Alexia's  Plea For Cruelty

Over the last year I have explored many varieties of pain with my Master, and always discovered I want more! Pain is not something I just accept – it is something I beg for with all my heart.  Whippings, beatings, long slow tortures, I crave things that others might consider unsafe.  Edge play (both physical and emotional) moves me to a higher place.

I am not a novice – this is not a fantasy.  I am a highly educated and accomplished woman who has chosen to live life as a 24/7 slave with no rights, no limits and no safe words.  My trust lies completely in one man who has made this possible for me.  I have never been happier.  I live as a possession, as something my Master owns and controls completely.

There are many ways to hurt someone in the name of bdsm. I’ve also discovered that I am an emotional masochist.  I need experiences that take me into the darkness and strip me of the very things that define me.  I need to be used and have my soul damaged. The best way I can describe it is a constant ache to be reduced as a person, perhaps even destroyed.

My Master has many years experience in the scene and as an owner of slaves.  He has explored deeply into many of the emotional, physical and spiritual aspects of bdsm.  With a single look he can captivate me.  He is handsome (no, this isn’t the biased opinion of his slave – I know how other women respond to him.)  He is skilled with the tools of pain through years of practice.  He is a giving and creative lover – when he chooses to give pleasure he is as effective as when he delivers pain.  He is a sadistic and cruel man – he knows how to exploit a weakness.

Perhaps my greatest weakness has been my jealousy.   I constantly battle my insecurities when he plays with or makes love to another woman.  But now I’ve found this has brought me into new dimensions of pain, and I find the need to explore it growing each day.  I want to face this jealousy and the pain it brings… not to overcome it, but to drown in it.

I am looking for a beautiful, cruel and bi-sexual woman to participate in my "destruction".  Someone who can take pleasure in my emotional pain, someone who can appreciate the joys of flaunting the power of her position, without thought to equality or fairness.  Someone who enjoys a deep sense of her own evil.

I want to find a woman open to the possibility of being a lover and partner to my Master while I am present.  Someone who will help him hurt me both emotionally and physically - a woman who would enjoy using another woman as an object and being served by her as a slave.  You need not be skilled when it comes to pain play but you must be cruel.  My tears and pleadings can not upset you, indeed I hope you would find the same pleasure in my pain as my Master does.  I want you to take joy in the marks you  leave on my body and my heart.

This is not an easy thing for me to ask of my Master or his potential lovers.  But this is real.  So please only respond if you understand what this means and if cruelty and perversion truly excite you.