"Taybear,wha..what's wrong?"The little 6 year old said as
his bottom lip began to quiver.
"You,that's what's wrong!" He yelled as his eyes
practically came out of their sockets.Mackie's eyes became
filled with tears,and then he just busted.He started crying like never before and ran up the stairs.I looked back at
Taylor who was just staring at me.
"See,look at what you did!You just made little Mackie
cry.Out of all people!!"I yelled as I ran up the stairs
after Mack.Jess and Avie were in his room,hugging him as he cried.
"Wha--what--has-gotten---into Tay---Taybear?"Mack said in
between cries.I looked at all three of them,Avie was on the verge of tears.
"I,I don't know Mackie,I don't know."I said as I walked
over to know a crying Avie and gave her a conforting hug.
"Shhhh,it's going to be fine.Now if you don't stop crying
I'm going to have to give you the famous Alyssa Tickle." I
said with a smile.Jess began faking as if she were crying,
and the rest joined in.
"You asked for it."I said as I grabbed all of them and
began tickling them around their stomaches.Jess' feet
kicked up in the air as I tickled her in her most ticklish
spot,the side of her stomache.Her face turned different
shades of red as I tickled her.
"St--st--stop!hahaha,s--top!" She said in between laughs. I stopped tickling her and got up on my feet.Each one of them were in a acorner,still laughing.Like nothing,the laughing had stopped,and Mack began to crawl to where Zše and Avie were at, on the bed.Jess pointed her finger behind me and then slowly got up.
"Quit pointing Jess, you know that's rude.Mack,get away from Zše,you'll drop the poor little thing!"Taylor yelled from behind.
"Taylor!What the fuck has gotten into you!?First you were sweet as an angel,now your acting like the devil's son!!" I yelled."If you're going to act that way,there is no way I'm letting you talk that way to the kids!"I yelled as I went over to the four of them,little Zše was playing with her plush Teletubbie,and Avie was playing with her.
"I can talk to these little brats anyway I want to--and you can't stop me!"He yelled.
"Tay,what's wrong with you?You use to be my favorite brother,now I don't love you anymore....All of you have left me alone,Zac is to busy wit' Vicky,Ike is wit' Janet, and you...you don't Love anyone anymore!!" Jessica yelled.She threw her Barbie to the floor and ran past Taylor and into her room.She slammed her door,and soft weeps were heard from her room.Avie ran after her,and Mackie followed.Another door slam was heard,and the soft weeps became louder.
"Oh my god,wha..what did I do?I...I'm sorry." He said as he shook his head."I'm not the one you should be apologizing to."I said as I pointed to the girl's door.He turned around and quietly walked out.I picked up the laughing Zoe,and proceeded behind him.
"Can I come in?"Taylor asked softly.No answer."Please, please let me in...I'm sorry,I really am!"He said as he knocked on the door.Little steps came to the door,and it quickly opened.Their eyes were glittering,and 3 foot smiles went across their faces.
"I love you guys." Taylor said as he smiled.All three of them welcomed him with open arms,laughing with joy.
"Ahhhh,a Kodak moment."I said from behind."Can I hold Zoe?" Mackie asked.My eyes widened,then I looked at Taylor.
"You know you're not allowed to carry Zoe.-"Taylor said, Mackie's eyes became filled with fear."But I won't tell ma that you did."Taylor said with his famous 10 inch smile.
"Come on Mackenzie,you can hold her downstairs.You just have to be careful with her."I said as I walked down the stairs.Mackie sat down on the couch,and awaited the big moment.Taylor positioned his arms and told him how to hold her."I'm ready."He said happily.I smiled at him,and very gently placed her on his arms.He held her head,just as told,and positioned her properly.She was already one,so she could support her head,she just couldn't support her body. I carefully placed her on his lap,and she clapped her cute little hands.
"Night Lyssie.I love you."Mackie said as he gave me a good night hug."I love you to,you're my little munchkin.Now go to sleep,it's already 8:55.Way past your bedtime"I said as I tucked him in. "Leave my night light on Lyssie,please."He said as he pointed his chubby little fingers to his Batman nightlight.
I nodded and plugged his nightlight in."Sweet dreams Mack." I said as I quietly walked out of the room.I closed the door and proceeded to the girls room,hearing the sound of laughter.Not just the laughter of the girl's,but Taylor's as well.
"Okay girls.Time to go to bed."I said."Ahhh,way??"Avie asked."Because your mommy said so,and it is going to be nine."I replied as I turned the tv off."Don't be such a party-popper,the movie is almost over,let them watch it." Taylor said.
