All lyrics © 1994 - 2002 SWingman Music.

          It's about damn time
          I'm out of here now
          The day's just begun
          When work lets me out

                    Now I'm going home
                    My life waits at home

          Been wasting my time
          For two long hours now
          The work day's now done
          Restrain the urge to shout

                    Finally going home
                    My life waits at home

                    It's 4:47, it's 4:47, and I don't do overtime
                    I refuse, I refuse, to let work be my life

          My day starts at 4:47PM

          The "Do"s and the "Don't"s are forcing me down with no hint of a sound
          But a whisper in round, heard on stills of an old ageless frown
          Intoned, bestowed, and all that is celebrated
          Early and lately and all that is surely wasted

          And I see you decided to
          Be seen with a side to you
          Nobody knows

                    But I want to know

          And I see you decided to
          Be seen with a side to you
          Nobody knows

                    But I want to know
                    The followers never do know

          Only your fairytale creatures are aware of the despair you've found
          From only a whimper comes strength in character renowned
          Dethroned, rezoned, and all that is delegated
          Worldy and naive; what a conflict you've made it!

          And I see you decided to
          Be seen with a side to you
          Nobody knows

                    But I want to know

          And I see you decided to
          Be seen with a side to you
          Nobody knows

                    But I want to know
                    The followers never do know
                    But I want to know
                    The ageless wanderers tell me it's time to go

          Where did it go when I let it be?
          It's a long way home
          And I feel just like I've seen it all
          It's a long way home

          Where do we go when we let it be?
          It's a long way home
          And I wish I knew the truth behind it all
          It's a long way home

                    Every good day
                    I want you to believe in me
                    Every good home
                    Is alone; no one wants to be alone

          Where did you go when I let you be?
          It's a long way home
          And I feel like I've been cracked by it all
          It's a long way home

                    Every good day
                    I don't need you to fix me
                    Every good home
                    Has a few cracks in its stone
                    Every good day
                    I want you to believe in me
                    Every good home
                    Is alone; no one wants to be alone

          Will you send me on my way?
          Will you accept me as I am?
          A cracked and broken little man...

          Wait for me to die again
          I don't want to be there
          Wait for the sun to rise again
          I won't want to be here

          Oh, I walk away again
          I know I can't belong
          It's only what we sow
          It's everything that we know

                    Oh, leave me alone

          Wait for life to fly again
          I don't want to be here
          Wait for the sun to set again
          I won't want to be there

          Oh, it's every word you said
          I see I won't belong
          It's always what we sow
          It's everything that we know

                    Oh, leave me alone
                    Leave me alone

          'Til night has passed
          It's all going by so fast
          And all I can do
          Is hold on to... who?

                    Who can I hold on to?

          Leave me
          I know all it takes is time
          For me
          To just rewind
          Let me
          For all it takes is time
          For all it takes is time
          So I can make up my mind

                    I need some time away from the daily grind
                    So I can make up my mind

          Give me
          A day off from your questions
          Give me
          A day off, just one day off
          Give me
          For all it takes is time
          For all it takes is time
          So I can make up my mind

                    I need some time away from your daily grind
                    So I can make up my mind

                    Can you feel the pressure?
                    Building inside
                    Building inside
                    Can you see my caution?
                    Let me decide
                    Let me decide

          Wander off and sing to myself
          It's a wonderful feeling to create
          Building friendships by destroying myself
          Becoming someone else
          Wander off and dream longingly
          Of the ideals that once led me
          On my way across

                    Nothing changes without a lie
                    Can't build bridges if I don't try
                    All their faces fade behind, goodbye
                    They all wish me well, on my way across

          As the seasons crumble to dust
          I remember the way I once was
          Wander on a pathway home
          Build my life up from the earth
          Wander on a trail through the trees
          Singing with the woodsfolk that guide me
          On my way across

                    And the answers are never right
                    Even when I'm sure they are
                    I'm still learning how to live my life

                    On my way across
                    I'm on my way across
                    I'm still building me
                    I put on my solemn face
                    And quietly build the day

          This is my last stand
          I am who I am
                    You cannot change me
                    It's not your right to judge me

          I can't believe your audacity
          Knock on my door to tell me
                    He will save me
          You see, I don't believe in your Heaven or Hell
          Is your God good or evil? Sometimes I just can't tell

          This is my last stand
          I am who I am
                    You cannot change me
                    It's not your place to judge me

          It's pretty simple, actually
          The Bible is a work of fantasy
                    And it makes no sense to me
          You see, I don't believe the stories about your Jesus
          If you think about it, it's pretty damn ridiculous

          This is my last stand
          I am who I am
                    You cannot change me
                    You have no right to judge me
                              I've always been this way

          So stop saying I'm boarding a speeding Chariot to Hell
          If Heaven's for jerks like you, I guess it's just as well

          This is my last stand
          I am who I am
                    You cannot change me
                    You have no right to judge me
                              I've always been this way

          What'd he just say, should I copy that down?
          What'd he just say, should I copy that down?
          Is there a point to this, should I copy it down?
          What's the point of this, should I copy that down?

                    Why am I taking this?!
                    Why, why am I wasting my time?!
                    This is so goddamn boring!
                    My hand feels numb from writing!

                    Numb!
                    I am!

          All your faces turning there
          Remembering a lost love affair
          Time again you reach for hope
          But there's a desire to loop the rope

                    All... memories... can... be deceived...

                    Don't be alarmed when you split in two (when, when you split in two)
                    Everyone has a favorite part (a favorite part of you)

          All your faces turning there
          Remembering the sun set stare
          This time you won't be alone
          There's a gun pointing you home

                    All... memories... can... be deceived...

                    Don't be alarmed when you split in two (when, when you split in two)
                    Everyone has a favorite part (a favorite part of you)

                    And I know you'll hurt me, too
                    (My favorite, my favorite) My favorite part of you...
                    Has been lost to the screams (the screams, the screams)
                    There's a cue to be awake for the dreams

          All your faces become aware
          Remembering no one's there
          Time again the breaking strain
          There's no one left to wipe the stain

                    Away...

