salary to the relief effort. I think all athletes and famous people who already have millions of dollars should donate whatever they can to the relief cause.

Barry Bonds is a jackass. "The most important thing right now is whether or not my team wins ball games." Yeah Barry that's what's important now. Not the fact that the United States is being threatened by terrorist groups. I never liked Barry Bonds and I do not want him to break Mark McGwire's home run record. Every ML pitcher who faces him from now until the end of the season should intentionally walk him. He's a selfish prick.

It's September and that means that the Yankees are once again limping into the post season. Some things never change.

Last night the Yankees played their first home game since the World Trade Center attacks on September 11th. They had a pregame ceremony to honor the victims and the heroes. It was subdued compared to other ceremonies of the past few days. They had an Irish tenor (who's name escapes me at the moment) sing a low-key version of "God Bless America". Then the Harlem Boys Choir (who kicks ass by the way) sang "We Shall Overcome" and they also joined Michael Bolton while he sang "Lean On Me" and the son of the Fire Commissioner sang the national anthem. There were no music tracks, no Rockette style kicking, and no overblown theatrics. It was respectful. They way it should be. By the way, the Yankees lost.

I am supposed to go to Yankee Stadium on Sunday for Cal Ripken's last game in New York and I am terrified. I am terrified that some freak is going to try and blow up Yankee Stadium. As much as non New York baseball fans hate the Yankees, they are the symbol of America. What are Americans called overseas? Yankees. See my point? I will join the Marines if anymore innocent American lives are taken away. I want to kill Bin Laden myself. I will shoot the motherfucker right between the eyes.

We need to get the poor Afghan rebels, women and children who are against the Taliban out of there. I don't know where we should put them but they need to get the hell out of there. The Taliban doesn't recognize women as people. They are not allowed to do most of things that women in the US take for granted. It's very sad and it makes me angry that those barbarians think it's OK to kill women for breaking their barbaric rules.

I think I slept 2 hours last night. It's become an every night occurrence. I am so glad I didn't witness the events of two weeks ago in person. I would be in a mental institution. I know of a couple of people who saw it first hand. One girl worked for Morgan Stanley in Tower 2. She got out OK but she saw things that no one should ever see in their lifetime. She is not doing well at all.

Ok the male species is back in the top slot of the shit list. Instead of avoidance you should try talking about things. Tell people how you feel instead of not calling them. If someone did something to make you upset, TELL HIM OR HER. Don't pussyfoot around the issue. Damn it. It's called being an adult and discussing things. I tell you how I feel, you tell me how you feel. Nah that's too hard. Just stop calling. That's the solution.

When the hell am I gonna learn?

I think I need to go shopping again…

Stace
September 25th 2001

Well I did it. I chopped my hair off. I literally got half of my hair cut off. I didn't tell my mom I was doing it so she was a little shocked when she saw me. It was very funny.

It makes me look younger. It's also very easy to do now. I didn't even need a second towel for my hair this morning! And I had time to blow it straight! Not that it stayed straight with the weather being as crappy as it was, but at least I made the effort to actually "do" my hair.

I was watching MTV last night and I was glued to "Making the Video". They featured Britney Spears' new video "I'm a Slave 4 U". Okay I know I like to make fun of her, but that girl has a kick ass body. I would walk around half naked too if I were her. Damn. I wish I had the life of a famous person. I could work out 3 hours a day and have a kick ass body too. Oh well.

Speaking of bodies, the stress of the last couple of weeks has caused me to drop a dress size! WOO HOO! I love when that happens! See? It's not a bad thing to skip a meal or three!

I know I complain about this a lot but it needs to be repeated. Why can't I ever eat lunch without being interrupted??? It would be a friggin miracle.

Now I have ajida. Is that how you spell it? Well, the spell check didn't put a squiggly line underneath it, although it put one underneath squiggly.

OH!!! I forgot! If you live in New York City you must come to Rockefeller Center. I know I usually chase people away but this is an exception. They took down all of the International Flag that they had in the Plaza and replaced them with Old Glory. I have never seen so many American flags in my life! It's quite the sight. I may take a picture of it tomorrow.

Hey ladies the men only like long hair theory is a myth. I found that out yesterday when every single guy in my office complimented my new haircut. A couple of them were actually gushing which I found a little scary but hey it's nice to have people be nice like that.

Oh the male species is once again climbing the shit list. The guys at work helped to keep them from the top slot but one man in particular may hurt his fellow idiots by landing them in the #2 position. And no, it's not a person I am involved with, well not directly. It's a person who hurt someone I am very close to beyond repair. He's lucky I don't track him down and beat him up. Jackass.

So my brother is afraid of coming back to New York. He's down in Florida being a bum. I want to call him and tell him that a lot of those terrorists are in Florida. So he'd come home. I haven't seen him in months. As a matter of fact the last time I saw my brother was before my surgery in May. That's too long. I miss the little shit.

I got a jury duty notice. I am not happy about that. If it was local I wouldn't care but they want me to go downtown to Foley Square to report. I want to stay as far away from lower Manhattan as possible. It's bad enough I work in Midtown. I don't think I can do it. I know I shouldn't live in fear but I can't really help it. I actually don't want to see the devastation. It's one thing to see it on TV but my dad says you can't believe how bad it really is until you see it in person. He walked down as far as he could the other day to see for himself. He used to work in the financial district so he has fond memories of working down in that area. I used to go down there with him sometimes when I was younger.

Halloween 1982 was a Sunday and instead of trick or treating my parnents took my brother and I to the Twin Towers. We saw Tom Selleck. It was awesome. So we have fond memories of that observation deck.

I am not happy about reading John Ashcroft's advice for us to stay on alert because there is clear and present danger for more attacks.

Does he want me to have another panic attack?

I need to try and sleep tonight. I didn't have a good night's sleep last night.

Stace
September 23rd 2001 12:22am

Okay I am back, bored on a Saturday night. There's not much to do where I live anyway. No one wants to go into the city. I was playing solitaire for a while. I finally won a game after about 50 attempts. I was getting so frustrated. Stupid game. And I cannot play freecell, mainly because I don't want to make the effort to understand it. My best friend and dad play freecell. I play solitaire. It's easier.

My dad's friend came (my word processing software doesn't let me type the word 'came' for some strange reason so I usually end up typing cane or ca,me and then I forget to change it--sorry TMI) over yesterday to install a new front window in my bedroom. Now I have dust and chunks of plaster all over the floor near my window. I wish my dad would have told me that they were going to do it, I would have cleaned my room. How embarrassing.

I've always been a slob. The only time in my life when I wasn't a slob was college for some strange reason. I was really neat. Scary neat. I made my bed everyday, I organized my closet like once a week....why can't I do that now??

Oh so I did go shopping this afternoon. I got another Kate Spade bag which brings my total to 3. I can't believe I bought another one. I also saw a Coach bag that I absolutely loved but it was $298. I could get it because I have so much money saved up for splurges like that, but I think I am going to donate that $298 and a little more to the Fireman's Fund. I was actually going to set aside $1000 to donate towards the Twin Tower relief fund and split that money. Some would go to the Red Cross, some to the firemen, policemen, etc. There are also a couple of families who are in need also. Women who were left behind with kids and no money to pay for their houses. It sucks. If I made more money I would give more. I think it is great that Jim Carrey and Rosie O'Donnell donated a $1,000,000 each. Bill Gates donated $10,000,000 and some people were complaining that it wasn't enough. Are those people insane? That's Bill Gates' money! Not Microsoft's money but his own, from his own account. How dare someone criticize him for "not giving enough". Where the hell are Ted Turner and Donald Trump?!

