I hope theres something for me this month..the last month of the summer before school starts again...I hope something comes through that i want...but some how i dont feel it...just so much has been going on and i can't handle it sometime..I know there are people out there that are worse off then me...cause i currently experienced with someone worse off then me yesterday and then theres my friends that are going through soo much and i wanna be there for them...but then...but it ends up like this...make sure your happy before you try n make others happy...but sometimes....i wanna give up and just give me all...sometimes caring about myself means nothing to me anymore...
loOok at what im saying..im not like this...theres gotta be more to life then THiS...
i think this page is dead now..its sooo old and messed up..haha...i messed up the font damnit...and i dont know how to fix it ARGh..i hate it when i mess up and i cant fix it..and the whole calender old pictures and blah...haha..this page is gone..but then i dont know where to put my journal....hmmMmm...maybe i might start a xanga..that shit is easy..haha..i checked the stuff out from a friends xanga...not bad...but its too like...s0cial...iOono we'll see...toOdles
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geez i feel soo sick...i have cramps i want to die....
Today i went to T.J and Rosarito...it was ultimatly exciting...I like LOBSTERS =D oooh wEee and guess what we saw the ships from pirates of the carribean that was awesome...the retainers d0ont fit =( i hope they coem through..it would really suck if they didnt fit...that would be fucking 80 bux down the fuckin drain..=/....
nothing much has been happening been really busy with the family since there down here for a week or sooOooO...i apologize if i didnt get to talk to you guys much...=/ i know you guys miss me and want to hangout with me soo bad..but...HAHA SIKE..no one does..but yeah i wish...toOoo much family..ahh...i want to hangout with friends...if i had any =(....
by the way see you ladies and gents tomorrow at Victoria's Quince...cant wait dearest..your 15...>_<
O Geez she's sOo pretty..
sOOoo again i did nothing..well okay today i woke up 2:30pm..woOOhoOO new record go me!!! =D...and then i got ready and shit and just chilled at home for a bit..didnt do much..typed up some shitt for a friend i need to print it...actually..BRB...
It feels sOoo weird..that we're talking again. I mean i didnt expect it much..but i guess someone just wanted us talking again..well sOOO did i ..but I didn't want to bother trying cause i was scared....scared of rejection or some sort...and scared of things taht are more for only me toOO know...but yeah..I'm glad that we are..but im not sure if its right..i mean it seems like its the same like we were talking in the past but also alot more different...I've changed a bit and so has he...I'm really happy that i went out the other night...=)...I missed him alot..just no one really knew..I'm glad that we're talking again...I hope that we get to hang out sometime soon im missin that now..
I getting my retainers yes yes yes! im soOo happy...only $65 baby cause my friend got the hookups in TJ..haha i love you man..your the greatest i owe you mad....but yeah i hope the retainers come out right and like not jacked up or nothing im really hopin..cause then thatd be 65 bux down the drain ..but im really happy cause then i dont have to do work and ask for money from people no more..cause i hate doing that and now i can get em sooner so my teeth wont spring back to bein all crooked and shit..whoOopdEedOoo..this was anohter thing that made me so depressed...but since im getting 'em back soon..im sure i wont have no worries..except my ortho prolly wondering why the bottom retainer doesnt come from him....
soOO...imma go now...tomorrow i think imma go see judy debbie and ricky at TEA TiME...whew..sooO much fun..I cant wait..sike no..ugh..well it gets me out of the house..im decently satisfied...if that makes any sense..night you guys...im out...
Gardening Rule: When weeding, the best way to make sure you are removing a weed and not a valuable plant is to pull on it. If it comes out of the ground easily, it is a valuable plant.
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The easiest way to find something lost around the house is to buy a replacement.
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Never take life seriously. Nobody gets out alive anyway.
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There are two kinds of pedestrians -- the quick and the dead.
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Life is sexually transmitted.
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An unbreakable toy is useful for breaking other toys.
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If quitters never win, and winners never quit, then who is the fool who said, "Quit while you're ahead?"
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Health is merely the slowest possible rate at which one can die.
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The only difference between a rut and a grave is the depth.
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Get the last word in: Apologize.
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Give a person a fish and you feed them for a day; teach that person to use the Internet and they won't bother you for weeks.
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Some people are like Slinkies . . . not really good for anything, but you still can't help but smile when you see one tumble down the stairs.
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Health nuts are going to feel stupid someday, lying in hospitals dying of nothing.
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Have you noticed since everyone has a camcorder these days no one talks about seeing UFOs like they use to?
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Whenever I feel blue, I start breathing again.
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All of us could take a lesson from the weather. It pays no attention to
criticism.
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Why does a slight tax increase cost you two hundred dollars and a substantial tax cut saves you thirty cents?
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In the 60's, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.
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Politics is supposed to be the second oldest profession. I have come to realize that it bears a very close resemblance to the first.
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How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire?
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AND THE # 1 THOUGHT FOR THE DAY: You read about all these terrorists --
most of them came here legally, but they hung around on these expired visas,
some for as long as 10 -15 years. Now, compare that to Blockbuster; you are two days late with a video and those people are all over you. Let's put Blockbuster in charge of immigration.
sOOo the guesbook is back up even though you guys dont see it anyways or probably wont sign it but whatever just lettin' you guys know...
soOo last night mother told us to fucking wake up at 9:00 and then we should get ready to go out with her...but this morning i woke up 9:30 and mother was already gone..THE FUCK!....soOO i took a shower and crystal was still asleep...I decided to let the poor girl sleep since we went to bed at 3:00 last night and then i just got ready at geared myself up with my Lucky Brand pants and a black tank..then I got bored and went back to sleep..woke up at fucking 1:00..when my mom came home it was a bunch a bullshit she had left like 8:30 am..shiitt..i hate that bulshit...anyways..she woke us up and we all went to Sam's CLub so i could develop my CONCERT photos..stupid shiiit..my pictures fuckin probably didnt come out cause the fuckin' camara is broken cause JUDY! lost a spring or soem shit..iOono..damnit..i need a new camara since i have so much fucking 35 mm film then we went to Debsters house and picked up debbie and judy came tooOo..she dyed her hair like some cocoa infusion and she had this long big blonde thing going through her hair..hehe..it looked funny. So we went back to my house and we took the car out and went to sav on and vons to buy some shiit..and got back and i cooked pork chop and salad for the ladies..we ate and then after we had TiN R00F Sundae hhe..yummm but then the ladies had to leave cause judy needed to take a her medicine hahha..how funny..sorry you guys prolly wouldnt understand..
