This chapter is of a dream Alyssa had.
"Somebody help me!!Anybody,please!!!!!"I yelled as I ran faster and faster.I was back in Chicago,and somehow I was in trouble.I knew where I was at,I was at the Ghost Tracks,near Vet's park.
(A.n-This is true,there is something called "The Ghost Tracks" by Vets Park.They say the train tracks are haunted and you can hear people moaning.Hey,but this dream I'm telling you is true,well, not true in real life.It's a dream me and my friend Samantha had.)
Somebody had been chasing me,but was taunting me by going slow.As I ran,a huge rock caused me to fall. I tripped and went flying to the floor.I tried breaking my fall,but it was no use.I just sat there,helpless,waiting for death to come.I was crying harder than ever,and I was holding myself, rocking back and forth.The man came closer to me.He laughed an evil laugh and said "Say good bye,for,you will never get to see the sight of day again!".
I knew I couldn't let myself die,I had to live.To many people who loved me, but if I'd die,all my problems and worries would be gone.But...my loved ones problems and worries would began.I couldn't die, not today.Not like this.My sisters, they would miss me deeply, and I wouldn't want to cause any trouble for them. Samantha, my friend, I couldn't leave her.She had always been there for me,I couldn't leave now."Friends forever." Echoed in my ear.
I searched around for the hardest thing, my hand felt a sharp metal object,I carefully held it and hid it out of his sight."Say good bye..." He said as he pulled out a cutting knife from his pocket.It was the perfect moment, so I had to take action."Bastard."I said as I stabbed his leg. The knife went flying out of his hands,and onto the ground. It fell beside my hand,and lightly scrapped it.I grabbed it and carefully crawled back.I got up and just swung the knife several times, until I heard a moan.I quickly dropped the knife and ran like there was no tommorrow.
"Samantha!!!!!Help me!!!!"I yelled,as I finally had escaped the Ghost Tracks.I had found the exit,after everything I went through.I was pounding on her door,and trying to breath at the same time."Alyssa,Alyssa,wha...what's wrong?!" She asked as she widened the door.I pushed her in and slammed the door.I quickly locked it,then chained it.I ran into the living room and closed all the blinds.I closed the curtains and ran to her back house.I closed every blind, every curtain,and locked the back door.I was frantic and tired.I collapsed onto the couch and took deep breaths.
"Alyssa,what's worng??"Samantha asked.
"Ghost tracks,man,knife,coming to kill me!!"I yelled. Samntha's eyes widened in fear,and she sat next to me.I broke out into tears,and she hugged me.
Then there was a big flash of darkness,and then I was in another dream.
I was running up a silvery spiral staircase.I had on a long white gown, my long brown hair had sparkling jewels in them, my feet were covered by white silk slippers, and my hair and gown were blowing in the wind.It was a beautiful night,the stars were brightly showing, and the moon was out.
I was at the last step,and ready for what would come..... Death,death was coming.It was my choice to die,and I chose to kill myself.So many toubles,problems, and worries in my life.If I'd jump,all that stuff would be over.But,then my loved ones problems would begin.I was at those points where I had to decide my destiny,my fate.If I would jump,my problems would be all over.I would have no more worries,no more life!But if I do jump,everybody elses worries, and problems would begin.I wouldn't want that to happen.If I don't jump,I would have to deal with my problems,but God put me on this earth on for a reason.Not to kill myself, but to find out who I truly am.
What if......all the "what if's" were running through my head.I looked down,and stepped back.I couldn't take the jump, I couldn't and wouldn't die now.I ran back down and turned around.The midnight blue sky,the beautiful scenery had all turned red.I closed my eyes and opened them up again.My eyes were blood red,and the silvery stairs had become burning red stairs.I ran up them and just jumped. My white gown, was now red, my sprakling jewels, were now falling off,my silk slippers were now dreaded with blood,and my body was dreaded with happiness and fear.My hands were spread out,and my feet were facing downward.It just a few seconds,everything would be over.....
My head shot up from my pillow.My heart was pacing above normal,and I had been crying.I put my hand over my heart and took deep breaths.I had been getting that fucking nightmare for the past week.It had been haunting me, but why??? Something in my past, something had to be the reason. Was it something I did??I wouldn't be getting those dream unless I had done something.Was my life just falling apart?Uhhhh!!Why the fuck didn't I know?I was tired of the dreams,if they meant something, why didn't I know?Was it Samantha??Was she trying to tell me something through my dreams??If she was,it was surely working!