                    Don't be alarmed when you split in two (when, when you split in two)
                    Everyone has a favorite part (a favorite part of you)
                    Don't be alarmed when you split in two (when, when you split in two)
                    Everyone is calling for a part of you
                    For their favorite part of you

          Confirmation of the fashion
          The style of the day
          Make sure you try it on
          Before it fades away

          You must wear the world's choice
          Everyone's the same
          Just bear it, mute your voice
          Play along with the game

          Conform to our beliefs
          Confirm our beliefs

                    So you like it?
                    I like it , too
                    Yes, I honestly do...

          The "In"s quickly become "Out"s
          New style every day
          Buy it fast because without doubt
          It'll soon fade away

          You world knows what we should like
          And of course they are right

          Conform your beliefs
          Confirm your beliefs

                    So you like it?
                    I like it , too
                    Yes, I honestly do...

                    It's not our choice
                    I don't have a choice
                    Don't have the courage to fight
                    Fight what it supposedly right
                    Wear it like they do, the only way
                    Tuck it in, match the colours, do as they say
                    The only way... OK?

          I feel better than
          I've ever felt before
          I walk with confidence
          I've never felt before

          Just a little curl
          That's all it took
          Just a little curl
          To give me that necessary push
          It's an attitude thing!

          Once
          Damage is done
          The worst of us lives on
          Since
          We were redrawn
          The worst of us lives on

                    We
                    Will never be clean in time
                    Oh no
                    And all of us are defined
                    By those
                    Who believe in a god divine

                    Shut up
                    I've got a little to tell to you
                    Goddamn
                    It's a hell of a hole you grew

          Now
          Hands are withdrawn
          And the sadness wears on
          With
          The pulse of a dawn
          Our sadness depends on

                    We
                    Will never be pure in time
                    Oh no
                    It's a deeply flawed design
                    Who knows?
                    This is the work of a god divine?

                    Wake up
                    Look; the mirror's before you
                    Goddamn
                    It's a hell of a hole you grew

          There
          See the twilight
          Drifting on a cloud of right
          Dream
          Of the big fight
          Swimming in a sea of plight

                    What does it all mean?
                    (All that I've seen)
                    Can I decode my dreams?
                    What does it all mean?
                    (All that I've seen)
                    I'm decoding my dreams

          There
          See the sunrise
          Hiding beneath a red disguise
          Dream
          Of the good guys
          Digging through a crowd of lies

                    The dream is alive
                    Does it make you want to be alive?

          There
          See the sundown
          Whispering of a lost ghost town
          Dream
          Of the last clown
          Entertaining the mass frown

          Eight dissenters
          And a raging incentive
          To repent
          And be disposed of
          You can't believe a word they say
          When it's over the media and
          Spinning

                    Do as you have been told
                    Do as you
                    Do

          Eight contenders
          Amidst a flaming inferno
          To depend
          And be disposed of
          You can't understand the words they say
          When it's under the shield and
          Fading

                    Do as you have been told
                    Do as you
                    Do

                    Hate!
                    Hate is a shame x3

          What the hell is with all these people?
          Do they all think they are invincible?
          When it's all wrong, they aren't responsible
          Do they think their actions are invisible?

          When did things become like this?
          Why did things become like this?
          I have to think, I have to know
          I have to let go, I have to let go

                    (Chorus)
                    Got so much upon my mind
                    I drive & drive & drive & drive
                    To get the weight off of my mind
                    To leave the drunken fools behind
                    To let my feelings unwind

          What the hell is with this &$@#ing world?
          All these fools with dreams unfurled
          They tried, they tried, they try, they failed
          Descend into drink, feels good to be nailed

          Why is everything so poorly done?
          Why is everything so poorly run?
          I have to think, I have to know
          I have to discover, I have to let go of the wheel

                    (Chorus)

                    How I wish you could see me now
                    As I drive so free
                    Hey, I wish you could see me now
                    As I drive so free
                    Set my mind on cruise
                    Set my mind free

          What the &$@# is with all these people?

                    They scare me, they really &$@#ing scare me
                    Do they have any responsibility?
                    Will they continue to drive right over me?
                    I can't drive away
                    I can't be free

                    (Chorus)

          Hey, Mr. Moral man
          Since when do you speak for me?
          Hey, Mr. Moral, can
          You honestly believe?
                    That life is granted upon conception?
                    But discarded ones are a big exception?

                    I'm not afraid of technology (I'm not afraid)
                    Who defines morality? (Morality)

                    The possible benefits
                    Far outweigh any conflicts
                    Between Religion and Science
                    Ethics and embryonics

          Hey, Mr. Ethics man
          Do you think that I'm too cold?
          Hey, Mr. Ethics man
          How can you be so fearful?
                    Of consequences beyond your control?
                    Hey, have you met my clone?

                    I'm not afraid of technology (I'm not afraid)
                    Who defines morality? (Morality)

                    The possible benefits
                    Far outweigh any conflicts
                    Between Religion and Science
                    Ethics and embryonics

                    Oh, you never know
                    You should never claim
                    That God's words define our blame
                    All that I know
                    Is that it's a loser's game
                    When Religion kills Science again

          Hey, Mr. Goodie man
          Who are you to hold my hand?
                    And tell me what is right and ethical?
                    Force a choice upon the freedom of my soul?

          Hey, Mr. Moral man
          Protect me from myself

          Nothing's wrong today, for a change; it's rather strange
          I'm pleasantly aware of time, passing by without reason or rhyme
          And hands are clenched, tighter yet, tighter than the tightest grip
          Yes, life is in the air again; oxygen's in high demand

          But the stock is sufficient
          There's enough life for everyone
          Yes, the stock is sufficient
          There's enough life for everyone

                    Come on, sing along
                    Come on, sing along, yeah!
                    Come on, sing along
                    Everyone's gotta have a happy song!

          No complaints today, for a change; it's kinda strange
          I'm aware of the grand design, engineered without reason or rhyme
          Our hands are clenched, tightest yet, tighter than my tightest grip
          Yes, life is in the air again; oxygen's in high demand

          But the stock is sufficient
          There's enough life for everyone
          Yes, the stock is sufficient
          There's enough time for everyone
          To stop and sing along

                    Come on, sing along
                    Come on, sing along, yeah!
                    Come on, sing along
                    Everyone's gotta have a happy song!
                    Yeah!
                    Everyone's gotta have one happy song!
                    Yeah!
                    Yeah!
                    Yeah!