soOo..i didnt do much..oOh yeah i re-dyed judys hair..its great now...haha..cause yall know its in the hands of a professional..haha sike..no..
argh...life is soOoo..just..nothing no purpose..i need a purpose in life..i feel as if nothing is happening and i am going no where fuck....i feel soOo not useful in life...how can this..ugh..i just cant explain..i feel i need something to occupy me...something is missin..and i think i know what it is..sometimes i feel like its just sOo boring and its because im single..i dont know..i thought the single life was suppose to be fun..whats going on???????
im missing something i miss something why why why why why..i need something i want something fuck my life suck i fuck my self over one tooooOoo many fucking times...what a loser i am..i just want ...ARGh..i just want to be happy again...and feel as if i wnat my life to be fulfilled and satisfied...
oOoh gosh..please dont be like this the way i meant it was that the page needed to be updated...things that were old needed to be removed..it doesnt mean that in my heart its gone forever..oOoh geez..if your gonna take something like this little to ruin what we have..then...i guess its just gonna be over..even though you know it is..please dont linger 'pon the past...we're trying to move on remember?
and then i guess i ate dinner after that and then me and crystal fucked around with makeup and shit...you know i just found out..i look BETTER without coverup..oOoh shit..hehe...i wanted to pluck crystals eyebrow but she was being pussy about it..but finally she gave in i did the right one so far and she really really likes it..and i like it too its so FUCKING NICE..damnit now im jealous..hhaha..well now imma proceed to her left one..peace the fuck out
They are still lingering through my mind...
Hey boy
I don't mean to be rude
But the way you comin' on
Makes me catch an attitude
You wanna know what the deal
Well what's up with your grill
'Cuz you ugly
So please stop talking junk in my ear.
sOOo today i was stuck at home again..mom says shes disowning me..well all the things she said concludes to disowning me..like she doesnt want to have anything to do with me..she doesnt care where i go when i come home and how i get home or what i do..she said that she wont give money rides or anything to support me and living here is like renting out the room except i have to clean the house and not pay...iOOno..shes being weird..but now shes drunk so shes actin a bit weird..but other then that yeah...
tomorrow i should be going to the movies with my dad and crystal we are watching T3 yeah!!! the girl in that movie is soo purdii...well..yeah i guess thats its..
LBR fund: $221.27 to go...would you like to help me out? I would really appreciate it.
xxx tingting xxx: i could see the shape of their abs =D
vietboyTMT: Haha!
vietboyTMT: Niiiicceee.
vietboyTMT: Sounds like you had fun.
vietboyTMT: Nice as in, you know nice for you that you saw hot guys.
vietboyTMT: ...not nice as in yea, you know.
vietboyTMT: ...I ain't gay.
xxx tingting xxx: lol
xxx tingting xxx: you know you wanted to see their nice cut abs
xxx tingting xxx: lol
xxx tingting xxx: ADMiT iT!!
vietboyTMT: Haha..
vietboyTMT: ....why? I can look @ my own ONE pack ab.
vietboyTMT: I got an AB.
xxx tingting xxx: lol
xxx tingting xxx: oOoh shit..
xxx tingting xxx: haha..
vietboyTMT: >_<
xxx tingting xxx: you got an ab?
xxx tingting xxx: more like a flabby ab..
xxx tingting xxx: haha..
...later...
vietboyTMT: I wanna learn how to do the wave thingy.
xxx tingting xxx: what wave thingy?
vietboyTMT: You know, people with bellies?
vietboyTMT: They make that wave shit with their stomach.
vietboyTMT: You've never seen it!?
vietboyTMT: People with a fat belly can make their stomach move like a wave.
vietboyTMT: Some.
xxx tingting xxx: hah.
xxx tingting xxx: yeah i know .
xxx tingting xxx: thats gross tuan..
vietboyTMT: Haha!
xxx tingting xxx: you dont have a gut to do that..
xxx tingting xxx: you have one ab..
xxx tingting xxx: one ab cannot make a wave
vietboyTMT: I got a very big, fat, flabby, sexy ab. Don't hate!!
vietboyTMT: I can play the drums on it.
xxx tingting xxx: sexy is not flabby
vietboyTMT: >_<
vietboyTMT: To some women.
vietboyTMT: You know you like it.
vietboyTMT: Don't lie. ;-)
xxx tingting xxx: lol..
xxx tingting xxx: noOOo..
vietboyTMT: Sike, I'm just kidding.
xxx tingting xxx: I DONT
xxx tingting xxx: haha
vietboyTMT: I ain't flabby, shieeeet.
xxx tingting xxx: your not flabby but your ab is flabby
vietboyTMT: haha.
vietboyTMT: Shuttup!
vietboyTMT: My ab is not flabby, it's normal.
vietboyTMT: It's not muscular, there's not six of 'em, there's one, but it's normal!
vietboyTMT: Don't hate, don't hate.
ahaha...laugh of the day...
Hey ladies and gents...well the girls wanted to know some info on this lil lady and yeah I'm such a boring loser i went online to look for it..well this girls name is Jhene and she is asian and african american and native american we were right girls!! hhaa..and OMG guess what her birthdays on March 16, 1988...shes only 15 dude..woOw...shes so young and purdii! haha...man im so jealous i wish i was her..man being Lil' Fizz's cousin and shiit..and being able to go on the scream 3 tour..shiitt.....anyways...today we didnt do shit but clean the house and wait for my mom to give me hell about driving the car..but guess what she came home and she was all fucking happy and shit...wOwsers...this is sooo weird..i swear i was gonna get hell from her...whew..how crazy...hahah...well iOono..im bored so is crystal imma go find something to do...peace
anyways...I also went to the beach yesterday..didnt do anything but fall asleep in the back seat but it was aite cause crystal go to do her thing and i got to catch up on sleepin' its good to sleep at the beach it was breezy and the air was crisp...everything else just sux...
