The flower scented air became a strong,stiff odor.The beautful lit sky became black,as if all the stars had mysteriously disappeared.It was total darkness,nowhere to go,nowhere to run and hide.A tall,built man began to approach me.It seemed like my father,but the figure was taller than he was.As I turned around to run,a strong grip held me from running.My shoulder began to ache from the pain.He said something,something like "Be a good little girl,and you won't be killed".Those words echoed in my head as I felt weak,and fell to the ground.Had I been shot?Was I striken with a knife?I couldn't tell,I had lost the feeling in my body...
"Umm,Alyssa.Are you okay?"Taylor said as I zoned in.I shook
my head and choked back all the tears.
"The woods?"I asked as a lone tear feel down my cheek.I let
out a fake yawn to make him think the yawn caused the tear.
"Ya,we were wondering if you would like to come with us....
Unless something is wrong with that."He said as he ran his
hand across the grass.
"No..no,nothings wrong with that,it's just...well,what the
hell?I'll go."I said as I tried to vanish that night from
my memory.
"Okay,cool.I'll come over here around noon."He siad as he
got up and stretched his back.
"O..okay.See you then."I said as I smiled slightly.
"Okay,'night."He said as he jumped over the fence.I watched
him go up the side house fence and quietly onto the roof.He
climbed inside and then closed his window.
That next morning,I woke up to the sound of the stereo downstairs.Music from Alanis' "Jagged Little Pill" CD was heard from all the way up the stairs and down the hall.I rubbed my eyes and adjusted to the light in the room.I brushed the covers off of me and turned myself around, falling onto the floor.I laughed a little bit,then rubbed my injured knee.I crwled to my brown dresser and stood up. I picked out some black jean bell bottoms,a black tube top, and a black cardigan.This time of year,cardigans were in style.My belly button was showing,it looked beautiful pierced.I picked out my black Skechers,and then went into the bathroom.I quickly changed,and then wet my hair.I put some gel in it,and then brushed through my knotty hair.I secured it back with a clip and sprayed it.
I put on some silver-grayish eye shadow on my eye lids,and
then a little bit of eye liner.I wondered why I was
dressing up,especially wearing make-up.I hated make-up,
maybe a little bit of eye shadow,and that was it.I just
shrugged and walked out of the bathroom.I looked at my
watch,it had been 11:30AM,I must have slept late.I ran down
the hall,then down the stairs and into the kitchen.
"We're looking pretty today."Monica siad as she looked up
from her magazine.
"Thanks,but I don't know why.Pass me the Apple Jacks."I
said as I took the gallon of milk out of the fridge.I took
out a bowl and waited for Monica to pass me my cereal.
"Like today."I said.
"Oh,ya...cereal.Forgot,here...take it."She said snapping
out of her fantasy land.
"You need help,did you take your medicine?"I teased
her.
"Funny........guess what?!"She said happily.
"Huh,you got your 20 cent raise?"I said as I poured my
cereal and put the milk back.
"Funny.....no.You remember Jesse from Chicago?"She asked as
she put her magazine down.
"Jesse Rodriguez?Ya,I 'member him.Why??"I asked.
"I heard from him yesterday.He said he was coming to visit
today!Isn't that great!?"She said excitedly.
"Ya!!!Meeting up with my ex that broke up with me 'cause I
was ugly is just great!!!"I said sarcastically. We broke up
'cause it wasn't really working out, when he seen me,he
said we should just be friends.All that bastard ever cared
about was how I looked like.
"Come on sis.He's coming in today,please be nice.PLEASE!"My
sister pleaded.
"You're pathetic you know that.Just beause you think he's
'sweet' doesn't mean I have to think the bastard is sweet.
I will not meet him what-so-ever,and you or Faith can't
make me!!"I yelled as I dumped my cereal into the sink.
"Well...it's too late for that,guess who's standing behind
you."Monica said as she pointed behind me.My eyes widend
and I quickly turned around to face Jesse.He was looking at
me,and examing me.
"What the fuck you lookin' at??My pimple!?!"I said as my
hands flew up.