The New York Mets were told that they are allowed to wear the NYPD and NYFD hats for as long as that want. It's good to see MLB not being pricks for a change.

Once again: Beef up security at Yankee Stadium especially since I'll be there next Sunday to see Cal Ripken Jr.'s last game at the Stadium. Thanks.

They could take 20 minutes searching me as I walk in, I wouldn't care. As long as we are safe. But again I go to Yankee Stadium a lot and the security people are not that great. So I hope to God that they hired new people.

Let's discuss last night's telethon. Okay first things first, how cool would it have been if you called the 1-866 number and spoke with Jack Nicholson or Al Pacino?! I would have freaked out!

The musical performances were really good. They should make a CD of the songs and sell it. I'd buy it.

I especially LOVED the Dixie Chicks song. Natalie Maines' (the lead singer) voice is incredible. They kicked ass. So did Faith Hill. And Billy Joel and Bruce Springsteen. Sting singing "Fragile" which in my humble opinion is one of his most beautiful songs was also great.

Everyone did a good job. There are some things about the event that bothered me but I'll save that for tomorrow's rant.

I decided today that I am going to cut my hair off. I am sick of it. It's just sits there. There's no style anymore so I am going to cut about 3-4 inches off. I want it between my chin and my shoulders again. I like that length. It's been a while since it was that short. Hopefully I won't chicken out.

I am going to look in magazines for the cut I want though. I am not going to go in there and be like, "Yeah chop my hair off." Because I'll end up looking like a boy. Yikes.

Actually I want it the length that Madonna had hers in the "Beautiful Strange"video. It wasn't too short. I think it just skimmed her shoulders.

Okay enough about that. I am going to bed. I am going shopping again tomorrow. I need new boots and dressy shoes for work.

Sorry. I felt like sharing....

Stace
September 22nd 2001

How come when I think things are going to be good, they suck? Just when I thought that things were going to get better for me BOOM! Gone. Oh well.

I shouldn't be surprised because that's what happens to Stacey time and time again.

I am never going to let myself get happy too quickly ever again.

Damn I have to cut this short because I was just invited to go shopping! YIPPEE!!! I am going to spend lots and lots of money! Because I can!

Oh wait, one more thing. I was watching the news last night and they showed Anti-American protests in Pakistan and the people were beating and burning a dummy that had a New York Yankee "NY" logo on it. Now that freaked me out. We need some extra security at Yankee Stadium people.

Stace
September 17th 2001

Well, this weekend was surreal. I was at a birthday party on Saturday. My friend's son turned 1 year old. It was a momentous occasion because his entire first year on this earth was spent going to doctors and specialists because he had a heart defect. He had surgery to correct it this July and he has made a full recovery and will have a normal childhood. Well, hopefully. The events this past week may prevent all of us from having a normal life for a while. Talk of the tragedy could not be avoided, even at such a happy occasion. Unfortunately the talk was of violent solutions to the tragedy and some people had pretty horrific ideas. I was actually sitting there nodding and adding my own two cents but inside I was terrified by what I heard.

I went to the movies on Saturday night to try to escape the madness. I had been glued to my TV for almost 5 days straight. I think everyone had been. It was hard to escape. Thank goodness for movie channels because I was home from work on Friday and couldn't take the news coverage anymore. How many times have they shown the planes going into the towers? I'd estimate around 5,000,000 times. I am so glad no one had video of the plane going into the Pentagon. So Friday while at home I attempted to watch movies. I finally saw Moonlight and Valentino, which was the first movie Jon Bon Jovi did. Damn he looked good. Of course I flipped right back to the coverage after it ended. It's like a drug. It's scary how obsessed everyone is with this event. And you can't help it. As much as I don't want to think about an actual war occurring I can't help but watch everything.

So back to the movie I saw on Saturday. My friends and I saw "Rock Star". Everyone's not going to enjoy this movie, but if you were around in the 1980's and remember the "hair metal" bands, you'll appreciate it for what it is. It was a cute movie. And it helped us to not think about things.

I found out this weekend that I know more people who are missing and presumed dead. It's so sad. One woman lost both her husband and her brother in the collapse. Both men worked for Cantor Fitzgerald. A former neighbor of mine lost his wife. She was four months pregnant with their first child.

Was anyone else hysterically crying while watching the CEO of Cantor Fitzgerald?? He broke my heart. Actually, all of the people who were looking for missing family members made me cry. And the stories of people leaving goodbye messages for their loved ones. Good Lord, how heart wrenching! I don't know what's worse, making that call or getting it. And how brave were the people in the plane that went down in Pennsylvania! They brought that plane down. They sacrificed their lives for the people in Washington. It's just unbelievable.

I really feel bad for Arab-Americans. I even feel bad for people who aren't Arab-Americans, but who have the same features and coloring. People are staring them down as if they did something wrong. And people are being attacked and killed. People need to calm down. Not every Arab is evil and not every American is good. There is good and bad in every culture, every religion, and every gender. We just have to hunt down the bad ones and get rid of them.

Of course, that is going to be a hard task.

Hopefully we'll get a bunch of countries behind us.

I have to say seeing the other countries mourning was touching. The thing that was amazing to me was how in England they played our National Anthem during the changing of the guards. That had never happened in history before last week.

In other horrific news an Italian race car driver who was competing in the American Memorial lost both of his legs in an accident. I am not a big fan of NASCAR or Formula One just for that reason, seeing a scary or deadly accident.

Why do people insist on calling me during lunch? Can't I eat?!

My dad is an Army veteran and wants to go back. I thought it was cute when he said it. But he was serious. He said he would be a cook for the boys.

Rudy Giuliani for President 2004! Hell yeah! I know I badmouthed him when stories of his impotence came out … could you blame me? But he proved himself to be one of the best mayors ever. Amen.

Let me say one thing, I do not envy George W. Bush. That poor man has one hell of a task ahead of him.

I am eating lunch and I am actually able to eat everything. I have been sick to my stomach since last Tuesday. I even bought desert.

As I was walking to my building, people looked a little more normal to me. When I returned to work on Thursday people had that 'deer in headlights' look about them. Everytime there was a noise or a siren went off people jumped. There is still that fear but I think it's less on the surface.

And thank goodness for the radio. I am glad I am able to listen to music again. I have those fleeting moments of normalcy. Then something brings me back into the depths of constant nervousness. I am usually a little shaky but I found yesterday while shopping (another attempt at normalcy) I couldn't sign my name legibly because I was shaking so damn much. It's a sucky feeling. Is sucky a word? Well, now it is.

The New York Post printed out the names of the lost firefighters, cops and EMS workers. Now I am afraid that I may know more of the missing.

Everytime I read an article about the families, who were left behind, especially the ones with young children, I want to donate as much money as I can. Everyone should. We should all donate money, clothing, equipment etc.

Once again, God Bless everyone.

Stace
September 15th 2001

Why do news channels insist on showing people falling to their deaths? I can't take it anymore. And it's not like they warn you, they just show it. My mom showed me a picture from Tuesday of a man who was standing on the ledge of a window about a floor below where the first plane hit in the north tower. I am pretty sure that he was gone a few minutes after that picture was taken. It's some scary shit. Yet I have people telling me that the Americans deserve it. People who got mad at me for writing my rant yesterday are saying that the thousands of people who died this week deserved it.

Yeah because you love peace.

Fuck you.

I have news for you. It wasn't only Americans who were killed. British, German, Arabs, Chinese, Japanese...you name the country, they lost a person. So once again fuck you.

Don't tell me how to react.

