Who Am I - Revelation

I am Peter; in fact we are all Peter’s to whom the Father in Heaven has given the key to heaven. The information key exist in all of us as a gift form the creator but we fail to recognize it and use it. We all have the traits of the Lord and twelve disciples of Lord. One of these traits dominates us. The trait that is dominating majority of the individuals of the this world, thus of the family, community and the whole is the trait of Judas.  Little money, little fame, little name, little stress makes us blind to give our own consciousness and life to hangers loop.

Judas's trait is a vortex that is dominating us today. It is a huge vortex into which every individual is getting caught even before he can think. The system is designed for it. There is no way out once we are caught and the institution called religion, science, and our society works within this frame.

I just happened to be an individual who instinctively opposed blindly falling into any vortex. May be this characteristic was both my weakness and plus point. For this left me hanging in a zone of uncertainty, between two vortexes, suffering, discovering and moving in a unique path.  

As a child and a student of science I never believed in God. I always felt that it is the invention of the intelligent to exploit the ignorant. When I came out of the university and was left to face life, I realized that I hate a 9 to 5 Job. I decided to take up research and make my life worthwhile contributing some thing to humanity. Cancer research was my priority, but I ended working day and night in cloning and manipulating biological information. I put every thing behind my work. This exposed me to the beauty of life and also exposed the limitations of science. I realized that science has nothing to do with understanding the reality of nature. It is simply an expression of human greed to conquer nature.  This disturbed me 

I had taken up some very highly commercial but very difficult topic, from an unrecognized and ill equipped lab. There was none in the lab on whom I could lean for guidance. The only thread that made me to hang on and take the challenge was freedom. My young blood did cool off; when I failed to produce even a slight progress in my work. Just when I was contemplating to give up, my mind struck a strange communication with nature. I began to use my senses, broke loose form the guidelines of scientific experimentation to explore beyond its boundaries in a unique way. The results were quick. I made progress with everything I touched. Jobs from multinational companies, opportunity to lead biotechnology groups for private companies came my way. I even joined a multinational company for a short period, only to find the environment suffocating. I wished thus to take my doctorate degree and pursue an academic line. I overlooked money and position as I toiled in pursuit of the doctorate degree.

The communication with nature and my honest quest to know nature, with out my knowledge had created a vortex of its own into which I was getting deeply drawn. This vortex was confronting the ordinary vortex of the outside world. The vortex within me had a show down with the vortex of this world on the eve of submission of my Doctoral Thesis. Two choices was put forth by my superior on that eve 

1] Stay with my consciousness and truth and lose a career in science or

2] Sacrifice my conscience and bow to him and untruth and gain a career science.  

The fact that my superior was a clergy and I had very good sermons from him in the beginning to take up the challenge, made my reaction quite powerful one.

 I instinctively took the former choice and came out of the world of science.

Back in my father and mother’s abode in an interior village, covered by forest, I found the best laboratory and a guide [mother nature] thus began a new research life. It was highly challenging. I had to salvage a sinking ship to raise resources to live and pursue my quest. The odds were against me but I hung on because Nature was revealing pages of her book. For a researcher these are the true source of energy that sustains him. The pages revealed in quick succession and were simple, but it brought forth a mammoth task comprehending it in respect to knowledge of science that is ruling us. This led me to review the foundation of science. This exercise revealed the hollow nature of science and its foundation.  At this stage I also had to loosen my stand on religion and the concept of God.

I was now repeatedly traveling up and down in two paths, religion and science, in an unattached manner. I knew instinctively that these two paths are linked but I failed to find the link and its unity. See figure. My repeated travel however reduced the gap between "A" and "B" but I could not find the path that linked them. The state I was in was no different from the scientist who knows that the universe originated from big bang, but has no answer to, what leads to big collapse and what leads to big expansion.

In 1996 a strange thing happened in my life, that set all the partial knowledge revealed from nature in to an order revealing its oneness. My quest to know nature ended with it. I discovered who I am, what I am called for.  Looking back I felt that if not for a Third Force leading me I would not have sailed the turbulent ocean. Till then every time nature was revealing her partial secrets, I was feeling that “I” am making progress. But from that moment my “I” faded into insignificance at the feet of the Living Force.  Since then without any effort, I started to perceive the secrets written in Vedic thoughts, Biblical writing and other religious scriptures and its relation to our existence. My turbulent mind found a strange form of peace and I found a way of existence As I am with Him. When I look at my “self”, I begin to fall, when I look at Him I grow and when I look at you and around the world I am reminded of the duty to which I am entrusted. He guards me from falling into the vortex of  “self”, He guards me falling in to the vortex of “no self”, making me live with Him as I Am and calling my attention to the duty entrusted to me -  To spread the knowledge of life such that it sustains this world when it reached the critical state of collapse. 