          Everything I know is good today, I swear
          All in all, I feel I'm fully aware
          I swear it's all the same
          But I will take the blame
          There's no one left to shame

          Won't ever be afraid          

          I've been gone for a moment without ever knowing why
          Fading in and out of this hurtful dimension--by design?

                    The failing's inside
                    Always a part of my infinite bind

          I can't help but wonder if my absense was at all ever missed
          Or even noticed?

          I've been gone for a moment without ever knowing why
          Fading in and out of this spiteful dimension--by design?

                    The failing's inside
                    Always the heart of my infinite bind

                    I can feel it reading and denying the hopes of my mind
                    The failing's inside
                    Ripping my ends and means asunder with hatred and fear
                    I'm failing to be here; failing to be here

          Your God's a high profile Santa Claus
          Yet without any of the fringe benefits
          I'm too old now to believe such lies
          And I'm not concerned about eternal gifts

                    What has... He done... for me?
                    What does... belief do... for me?
                    Tell me how it'll help me to breathe
                    Tell me how it'll help me be me

          Life, death, God's will? Now let's pause
          And rethink the stories that brought us to this
          It takes faith to entrust a life to lies?
          But I never had any faith to begin

                    And I'm still breathing
                    Despite not believing

          Don't be insulted if I don't listen to you
          Don't be concerned if I look away
          See, I don't really care about your problems
          I have my own damn problems today

                    (Chorus)

                    Hey!
                    Everything is, everything is okay
                    What the hell did you, what the hell did you say, hey, hey?
                    I'm not myself today

          Don't be offended if I don't pay attention
          Don't be concerned if I walk away
          See, I don't really have answers for your questions
          I need some answers myself, okay?

                    (Chorus)

          Don't be angry if I don't seem to care
          I just have a lot on my mind, okay?
          See, I don't really want to hear your problems
          I'm sorry, but it's been a bad day!

                    (Chorus)

          Evaluating the lingered stares
          Reading between every word dared
          There beneath a falling star
          It feels like it's been good thus far

                    I don't want to be wrong again
                    But for now I don't know how to tell
                    I know I've been wrong before
                    And I also know it hurts like hell

          Evaluating every little touch
          I think I might be wishing too much
          There beneath a crescent moon
          I'm hoping it'll be clearer soon

                    I don't want to be wrong again
                    But for now I don't know how to tell
                    I know I've been wrong before
                    And I also know it hurts like hell
                    Hurts like hell!

          Evaluating the way you say, "Friend"
          Is there hope this won't mark the end?
          There beneath a twilit sky
          There are these feelings I can not hide

                    I know I've been wrong before
                    And I also know it hurts like hell
                    I don't want to be wrong again
                    But for now I don't know how to tell
                    How to tell?

                    You must love someone (Together)
                    You are with someone (Together)

          Inside, I am who I am
          We are all who we are
          And I know this means so much more
          In my heart

          Outside, I lie about who I am
          No one seems as they are
          And I know it all means so much more
          In our hearts

                    The heart knows who I am
                    What I feel
                    But my mouth must be isolated
                    Too far separated
                    It's doesn't know what I feel
                    I didn't mean what I said, honest

                    That wasn't what I meant
                    That was not what I meant
                    Everything that I said
                    Was misinterpreted

          And I know that is all I know
          Knowledge burned into soul
          And it comes wherever I go
          Leave me a lone with my thoughts untold
          And I know I don't know nothing at all

                    Why do I have to know more?
                    Why do I have to know at all?
                    Why do I have to know everything?
                    When will knowledge ever help me live
                    If I forget it all in a year, or less?

          And I know that is all I know
          Knowledge burned into soul
          There's so much I once knew
          Forgotten knowledge, lost for good
          And I know I don't know much

          And I know that is all I know
          Knowledge burned into soul
          And I wish I could let it go
          But it comes wherever I go
          And I don't know shit all

                    Why do I have to learn more?
                    Why do I have to learn at all?

                    I don't need to know more
                    I don't want to know more
                    Why do I have to know more?
                    Why do I have to know at all?

          Impeded, not abetted
          Everyone is holding me back
          When they claim they're helping me out
          Obstructed, not assisted
          Everyone is blocking progress
          When they claim they're my best friend

                    Can I trust anyone?
                    No, I cannot trust anyone

          Defeated, not triumphant
          Everyone is forcing a loss
          When they claim they're the winning team

                    Can I trust anyone?
                    No, I cannot trust anyone

          It's not paranoia
          You can trust me on that
          Or can your really?
          No, you actually can't

                    Do not trust anyone

                    I'm uneasy, trust is missing
                    I've got issues with your pushing
                    What the hell are you trying to do?
                    Deceitfulness is no virtue

                    After this, there is no trusting
                    Whispers of doubt in all you're saying
                    What the hell did you hope to prove?
                    Treachery is not a virtue

          It's not paranoia
          Trust me, I'd know
          But then again, you
          Shouldn't trust me at all

                    Do not trust anyone
                    I cannot trust anyone

          It's all quite sincere
          The way it's done without reprieve
          No procedure to fear
          Given the freedom of belief
          Our enemies are clear
          When we're amongst the trees

                    It's me against you all
                    Lately
                    It's me against you all

                    We're religion free--within the woods
                    We've integrity--within the woods
                    We've equality--within the woods
                    Wouldn't you like to be--within the woods?

          All freedom is near
          Abandon life; prepare to leave
          The world's ready to hear
          Satisfaction retained beneath
          The lives of your tear
          Are dead amongst the trees

                    It's me against you all
                    Lately
                    It's me against you all

                    New society--within the woods
                    Loose all history--within the woods
                    It's true ecstasy--within the woods
                    Will you come live with me--within the woods?