Stace

September 14th 2001

I am apologizing for my comments on my main page (which I took off) about the Middle East and how I would make it parking lot. It was a knee jerk reaction to Tuesday's events. I am not really a big fan of death and destruction in any form. So here I am apologizing for that remark but I will not take back what I said in my rant on Wednesday.

I watched on TV as thousands of people died. It's not like it happened, they talked about it on the news and then showed the aftermath. I watched live on TV as two hijacked planes filled with innocent people crashed into the Twin Towers and then I watched in horror as those two 110 story buildings, which were still filled with people collapse into a pile of rubble. I WATCHED IT HAPPEN! People in downtown Manhattan watched as people fell 90 stories to their deaths. People running out of the buildings had to step over dead bodies and body parts. So you know what? Don't tell me how to react to something like that. If I want to be angry. I will be angry. It's called Freedom of Speech. We have that here.

And I am not blaming the entire Middle East for Tuesday's events. (Once again a kneejerk reaction and I am not the only one who had that reaction) I think the thing that set me off was seeing Palenstinians (men, women and children) celebrating on the West Bank. Oh and hearing about the group of guys who were cheering as the Twin Towers collapsed. But I do realize that the group of lunatics who pulled off this 'act of war' and the maniacs who support them are a small number compared to the many allies we have in the Middle East.

And to the girls who got pissed off at me, I am not against foreigners. Read my rants more carefully and you'll see that. The one rant I did write on April 25th was filled with "advice" for anyone visiting New York and it was in gest. It's called a sense of humor.

I also realize that the U.S. is not completely innocent. Hell, if I had it my way, we as a nation, wouldn't help anyone. We would let countries fight their own battles and stay the hell out of conflicts that have been going on for centuries. I don't understand that about us. We stick our noses into things that we have no business being involved in.

I guess Tuesday's events were too much for me to handle. It got so bad that I couldn't bring myself to go to work today because I couldn't handle being near everything.

The two things I rant most about are people: Mariah Carey and Jennifer Lopez.

I can't believe I am sitting here defending myself on my own webpage.

I am going to bed at 10:45 on a Friday. How pathetic. Then again I don't really want to be out of my house.

Stace

September 12th 2001

I still cannot believe what I saw yesterday. It was surreal. The World Trade Center's Twin Towers both collapsed into a pile of rubble after a vicious terrorist attack.

It is so strange to look at the NYC skyline now that the Empire State Building is once again the tallest structure in Manhattan.

Word is that one of the guys they rescued this morning was on the 63rd floor of tower 1 (the one with the antenna and the second one to collapse) when it collapsed. He's alive and he was coherent. Can you believe that?

I don't know how many of you were familiar with the towers and how they were built but when those 110 floors came crashing down upon each other, they went very deep into and beyond the 5 floor underground parking garage. It will definitely be weeks before all the victims are accounted for.

It just breaks my heart to see people on TV asking for info about their loved ones. From what I've seen of the wreckage and from what I know about those towers the chance of survival is minimal. (especially 24 hours after the attack)

Another disturbing aspect of this entire incident was the hijackings and how people called their loved ones from the planes. I was crying, listening to how brave those people were in the face of death.

Last night I didn't sleep very well and I went downstairs and watched TV from about 2:00am until almost 5:00am. It was during that time that they released the video of the first plane striking the North Tower. It was also during that time that they were beginning to reveal more info about the doomed airliners and the passengers. When I woke up this morning I was hoping it was all a horrible dream, that we all dreamed the same dream and that I would turn on the TV and none of what I saw yesterday would be shown ever again. Unfortunately it's not a dream, it's harsh reality.

Seeing members of congress singing "God Bless America" made me cry. Seeing women and children on the West Bank celebrating in the streets made me ill. Knowing that this could have been avoided made me angry.

To those who were behind this dispictable act of terror: Fuck you for messing with the city I was born in, raised in and work in. Fuck you for messing with my country. And just know that we as a city and a nation will not back down. To those in Washington, D.C. our prayers are with you. This is a time for our country to unite and stand together. This is a time for our allies to be by our side as we struggle and come to grips with what happened yesterday.

My prayers go out to everyone who lost family members on the planes, in the Pentagon, and in the World Trade Center. May God bless you all.

Stace
September 10th 2001

I want to personally thank Dan Duquette, the GM of the Boston Dead Sox for single-handedly ruining what could have been a great playoff race. Instead of being a nail biter this past weekend's Yankee/Red Sox series was a laffer. In the beginning of the season and even as late as August, I was excited about having tickets to a Yankee/Red Sox game in September. I thought about how great it would be and how much potential it had for being a historic series. Instead I was in Yankee Stadium watching the Yankees build on their already huge lead for first place and I was actually bored. How disappointing. But hey, at least I have tickets for Cal Ripken Jr.'s last game on September 30th. That shouldn't be a disappointment.

I am not in a good mood today but that probably has to do with me forgetting to set my alarm and waking up extremely late. Nah, I know what it's about it. Never mind.

I get home last night from my sojourn into the city and my mom says, "Your face is all sunburned." I wasn't really in the sun all day so I don't know how that happened. It's annoying. I hate the fact that my face can be in direct sunlight for two minutes I get burned. Stupid face. I have to go to a doctor because I have found that when people kiss my face I break out where they kissed me. How strange is that?! I am 27 not 15! I already suffered through acne. DAMN IT. I have the craters in my face to prove it. Can I please be spared from suffering from it the rest of my life? Is that too much to ask? I hate it. I have friends who have NOTHING on their faces, not even so much as a chicken pox scar and I am like crater woman. I never picked at them either. My mom made sure of that. Could I get a face transplant? Is it possible?

OK I am going to stop. There are worse things than acne. I could have a big ass. Oh wait I do.

Yesterday was the first day of football season. WOO HOO! The cold weather is coming!

I am trying to decide what I want for lunch. Do I want to venture outside? Do I want to stay in my building? Do I want to sit here and order something? Decisions, decisions.

I am all sneezy and I feel icky. I hate allergies.

I still haven't been able to watch the MTV Video Awards in it's entirety. I almost don't want to.

Wow I am bitching and moaning a lot today!

Oh more! I walk to work and there's giant tent set up in front of my building. Do we need to attract more tourists?! Can we have one week where I can walk in front of my building and not have to dodge people who are staring up at something? Please?! It's bad enough that the Christmas tree will be up in a few short months. Ugh.

I am going to stop bitching and look forward to tonight when I get to hang out with my girls, have dinner and gossip! Yea!

Stace
September 7th 2001 Modified 9/8/01

It's awards show time again! Yippee! Honestly, I didn't catch all of the MTV Awards because I was falling asleep. But I will comment on what I saw last night.

Jamie Foxx: Some of his jokes were extremely inappropriate. Especially the jokes about AJ from the Backstreet Boys, the poor kid just got out of rehab.

Justin and Britney: AW…They are soooooo cute. I am jealous. I want someone to say they love me when they accept an award. Damn it.

Jennifer Lopez: The woman is striking. Her face is flawless, her body is to die for, and she can dance yet she still can't sing. I don't care what anyone says. SHE CANNOT SING. OK? SHE CANNOT SING. I'll say it one more time for those who are non-believers. SHE CANNOT SING. Amen my brothers and sisters.

Alicia Keys: The girl can play piano, she can sing and she is beautiful…but she needs to keep her mouth shut. She is more inarticulate then Fiona Apple. Wait inarticulate is not the word I want to use. Let's just say it was embarrassing to watch her fumble her way through her acceptance speech.