That morning,I was planing on visiting Tay.Mr. and Mrs.Hanson were going out of town and they had asked me to babysit,Ike was going out on a date with Janet(again),and Zac was going over Vicky's house.It was Fall of '99,Zac was fourteen,Ike was 19, and Tay and I were 17.Zac was growing up fast,to fast.It was only about a month after his birthday and that kid already thought he was a man.It was Friday, casual day.I had on a light blue sweater,showing of a little bit of my belly,which was pierced,some blue flare jeans,and my new Skechers.I grabbed my black Addidas jacket,and left a note for my sisters.
I was kicking the leaves as I passed down the cracked up side walk. They had moved, now I had to walk two blocks before I got to there house.There old house had become their recording studio,and MOE headquaters.Fucking fans couldn't get enough of them.Well,ya, I was a fan,but at least I wasn't a teenybopper.I could knock the living day lights out of the little pieces if shit. Thirteen year olds would give me hard looks when they would see me around Zac, or any of the boys.The brown,crisp leaves were crunching under my shoes as I passed another block.
A couple of more houses,and I'd be there.As I picked up a large, crisping leaf,my hand recieved a sharp sting.I dropped the leaf and looked at my palm.The four finger nail marks still had been aching.I forgot about that,I stuffed my hand in my pocket and kept walking.
"Lyssie!!Taybear is in the living room,Avie and Jess are uptair(yes,uptair,Mackie doesn't speak perfect!),and mommy and daddy are in da kitchen."Mackie said cheerfully.I loved that little kid to death,he was the only one allowed to call me Lyssie.I entered the living room to hear Kyle say his famous line "Oh my god!I killed Kenny!I'm a bastard"....huh??Oh ya,it was the Halloween special, repeat, Kyle thought Kenny was a ghost or somethin', and he killed him.
The volume was blasted out of the speakers, poor Tay,his hearing was damaged by the shrieks of his adoring fans. Ya right!! The boy blasted up the sound to annoy the shit out of me,he did it on purpose.I grabbed a pillow from one of the couches and crept up behing him.WHAM!!
"What the...oh you bitch,you're gonna pay!"He yelled.
"Jordan Taylor Hanson!Watch that mouth of yours.We have little kids presant!!"Diana scolded.
"Sorry mom."He said as he let out a laugh.She just shook her head and then continued on with her conversation with Walker.
"The emergancy numbers are near the phone,Zoe is upstairs with the girls,Zoe's bed time is 7PM,and Mackie's is at 8:30,and I promised the girls they could stay up a little late to watch the Disney movie special,so they can stay up till 9:00,no later!Ike is out with Janet,Taylor do you know what time he'll be back?"She asked as she gathered some papers and handed the car keys to Walker.
"Sometime before we all die."He said in sarcasm.
"Ike should be back,so expect him,Zac is staying at a friends house for a awhile, he'll be back around 11,if not, call his girlfriend Vicky, he should be there.Taylor is, well... Taylor is staying home, beware of the child.I allow you to smack his hand and send him to the corner if he misbehaves. Well,that's about it. We'll be back tommorrow morning, so I hope you don't mind spending the night." Diana said as she picked up her purse.
"No problem,and DON'T worry.I know the routine Mrs.Hanson. You're being to hard on yourself."I said sweetly. A smile went across her face and she patted my back.
"I appreciate it,I really do."Mrs.Hanson said.She grabbed a little box and flew out the door
"It is fuc...freakin' 11 o'clock,what the hel..heck are we gonna to do?"I said as I watched what I said around Mackie.
"Mommy said we could bake cookies,but she said Taybear wasn't allowed to touch the stove 'cause he would starta' fire."Mackie said as he played with his Tonka truck. "Vrrrrooomm." He said as he crashed two of the trucks together.
"Shut up you piece of shit."Taylor replied with annoyance and anger.
"Taylor!!What has gotten into you?All of a sudden you act like YOUR a piece of shit-"I said with concern in my voice.For the past two weeks,Taylor hadn't been acting like his normal self.
"Listen 'Lyssa,I control what comes out of my mouth, not you,not Mack,nobody!You got that woman!"He yelled as he pointed his finger to me with force.
Chapter 5
I know this story changed a WHOLE lot,but you can never predict life:)Alyssa has become her real self,she came out of her shy shell,and Taylor is going through a little problem.He like switches on and off.Hey,it's life!
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