          It's all quite sincere
          Given the freedom of belief
          The lives of your tear
          Are dead amongst the trees

                    It's them against us all
                    Always
                    It's them against us all

                    We're religion free--within the woods
                    New society--within the woods
                    We've integrity--within the woods
                    Loose all history--within the woods
                    We've equality--within the woods
                    It's true ecstasy--within the woods
                    Wouldn't you like to be--within the woods?
                    Will you come live with me?
                    Will you come live with me?
                    Within the woods

          I don't want to be molded
          Into your image
          I have my own vision
          Of my person

                    I'm not like you
                    It's just that simple, oh, oh, yeah
                    I'm not you
                    It's just that...

                    (Chorus)
                    It's just that simple! (It's just that simple)

          I don't want to be restricted
          By my youthfulness
          Maturity shouldn't be
          Measured by wrinkles

                    I'm not like them
                    It's just that simple, oh, oh, yeah
                    I'm not them
                    It's just that...

                    (Chorus)

          I don't want to be limited
          By your intolerance
          I don't want to be categorized
          By your ignorance

                    I'm not like anyone
                    It's just that simple, oh, oh, yeah
                    I am me
                    It's just that...

                    (Chorus)

          Forever the answer
          Discovered without proper
          Analysis of the true form
          Rip through the cancer
          Pursued without further
          Discussion of the storm

                    It's a feeling of nothing
                    Nothing is as it should be
                    Et je souhaite...
                    Got this feeling of nothing
                    Nothing is as it should be
                    Et je souhaite
                    It would not be this way

          Forever the pusher
          No regrets without proper
          Analysis of the results
          Rip through the wisher
          No concern for the hunter
          Life in the saddest cults

                    It should not be this way
                    Je souhaite...
                    It wasn't this way...

          We are nothing w/o friends
          We need hands & hearts to hold
          My hand is always here for you
          And there's no reason to fight alone

                    (Chorus)
                    Where can you go... when you feel... so low?
                    Who can you call... when you feel... so low?

          I want to be a part of your life
          I want to be a part of your soul
          I want to be the listener
          I want you to give me a call

                    (Chorus)

          Everything you do
          You know you
          Lose
          Everything we see
          You know we
          Lose

                    So I try and I try and I try
                    And I fail, I fail, yes, I fail
                    Over and over again
                    I'm a loser and I have finally learned
                    Trying is the first step towards failure
                    So I just won't try

          Everything I try
          You know I
          Lose

                    So I try and I try and I try
                    And I fail, I fail, yes, I fail
                    Over and over again
                    I'm a loser and I have finally learned
                    Trying is the first step towards failure
                    So I'm not gonna try

                    So never try

          Somehow I've made it
          Somehow I've pushed through
          Although I'm jaded
          Somehow I'm coming to
                    The end of my first year

          Somehow I've done it
          Somehow I've slipped through
          Although pessimistic
          Somehow I'm coming to
                    The end of my first year
                    How long will I be here?

                    How many more days of emptiness can I take?
                    With this annoying voice in my head I can't shake

                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Help!

          Somehow I'm still here
          At the end of my first year

                    How many more days of emptiness can I take?
                    With this annoying voice in my head I can't shake

                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Do I need some help, huh?
                    Yeah!

          In a state of flux:

                    Everything is always changing
                    When you're rearranging
                    Your life to fit the box

          Residual flux:

                    Nothing is fully custom made
                    Time and dreams will always fade
                    Into the void of the box

          Hold me down if you care
          Solidly grounded and aware
          Apply a voltage and let it sear my skin
          Let me feel the current rushing in
          And lighting me up

                    You light me up
                    You always light me up
                    I need you to light me up
                    Keep lighting me up
                    We need the light to carry on

          Transient theory:

                    Everything is always changing
                    When you're rearranging
                    Your life for them and me

          Magnetic theory:

                    Nothing is fully custom made
                    Time and dreams will always fade
                    Into the impedance of me

          Where have you gone?--it's been awhile
          My last recollection is your smile
          And it's fading--why?

          Where did you go?--and for what reason?
          I've been waiting here for your return
          And I'm fading--when?

                    When do you plan to come home to me?
                    Who told you that you could leave?
                    When can I plan for your apology?

          Where have you gone?--it's been awhile
          My last memory is your smile
          And it's fading--why?

          Where did you go?--and for what reason?
          I've been waiting here for your return
          And I'm fading--when?

                    When do you plan to come home to me?
                    Who told you that you could leave?
                    When can I plan for your apology?

                    What did I ever do to deserve this lack of respect from you?

          Part One

          Today, somebody said,
                    The night feels so cold and dead
          Today, somebody did,
                    What somebody,
                    Wasn't supposed to do

          Today, somebody said,
                    In my heart, all I feel is dread
          Today, somebody did,
                    What somebody,
                    Wasn't supposed to do

                    And I feel this
                              Like a cold, bloody razor slitting through my wrist
                    Yes, I feel this

          Today, somebody said,
                    What somebody shouldn't have said
          Today, somebody did,
                    What somebody shouldn't have done

                    And I feel this
                              Like a cold, bloody razor slitting through my wrist
                    Yes, I feel this
                              Like a cold, bloody razor slitting through my wrist

                    And I feel this
                              Like a cold, bloody razor slicing through my wrist
                    Yes, I feel this

          Part Two

          And my actions are never right
          Even when I'm sure they are
          I'm just trying to live my life
          As a morally good guy

                    Our souls' morality's gone cold
                    (Do you want to know where you can shove your ethical code?)