Last night i got to talk to David =D...for like a really really long time haha..crystal was all like shutup..so i got kicked outta my room and i talked to him in the living room..then i got to tired though so i went to bed...sLeepy sleepy sleepy haha..CRYSTAL!...anyways...it was fucking hot and in the morning my birds were fucking singin' and wakin me up...but i ignored it and woke up at 1:12...
im so bored right now..crystal is watchin' Ed, Edd, and Eddie ugh that show is so BURNT...haha..sOo this week...Tuesday imma go to Mira Mesa to see the boys again; Wednesday I'm going to Del MAr for the SCREAM III tour AH WOo HoOO haha..i cant wait imma go with my homegirls kristen, anita, and natalie...and imma see B2k, Mario, Maques Houston, and Nick Cannon...ahh they soOo fiOne..ahaha; Thursday is gonna be Ant's 18th birthday..sooo yeah...BBQ..and Friday is 4th of July...and im planning to go to Del Mar again..with the girls...if i have money and a ride..if not..iOono...
and to even make things worse talks and rumors are going around up north....problems are arisiing and i dont know what to do..i dont know quite whats been going on and i dont know what people are saying...I cant take this i dont need all this right now...its already bad enough...i dont need this please stop doing this to me..i hate talk i hate making mistakes i hate peer pressure so much is getting to me...it needs to stop..please
hey julius...whats been up? well the frogs are mine i got them like last week at the swampmeet there so horny and they have sex everynight and croak as they make love...
my birds are singing to Sean Paul - Get busy they are annoying me....anyways...tomorrow the DCM is at Mission Valley Library...and the shit is 1:30 - 4:30..so i'll set up most likely there even though I'm suppose to be fucking at Soak City but i guess not....so if my aunt is able to she can take me to decorate and then take me to soak city please oh please..i hope this plan comes through..but she aint even fucking here yet...damnit...im suppose to sleepover mang...ive been begging my mom to go..and now i cant cause of some stupid meeting..that im not even going to be at...fuck!
im going to fucking walk to the pet store by myself now...to get those fucking crickets....
¤Whole name: Cynthia Ting Chou
¤Name Backwards: uohc gnit aihtnyc
¤Does your name mean anything?: I think Cynthia means Moon Goddess..I read it somewhere..haha..it's SOO TRUE!
¤Were you named after anyone?: yeah myself...
¤Nick Name(s): cee , cici, ting, and uh...CECE...haha...TUAN can't even remember my name! shiiii...
¤Screen Name(s): xxxtingtingxxx...thas all you need to know...=D
¤Birthday: 29th of September
¤Place of Birth: Sharp Memorial
¤Ethnicity: Chinese / Taiwanese
¤Current Location: My rOom
¤Sign: Libra
¤Religion: unsure...
¤Height: 5 feet...and 2 and a half inches..hehe..i'm soo TALL
¤Shoe Size: er...none yo' business foOo..
¤Hair color: i think its black..with streaks..haha..imma get matrix foOos..
¤Eye color: Brown
¤What do you look like?: he says i look like s chipmunk..haha..
¤Innie or Outie?: innie homie...outies or gr0ss
¤Righty, Lefty, or Ambidextrous?: righty =D
++ WH0 IS YOUR .. ++
¤Best friend(s): err....to be determined...
¤Crush: i dont have one...at the moment...=D
¤Parent(s): uh..my mom and dad?
¤Worst Enemy: unsure...
¤Funniest friend: oOOh maxson gets this one...haha
¤Craziest friend: haha..i think everyone can get crazy at one time or
another...;)
¤Loudest Friend: umm...no one...
¤Person you cry with: Maxson
++ D0 Y0U HAVE.. ++
¤Any sisters: naw
¤Any brothers: naw
¤Any pets: 2 froggies [Beast and Belle] and 2 birdies [Pucca and Guru]
¤A leather jacket with studs on it?: noOo..its not me
¤A heroin needle: what the fuck...no bitch..
¤A Pool or hot tub: oOoh sounds goOod...I will haha
++ DESCRIBE Y0UR .. ++
¤Personality: iOono you tell me...i'm not good at these questions...
¤Room: it's a damn zoOo in herrre...
¤Shoes: comfortable =D
¤Bed: stuff from my love[s] Sanrio Bed Sheet, comforter, pillows and Hello Kitty tissue box to match =D
¤Relationship with your parent(s): ummMmm...good and bad...
++ D0 Y0U .. ++
¤Get motion sickness: sometimes...
¤Believe in yourself: not really...i should though...
¤Do you believe in love at first sight? er...no...
¤Consider yourself a good listener: Ooh yes..im good at that =D you can tell me anything sweetie
¤Consider yourself a good friend: umm..iOono..yeah i guess so..
¤Get Along with your parents: Kinda
¤Save your aim conversations: haha..nope
¤Pray: yeah...occasionally
¤Believe in reincarnation: sure..
¤Like to make fun of people: oOooh yeah...one of the major activities that bring joy to my life =D
¤Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: lol..no...thats why there called chicken fingers..dumbasses..
¤Sleep with a stuffed animal: most of the time...
++ WHAT 1S / ARE / WAS ++
¤Right next to you: umm..a phone
¤On the walls of your room: Justin Timberlake! USHER! oOoh yes..and umm a dreamcatcher a monkey bulletin board...calenders and hanging monkey and photos of my two baby cousins..
¤On your mouse pad: something purple...and words...
¤Your dream date: ah...going on a cruise ship for a party and dinner...or or...good movie and dinner..walking through a beautifil garden at night...ahh...hehe..just anything that makes me feel special that night and having a great time =D
¤Your dream honeymoon spot: PAR-EE!! lol
¤Your dream husband/wife: Justin Timberlake baby!
¤Your bedtime: usually 11:00...but who gives fuck...its 12:11 am right now anyways..haha
¤Under your bed: shit i hide from my parents >_<
¤Your bad time of the day: right when i wake up ...that moment when you know you gotta get your ass outta bed...ugh...
¤Your worst fear(s): death of a loved one...and yeah..toOo much to name..cause imma full out pussy...>_<
¤The time? 12:12 am
¤The date? June 26, 2003
¤The best trick you ever played on someone: haha..hmmm...i can't tell >_<
¤The weirdest food or drink that you like: lol...iOono mang..whats weird too you?
