| April 1, 2001 I have decided to use this journal as a personal private journal besides just a general journal. No one reads it anyway, so it's safe. I have been doing a lot of research on the internet into adoption still. I can't believe I am saying this, but I am leaning way more towards a Russian/Ukraine adoption. That may end, but I really like the idea of 1) it's cheaper than China, 2) for China they give you a referral and for the Ukraine you go and meet the children and then make your choice, 3) and the biggest, is that you can adopt more than one child and we have always said we would like to try to get siblings, and each additional child only costs $2,000 for the Ukraine again. But the drawbacks for the Ukraine is the system is not as organized and there are alot of problems paperwork wise. There have been people who have wanted to adopt a child, spent days with it and then for one reason or another were not able to adopt that child. I think that would be heartbreaking. And the Chinese children seem to be healthier and you rarely hear of the attachment disorder with them. So I have a few years still, who knows, one or both of those may close down by the time I am ready to adopt. Ok, now for a more personal note. I have lost my best friend (to a fight, not death) over religion. Anyone who knows me knows how ironic this is because unfortunately I am the most unreligious person there is. I am going to start going to church though (or trying), I figure if I'm going to lose a friend over it I should make it worth it. And I am starting Marilu's 30 day THM over again starting today. I did Marilu for 5 months and loved it and then I went off it and gained back about 8 of the 25 pounds I lost, but I still need to lose about 50 more pounds. I have tried to get back onto it, but I haven't had any success. So I am hoping by starting the 30 days over again I can get back into it (that's how I got started last time and I think I need the structure). So far I am doing the countdown which is just give up red meat, dairy, sugar and alcohol. Sugar is the big one for me there, I do use some dairy, but not much. But I haven't been to the grocery store yet, so I can't skip the countdown (you are allowed to skip it if you are already pretty much there). I'm not telling anyone about this until I have done or not done the 30 days. |
