As the rays of the sun peeked through the black blinds, Alyssa slowly woke up.She let out a little yawn and looked around her large room.She looked at her clock and it 9:51 am.She had noticed her head phones were still on."All I have to give" by Backstreet Boys was on.
".....But my love is all I have to give.W/out you I don't think I can live.I wish I could give the world too you.But love is all I have to give to you.When you talk does it seem like he's not even listening to a word you say.That's okay baby,just tell me your problems and i'll try my best to kiss them all away....."Was part of the lyrics.It was a beautiful song,a song of love and care.I wish I could have felt that by a boy,even a friend who was a boy would be fine with me.
I dragged myself out of bed and walked on my carpeted floor to my dresser.I picked out a purple cardigan with an attached brown tube top.I got out some blue stone washed denim jeans,some K-Swiss shoes,and my underwear.I grabbed my brush and a black hair tie.I dragged my blue painted feet across the floor and into my cold tiled floor bathroom.Even though I believed in darkness,when it came to clothing or fashion,I was there.I hated looking like a drag,but sometimes I would just slip on some black shorts and a Betty-Boop shirt.I took a quick shower and changed.I felt refreshed,and ready for what the day lied ahead,that's if I felt like doing anything.I combed through my wet knotted hair,and pulled it back into a pony tail.There was light all around,and I was disguisted.I went downstairs and into the kitchen to pour some cereal.In the refridgerator there was a note left for me.
"Alyssa,
We had to go to work for over time.We're sorry we won't be here,and we won't be back till tommorrow morning.We think you can take care of yourself,so we'll leave you alone.Oh, the boys next door were kind enough to show you 'round town,be NICE to them.Have fun for once,please!
Love Hope and Monica."
I made an unwanting face and then looked out the large kitchen window.It was above the sink and gave a view of our yard.I loved our yard.It was a large open space with a big apple tree at the left corner.There was a little garden near the tree,Monica had began planting it when we first arrived.I thought it was beautiful garden.There was a variety of flowers.Wild Orchids, Roses,Tulips, yellow and purple pansies, Carnations,and some exotic flowers.
At noon,Alyssa was outside in the yard lying next to the tree.Her head was resting on the tree's side,and her legs were folded.She had on her black sunglasses and was waiting for the boys to show her around town.Even though she didn't feel like going,she didn't want to be rude.She looked at the little garden and spotted a little rose beginning to crinkle.She quickly got up and ran inside.She grabbed some Rose food,and poured a couple of drops into water.She ran back out and watered the poor little plant.She hated when plants had to die.
She tore off a little petal which was already brown.She crushed it in her hand and showered it on the little rose.
"You love flowers don't you?"A voice asked.Alyssa turned around and found the three boys by her gate.
"Oh,yes.I love them."I said as I touched a rose with my pointer finger."You can jump over the fence if you'd like.Just don't jump on the garden."Alyssa said as she stood up and smiled.The eldest jumped over first,then the little one,and finally,the middle one.Their golden hair shined in the bright sun.The little one was adorable,he had baby eyes.The eldest was cute,he had wavy hair and marvelous eyes.As for the middle one,he had such an adorable baby face.It looked so smooth,except for the zit on his cheek.
"Hi,my name is Taylor.This is Zac,and that's Isaac."Taylor said as he stook out his hand."Hello,nice to meet you." Alyssa said as she shook each of their hands.
They had shown me almost every place in town,we went to the park,the mall,and just walked around town.A couple of girls would come by and ask for an autograph,they didn't seem to mind at all.They loved their fans,they weren't bothered at all.It was already night time,my favorite part of the day. They had already gone inside,but I was outside,in the yard lying on the grass watching the stars.They were beautiful, millions of them everywhere.The moon was right in the middle of the sky,big and bright.A little shooting star had passed by and I made a wish.**I wish I wouldn't be so lonely,and at least make friends**.I laughed a little.It was impossible for that to happen.Nothing could possibly change me.I would always be lonely.
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I was up in my room,my brothers were sleeping,except for Zac.He was mumbling to himself.I turned over and looked out my window.I had a view of Alyssa's backyard.She was outside, watching the sky.I guessed she was into Astronomy and stuff.
"Psst...zac you awake?"I whispered as I positioned my back.
"No."He snapped.
"Zaccy,my lil bro,do me a favor."I asked as I tilted my head to look at him across the room.
"What is it now?"He asked.
"Nothing,I just wanted to ask that question.So what do you think of Alyssa?"I asked as I quietly climbed down my bunk bed.There was silence,except for Ike's soft snores.Zac's head popped up and he crawled out of bed onto the floor.He began crawling to the window and stopped.
"She's a little odd,but she seems okay."Zac said.I crawled to were he was sitting at and sat next to him.
"How is she odd?Nobody can possibly be odder than you!"I whispered as I let out a little laugh.
"Well,one thing.It is freakin' 90º outside and she's wearin' pants!"He whispered as his hands flung up.
"Zac,we wear pants and sweaters at concerts,and it gets real hot.So are we considered weird?"I asked.
"Unfortuantly.. yes.But that's just us!"He whispered back.
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The night was beautiful,it was gorgeous.My life may have sounded boring, but to me it was interesting.The Hanson boys made me wonder if they were my friends, or just faces in the crowd.They were extremely nice to me, and at the same time... I loved them for not knowing my past.They told me they seen me before,and that we talked. I just told them I had forgotten, I joked that my brain wasn't all there.I guess they believed me, 'cause they laughed along with me. They were happy cheery people, always smiling, always laughing.I wanted to be like them, no fears, no worries, just a care-free life. I let out a little sigh and kept on looking at the stars.
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"Maybe tomorrow we can take her to the woods.She'd love it, since she seemed to enjoy nature a lot."I asked Zac as I looked out the window to see Alyssa.
"Why don't you ask her?Nobody will here you,take your time. All ya gotta do is stick two pillows under the sheets,and they'll think it's you."Zac whispered.
"Are you on crack or somethin'!?I'll get caught!"I whispered as I smacked my head.
"Chicken..."Zac whipered.I nudged him and then looked out the window again.
"Uhhh!Fine,but if I get caught,I'm telling mom it was all your idea."I said as I quietly opened the window.Our room was on the second floor of the house,there was a little ladder on the side of our house that we use to climb down. Only, it really isn't a ladder. I call it a wall with holes in it.I quietly and carefully walked to it,and climbed down.The cold, wet grass squished under my bare feet.
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I heard footsteps from the next yard and I slightly sat up. Somebody was in their backyard.I watched carefully as the person walked to their gate and then jumped over to my yard. I jumped back a little, but then noticed it was only Taylor, sneeking out at night.
"Hi Alyssa."He said in a low voice.
"Hi....Let me ask you something.What the hell are you doing sneeking out?!"I said trying to be quiet.
"Shhh,I came over to ask you something."He said as he sat down next to me.
"Oookay."I replied.
"We wanted to know if you'd like to come to the woods with us?? You know,the woods near town, just a block before you reach the mall."Taylor said.My eyes widened as I remembered that night.
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