Christina Aguilera, Pink, M'ya & Lil' Kim: Ok I will admit that I liked their version of Lady Marmalade and that's a big thing for me to say because I am not a big fan of remakes. BUT Why are they so retarded? Well, M'ya is not a dumbass. She seemed embarrassed by the other girls' stupidity.

Eve: Her dress didn't fit her too well. And the color was heinous.

Gwen Stefani: That chick is fuckin cool. Honestly. I love her.

N'Sync: They brought out the King Of Pop during their performance of their song "Pop". That was actually kinda cool although Michael Jackson doesn't look human anymore. That's kinda scary.

Julia Stiles & Chris Kattan: Their interpretive dance was funny.

Pamela Anderson & Kid Rock: They are both pigs. She is the mother of two young boys and she carries on like she is single with no responsibilities. Yeah she took her implants out. And my ass is blue with green stripes.

Destiny's Child: GO AWAY!!!! PLEASE!

Ben Stiller & Puffy Daddy, P Diddy, or whatever the fuck his name is now: I thought Ben Stiller was pretty damn funny. Especially when he was singing P's horrible new song and taunting him. That was really great.

ANNOUNCEMENT BREAK: the piece of tape on the podium that said, "Please do not lean down" meant that the presenters and winners DID NOT NEED TO BEND DOWN TO SPEAK INTO MIC. One of the Destiny's Child chicks looked like she was about give the mic a blow job. RETARDS.

That's all I saw. I think.

OH WAIT!!!!!

Missy Elliott: Was it necessary to have a giant Missy head on stage? That was really creepy.

I missed the Aaliyah tribute. It also took me five minutes to figure out that it was Janet Jackson on stage.

But that was nice of them to do.

Where was the Hank the Angry Drunken Dwarf's tribute?

It is a beautiful day out and I am stuck here. It sucks.

I will probably have more to write about after I watch the rest of the show.

Oh how could I forget!? Christopher Walken is soooooo funny! He slipped a bit of the Continental in his introductory speech for N'Sync. He said, "Wow." Looked around and then said, "Wowee wow wow." AWESOME! The Continental rules! Chris Walken needs to be on Saturday Night Live once a month! (Uh John, what happened to the impression you were going to do last night? Hmmm?)

"We are family. I've got all my sisters with me." See what happens when you listen to the Oldies station at work?

Yankees/Red Sox this weekend and I am not excited about it. Well, I am but not as excited as I should be. I just hope my boys win the game I am going to.

Ok time to get back to work.

Stace
August 31st 2001

Well, the good mood I was in, is now gone. I am finding that the littlest things are bothering me today. That could be because of this tremendous headache that I have had for almost three days straight. I think it's probably sinus related. Or stress related. Whatever the hell it is it hurts like a bitch. I feel like my head is being squeezed in a vice.

So it's Labor Day weekend here in the States. How exciting. I, once again, have no plans. If the weather is nice I may just lay by my pool and relax. Besides that, I plan on doing nothing.

Oh another pet peeve I discovered on the way to work. Picture this: You are in a semi-crowded elevator and two people are having a conversation. Fine, so far. Then the elevator stops on say the 16th floor. The one person is about to leave the elevator when the person they were having a conversation with decides to prolong the conversation. That causes the exiting passenger to stop the elevator doors from shutting and they continue the conversation as the rest of us in the elevator are waiting to go up to work. How rude can a person be? I was ready to strangle him. I hate that. What a pain in the ass.

And yeah, why am I here? This has to be one of the most boring workdays of the year. The only day worst than today is the day before Christmas Eve. No one wants to work that day. Even people who don't celebrate Christmas have a hard time dragging their butts out of bed to go to work.

It looks kinda crappy here. It's overcast but it's bright out and it's hurting my eyes. Sorry all I am doing is complaining today. I apologize.

But this is my website and if I want to complain I should be able to do so. Right?

Thought so.

Oh so that little league pitcher from the Bronx team is really 14 years old. Is anyone else shocked? I wasn't. This stuff happens all the time. My dad was a little league coach. I know what goes on. People who don't live in the district who use someone else's address so they can play in that league; forged birth certificates, etc. etc. Big Deal. I do think it's unfair to his teammates. They did things the right way and now they'll be penalized because of a group of greedy adults.

It's 11:15a and I want to go home right now.

The Yankees go into Boston tonight to start a big weekend series at Fenway. Right now they are 6 games up on the Red Sox but with the way they have been playing lately the lead may only be 3 when they leave on Sunday. That would make me very upset. I'd much rather them leave with an 8 or 9 game lead.

Here's another thing that pisses me off. Why do drug stores and supermarkets insist on putting the price tags on top of the directions for medication? You know what happens when I try to take the sticker off? The instructions come off with it. DUMBASSES.

Here's to Sudafed non drowsy Cold and sinus. You better work or Stacey will just break down in tears. Does anyone know what it's like to have a headache for three days straight? I'll tell you right now. It feels horrible. I am miserable. Pray that this works…

I WANT TO GO HOME!

I also want to see "Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back" That looks funny.

Okay that hurt. Why do they have to make pills so damn big!? I can feel it going down my esophagus.

Wait! I do have plans! I have an engagement "cocktail party" to attend this evening. How exciting!!! Not.

Until next week

Stace
August 26th 2001

Today's a sad day. Aaliyah, a musical artist I actually enjoyed, was killed along with 8 other people in a plane crash last night. She was only 22. That's far too young to die. I walked downstairs, my mom wished me happy birthday and then says, "Aaliyah died in a crash last night." I was like, "WHAT??!"

It's a shame when a person dies but when someone like Aaliyah dies it's a tragedy. She was young, she was beautiful, she was multitalented and most importantly she was humble. It flat out sucks. And when they show the graphic on the TV that says, "Aaliyah 1979-2001" it puts everything in perspective. Most people's lives really begin at 22. You graduate college, you start out in the real world and begin to make a name for yourself in whatever profession you choose. I am majorly freaked out. Everything could be gone in a blink of an eye. It makes me think about what's important in my life; family, friends, personal happiness.

I should really work on the personal happiness thing. Although I am taking a few steps in the right direction, we'll see what happens.

So yes it's my birthday. I am 27 today. If it was twenty years ago I would be swimming in my pool in my wonder woman bathing suit with all of friends at my birthday party. Ten years ago, I didn't really do much. I think my best friend at the time maybe took me out to dinner. Five years ago I was moving into my "college" house up in Oswego. I was also getting ready to start my super duper junior year in college. One year ago, right now I was on the beach in North Carolina getting burned to a crisp. Today I am going to relax and do as much nothing as possible.

Last night was the birthday celebration. My friends and I went into the city to a club and danced the night away. Well, I tried to dance, I had a massive stomachache and that made it hard for me to be comfortable. I think work stress combined with my nervous personality made my stomach freak out on me. I haven't been able to eat right for a week. I am always getting ill before my birthday. What's up with that? We had a fun night. A very fun night.

My friend Melissa got me a couple of CD's. I am listening to one of them right now. It's filled with 80's music and I am singing at the top of my lungs. Do I care that my dad is trying to watch TV downstairs? Nah. It's my birthday!

Wow I haven't cursed once...shocker.

I guess that's because I am not angry. I am actually happy. Wee! I am happy. Someone call all the major news channels. Light it up in neon in the sky. STACEY's HAPPY.

Ok I am spazing. Ooo I like this song. Kim Wilde "Kids in the America". Man I miss early MTV.

Hey the Yankees won. WOO HOO!

This is a pretty long installment.

Oh more about last night. We went to a club in, er, I think it was Chelsea. Or maybe they considered that the West Village. No I think it was too far north, oh anyway. It was a cool place and they played really good music. I was enjoying just listening to it. Tribal, Latin, House, Techno. I like it all.