          You're all getting on my nerves
          With your partying, drinking, &$@#ing, singing, banging
          Throwing up on our bathroom floor
          On our bathroom floor

          So, what makes you think you're alone in here?
          Hey man, you're lucky I have a friend named Restraint

                    He holds me back from doing really stupid &$@#ing things
                    My friend, Restraint
                    Hey man, you're pissing me off, you're lucky I have
                    A friend, Restraint
                    You're pissing me off, you're lucky I have
                    A friend, Restraint

          Obscurity
          Life in peace

          So you've fallen into waste
                    The inertia has taken
          Don't want to see their faces
                    Misanthropy in practice
          So you've dreamed of all the fame
                    Who needs real existence
          Don't want to face the days
                    With all the staring gazes
          So you walk alone, happily unconnected
                    Disconnect it
                    DISCONNECT IT

          It's easy to hide in shadows
          It's easy to FADE AWAY
          It's easy to say good bye
          It's easy to die

                    Stare, stare, stare,
                    Stare out the window at the life you wouldn't dare
                    (Wouldn't dare live)
                    You stare, stare, stare,
                    Stare out the window at the life you wouldn't dare... live

          You'd rather live in obscurity
          And exist within your dreams

          Lightning flashes in your eyes
          Thunder crashes in my mind
          One only follows the other
          We are lesser without each other

                    Now we sit apart and stare
                    Into each other's eyes

          Sunlight gleams within your eyes
          Sunrise wakes my resting mind
          One only follows the other
          We are lesser without each other

                    Life has never been better
                    Loving each other's eyes

          We are lesser without each other

                    Love has never felt better
                    Living each other's eyes

          Settle back into a groove
          It's easy to maintain the quo
          Too many days are left for losing
          How many days left of sorrow?
                    I don't know

          Reach down into a dark hole
          It's deeper than it does appear
          Too many days it'll take to reach it
          How many days to end up here?
                    Another year?

                    (It's all gone grey) And I wish I had a goal
                    (I've gone astray) Sucked into a wormhole
                    (It's just Monday) And I've got the whole week to go
                    I've got the whole week to go

          Recline back into my chair
          It's loneliness I hear echoed
          Too many days are left for despair
          How many rounds left of ammo?
                    I'm getting old

                    (It's all gone grey) And I wish I had a goal
                    (I've gone astray) Sucked into a wormhole
                    (It's just Monday) And I've got the whole week to go
                    I've got the whole week to go
                    I've got a whole year to go

          Are you friend or foe?
          Do you always tiptoe?
          I don't like to wallow, I'm letting go

          Unending
          It's been twenty-four years of descending
          Perpetually impending

                    I
                    Can't believe another year
                    Has flown by
                    Another year, another year
                    I
                    Can't be another year away

          Upsetting
          It's been twenty-four years of resetting
          Perpetually regretting

                    I
                    Can't believe another year
                    Has flown by
                    Another year, another year
                    I
                    Can't be another year away

          I can't wait another year
          I need someone to be near

          It seems so unfair
          With so much love out there
          So much love to share
          That there's no one here
          There's never been anyone here

                    I
                    Can't believe there's no one here
                    Holding me
                    Adverse to fear, adverse to fear
                    I
                    Can't keep wasting away

          I'm drifting, in and out of
          Consciousness
          I'm slipping, in and out of
          Wakefulness

                    Peace in my pillow land
                    He'll take me by my hand
                    Then set me free to run through his sand

                    Meet the Sandman

          I'm jumping, in and out of
          Restfulness
          I'm falling, in and out of
          Peacefulness

                    War in my pillow land
                    He'll pull me by my hand
                    Then lead me to my dream's end

                    Meet the Sandman

          Never giving up, never giving in--always holding out
          Never giving up, never giving in--for the world to come pouring in
          Never giving up, never giving in--for the sun to come sliding in
          Never giving up, never giving in--for the door to open wide again

                    Introduce you to me
                    The price is a non-negotiable fee
                    Always underneath
                    Time is a place where nothing is free

          Believe in yourself, believe in your hands--hope and love refrain
          Believe in yourself, believe in your hands--as the world pours in again
          Never giving up, never giving in--always holding out
          Never giving up, never giving in--for the door to open wide again

                    Introduce you to me
                    The price is a non-negotiable fee
                    Always underneath
                    Time is a place where nothing is free

                    Where nothing is free--a nominal fee?
                    Nothing is free--you can trust me
                    For a nominal fee
                    You can count on me

          All
          The whispers intend to beat on the head
          All
          The sentences end with words better left unsaid

                    Words better left unsaid
                    All the children have fled

                    From fear of the unknown
                    From fear of the left behind
                    From fear of the resonating, palpitating, beating on the mind

                    Slavish devotion to painful emotion
                    It's a resonating sonic explosion

          All
          The whimpers intend to pound on the head
          All
          The utterances end with words better left unsaid

                    Words better left unsaid
                    Now all the stars have fled

                    From fear of the reborn
                    From fear of the redesigned
                    From fear of the resonating, palpitating, pounding on the mind

                    Slavish devotion to painful emotion
                    It's a resonating sonic explosion
                    Stringent repression of rippled depression
                    It's a resonating sonic explosion

          All
          Words better left unsaid

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you're so damn gullible
          And never doubting?

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you're never questioning
          And always believing?

                    Rational?
                    You're not rational
                    It's irrational
                    To think you're rational

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you don't ever see that
          Nearly everyone is lying?

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you're always listening
          But yet not ever thinking

                    Hey, can you join us here?
                    One of us rational human beings
                    Hey, can you please grow
                    As a rational human being?

                    Hey, nothing is more annoying
                    Than an irrational human being
                    Hey, please don't impede me
                    With your irrational human feelings

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you take life as it's received
          And you're never creating?

          How can you call yourself
          A rational human being
          If you're never questioning
          And always believing?

          Hey there, stranger, how long's it been?
          Far, far too long for two old best friends
          So, you still holding that grudge? That's not good to hear
          What's the problem? It's been three goddamn years
          And it's wrong to say that it was all my fault
          It wasn't all my fault

                    Forgive & forget, two little words that are hard to say & do
                    I've harbored regret for years, I'm sorry what I said to you
                    One little lie that wouldn't go away & just grew & grew
                    It destroyed our bond and drove a wedge between us two

                    But we must stand together

                    Oh, no
                    I won't let you run away
                    I won't let you run away again

          But I know you can no longer trust me
          And a friendship without trust is nothing

          All I want to do
          Is write a song that's simple
          And simply beautiful
          All I want to sing
          Are lyrics that are simple
          And simply beautiful

                    Where is my muse?
                    Inspiration?
                    I have no inspiration

          All I yearn to do
          Is write a song that'll win you
          A heart so beautiful
          All I dream of now
          Is a love that was simple
          And simply beautiful

                    Where is my muse?
                    Inspiration?
                    I have no inspiration
                    Where has she gone?
                    Inspiration?
                    I have no inspiration

          A song so simple
          And simply beautiful
          It's for you
          It's all for you
          It's you

          Y
          Why do
          Why do you transfer your misery onto me
          Y
          Why do
          Why do you force your decisions onto me

                    When the stars
                    In the sky
                    Are aware of our presence
                    Aware of our lives
                    Is it all
                    We can do
                    To stay together
                    When we're obviously not meant to?