"No...as a matter a fact,I was looking at how pretty you
are."He said as he caressed my cheek.I jumped back in
disguist.
"Don't touch me.I don't wanna fuckin' see you!!Now if you'd
move out of my way,I'll be leaving!"I said as I shoved him
to the side.I headed for the door and un-locked it.The door
slammed shut on me.I turned around to face Jesse,his hand
was holding the door shut.
"Get it through your head!!I don't love you!Now let me
be!!" I yelled as I pushed him away.It only led him into
grabbing my hand and pulling me towards him.He became
closer and kissed me.I became pist and shoved him to the
floor.I kicked him on his side leg and opened the door.I
walked out and decided to take a little walk.
"Hey 'Lyssa!!Ready to go to the woods??"A boy yelled,it was
Tay's older brother,I think his name was Isaac.I forgot
about that!!The woods,that's where I was going.I shivered
at the thought,and tried covering my fear with a smile.
"Ya...ya,I'm ready."I yelled back.All three approached
me,wearing shorts and some long black shirts.Shorts while
going to the woods... a lot of scratches on the legs.
"Hello.So you ready?" The little one asked,I forget his
name....Zac!That's what it was.
"Alyssa!Baby,I'm sorry!!"Jesse yelled.I rolled my eyes and
turned around.He was running towards me,then stopped a
litle bit.
"What the fuck you want??"I yelled.
"I wanted to say I'm sorry.....um...who the hell are you?"
He asked as he pointed to the three behind me.
"I'm Ike,that's Tay,and that's Zac."Isaac spoke up.
"Oh...okay......Alyssa,you wanna go to the park?"He asked
as he approached me.I looked at him in disguist and just
rolled my eyes.
"No,I'm going with them to the....the..woods."I said as
another cold breeze ran through my body.
"Oh,well I'll wait for you here.....bye baby."He said
softly.I couldn't resist when he told me that,uhhhhh I gave
in.
"Okay,bye."I replied.I turned around,and all three of us
began walking.
"If you don't mind me asking,who was that??"Zac asked.
"My ex,broke up a while ago.He didn't like how I looked.I
was ugly,and still am."I said as I shrugged.
"That wasn't nice.And hey...you're not ugly.Don't think
that at all.Remember what we told you when you were 10?"
Tay asked.
"10?Ummm,no,I'm sorry.What did you tell me?"I asked.
"I told you that boys who think your ugly are just
assholes. You are very pretty,and you know that for a fact.
I 'member you'd come crying on my shoulder,telling me
you're problems.Well....I'm still here for you."Isaac said.
I smiled a little bit,trying to remember,I just couldn't.
But I did remember seeing a boy,and then a rose.
"Thanks...a lot."I said.He smiled at me,and we just kept
walking.
It was dark know,I had gone to the forest.I had a great time.....no I didn't.I broke down crying,my knees went weak, and I had to have all three of them calm me down.I made up a story and told them this place reminded me of my father.They believed me,and took me out of there quickly and safely.
I was downstairs in my music room.Two months had passed,me
and the boys had gotten acquainted.They began changing,
becoming more involved in girls,and Taylor began falling
apart.Maybe they were just growing up in the cycle of
life,what ever it was,it sure pissed me off.The sweetness
of the boys had faded,except Zac still had a little bit of
gentlemen in him. I had been looking out of the
window,clenching my hands.My nails were digging into my
palms,I was thinking of the night,the night I wished I had
died.When I had finally noticed,I had blood beneath my
finger nails.I looked at my palm,and there had been four
finger nail marks.
"Fuck..."I whispered.I quickly got up and rushed to the
kitchen.I knew my way around,I didn't need a light.I ran my
hand under a little bit of water,and shook the water off. I
grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my hand.I went
upstairs,still with the towel wrapped around my hand.I
quietly walked to my bed and lied down.I slowly drifted off
to sleep,think about the mysteries tommorrow would
bring.
Okay peoples.After this chapter,there will be no more chapter titles.It's to hard for me,so i just put "Chapter 4" as the title.It would make it easier.
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