Damn my back is killing me. I have to go lay down. You throw your back out once and it acts up the rest of your life. It sucks.

Anyway, if you want to send me a birthday gift feel free. Too much is never enough. Just kidding.

Stace
August 15th 2001

There are certain moments in life where your faith in people is restored and there are moments where your faith in people is shattered.

My best friend's father passed away this weekend after a year-long battle with cancer. It started in his lungs, from smoking and then spread. The sad thing about it was that he quit smoking cold turkey after many years. Then he was diagnosed with cancer less than nine months after he stopped.

People had the fucking nerve to smoke outside the funeral home, outside of my best friend's house and one person had the absolute balls to light up in her house.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH PEOPLE?

My dad was one of those people. I nearly strangled him the morning of the funeral.

I was at my best friend's house on Saturday watching her father slowly die and my dad knew that. Yet he still lit up a cigarette in front of me yesterday morning. He then looked at me like, "What did I do?" Cigarette smokers are fucking selfish.

I am going to have a long talk with my dad about it. The night I told him my best friend's dad was terminal the first thing my dad did was light up a cigarette.

Hello? I have no tolerance for smokers anymore. I give them dirty looks and I say shit to them. If you are smoker and want to kill yourself, that's fine but don't blow your fucking smoke in my fucking face.

So this was a bad weekend.

I felt helpless. I watched my best friend take care of her dying father until he took his last breath. It's definitely a life altering experience. And I do not want to go through what she went through. Ever.

He died with almost his entire family in the room with him. And I felt honored that they felt like I was part of their family and let me be there with them during one of the most heart wrenching moments of their lives.

I loved my best friend's dad. He was funny. He was giving. And I am going to miss him, a lot.

Juan "Pete" Guzman 1937-2001. We'll miss you. And I promise to help take care of your daughter.

Stace
August 2nd 2001

The big entertainment news is Mariah Carey's physical and mental breakdown. It's her own damn fault. It's called saying no. She pushed herself too hard. She made two movies, was recording the soundtrack to one of them, was traveling cross-country to shoot the other and was hardly sleeping. She didn't have to do all of this at the same time. She has enough fucking money and enough fucking recognition. She doesn't need any more.

I wish I were famous so I could check myself into a hospital whenever I got tired.

They have people calling up radio stations saying they are Mariah's biggest fan and they are sending her get well messages. And radio DJ's are "wishing her well". Give me a break. She doesn't have cancer. She's mentally and physically tired because she needs fucking attention.

My friend's father is dying of cancer. I'll feel bad for him. I'll say prayers for him. I'll wish him well.

Screw Mariah Carey.

Oh wait Derek Jeter already did.

July 28th 2001

I saw Bon Jovi last night at Giants Stadium. THEY KICKED ASS!!!!

All of the "new" bands should watch them perform because that's what a rock show should be. The audience should be so into the show that the band decides they want to do an extra encore because they don't want to go home either.

I lost my voice from screaming so much. And I felt like I was 14 again!

Eve 6 and Sugar Ray opened for them. Eve 6 was REALLY good. Sugar Ray was OK. I thought Eve 6 was the better live act out of those two, but they didn't match Bon Jovi. Holy shit.

My best friend, who used to make fun of me in high school when I was really into Bon Jovi, went with me last night and screamed louder than I did! She was converted. HA!

So right now I am listening to "New Jersey" because that's my favorite album of theirs. Sorry CD...no, wait it was an album when it came out. This album reminds me of 9th and 10th grade. Aw. When I was a young, naive little 14/15 year old....those were the days.

And to all of those people who used to make of Bon Jovi and to those who still do, screw you because it's 17 years after "Runaway" was released and they are still selling out arenas. So HA!

Bottom line, Bon Jovi is a good rock and roll band. They are good at what they do.

Stace
July 26th 2001

Wow. It's been a while since I ranted. I actually decided to change the name of this page to "Rants and Raves" because I am not always pissed off. I do have some calm moments, even some happy moments.

Here's a rave...

My eye doctor is the best eye doctor ever! I am a new woman because of her magic. My confidence is up (not too crazy) and I feel more comfortable in my own skin. A few months ago I couldn't look people in the eye. Now, I stare at people! And you can hardly see any scarring. I look like I never had anything done. It's so great. I am so happy.

Here's a rant...

Certain people I deal with on a daily basis are getting on my last nerve. I am about ready to kick some ass.

Speaking of kicking ass. My boys are back on track. Aw, yeah....the Yankees are getting their groove on.

I am going to see Bon Jovi tomorrow at Giants Stadium. I am so excited! They are a lot of fun in concert.

OOO! And Neil Diamond is playing outside in the plaza tomorrow for the Today Show...HOW PSYCHED AM I?!

It seems Mariah Carey checked herself into a hospital. Poor thing is exhausted. WHATEVER. Put some clothes on you whore.

Well, that's enough for tonight. I need to go to sleep and have some nice erotic dreams about Gale Harold from Queer As Folk. If you don't know who he is....go here.

Stace
July 21st 2001

I hate Met fans. I really do. I didn't think that there was anything worse than Boston Red Sox fans but I was proven wrong last night. Some guy had the audacity to bring up 1986 and say, "And where were the Yankees in 1986?" IS HE FUCKING INSANE!?

Do you realize how long ago 1986 was? Let me give you an idea. I was in seventh grade in the fall of 1986. I was 12 years old and I still couldn't wear a bra. Bon Jovi was just starting to make it big with "You Give Love a Bad Name". Madonna's hit album, yes I said album was "True Blue", Janet Jackson was the popular Jackson in 1986 and the Mets just happened to win the World Series because they had the tremendous luck to be paired against the Red Sox.

The curse of the Bambino is real folks. It's not a myth. The Boston Red Sox could be up 10-1 in the bottom of the 9th inning of the 7th game of the world series, with 2 outs and no one on base and they would find a way to choke and lose.

So it is no big deal that the Mets beat them. In fact, the only reason the Atlanta Braves won the World Series in 1995 is because they played the Cleveland Indians who are almost as cursed as the Boston Red Sox..

If the 1986 Mets played someone else in the World Series, they would have lost.

Thank you and goodnight.....

Stace
July 5th 2001

I am at work right now but I had to write this down. Jennifer Lopez's singing voice (if you can call it that) physically hurts my ears. I was cringing when her new song came on. Why must they insist on having her sing in such high keys? It's really damaging to one's eardrums. And I am talking about my eardrums, not hers.

Good God.

Didn't NBC make it seem like Bon Jovi was really there during the fireworks show last night? Meanwhile that performance was taped like 2 months ago. Hee. The magic of TV.

Let's get back to the subject of work. Why the hell am I here? The fourth of July falling on a Wednesday sucks ass. It's a tease to have one day off in the middle of the damn week. I thought yesterday was Saturday and almost couldn't get up this morning.

So Joe Torre picked 7 Yankees for the All-Star game. Well, I guess he realizes that this may be the last time he gets to be the All-Star coach for a while and wanted to bring his boys with him.

Oh God I can't escape Jennifer Lopez. She's on again this time it's a different song. Dear Lord, I am in hell.

Work sucks.

I want to be a writer so I can live in the woods and not leave my house.

I hate when DJs interrupt a song before it's over! That's a big pet peeve of mine.

One of my best friends' brother and his wife (did that make sense?) just got a nine-week-old puppy. He is a poodle, pug, cocker spaniel mix. Yeah I said the same thing until I saw him. He is literally the cutest dog I have ever seen. I wanted to take him home. He has pug coloring, wrinkles and bug eyes, he has floppy ears like a spaniel and I honestly couldn't see any poodle in him. I was dying. I love little dogs.