          D
          Despair
          Disparity in all that we believe and try
          D
          Despair
          Disparity in love and loss and the answer why

                    When the stars
                    See the lies
                    And tear us apart, kindly
                    Sever our ties
                    Is it all
                    We can do
                    To stay together
                    When we're obviously not meant to?

          Do you
          Believe
          That life isn't over
          Until it's conceived?
          Sometime
          When it's cold
          We'll be together
          And destroy those who stand bold

          Do you
          Believe
          In life after death
          Now what would that mean?
          That I
          Would never
          Escape from the tether
          Forever and ever, and ever? Never?
          Never?

          Spend the night under the stars
          Bundled up tight
          With a flashlight by your side

          Beneath the stars alight
          Everything's all right
          The twinkle in the sky
          It's a reason to be alive

                    Everything is so beautiful
                    So beautiful
                    The night reveals...

          Spend the night under the stars
          Bundled up tight
          With a paperback by your side

          Beneath the stars alight
          In the darkest night
          The lifeline the sky
          The heart ascends in twilight

                    Everything is so beautiful
                    So beautiful
                    The night reveals
                    The brightness of your light inside

                    Let your light shine

                    Witness the warming
                    Of a light inside

          Who am I to wait forever?
          When do you perceive an answer?

          And I have seen
          The greatest of dreams
          Where life wasn't deemed
          A test of our means

                    And this was all we'd ever know
                    Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow

          Why do we wait here forever?
          For an answer He may never deliver

          With rewards unseen
          The purist of dreams
          Where our lives will be
          All a fantasy

          And I have seen
          The greatest of dreams
          Where life wasn't deemed
          A test of our means

                    And this was all we'll ever know
                    Tell me I'll be here tomorrow
                    Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow

          What is the soul?
          Is there life beyond or...

                    Is this all we'll ever know?
                    Tell me I'll be here tomorrow
                    Please tell me I'll be here tomorrow

          Something's gotta change
          I'm still waiting for everything to happen
          My initiative's lacking
          I'm just waiting for everything to happen

                    I'm stagnating
                    Don't know what I'm waiting for
                    I'm stagnating

                    It's all of me
                    Trapping all of me
                    I feel the
                    Inertia
                    Yet I am free

          Wishing things would change
          I've been waiting for something to happen
          My initiative's gone missing
          I'll keep waiting for anything to happen

          There's a life I'm tasting
          Oh, why are you telling me?
          Big surprise; I'm wasting
          Oh, why are you telling me?

                    You are only awake
                    As of yesterday
                    You are walking away
                    'Cause of yesterday

                    Who am I to fall asleep again?
                    Oh, you won't wait for me

          Sunrise, we're awaken
          Oh, what will this ever be?
          Big surprise; I'm mistaken
          Oh, what will this ever be?

          Big surprise; I'm mistaken
          Oh, what will this ever be?
          What will we ever be?
          What will we ever be?

          So, it's surely... the wait... all we have
          No, I can't wait
          So, I must believe... it's come... coming
          So, surely I wait
          Surely I wait!

                    (Chorus)
                    Everything will surely come
                    And I will surely wait
                    Cause there is nothing to do around here
                    There's nothing to do here

          So, I fall asleep... and wait... all I can do
          Oh, I hate it all
          So, I await... revelation... sympathy
          No, surely I wait
          Surely I wait!

                    (Chorus)

                    I'm waiting for everything to happen
                    I'm waiting for everything to come to me

          So, I grow restless... can't sleep... I know it's
          Coming, to save me
          So, I can't dream... I awake... and see nothing
          So, surely I wait
          Surely I wait!

                    (Chorus)

          In amongst his friends, the trees ascending
          Talking while he tends helps him with mending
          Fixing everything problems; it's all depending
          Gladly he smiles at them; dreams keep sending

                    What a beautiful day; let his dreams fly away
                    What a beautiful tree; let his dreams fly free
                    What a beautiful place, to meet face to face
                    Talking to the trees, they know, they see
                    They see all, see it all

          Enjoying the warmth; the trees are friendly
          Share their wealth; their love is kindly
          Enjoy their company; full of talk they be
          Loves his friends, trees; they know, they see

          Oh, "I was lost"
          Oh, "'Til the trees found me"

          In amongst his friends, on a beautiful day
          Talking while he tends; his dreams fly away
          Enjoy their company, these beautiful trees
          Loves his friends trees; his dreams fly free

          Return to the past to discover
          The secrets of the lost arts
          Finding your answers with those
          Who remember who they are

                    And sometimes it seems
                    That nobody remembers anything
                    About these ghosts that were so vital
                    In past days

                    But now the past has slipped away
                    Can we return again some day?

          Open the door to encounter
          The winters of their lost youth
          Looking to see the failures
          Of the seekers' divine untruth

                    And sometimes you find
                    Those winters never leave them behind
                    And those ghosts departed ages ago
                    In such haste

                    But now the past has slipped away
                    Can we return again some day?
                    But now our past has slipped away
                    Can we return again one day?

                    Do you remember who you were ten years ago?
                    Is it important to know?
                    Is it important to know?