¤The hardest thing about growing up: life and how it fucks you over...the hardships..the regrets..the mistakes..bad situations..bad decisions..and building yourself as you grow..now thats hard..you know the whole deciding which path you want to take and shii..
¤Your funniest experience in the last week: haha...Ana-Lisa's party oH shit...ezzy, judy, debbie, mai, tada, marcus, and shiii...oh man..good times good times...
¤Your scariest moment: iOono...probably when my mom had to go to the hospital
¤The silliest thing you've said: haha...iOono...everything...
¤The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex? haha...stalkings good..following...invading privacy...being someome else...iOono..their desperate but now funny...fuckin embarassing foOo..
¤The craziest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): wOw too many to mention...haha..sooOo many good times!
¤The worst feeling in the world: regret...and my father's issues
¤The best feeling in the world: being appreciated, being loved and cared for..laughing...enjoying life
++ FAV0RITES ++
¤Number: 88 homie =D
¤Color: purple and green haha BOB you know wussup..lol
¤Day: when i'm havin' a good ass mutha fuckin time
¤Month: July... dont ask me why...
¤Movie: whatever satisfies my viewing pleasure =D
¤Diaries: umm...okay..can i say mine? haha
¤Food: yumm....oh yes food is my favorite!
¤Band: im not a band person...i dont have a favorite but i can say i like Linkin PArk =/
¤Season: just the season..spring
¤Class: nope..not a favorite..
¤Teacher: ms.macedo..shes the bombity!
¤Drink: craving passion fruity slush from TEA TIME
¤Veggie: they aite
¤Fruit: it's better
¤TV Channel: Disney! MTV BET WB FOX and Cartoon Network...haha..i still got the kid in me =D
¤Radio Station: jammin z90 'n' channel 933
¤Store: I love stores ..I love shopping...I love new stuff to add to my personal belongings =D...but right now i would say...American Eagle =D
¤Animal: froggies are my number one right now
¤Flower: oOOh.....I LOVE FlOWERS CAN I SAY THERE ARE MY FAVORITE IN THE WORLD!
¤State: haha...CYNTHiA-STATE homie!
++THIS 0R THAT ++
¤Me/You: yuo
¤Coke/pepsi: pepsi
¤Day/night: Night
¤Aol/aim: AiM
¤Cd/casette: CD
¤Dvd/vhs: DVD
¤Jeans/khakis: Jeans
¤Car/truck: car...beamer homie..but truck kick mutha fuckin ass!
¤Tall/short: short
¤Lunch/dinner: Lunch
¤NSYNC/BSB: NSYNC!
¤Britney/Christina: Britney! christina is so...ugh...
¤Gap/Old Navy: Gap!
¤Lipstick/Lip gloss: Lip Gloss
¤Silver/Gold: Both! bling bling
¤Alcohol/Weed: haha...nice one..
++ THE PAST ++
¤What is the one thing you would change about your past? ooh man one thing? haha..theres a million...
¤What is the biggest mistake you regret?: losing this...
¤Last thing you heard: maxsons voice
¤Last thing you saw: ummm...this screen
¤Last thing you said: "hold on"
¤Who is the last person you saw?: mommy dear!
¤Who is the last person you kissed?: Maxson
¤Who is the last person you hugged?: Maxson
¤Who is the last person you fought with?: haha...Maxson
¤What is the last TV show you saw?: 30 seconds of fame =D
++ THE PRESENT ++
¤What are you wearing?: SUGAR olive green skirt American Eagle shirt and accessories =D homie this is g-status..haha
¤What are you doing?: trying to finish this damn questionaire
¤Who are you talking to?: Maxson
¤What song are you listening to?: not any right now
¤Where are you?: in san diego in my room
¤Who are you with?: uh...my froggies and birdies =D
¤How are you feeling?: tired and anxious to get this damn thing finished
¤Are you in a chatroom?: nah...
++ FUTURE ++
¤What day is it tomorrow?: friday
¤What are you going to do after this?: sleep homie! haha
¤Who are you going to talk to?: no one imma sleep nigga
¤Where are you going to go?: My dreamland =D
¤What do you wanna be?: ummm...comfortable and cozy =D
¤What is one of your dreams?: in the future..uh ioOno..i have to find out tonight and i'l let chu know tomorrow
¤Where will you be in 25 years?: damn homie imma be 39....shit hopefully imma be on this earth and in a good home with a good family and a high paying job...=D
++ HAVE Y0U EVER ++
¤Drank?: nah
¤Smoked?: nah..clean lilo gurl
¤Had sex?: just finished =D haha
¤Stolen?: Ooh yeah..
¤Done anything illegal?: I didnt put my seatbelt on today >_<
¤Wanted to die?: yup
¤Hit someone?: lol...like DUH!
++ 0THER ++
Do you write in cursive or print?: both...mostly PRINT
Do you drive?: I can ;)
¤Do you have glasses or braces?: er..i had braces and i have shades..oOh yeah..i need new ones though..i wanna get the new babyphat ones..there hot!
¤Did you like this survey?: uh..ish aite..i've had better..haha
++ PHYIS. & APPEAR. ++
¤What do you most like about your body?: my wrist..lol
¤And least?: oh man...everything BUT my wrist..but especially this gut thing..ARGH
¤How many fillings do you have?: haha...umm..they all fell out...=D
¤Do you think you're good looking?: OF COURSE!! ahaah sike no...im an ugly chipmunk..
¤Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: yeah....they dumb...they be needed to get there eyes checked or somethin'
¤Do you look like any celebrities?: a long time ago..mom said i looked like the asian gurl from rush hour...
++ FASHI0N ++
¤Do you wear a watch?: no...i want the new leather guess one though..that shit looks HARD!
¤How many coats and jackets do you own?: er...13 i think...just browsed throught the closet...
¤Favorite pants/skirt color?: a dirty brown or olive green color...
¤Most expensive item of clothing?: Lucky Brand shit..man them shit be cleanin out my wallet
¤Most treasured?: my white bra..oOh shit that bra is g-status...haha
¤What kind of shoes do you wear?: comforatable ones..
¤Describe your style in one word: cynthia
++ M0RE USELESS SHIT. ++
¤How old are you mentally (as in are you mature?): haha..sometimes i can be two and sometimes i can be like 50...