It's almost lunchtime. And I have no idea what I want to eat. I ate so much food yesterday. I am surprised I didn't gain 10 lbs.

Why am I here? I want to be back in my bed....

Stace
July 1st 2001

It's July already. Does that scare anyone else? They say the years go by faster the older you get. I am only going to be 27. How much faster can they possibly go?!

We are more than a week into the summer and my pool is still not ready. How annoying.

Chuck Knoblauch hasn't been traded yet. The Yankees would be making a big mistake if they traded him. Mark my words. He is the sparkplug. When Chuck Knoblauch and Derek Jeter are 1 and 2 in the lineup the Yankess have a better chance of winning ballgames. It's been documented. He may be in a slump now, but so was Tino Martinez and Tino hit his 5th home run this week earlier today. DON'T TRADE HIM!

But I'll say this, if the Yankees do trade Knoblauch to Seattle, I want the Yankees to play Seattle in the American League Championship Series and I want Chuck Knobluach to get the game winning, series winning hit for the Seattle Mariners. I mean that. I would also like for the Seattle Mariners to win the World Series so Alex Rodriguez can sit back, watch and realize that no matter how much money a team gives you, if the pitching staff is nonexistant, you won't win shit! Jackass. But it's not about the money, right, Arod?

Mariah Carey so many things to say, so little clothes she wears. The older she gets, the sillier she looks. The woman is 31 years old and she dresses like she's 15. GET OVER IT, you whore. And I hope her movie bombs. But it won't. The American public is so retarded I am sometimes ashamed to be an American. Mariah Carey is a singer who started with nothing and made it big. Guess what the movie is about? A singer who starts with nothing and makes it big. SHE'S PLAYING HERSELF...what a stretch!!! That's like me playing a 26 year old who's miserable at her job, still lives with her parents and doesn't have a boyfriend.

There are people in the Actor's Union who struggle to make a living and this bitch decides to make a movie. Jennifer Lopez is the opposite. She started in movies and now sings. Well, if you call what she does singing.

Wow I am on a roll.

I am sweating my ass off right now. I wish I could go in my pool. BUT IT'S STILL NOT READY!

I went shopping yesterday and spent so much damn money. I really need to stop doing that.

Next Sunday I am attending a Yankee/Met game. The last Yankee/Met game I attended was Game 1 of the World Series. The Yankees won in the bottom of the 12th inning on a hit by Jose Vizcaino. That was an exciting time for New York baseball fans. This year the Mets are 11 games out of first place, Mike Piazza looks like a freak and Bobby Valentine is still pissing people off. The Yankees are ½ game behind the Red Sox in their division but they are beginning to gel, no one on the Yankees looks like a freak and Joe Torre hasn't pissed anyone off.

Well I have to end this because it's beginning to storm outside.

Stace
June 23rd 2001

Oh shit. The Atlanta Braves traded John Rocker to the Indians. That's not good.

The Yankees need to make a deal. Brian, George...someone, please?

I am ready to reveal to the world what I look like with two straight eyes.

OK maybe not.

Guess what I found out on Wednesday? I have tickets to Cal Ripken Jr.'s last game as a major league baseball player! That game just happens to be part of my Yankee season ticket plan because it's a Sunday game. And they are playing the Orioles....WOO HOO!

I am witnessing history again!

On May 14th 1996 I watched Dwight Gooden pitch a no hitter against the Mariners. Last October I was at Game One of the Subway series. And on September 30th I'll watch the man who holds the record for most consecutive games without missing a start play his final game.

Cool.

Stace
June 18th 2001

Happy Monday everyone.

Stacey feels like ranting today.

1) THE YANKEES NEED PITCHING DAMN IT. The bullpen SUCKS ASS. The starters are all going down with injuries and they don't even have a real 5th starter. Jeter, Knoblauch, Martinez and Posada need to start hitting consistently. I have the same bad feeling that I had in 1997. And what happened in 1997???? They couldn't make it past the first round of the playoffs. I have a feeling that this year they may not even make the damn playoffs. Two words for George Steinbrenner: JEFF NELSON. He was whiner and a crybaby but he was a great middle reliever and they need him desperately.

2) A 4 year old boy was found floating in Tommy Lee's pool during a birthday party for his eldest son. They tried to revive the little boy but couldn't and he died. Now the boy's parents, who weren't at the party are blaming Lee for not having enough supervision. The boy's father also stated that his 4-year-old didn't know how to swim. WHY WAS HE IN THE DAMN POOL? If this asshole sues Tommy Lee, I hope the judge tells the father what an idiot he is for not attending the party and watching his son in the pool himself. If you have a 4-year-old, who doesn't know how to swim, don't leave him alone at a party where there's a pool. And wasn't Tommy Lee's ex a Baywatch lifeguard? Where the hell was she?

3) A message to people in New York. Treat the underground passages between subway lines like a road. Walk towards the right and don't walk on the other side in the wrong direction. It's very simple. You assholes. I am sick of people bumping into me because they don't know how to walk. I purposely don't move out of the way anymore. If my elbow hits you, it's your own damn fault for not moving out of my way. I also can't stand when people walk up the stairs on the wrong side when I am trying to walk down and catch a train. That's another situation where I don't move out of the way and I barrel through people. You're idiots for not moving out of my way and if you were trying to get down the stairs to catch a train you'd do the same damn thing. Morons.

4) Three New York City Firefighters lost their lives yesterday when a store explosion occurred in Queens. They left behind their families, which include 8 children. It was a very sad Father's Day for those families and my heart goes out to them.

5) A message to the New York Mets: You won one game against the Yankees in June, not the World Series. Chill the fuck out.

6) Another message to the New York Yankees: Please go after a decent starting pitcher…. Please. You've spoiled me and when you don't make the World Series (like in 1997) I cry like a baby and throw things. Thanks.

7) A message to women all over: If you have never gotten a pedicure. GET ONE PRONTO! They rock. I got one on Saturday for my friend's wedding and I loved it. I think I may do it once a month now.

I think that's everything.

Stace
June 17th 2001

Happy Father's Day.

I am exhausted. I had an extremely busy Saturday. One of my best friend's got married yesterday. It was a whirlwind of a day. It went so fast.

The sun shined until the reception and by then it didn't matter because it was indoors. It was also HOT! We were dying when we were taking the pictures before the ceremony.

And speaking of the ceremony, I cried. I don't usually cry at weddings but seeing one of my closest friends get married really hit me hard. I just hope that I can find someone that loves me as much as my friend's husband loves her....HUSBAND!? Yikes that is weird.

There was only one thing that pissed me off at the reception. My friend wanted to make a list of songs to give the DJ so we went through my CD collection and chose a good number of CD's to listen to. We stayed up until 2:00 AM one night listening to snippets of songs for the wedding and we ca,me up with a pretty extensive list of songs for the DJ. Melissa didn't want the cheesy, typical wedding songs. She didn't want group dance songs (i.e. The electric slide, the macarena etc) And she didn't want any mixes (i.e. The grease megamix where they butcher Summer Nights and Grease Lightning by combining them) Guess how many songs from our list were played last night? Four. Guess how many mixes were played? Three. And guess what the DJ played as the first "fast" song of the night? Celebration by Kool and the Gang. That was the one Kool and the Gang song we left off the list. Melissa didn't seem to mind that much. A couple of times she looked over and was like, "What the hell is he playing?" But all in all it was great time. Everyone was drunk, dancing and happy. What more could you ask for?