From the day one when the seed was put in me, I entered a turbulent state, I wished I could communicate I can bring it out and escape the turbulence. However after 1996 this turbulence disappeared. However, my Father pinches very often, calling my attention to my duty to spread the light he gave me to the world. Reaching out to the world which has its back to  life and light, I know is a futile exercise. Yet I have kept my duty of knocking the door. It is more than 3 years since I started the mono-acting, unwinding from the depth the light he revealed to kept it in on the net. It has been a taxing exercise. I wish I could communicate with just one more soul,

What happened in 1996?

Nature had revealed so much to my questioning process from a point freedom. My human nature and scientific background also perceived several technological possibilities. However, the vortex in which I was caught was too strong that I could not move out of it to seek my “self”. It was pulling me down to discover the ultimate secrets. Nature was demanding too much out my little mind. I tried to reach out to the world to discuss the matter so that the stress can be shared and explored. I always felt such discussion would help express convincingly what nature was revealing to me. But I failed to catch the attention of the mad competitive world. The day-to-day stress of survival also was speaking on me. The stress led to the deterioration of my health. It failed to improve with medication. At this stage my wife suggested that we go to a prayer meeting at a place called Pottah, where many miracle cures occurred in Prayer Meeting. Since 1992 I wanted to go to this place. By 1992 I had developed dynamic vision of biological system and from this I could comprehend the physical phenomenon occurring in such prayer meetings that leads to the miracle cure. I had a fairly good picture of what possibly is happening there. So when my wife suggested we packed the bag to join the prayer meeting. I was not attending it primarily for health reason but I was there to validate the physical theory of miracle cures.

Once being there, Mother Nature reminded me, that she revealed to me her pages when I came out of the boundary of scientific exploration and began to speak to her with my senses. This reminder made me to take part, experience than being a simple observer. It occurred to me that the best way to validate is to experience it.

For the first time I started to listen to the Bible from a point of freedom. Slowly I started to realize that what nature revealed to me is no different from the Bible quotes. That raised   the question is the secret of nature enclosed in the Bible and its source. The source of the Bible is Holy Spirit. It appeared very possible. This led me to intensively participate in the prayer meeting. For the first time I started to feel the Third Force. All along the whole process of enquiry in to nature, I held the feeling of making an investigation into nature opening the doors of nature using my mind as a key.  I had virtually opened every door in my own way but the last one and most important was eluding me stressing me to the peak, virtually pulling me to death. Standing in prayer I realized, my helplessness, my inferiority and the existence of a superior force leading the whole. I submitted to this force in all humbleness and placed the key at His feet. Ever before I could take my hands out of the key, the door opened. Every bit of knowledge I perceived from nature collapsed into order revealing the reality of nature and its cyclic existence. 

I realized that the secret of nature, the original copy of the Bible exist beyond the mind, in the soul and the information around it. It exists with in me and as well as in everything out side me in all the living system.  I simply erred trying to open it with the key of the mind [“I”] in reality it had to be opened with a key of the soul the [“Love”]. His mind opened up to me when I submitted my mind and whole at His feet. In His act I could perceive His Love for Me, the Whole World and the Grand Plan to salvage His Creation. He is my Father who commands me in right direction and He is also my Mother who Loves me more than any thing and accepts me, as I am, ever willing to forgive and forget. His feminine nature was leading me and His masculine nature was commanding me to move in the middle path, a path I chose without my knowledge.  That Prayer validated the path I am moving and I discovered the duty entrusted to me – to create the path for the whole to transform to the Kingdom of the Lord. Unlike those millions who set out to preach Bible and its Glory, I set out to write the Unification Theory. It is apparent that unless knowledge strikes there is little scope for humanity to survive. This world will collapse due to friction of religious force within themselves and with material force. The world is witnessing it.

I am a sinner at His Service