¤Describe yourself in 5 words: this is me...only me =D
¤What are your worst qualities: me
¤What are your best qualities: my iOono..you tell me
¤How long does it take you get ready in the mornings: about 45 minutes..you gotta understand imma girlie =D
anyways tomorrow i need to go to the mall and get tracie her big ONE-SIX birthday present i can't wait til this weekend its gon' be soOo much fun..keke..i can't wait! wOw...
omg guess what guys! my froggies are having sex! beast gets on belle and they do this whole mating thing and while they do it they make this croaking noise its so funny my mom was like standing there watching them mate and shes like WHOA i've never seen frogs have sex before..lol...so funny...i love them..
I NEED TO GO SOMEWHERE! damnit....know what ? I really have to go to the pet store i need to furnish the frogs cage...haha did i tell you guys? I got two fire-bellied frogs...there such cuties i love them!! My dad thinks my rooms a zoo now..haha..I wish it was anyways hopefully i can get more hehe...my other babies (Pucca and Guru) are doing fine..there just chillin' Guru still picks on Pucca sooo mean! Hopefully they'll get along and have babies soon...Anyways..I need to name my Froggies..what should i call them any ideas?
The party was really weird Steve took me debbie and judy there and we ate first yummm! LUMPiA! haha we got lost almost haha...ay Judy ..."LOOK PARKDALE AVE! WAIT! PARKDALE CT! WAIT! PARKDALE LANE! WAIT! PARKDALE ST!" lol good times good times then we got there and then we saw Mai my beautiful sweet heart =D we love you and then we saw Julian and Ezzy and a whole buncha people that we didnt know...ARGH.. i hate being an outcast..but then we saw that one dude from Tea Time..what a coincidence...heh...then we went outside to chill and be gay while judy wanted despertly to dance and i wanted despertly to get out of boredom mode...then Tada and his friends came and then judy went up to them and asked to dance and you knwo the usual diss and blah blah ahah it was funny..then it started getting dark and finally people started dancing DAMN! the DJ was FIONE! and he was a good DJ...or maybe he was just FIONE! lol...I didnt dance much tonight...later on the ladies (Judy, Debbie, Mai, and Ezzy) had some girl time and later on went to Jamba Juice..I didnt want to go cause I didnt want to leave Ana party also it was almost ten so i had to be outside soon to get my ride...So i sat on the couch by myself for a long while and then Tada, and So-Called "pharrel" came and started talking to me..so we just chilled and ana came to hang out with us a lil and then we heard there was a chick fight outside so we all went outside and yeah I saw nothing haha..iOno..just went back inside and spent the rest of the night sittin' on the couch and chillin' with Tada and his friends....then came 10 and I walked down the street myself to find steve and got judy and debster and we were on our waay home...
JULIAN! this entry is dedicated to you...Me and my ladies are going to miss you so much! What are we to do without our Colombian Buddy? *tears* man oh man we wish the best to you down south...much love to you and your family...Please oh please keep in touch with us =). We already can't wait until you come back two years from now...wOwsers its seems like lightyears away...*sniffles* WE LOVE YOU WITH ALL OUR HEARTS! remember us all in San Diego....We are your asian angels remember that? haha...Gosh you've been such a great friend...so funny always cheering us up and making us laugh your so outgoing...Thanks for all the times you let us hang out at your house we really appreciate it..even though last year you didn't invite me to your birthday but this year you did and it was a blast celebrating yout 16th birthday with you thank you so much! I'm gonna miss your house, your family, your pool table, your stinky doggies and especially you! I wish you the best of luck down south and remember Cynthia, Debbie, and Judy always...
[ loc ] : San Diego
[ boo stat ] : SiNGLE..so very single
[ height ] : 5'3
[ siblings ] : none, im so lonely
[ pets ] : two birdies...I love them =D
[ eye color ] : dark brown
[ hair color ] : black and highlighted...imma get matrix this summer ;)
[ best feature ] : my wrists
[ artistic? ] : i dont think soo
[ boyfriend/girlfriend now ] : umm isnt that the same thing as "boo stats"?
[ crush ] : hah...not at the moment
[ color of your room ] : creamy and delicious
[ hobbies ] : i dont have any
[ what are u wearing now ] : a T0MMY GiRL wife beaters and tan shorts
[ u smoke ] : im clean
[ u drink ] : told you im clean!
[ u shy or outgoing ] : umm..it depends...
[ had fun this summer ]: not yet...
[ feature you notice first ] : their hair..yes...
[ looks/personality ] : mine or the other persons?
[ piercings ] : I had 7 but now i have 4 =( i miss my other 3...
[ tan or fair ] : neither
[ age difference limit ] : never under..and only 4 older..
[ smart/dumb ] : neither
[ funny/serious ]: both...
[ more about me ]
[ chocolate milk, or hot chocolate ] : Chocolate Milk =D
[ coke or pepsi ] : PEPSi cause BRiTNEY represents =D
[ would you wanna marry your best friend, or the perfect lover ]: both =D i need both =D
[ tea/coffee/cappuccino ] : OoOh I CANT DECIDE!!!
[ cats or dogs ] : gosh these are hard questions!! i love both!!
[ milk, dark, or white chocolate? ] : yummmm DARK...
[ sunny or rainy ] : SUNNY..RAiNY is so dirty, and gunky and and, blech...gross...
[ summer/spring ] : SPRING! oOOh pretty FLOWERS!
[ vanilla or chocolate ] : swirl!!
[ biking or blading ] : haha...neither!
[ cereal or toast ] : CiNNAMON TOAST CRUNCH! lol
[ do ya like rock, punk, rap, r & b, alternative, techno, pop..etc ] : I like whatever music satisfies my ears C-_-D
[ bunk or water bed ] : I've never been in a water bed...I WANT WATER BED!! bunks are dangerous...haha...wOw old memories..
[ relation ]
[ Friends that you look like ] : People say i look like Christina and then others say i look like Camille..and then some say i look like debbie..gosh...why can i look like myself!!
[ Who you go to for advice the most ] : debbie and maxson
[ skinniest ] : ANiTA NGUYEN
[ loudest ] : Me..