Today I am resting and doing nothing, even though I should be doing laundry.

Stace
June 12th 2001

I AM NOT AN ARMREST!!!!!

You must be wondering what prompted that outburst. Well, Stacey is sick and tired of commuting. Stacey is sick and tired of taking the bus into and out of the city. Stacey is sick and tired of men mistaking her for a FUCKIN ARMREST.

Here's a message to the men who commute into New York City everyday on busses. YOU WON'T BECOME GAY IF YOU SIT NEXT TO ANOTHER MAN. Your manhood will not be questioned if you happen to sick next to a man on the bus. You don't ALWAYS have to sit next to a woman.

Oh and another thing, no man's balls are as big as they think. There is absolutely NO reason for a man to sit with their legs far apart. When you are sitting next to me, you stay on your side and I'll stay on mine. This morning I had a jackass sitting next to me who insisted on using my right hip as an armrest. And no matter much I moved he continued to do so. Fucking idiot. He's lucky I didn't punch him in the face.

Tool.

Man my morning did not start off right. My dad took a shower during my normal shower taking time and it screwed up my whole damn day although I did receive some happy news. My eye is healing better than expected and I don't have to see my doctor for six weeks! YEAH!!!! I am so excited.

Ok so I am not being a total bitch today….

Stace
May 31st 2001

I have two straight eyes, I have two straight eyes!! Sorry. Stacey's a little excited. The reason I haven't updated in a while is because I had surgery to correct my lazy eye last Wednesday. And things are getting back to normal.

Now my eye is perfectly straight and it's very strange to look at. I have been so used to turning my head to the side and avoiding eye contact with people that I think it may take me a while to be able to look at people straight on.

I am just so happy right now. I feel normal again. I have been living with this problem my whole life and I think this may be the last surgery. (I am crossing my fingers)

I don't think I have anything to rant about. Things have been .... oh wait. Yes I do.

Timothy McVeigh. That douchebag bombs a federal building, kills scores of innocent people and now he wants to delay his execution?! Does anyone else have a problem with this? Someone needs to just put a bullet in his brain. They should have killed him 5 years ago.

I will never be able to get the image of the Murrah building in ruins, with people carrying bleeding children out of my mind. I was home from school that day in 1995 and was horrified by what I saw.

OH HOW COULD I FORGET???!!! Jenna and Barbara Bush, W's offspring. I guess they are as stupid as their daddy. Why on earth would they be trying to buy alcohol with fake ID's? I am not against that in anyway. Hell, I did it back in the day, but I was also NOT the PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES' daughter. Dumbasses. Get someone else to get you booze. Jeez.

May 21st 2001

I am a little late on this rant but I wanted to write something about it. A couple of weeks ago I attended a Yankee game at Yankee Stadium (obviously) in New York. I was excited because our seats were so close to the field. I have been to many Yankee games in my life but I have never been that close to Derek Jeter. I was in heaven.

If any of you have attended sporting events in the U.S. or in Canada, you know that they have big screens where they sometimes show people from the crowd. This is how Pamela Anderson was discovered in British Columbia at a Canadian Football game. Ok with that being said, I wonder if the camera operators at Yankee Stadium are looking for the next Pamela Anderson. They, on a couple of occasions, showed a woman from the crowd on the big screen, but focused on her breasts. Um hello? Not everyone at a sporting event is a man and I was offended. It was disgusting, degrading and the bimbos who were shaking their shit for 30,000 people should be ashamed of themselves. One man literally placed his arm in front his wife/girlfriend's chest when she appeared on the big screen because the cameraman drifted down towards her breasts. Guys are quick to hoot and holler when a nameless girl is up on the screen but as soon as it becomes their girlfriend they are horrified. Here's a tip boys: you should always be horrified. This is the year 2001, not 1956. We are not the little women who stay home while our men go to work everyday and bring home the bacon. Some woman do stay home but a lot of us are independent, smart, beautiful women who should be worshipped like goddesses not gawked at like objects.

I am actually going to write a letter to the Yankee organization stating that as a season ticket holder, I found it to be in extremely bad taste and that the Yankees are not the WWF or the XFL. Those cameramen should be reprimanded.

It's one thing for a woman to be shaking for the camera but it's another when the camera focuses on a particular part of a woman's anatomy. How would they like it if I were a camerawoman and I aimed my camera at men's crotches? Oh that's right, they wouldn't.

Stace
May 14th 2001

So many things to talk about.

For those of you who live outside of NY and outside of the US, the mayor of NY can't get it up. No, really, he cannot GET. IT. UP. He is impotent and everyone now knows it. So I figured since I had to read about it, you should too.

Why do public transportation vehicles have to be so damn cold? It's not officially summer and it's only supposed to get up to 70 today. Why on earth does the air conditioning have to be on high in the morning? I was freezing my ass off this morning and breaking out with hives. Stupid asses.

Speaking of stupid asses let's discuss Mayor Guiliani. Do I really need to know that he can't have sex with his mistress? Is it necessary for that little nugget of information to be splashed on every front page of every newspaper in the city? First of all picturing the Mayor of NY doing anything of a sexual nature is gross to begin with but now I have to picture him sitting there trying to do it and not being able to perform? This is news? And the fact that they are admitting that he can't get an erection with his mistress while he is still in the process of getting a divorce can't be a good thing. Dear Lord, please let this story disappear before I go blind.

And now speaking of eyes, my surgery is a week from Wednesday. YIKES. It's getting down to the wire. The more I think about it the more nervous I get. So I am going to stop typing about it right now.

I need to move out of my house. I can't take it anymore. I want to be able to wake up at 7AM. I want to be able to leave work at 5:15 and get home by 6. Is that too much to ask?

I need to win the lottery

OH!! How could I forget??! Anyone who likes 80's music, like I do will be happy to know that for the first time in 16 years the five original members of Duran Duran are getting back together to record an album and possibly tour. Yes that's right, Taylor Squared will join Simon LeBon and Nick Rhodes: John, Andy and Roger are back baby. Stacey is a VERY happy girl. I never had the chance to see the original 5 in concert because Andy and Roger left in 1985…I was almost 11 when that happened and hadn't attended a concert yet. Now I am almost 27 and so damn excited that I have my chance to see them (finally)

WOO HOO!

It is so cold in the office today that I feel like I am getting sick. How ridiculous is that?

I have to eat lunch.

Stace
April 30th 2001

I have a question to ask. Are the youth of America COMPLETE MORONS??? If I hear one more report about some dumbass kid getting hurt because they are imitating something they see on TV I am going to scream.

This Jackass show on MTV is apparently attracting idiots. My first question to these jackasses would be 'Why would you imitate anything you see on TV?'

I think the thing that bothers me the most is that these "kids" are actually teenagers. They are 13, 14, 15, 16 and they are setting themselves on fire, throwing themselves in front of moving vehicles, etc. What the hell is going on?

Can kids really be that stupid? When I saw Fonzie jump over a bunch of barrels on his motorcycle I didn't go out and try it.

I also hate the way the media blame TV for everything. I grew up watching daytime soap operas like General Hospital and All My Children, night time soap operas like Dallas and Falcon Crest. I also loved the A Team and the Dukes of Hazzard. Did I ever go out and whore around? Did I ever sleep with my best friend's husband? Or shoot someone? Or throw someone down a flight of stairs? Or drive a car off a half torn down bridge? NO!

And do you know why I didn't do any of these things? My parents. Parents need to accept responsibility and stop using the TV as a babysitter. Monitor what your children watch, explain things to them. Tell them that if you fall off a cliff like Wile E. Coyote that you'll die. You won't be able to chase after the Road Runner again.