          The things that we love
          The things that we lose
          The things we forget
          The things we excuse
          The things that we want
          The things that we find
          The things that we learn
          The things we rewind

          The things that are gone
          The things that we miss
          The things that we tried
          The things we dismissed
          The things that were us
          The things we designed
          The things that we once knew
          These are the things that we all must remind

          It's not my fault
          The way this is turning out
          I didn't do a thing
          Don't shoot the messenger; kill the king

          Can't be my fault
          Didn't order the coming assault
          I wouldn't do such a thing
          Don't' shoot the messenger; kill the king

                    And I felt the coming rain in the air, in the air
                    And I swore the sun would never rise again, never rise again

          It's not my fault
          The way his justice is dealt
          I can't control a thing
          Don't shoot the messenger; kill the king

                    And I felt the coming rain in the air, in the air
                    And I swore the sun would never rise again, never rise again
                    And I felt the coming rain on my skin, in the air
                    And I knew the sun would never rise again, never rise again
                    And I felt the coming rain in my head, on my skin
                    And I knew the sun would never rise again, never rise again
                    And I saw the tide turning in the sea, in the sea
                    And I knew that life wouldn't be the same again
                    Never the same again

          Time again
          And time again

          Time is sweeter...
          Time is sweeter when taken with a cup of poison
          And I'm leaving 'cause I'm sick & tired of losing sleep
          When nothing's ever, nothing's ever, ever really working
          And nothing's ever, ever, ever, ever, ever simple
          Nothing's simple...

                    (Chorus)
                    Time again
                    And time again
                    Time & time again I think I've won but I never win
                    Time & time again I think I'm done but it's just beginning

          Time is shorter...
          Time is shorter when left to its own devices
          And I wish I could just sleep my life away
          'Cause time's never, ever, ever, ever really helping
          And nothing's ever, ever, ever, ever, ever simple
          Nothing's simple...

                    (Chorus)

          Time is safer...
          Time is safer when no one seeks her challenge
          And I'm giving up 'cause nothing is worth this shame
          When no one's ever, no one's ever, ever, really winning
          And nothing's ever, ever, ever, ever, ever simple
          Nothing's simple...

                    (Chorus)

          Sometimes when I sleep I seek
          The reality behind the existence of me (A pillow question conceived)
          Sometimes when I seek I find
          An answer buried in the tangle of my mind (A pillow solution defined)

                    Know me?--well you claim to know me
                    Show me what you came to show me
                    Love me like you claim to love me
                    Help me like you said you'd help me

                    And you say, it'll never feel this way again (another day)
                    I realize the truth and dissipate

                              Ah...

          Sometimes there's despair in tow
          A quest granted--no clear goal to follow (A pillow question bestowed)
          Sometimes there's clear paths I stroll
          The answer seems so easy, so true--so bold (A pillow solution to hold)

                    Tell me--why is everyone against me?
                    Set me free and let the crowds disown me
                    No one is free until the fear's retreating
                    Tell me--why are you so blind and waiting?

                    And you say, it'll never feel this way again (another day)
                    I realize the truth and believe this day (again)
                    And you say, I'll climb out and rise one day (another day)
                    I realize the truth and dissipate

                              Ah...

                    Help the hunter, find the father, observe the ripples on the water
                    Watch the weather, scan the horizon, depart from port to cross the ocean
                    It's all together, it's all apart, it's all the truths we never know when we depart

                    And you say, I'll wake up and know myself today

                              Ah...

                    I'll step outside the swarm for a spell
                    It's safer on the outside in a solitary shell
                    I can hear the rising choir--feel their restless desire
                    They seek the home where they believe they belong
                    But they're just suckers for the sirens' song...

                    And you say, it'll never feel this way again (another day)
                    I realize the truth and believe this day (again)
                    And you say, I'll climb out and rise one day (another day)
                    I realize the truth and dissipate
                    And you say, I'll wake up and know myself today

                              Ah...

          beautiful afternoon, snow melting autumn day, took a walk, cause i had no car
          to drive, to the library and the mall, half an hour, pretty long, pretty far

                    took a walk, took a long walk
                    left my worries in my room
                    left my homework in my room
                    left my weight in my room

          peaceful scenery, walked by slowly, took it in, stepped in puddles, watered
          snow, took a lonely walk, oh i'm alone, far, far from home, on my own,
          on my own

          people stared at me as they drove by, thought it's funny to see someone
          walking these days, but i had no car, i had no car, i took a walk,
          a long walk downtown, left my life in my room
          beautiful afternoon

          A radiant rainbow
          Over the sentient sunrise
          And you're lying inside
          With the covers over your eyes
          What a waste!

                    Don't waste another day
                    Can't stand another waste
                    Another wasted day

          An ambient amber sun
          And a gentle whispering breeze
          And you're sleeping inside
          With the sheets pulled overhead
          What a waste!

                    Don't waste another day
                    Can't stand another waste
                    Another wasted day

                    Can't stand to see you waste
                    Don't want to see you waste
                    Another dandy day

          An incredible indigo sky
          Then the first star of the night
          And you're still sleeping inside
          With the covers over your eyes
          What a waste!

          I'm just wasting time again
          Nothing better to do
          But sit and complain... hey hey

                    So I waste away
                    Time's short, but it's not short enough for me
                    So I waste again
                    Life's short, but it sure seems long lately
                    Long lately

          I'm just wasting time again
          And I get paid for this
          But still I complain... hey hey

                    Wasting... wasting time again
                    All I do is waste... waste time again

          I'm just wasting time again
          My life is oh, so, sad
          Watch me complain... hey hey

                    Time is slow if you can't sleep through
                    Sometimes night can be the end all of the end all
                    Oh, the end all

          Heavy
          I'm feeling so down and heavy
          Levitate me
          Let me feel a weightless state
          For a change

                    For when it all comes down
                    It all comes down hard
                    For when it all hits the ground
                    It's an earthquake of sound

                    And I... wish to be there for you
                    But I... need to be here for me
                    It's a... catch-22
                    And I... don't even know what that means

          Empty
          I'm feeling so worthless and empty
          Rebuild me
          Let me be a new man and dream
          Of a change

                    For when the hand comes down
                    The judge comes down harsh
                    For when it all hits the ground
                    It's an earthquake of sound

          Awakening

          Late at night I hear the whispering
          It steals my breath from me
          In a cold sweat, staring at the ceiling
          I'm so afraid, I can't breathe

          The Rock

          No, it's not fair!
          But what the Hell could I have done?
          I watch my dad, amazed at his strength
          He lost his wife, his best friend in life
          And I should be the rock
          I should be the strong one
          I will be the strong one!
          But I'm just not strong enough

                    It's not easy to run away when you have no legs to stand on
                    It's not easy to face the day when your world has collapsed down
                    It's not easy to keep the faith when you have no strength to hold on
                    It's not easy to face the day when you have no reason to awake

          Loss of Myself

          There's a lot of pain in the loss of myself to the hate
          How many times did I wish for the hurt to just go away?
          Nothing ever stays the same, everything is always changing
          I've lost everything

                    And I know, yeah, I know
                    That I am so imcomplete now--hey, hey hey
                    I am so imcomplete now!