[ craziest ] : I say Debbie
[ funniest ] : Maxson
[ nicest ] : Natalie
[ shortest ] : haha...debbie gets this one too
[ tallest ] : umm...David
[ fave... ]
[ color ] : ummm...silky purple and olive green
[ movie ] : anything that brings satisfaction to my eyes =D
[ subject ] : photography...Imma take it in 11th grade =D
[ ocean or pool ] : definitly p00l the ocean is cold salty and dirty and dangerous..i hate it..well...if i was living a life like NEMO..haha thats another story...
[ laugh or cry ] : this question is so stupid...what do you think?
[ silver or gold ] : I like the color silver but i like the gold jewlery =D
[ diamonds or pearls ] : umm...diamonds make my eyes sparkle =D
[ sunset or sunrise ] : sunrise i see the sunset too much its boring...
[ showers or baths ] : ummm...baths they are the most relaxing thing in the world I love them especially with bubbles and the jams playing..ahh..
[ food ] : EVERYTHING!
[ snack ]: umm..you..hehe...
[ board game ] : board games are boring...i havent played one in decades...
[ all-time song ] : haha...thers too many..but at the moment I can remember Girlfriend - NSYNC
[ current song ] : Latif - I dont wanna hurt you
[ rap song ] : Never Scared
[ holiday ] : I dont like holidays
[ movie star ] : whoever who knows how to act and satisfies my viewing pleasure
[ magazine ] : cosmopolitan
[ tv show ] : SMALlVILlE i miss it =(
[ Disney character ] : ummm Dori from Finding Nemo !
[ animal ] : all of them =D
[ drink ] : my H20
[ cologne ]: EAU DU TOILETTE T-GiRL
[ brand of sneaker ] : the Reebok Classics..i need new ones..
[ activity ] : talking
[ fruit ] : all of them are yummy juicy and colorful =D
[ juice ] : appo juice =D
[ do you...]
[ do you like school ] : haahahahahha fuck no!
[ do you like to talk on the phone ] : not really...
[ do you have your own phone line ] : YES! wOw i felt good answering that...
[ do you like to dance ] : sure why not..
[when was the last time...]
[ last time u showered ]: this morning...hehe
[ went runnin ] : I ran down up and down lucky star restraunt this morning does that count?
[ worked out ] : man oh man..like forever..someone take me to 24 hours! i'll hook you up with a guess pass ;)
[ danced like a frickin idiot ] : this morning....
[ went to a movie ] : ummm...last week?
[ talked on the phone ] : this morning...
[ wished you were sumbody else ] : all the time hunnie all the time...
[ random ]
[ where would you love to travel to? ] : haha helen that was a good one..heaven..lol..well mine is umm...PAR-EE!!
[ whats ur middle name? ] : ting ting
[ is ur hair color natural? ]: haha...my hair doesnt know natural
[ do u have a cell phone? ] : I did..damnit..
[ whats ur online screen name ] : xxxtingtingxxx
[ what do u want to do with your life? ] : BECOME SUCESSFUL AND blah blah blah blah kekeke...
[ last time u went bowling ] : wOohoo..i know the last time i went with steven ma debbie and judy
[ are u any good at bowling ] : heh...iono..lets find out...
[ last time u went to the doctor ] : about a month ago i hate the doctor actually i just hate the white walls..
[ do u have a credit card ] : I did...mother took it...
[ do u consider urself a "nice" person ] : not at all..
[ last book ]: Fast Food Nation i didnt even finish it
[ are u stressed out? ] : hah you dont even know
[ do u believe in angels? ] : ummm sure
[ what are u driving now? ] : nothing…I don’t have a car =(
[ u help pay for it? ] : I don’t have one…
[ do u think ur spoiled? ] : sometimes
[ do u like mustard? ] : oh yeah...especially when its on...>_< haha syke..i like honey mustard
[ have u seen the exorcist? ] : Like half of it…it’s no good
[ how bout dumb & dumber? ] : yeah..i think everyone has
[ ever been skydiving? ] : no and I’m not planning tooOo..
Yesterday I went up to Juilan's for his pool party planned by Marc and David hah..it was fucking 65 degrees yesterday...I wasnt crazy enough to get in the pool and neither was anybody else! JULIUS came I got to see my buddy =D...yeah im so happy i missed him so much! =D...gimme you shirt! lol just kidding...anyways when most everybody left we just went inside played a couple games of pool or so and played Mario Party 4 (it's gay....the first one is the best homie!) It was around 6:30 and now everyone was gone...just me, debbie, and judy kickin it with Julian..then Sandy came and we left. We all went to Judys and just talked and chilled...nothin much ate SUSHI...YUCK...but i had pizza =D. Later we all went to the computer and fucked around...but then me and debbie started talking and some stuff came up...and i listened to a certain song and tears started rolling down my cheeks...no one really saw cause i had my face covered with my hands..iOono..Debbie said i'm good at hiding my true identity...but we didnt know if that was a good thing or bad thing...
I need to update my page..i need my calender...I feel so stOopid...BLECK...
Tomorrow is Ana-Lisa's birthday hopefully the girls can go with me...I need some cheering up done...hopefully i recover soon...I really do hope so...
This morning I worked at Lucky Star, I made my money =p...heh. so spastic, so many people, so many dishes, plates, chopstix, napkins, tea, drinks, DiM SUM! Well came home with daddy and been here since then...I wanted to celebrate Fathers Day but my dad doesnt want to...=/ Oh wells...
I finally understand, some people are just fucknuts and just dont want me to be with them...I get it okay...I'll leave you guys alone...you guys can all suck my big fucking dick.
Kevin...;D.............................heh..syke.
As for events that has happened, I went to Anthony's and Nina's graduation yesterday at golden city hall, wOw you guys congratulations crawford class of '03. Ant and Nina you guys are one of the greatest people I've met G'luck in the real world and take care of yourselves, i mean even if your out there doing your own thing I hope if you get time out of yoru busy schedule to holla at me and just chat. That goes for all you other graduates out there even though i dont have much friends that are graduates but yeah....
Well, Julians about to deport in a month or so...man oh man imma gonna miss you my sweetie you've been the nicest and funniest and one of the most outgoing people I know. I'm really sorry i havent hung out with you as much as both you and i wanted to over the last couple years we've known each other. Me and the girls are gonna come over this coming week I promise we're gonna try to spend as much time with you as possible before you leave I want to have memories of you and us to keep we love you man.