Tell them, "No you can't stay up late to watch TV. You have school tomorrow." DO NOT give them TVs for their room. I was really pissed about not having a TV in my room as a kid but looking back on that time now, I am glad I didn't have one. I am better off now.

Where am I going with this?

Oh yes, the jackasses who imitiate Jackass. Is anyone else scared about the future of America? These kids will be running the country in 20-30 years. We need to do something and do something fast.

OK time for bed I am tired.

Stace
April 25 2001

I decided to write the following because I apparently have a worldwide audience. People from as far away as Australia, South America and South Africa are reading my rants. That's a scary thought isn't it?

The following is Stacey's advice to people planning on paying a visit to New York City:

1) Make sure you know someone here OR go someplace where tours are offered. There is nothing worse than a native New Yorker being delayed on their way to or from work because a tourist doesn't know where they are going. If you are with a native they will be able to show you everything (in a timely manner) so you won't piss people off.

2) There are certain unspoken rules you must abide by while visiting here. The main one is the escalator rule. If you are on an escalator that is the width of two people it is important to follow proper escalator etiquette. When you are on one of these escalators you stand on the right and walk on the left. There is nothing I hate more than having to wait because people are standing on the left.

3) Another rule when riding the subway NEVER STAND BY THE DOORS. When you are on the platform waiting for a train to pull into a station it is important to move out of the way of exiting riders. I have been known to push people out of my way. Others scream and yell at people blocking their way. So remember that bit of info and you'll be fine. Also when you are on the train, stay away from the doors (unless you know that you are getting off at the next stop) It's annoying to have to push people out of the way.

4) If you are from another country it is important to know that we wear deodorant here. So please please please go to a drug store, buy it and wear it. I had relatives visiting from Greece one summer and I thought I was going to die from their stench. The phrase is "when in Rome do as the Romans do..." Right?

5) If you purchase anything with NY on it make sure it's a Yankee hat or a Yankee shirt. Do not wear any "I love NY" shirts or anything cheesy like that. Natives make fun of people when they do that.

6) Do not hold a map out in front of you while walking around midtown Manhattan. You will be a prime target for a mugging. Never make it known that you are visiting. There are nice people and not so nice people around here (just like every other place on earth) Also DO NOT LOOK UP AT THE PRETTY, TALL SKYSCRAPERS.

7) Never make eye contact with beggars on the subway or in the streets. Ignore them. Don't give them money.

8) Also, when riding the subway make sure your belongings are in front of you. Especially on a crowded subway car. Someone could reach into your bag and you'd never know it.

9) Treat the sidewalk as if it were a road. If you aren't sure where you are going, pull over to the side. DO NOT STAND AT A CORNER!! EVER! There's nothing that some natives hate more than people blocking a corner when they need to cross a street.

I think I covered a lot of ground rules. I just want to make sure that my good friends are safe when if/they visit this great city.
April 19th 2001

I hate people again. I really do.

And no it's not the male species that's got me up in arms. This time its my own species, the female species. The catty girls who make up my gender. The two faced bitches who make people's lives a living hell.

I am in no way saying I am innocent because I can be catty, two faced and a bitch but I don't make it my life's work.

Unfortunately there are some people who do make it their life's work. They make themselves feel better by putting down other people either in front of their face or behind their back. Or better yet they do it on the Internet where most of us are faceless. It's safe that way. You can't really see the other person's reaction when you make them feel like shit and belittle them for a whole message board to see.

Using the Internet to make other people feel bad is the coward's way of doing things. Sending group emails to people about a person who can't defend herself is the chickenshit way of doing things.

You can hate or you can like me, I can't please everyone.

And by the way...

To all those who don't like me I say FUCK YOU.

To those who know me and like me, well, I got nothin but love for ya.

It's late, I'm cranky and I'm about to open up a can of whoopass on someone.

Stace
April 11th 2001

Here's a rant. People who say that Derek Jeter sucks. Um hello? Have you been watching the game of baseball for the last 5 FUCKING years? He strikes out for the last out on Saturday, in his first game back this season and people are saying he sucks. And then he gets four hits on Sunday and certain people still bring up the DAMN strikeout from the previous game. My message to those people: BITE ME. HARD.

Here's another thing that is pissing me off. As you all know, I am a fan of the TV show Dawson's Creek.

Well, the writers and producers are insisting on turning the show into shit before the season ends. Don't get me wrong, it's not the best show in TV (far from it) BUT it was my must watch show for the last almost three years and now I don't even want to watch it. How sad is that?

I am pissed off that the writers and producers are dead set on the Dawson/Joey soulmate crap. Here's a message to the idiots who do the show: Joey and Dawson tried being a couple TWICE and it didn't work. WHY TRY IT AGAIN? And please if I hear that "third time is a charm" bullshit, I'll fly to LA to beat the writers up. Dawson and Joey are boring and uninteresting as a couple, they are better off as friends. It's been proven twice. And why must they bring my favorite character Pacey down? Pacey is the reason why I watch the damn show. Joshua Jackson (Pacey) acts circles around the supposed star James Van Der Beek (Dawson). The WB knows it to be true and yet the powers that be at Dawson's Creek are ruining the show by making Pacey an ass. I am so tempted to tune out and not watch it all but a girl needs her weekly dose of Joshua Jackson.

A few months ago the thought of the actors/writers strike scared me. Now, I wish they'd be on strike for 5 years so I don't have to subjected to the "Dawson and Joey Reunion Tour" on Dawson's Creek.

How realistic is it for people to hook up with their 10th grade boyfriend in college? Hello? You are supposed to meet new people in college. People from different backgrounds and different places. Key words in that sentence DIFFERENT. DUMBASSES.

March 26th 2001

Oh so many things to say about the Oscars.

J Ho: Um was it necessary for me (and the entire free world) to see her nipples? I mean, really. She has NO class. And learn how to read off of the TelePrompTer.

Bjork: WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT??? She was wearing a swan. Very unique choice of dresses.

Renee Zellweger: Her dress was REALLY bright.

Ben Stiller's wife: I'm kidding. I know her name is Christine Taylor. (Marcia Marcia Marcia) I thought her dress was really pretty and the color of blue she chose showed off her blue eyes. It was very flattering.

Marcia Gay Harden: She looked like a classic movie star. Her hair, make up, dress and accessories shouted "glamour". I thought she looked stunning. I am also biased because I love the color red.

Kate Hudson: I didn't like her dress. She could have made a better choice. I also didn't like her hair. She looked like a poodle.

Catherine Zeta Jones: I think her dress would have looked better if it wasn't black. The TV probably didn't do it justice cause I am sure there were some details on the dress that didn't show up on our screens. She is very beautiful though, isn't she? Bitch. Just kidding.

My Girl Julia: I don't care what anyone says. I think she looked beautiful and I liked her dress. It was different. Her best accessory was Mr. Benjamin Bratt.

Sting: Anyone else think this man should just wear a tux 24/7??? Dear lord! Trudie is soooo lucky!

Russell Crowe: Uh...nice hair. And get a friggin sense of humor.

Samuel L Jackson: How cool is he? His tux jacket went down to the floor!!! Awesome!

Benecio Del Toro: His hair usually annoys me but at least he combed it for the Oscars. He looked horrible at the SAG awards.

Tom Cruise: Anyone think that maybe he is doing Top Gun 2 with that haircut??

Kevin Spacey: Is awesome. I bow down to him.

Steve Martin: Very funny. He did a good job.

Michael Douglas: Uh next time, try hair dye that matches a hair color you once had.

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