          Just when everything was going right, for a change
          Now everything has gone wrong, wrong, wrong

          Monday

          Sure I'd like to blame Him, say it's all His &$@#ing fault!
          And it would be nice to know that my mom's in a better place
          But I can't believe in Him
          I won't believe in Him!

                    As appealing as it may be
                    I won't... sacrifice... my beliefs for anything

          Sure I'd like to blame Him, say &$@# God and &$@# you all!
          And it would be reassuring to know that one day we'll be reunited
          But I can't believe in Him
          I won't believe in Him!

                    What has He done for me?
                    I won't... sacrifice... my beliefs for anything

          October 12

          Cold October 12, middle of the afternoon
          The rain pouring down, the tears pouring out
          Spread her ashes upon the wind
          She's finally returned home

          Cold October 12, middle of the "W"
          We all say goodbye
          Goodbye
          We'll miss you
          Goodbye
          We'll miss you so much
          Goodbye.

          Head on towards the horizon
          One way to salvation
          All that belongs in the heart can be received
          Running from discussion
          One day from gone
          All that speaks from the heart rings free

                    And there's no turning back now

          Ride on beyond the horizon
          One way absolution
          All that belongs in the heart will be conceived
          Fleeing from repression
          One day from gone
          All that speaks from the heart rings free

                    And there's no turning back now
                    There's no turning back now

                    All that's faced in life
                    Displaced grains of strife
                    The decision's been made
                    Light to dark... fade

                    There's no turning back now

          Reach the farthest horizon
          One way restriction
          All that belongs in the heart can be retrieved
          The edge of civilization
          One day will be gone
          All that speaks from the heart rings free

                    And there's no turning back now

          I won't kneel
          I won't face
          I won't feel
          My disgrace

          I won't heal
          I don't chase
          I won't deal
          With misplaced

                    Hatred
                    'Cause I certainly don't hate you
                    I don't hate you

          I won't kneel
          I can't care
          I don't feel
          And that's rare

          I can't heal
          I don't care
          I can't deal
          With your stare

                    Of hatred
                    'Cause I certainly don't hate you
                    I don't hate you

                    (Chorus)
                    As I sail along, I lose my way
                    Put my faith in Wind and the River
                    The Wind tips me over
                    And the River drags me under

          A trusting man... with a trusted guide... betrayed... as always
          A faithful one... with an unfaithful friend... mislayed... as always

                    (Chorus)

          A questing seeker
          Looking for his way home
          All alone... no one to phone
          No way home... no where to run

          A loyal fool... with his disloyal mate... mislead... and now he's dead

                    (Chorus)

          A long lost man... with no faith to hold... far gone... downstream

          Hey, it's really late, so
          Hey, let me make my
          Way, out the door to
          Say, there's no time left
          Today

                    Do you know me?
                    Do you claim some hold on me?
                    Do you want to break me?
                    Always claiming you own me

                    Now I
                    Have been here for too long
                    It's a misty window
                    Flowing candle
                    Won't you send me
                    Home

          Hey, it's been great, so
          Hey, it's time I go
          Away, through the window
          Pane, into world wide
          Rain

                    Do you know me?
                    You claim some hold on me
                    Do you want to break me?
                    Always claiming you own me

                    Now I
                    Have been here for too long
                    It's a misty window
                    Flowing candle
                    This world's a spindle
                    Without handle
                    Hold on, I'm going
                    Home

          With winter comes the last request
          To fellowship and heart confessed
          Lest we forget

                    All the words
                    And all the sundering
                    All the hurt
                    And all the thundering

                    Who will mend the tear I'm feeling?

          When winter comes, the heart's bequest
          To heal the wounds and attempt the test
          Lest we forget

                    All the words
                    And all the sundering
                    All the hurt
                    And all the thundering

                    Who will mend the tear I'm feeling?
                    Remembering the ghosts defeating...

          Lest we forget

          When worlds collide, they blow each other away
          What's inside... is trying to escape

                    (Chorus)
                    But don't you know, don't you know
                    It's so damn, it's so damn...
                    Don't you know, DON'T YOU KNOW
                    IT'S SO DAMN
                    COLD OUT THERE IN THE WORLD

                              Yeah, I walk away from here
                              Therefore disappear
                              Celebrate the past
                              And wish for once that time would last

          When worlds collide, it's armageddon time
          What's inside... will leave the sun behind

                    (Chorus)

          Hey I, hey I, hey I,
          Can I, can I, can I,
          Leave here peacefully?

          As I step outside, the sun refuses to stay
          Step back inside; it's safer that way
          Cause don't you know...

                    (Chorus)

          I haven't sat in peace for oh so long
          Destroy the mask I wear so strong
          I can't face their pitying gaze
          Stare down at my plate

          The noise engulfs me in my bed
          Sitting alone inside my head
          I haven't rest in oh so long
          Destroy my mask I wear so strong
          Oh, I'm not so strong

                    I'm just too goddamn shy
                    Now I'm going to to try
                    I'm too goddamn shy
                    I just want to say hi
                    But I walk right on by
                    I'm too goddamn shy

          Stare, stare into the reflecting pool of my soul
          Stare, stare into the reflecting pool of my life
          No reflection--who am I?
          Cleanse myself, drowned in the sink
          An entrance in the mind of the world who walks alone

                    I'm just too goddamn shy
                    Now I'm going to to try
                    I'm too goddamn shy
                    I just want to say hi
                    But I walk right on by
                    I'm too goddamn shy

          Facing the pain, can't get it out
          It's all in my head
          You're all in my head

                    And I'm only as smart as I make
                    I'm only as strong as I make
                    I'm only as good looking
                    As I make myself out to be