Last night was aite it was more of a night dedicated to Ant but I'm glad i was part of it...haha...yesterday after school Me, Max, David, and Judy spent like a fucking hour and 15 minutes waiting in line to return our books. Anyways after that Me, Max, and Marcus went to his house to get together with everyone and eat at hometown buffet then we bumped into debbie and since she had nothing to do she came along too. Well we met up with Davy and Ant and tried to look for the rest of the stoOopids but they already at Hometown Buffet so we just left to eat there...it wasnt much but at least it was something. Then afer we went back to max's and chilled. MArcus went home and davy shane and max went with nancy to downttown for the graduation ceremony and me and debster stayed with ant and got picked up by this one dude names Derrick..thanks for the ride =D...and we picked up Nina SHE WAS SO PRETTY I LOVE YOU SWEETIE! then we headed for downtown...the ceremony was boring but we got nina and ant good with the sily string ahaha...yes...then we all went back to ant's to party ...not much of one but te food was good homie! haha..yummmy...then ant and nina went to the after party and us loser went home...damnit..got home at 11:56pm...
Maxson I'm sorry things didnt work out..yet...again. I really wish it did. I wish I didn't have to feel the way i feel and i wish my feeling for you were as much as your for me. But both you and I know its not true i tried i really did and so did you but even all the trying and hardworking for the both of us it didnt end up like the way we wanted to ....I'm so sincerly sorry. I really hope that in the end that we are together again but not now. Its just the wrong time in my life to be feeling like this. I know it hurts and i am so selfish for doing this to the both of us, but wouldn't you rather keep our love real instead of TRYING to keep it real. I know you understand and your the greatest person in the world to understand how i feel i mean especially you out of the world your the one. Hunnie I love you and I hope that in the end things will at least make the best out of the both of us. We can do it Max i know we can...but not now..damnit..I'm sorry sweetheart. One more thing I'm glad Latif made that song it made both me and max realize something even though its not the best thing and maybe the worst but its real and its better to know something real...even though reality hurts...
Well world I'm ready for you and I sit here to languish about all my mistakes and heartbreak from the past, but you gotta look towards the future right? well im right here waiting for it...
okay here enjoy the picture of ugly me and my sexy beautiful babygirl Deanna.
so I haven't been blogging much but I did alot this weekend, it was one of my more exciting weekend probably the only one for a while.
May 23 - Friday Well, I went to school, i forgot how that went probably boring and dull liek always, but then after me, Judy, Debbie, Maxson, and David went to Horton to get a present for Julian. I got all pissy fitted for some damn reason and I felt horrible, soorrry MAX! Well we finally got him a present, Martrix: The Game and then we went home. Actually I went to maxson's house and chilled there and his mom took me home. I think that was purdii much it i just went home and got ready for the weekend that lay ahead. =D
May 24 - Saturday Oh wOw today was so awesome! I went to Julians birthday at 2:00 and i got to see old friends again and meet new people. There was great food, fun, and dance! haah..i loved it..this day really cheered me up and brought back the lil ol' me inside. I was glad to see my friends that i havent seen in centuries like Anthony, Andrew, and Julian. I'm also happy to meet new people like Lisa, Anna, and Q.T Today was really great and the cake was so yummy =D.
May 25 - Sunday Today was a laid back day I got to see my friends from Santee cause today was Nana's birthday. We were planning to get a limo and all that good shiiit but then the limo guy bailed on us and we ended up going to Dim Sum and kickin' it at Ten Ten's. Maxson came with me today he got to hang out with the guys. It was nice to hang out with Ten Ten, Anita, Nana, and Amy. Later that day we went to Mission Beach and just hung out there for a lil' bit, later we went back home to watch darkness falls and the brothers. After the flicks Jeff gave me and max a ride home. Thanks a bunch.
May 26 - Monday MEMORIAL DAY Today was really laid back!! hahaa, i hung out with Maxson most of the morning and just went to skate with Max, Charlie, Davy, Peter, and Marcus. Later that day me and Max went back to my house and we went with my mom to watch "Bruce Almighty" after that we took max home and I went home and i felt my nose begin to clog...yuck
So on Tuesday I was sick like a mutherfucker and I still had to go to school...ACK...How gay....and no more smallville =(.
She's so beautiful...Geez, I'm jealous...aRgh....
Hope you feel better.
I was suppose to clean up the garage today with my mom and max but plans changed and yeah...things changed. So now i am just sitting on my ass, going to finish some hw later.
life sux when your not having fun right? but how about when your not happy? even though your suppose to be...but then somethings wrong, and you feel as if you need to change it...i dont know... everythings way out of reach for me to even think about, peace. - Cynthia, 2:51pm / Top
Goddess of the Night. Beautiful yet a strange
darkness and sadness lurk about you.
What element would you rein over?
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haha...beautiful, no. darkness and sadness, yessssss. - Cynthia, 2:51pm / Top
QUESTIONAIRE
Name: Cynthia
Nickname: ting , cee, cyn
Birthdate: sept. 29, 1988
Birth Sign: libra
AiM name: xxxtingtingxxx
Siblings: none
Pets: 2 birds
Homet0wn: San Deezy
»THE CURRENT«
Time: 1:05
Music: Justin Timberlake
Mood: lazy
Wearing: panda pj's
Talking to: kristen, helen, and jason
Eating: a sandwich
Drinking: choclate milk
Thinking: matrix reloaded here or there
CD/Tape in stero: my mix
Height: 5'2 1/2
Hair c0l0r: black with streaks
Eye c0l0r: dark brown
Tatto0s 0r piercings: 4 on ears
Bedtime: at night
J0b: full time student
School: henry high
Residence: san deezy
»PAST and PRESENT«
First thing y0u th0ught when you woke up in the morning?: what did i just dream about again?
What were you like as a child?: whined and complained
Earliest mem0ry?: it's very vauge...
What did you want to be when you grow up?: haha..a porn star
What do you want to be now?: a good person...
How many cars have you had?: none
How many b0ifrenze have y0u had?: 3
How many people have you kissed?: 2
How family oriented are you?: er...not really...?