"No."I replied.The three looked at eachother,and gave me the puppy look."Fine,fine.As soon as the movie is over, you're going to bed!"I said,I couldn't resist the mother of all looks."Why do you and Tay stay up late?And not me or Jessie."Avie asked."Well,'cause we're 17,and you guys are...7 and 9."I replied."Huh??"Jess asked."'Cause we're older."I finished off.The both just shrugged their shoulders and turned back to watch "Ernest saves Christmas" Taylor got up and gave both girls a kiss on the head.He walked over to the light switch and turned it off,and turned on the lamp.I walked out the room and waited for him.
"Taylor,what time is it?" I asked as I yawned.Zac still wasn't home,and Ike,well,he probably wouldn't be home.I was geting restless,I was watching a *N Sync in Concert thing on Disney.I met the guys before,Lance was really nice to me. Justin was really flirty to me.'hehe' I thought as a little smile went across my face.I met them when i was 15, two years ago."Alyssa...hello!" Taylor said as he snapped his fingers in front of my face."Mmmm?" I asked."It's 11:22." He replied."11:22,11:22.....11:22!!!!!Zac should have been home 22 minutes ago!"I yelled as I jumped up from my seat.
"Let the boy be,this is Zac we're talking about." Taylor said.Well,ya, it was Zac,but he'd never come home more then 10 minutes late.Something seriously had to be up,why would he take so long?Vicky lives about 3 blocks away from this house.I have never been so nervous before,but I would be responsible if anything had happened to him.I was worried like hell,now I knew how it felt to be a mother.
"Taylor,this is ZAC.He never comes home more then 10 minutes late!!He didn't even call for christ sakes!!!"I yelled as I pulled my hair back,out of my face.
"Woman,you're worring to much!!Nothing can happen to the guy, goddammit,he is only 3 blocks away!!!" Taylor yelled as he shook me.I stared up at him,and examined his eyes.He was worried as well,but his eyes were flaming like the burning pits of Hell.I santched away from his grip,and slowly moved back.
"What the fuck is wrong with you Taylor?!?First you act like a piece of shit,then you're sweet as an angel,now your the devil again!!!What the fuck is it???Is it 'cause of the bimbo so called Gabriela??Get it through your head Taylor,she's fuckin' long gone!!She's--"I stopped yelling, and realized what I had just said.Gabriela was Taylor's old girlfriend,she was like the type of girl you'd find on the streets waiting for someone to fuck.She was pretty,but the girl had fake breasts,but a figure every girl wants.The thing is,one day her and Taylor were suppose to meet on a date at the park one their 1st year anniversery,but she never showed...and he's still waiting for her.Nobody knows what really happened to her,she could have been dead,or just plainly left Taylor and found another victim.
"………I………um………ex……cuse me."He said as he ran past me.I felt my body fill up with guilt as I seen Taylor run up the stairs.I just had to open my mouth,I just had to mention Gabriela.
I ran up to my room and slammed the door shut."Gabriela, why??Why'd you leave me?!?I miss you,I miss you so much." I yelled out to nobody in particular as tears gushed from my eyes.She was all I ever needed,but I took her for granted, now,I don't have her.I walked over to my bunk bed and moved my pillow.I picked up a picture from under it,and walked over to the window.The moonlight shinned on it with all it's glory.It was me and Gabriela,arm in arm.Her long wavy golden hair shined as if it were the sun.Her face,as beautiful as a sunset.It was taken just a couple weeks before she disappeared,before she left me-
"Taylor,I'm……I'm sorry."Alyssa said as she walked into Taylor's room.He popped up and hid the picture on the bed.
"I didn't mean too,I'm sorry Taylor,I'm sor-"I said as he glared at me.
"Sorry???A simple fucking 'sorry' can't bring her back,for all I know she's fuckin' dead Alyssa,DEAD!!She didn't leave, she's not hiding,she's DEAD!!Nobody can bring her back,nobody!'Sorry' isn't enough……Alyssa,I let her die!!!!" Taylor yelled as he grabbed my shoulders and yelled in my face.Tears ran down my face,filled with guilt,sorrow, regret,pain,and even sadness."I'm sorry."I whispered.
"……Get the fuck out………don't show your skank ass here ever again!!"He scolded me.I jumped back in fright,and ran out the door crying.I grabbed my jacket from the couch,and just ran out the door.I was running,running from all the pain,the regret,the guilt.The streets were wet,slippery from the rain fall that passed over Tulsa."Lady watch out!!" Somebody yelled.I opened my eyes,and a blury picture came into mind.I focused,and a big blue car was heading in my direction.I screamed,and then shielded myself.
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