Last thing you thought about before you went to sleep last night?: this blanket is fukcing annoying!
»WHEN WAS THE LAST TiME YOU...«
Saw a movie: Last Friday
Cried: hmm...last week...
Had a crush: last month
Went for a walk: uh...does walking to a friends house count?
Went on a date: I've never been on one...oh wait..a very mutual one, like a month ago
Told s0me0ne y0u l0ved him: yesterday
Hugged: yesterday
Were sick: couple months ago
Smiled: yesterday
B0ught s0mething: yesterday
Laughed: yesterday
Danced: yesterday at the mall haha
Were sarcastic: like a couple minutes ago...
Kissed s0me0ne: yesterday
Talked to an Ex: eHhhHH...never
Had a nightmare: last night
Read a Book: in english yesterday
Did something illegal: very long time ago
Sang: yesterday
Fantasized ab0ut s0me0ne: haha...don't worry about it
Played with an oijia b0ard: like 4 years ago
Had a real c0nversati0n: since forever
»DO YOU/HAVE YOU«
Been in l0ve: yes
Drank: no
Sm0ke: no
Kissed the same sex: no
Skinny-dipped: never
Br0ke a b0ne: no
Ran ar0und nude: haha...no...i've seen people run around nude though
Live in the m0ment: i dont know
Had a dream that keeps c0ming back: yea
Played an instrument: yes
Believe there's life 0n 0ther planets: iOono.
Read the newspaper: yea
Have any gay or lezbian friends: i think so...
Believe in miracles: nah...
Believe in astr0l0gy: yea
Have any secrets: oh yeah
Talk to strangers: not for a very long time
Have an 0bsessi0n: hah..yea
C0llect anything: yes
Have a best friend: no
Wish 0n stars: yes
Like y0ur handwriting: no
Have any bad habits: lots
Been to a foreign c0untry: bahama...haha
Been in a car accident: no
»PLAiN Cee
I am: weird
I think: i need a life
I know: what you want ;D
I want: to be happy, and drive.
I have: the greatest boyfriend!
I wish: life was simple and sweet
I hate: myself
I miss: having friends
I fear: being lonely
I hear: my tv
I search: for true friends
I wonder: if i'm okay
I regret: almost everything...
I love: my mom, my dad, my boyfriend, and my friends
I care: about everyone
I always: think to much
I am n0t: what you think i am
I dance: in the mirror
I sing: for shit
I cry: randomly
I do not always mean: to do the things i do
I fight: with my boyfriend and my mom constantly
I write: when i need to get something out of my system, or i write for school
I win: never, i never win
I lose: everything
I c0nfuse: myself and others
I listen: to you if you need me
I can usually be f0und: with my boyfriend max
I need: friends
I am happy ab0ut: what i have
I sh0uld: try harder
In my head: i..uh..what the hell am i suppose to say here?
Wishing: for a simple and sweet care-free life
dayz/m0nths: yeah and? what about them? haha
The last thing I ate: a sandwich
S0mething that Im deathly afraid 0f: making mistakes and death
Do y0u believe in l0ve: yea
Do you believe in forgiveness: yes
If you could have any animal for a pet: a koala ...awww.. i want one!!
What are the 3 cities y0u w0uldnt mind rel0catin t0: Orlando, Paris, LA
What are y0u fave. pig 0ut fo0ds: haha..EVERYTHING!
Whatz s0mething y0u wish y0u c0uld understand better? myself and others
So I need to take a shower soon and get ready to go out, gosh i feel so fuckin lazy. ARGH!!!
Anyways, today was intresting i was pissed, sad, happy and hyper, iono...today i went through alot...no one's fault...just me and my thoughts, i was being gay, alot of things brought me back to my old memories though, which was quite awkward, and made me feel quite dispondent. I hung out with Debbie, Maxson, Judy, David, and Jason...We watched " Jackass: The movie" omg its so funny lol... and we watched porn and shit..lol. It was hilarious!! Your dogs are stinky Jason, lol..Nice car..smOOth..lol..haha, just messing with you.
MAXSON I MISS YOU!...so saturday...ask me before i become a nerd..toodles everyone.
anyways Helen called and told me Steve decided to come home this saturday because the weather there is way too hot for him..that sux i hope he feels better
Anyways, Exhibition is due this Friday I got almost everything but then my english teacher said i shouldnt write curisive..how gay...i need to change fucking everything...okay peace...
Soo tomorrow's is mother's day i got my mom this wonderful present im sure she'll like it. I already left it in her room since she went to sleep quite early. anyways i have to wake up really early tomorrow because i have to work at Lucky Star but it won't be that bad...if im hostess haha...j/k i dont care...well hope all of you have a great day with your mom's night ladies night guys.
your asshole.
What swear word are you?
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So you know..Portfolio Exhibition is due next week how mother fuckingly gay...
Damn you know what..Tila Nguyen is fucking hot man...I wish i was her, she' so beautiful..
Oh man..hey look at this guys:
Have you ever been loved? I mean really loved beyond your ability to receive loved so much that it almost short circuits your thinkin loved totally unconditionally? Have you ever been loved so deeply that you felt absolutely no fear? There is someone to whom you could confess your worst side and most shameful thoughts. This person might weep with you as you confess sensing your shame but never reject judge or belittle you because of anything you might do or think. Have you ever been loved so deeply that someone travailed in prayer for you, pleading with god for protection insight and power for you to love as you were called to live Ever been the object of the kind of love that you can always see in the eyes of the one who loves you Their eyes light up and their energy rise when you walk in the room? They long to hear your story and experiences of the day never impatient to tell you their misery
written by Jason Kieu
I think I've experienced that, you know, it's such a weird feeling and Jason...your so talented...=D. Anyways, it feels good to make someone that you love that loves you back happy...i love the feeling of putting a smile on someones face but on the same token you receive so much responsiblilty and your able to put a frown on there face as quick as you put that smile on there face...You have to be so careful with your actions you have to be so careful with what you say, you have to be careful with every step you take and if you make the wrong action, say the wrong thing make the wrong movements, both the one you love and your world will be crashing down..but you know what things like these happens and you just have to try try again and you'll make it...=D...
Ladies, good night Gantlemen, good morning hahaha That's it