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Walking down the hall
I see them pointing and staring.
They think I don't know
They think I don't care.
They don't know
Of the pain I had.
It was so intense
It was driving me mad.
I'm the on to be upset
For I lost my love.
Moving all over
It makes me feel dumb.
My life is weird
It is strange.
My life is moved
I must face a change
I've been though the good
I've been though the though
As far as I see
My life is real rough.
I was once a loner
I was once really weird
I was once very popular
And know I'm in tears.
Life is like a maze
With confusion at every turn.
Which way to go?
When will I learn?
You seem to get lost
With the confusion of the walls.
But when you make it though
You can stand proud and tall.
You walk though the hallway
Of a happy place.
You want to keep it forever
And wrap it up in some lace.
But life isn't fair,
It doesn't stay one way.
You'll be in love in April,
But you might be single in May.
It only gets easier,
If you learn to age.
You'll never finish the book,
If you don't turn the page.
Twisting and turning,
In the maze of life.
It only gets easier
When you find a wife.
Angle of death
Knocking on the wall
I see him there
Standing proud and tall
He takes away a loved one
They go to a better place.
But is that true?
Should they have taken some mace?
"A better place"
Is that just a lie?
Why are we afraid
Of when we die?
What do the dead face?
Do they feel better,
With us thinking their alright?
It does it not matter?
When we are done aging,
Then we will die.
The dead will know the answer,
And the living will cry.
There's a constant battle
In the dark known as night.
I see them
All in fight
With all the evil going on
Thoughts are rushing though my mind
Causing confusion in my mind
I'm going blind.
There is a saying
Good wins over evil
That is a lie
I feel sorry for the devil.
Satan takes a loved one
I hope they enjoy there final rest.
All Satan left in your place
Is a frozen heart in my chest.
He confuses my sight
With all his blinding dots.
Entering my head
With wicked dreams and thoughts.
He tries to make our life look fun,
Like we're running like a pup.
He fills our head with many things
Drinking his poison from a cup.
I save myself from his evil,
As I watch good being born.
The only thing that hurts me more,
As walking though a field of thorns.
Thoughts rushing though my mind
I was going blind
Frozen heart in my chest
I hope you enjoy your final rest
Running around like a pup
Drinking poison from a cup
Wicked dreams and wicked thoughts
All I see are blinding dots
Walking though a field of thorns
Watching a deer being born
In the dark known as night
I see them there in a fight
Good always wins over evil
Just feel sorry for the devil
No one to trust
They laugh at me
Only one minded
What do they see?
Don't they stop?
They do nothing but talk.
Two many girls
Are out to stalk.
Reading a book
learn to fly
It's a sure way
To make them cry
Take my mind
And let it go
Words of wisdom
In a constant flow
Take my body
Bury it deep
Let me enjoy
My eternal sleep
Hell in flames
Heaven with breezes
I see no Satan
I see no Jesus.
Life is full
No more room
Have some more
Your kind is doomed
Destroy the water
Destroy the air
You know what's happening
But do you even care?
Your villainous minds
Watching others,
With the thought of "appropriate"
Killing their mothers.
You never refurnish
What you take to much.
It seems you destroy
Everything you touch.
In the field of science
Your kind is far.
But it causes more trouble
With contraptions like the car.
Your planet is full
It can't take any more.
In the room of existence
It's being pushed out the door.
Always in a hurry
Always in a rush
Seems like someone is saying
"Mush, mush, mush."
Always looking for something
Wish I could stop
I know sooner or later,
I'll turn up with the cops
I wish I could see
What everyone doubts.
I wish I was on sesame street
living with the count
Smoking left and right
drinking up and down
When I do all this,
I feel like a king with a crown
I know it's not the answer
I know it's not the way
But it's always on my mind
Every single day.
Today I walk
Staying alone
I'm not like others
I'm not there clone
To use the words of Popeye
"I yam what I Yam."
I hold this very true
Even if you think I'm dammed.
I'll stay this way
Gay or not
Close by friends
Is all I got
To much to learn
Can't be like all
With so many feet
They're bond to fall.
Most stay artistic
Future looks bright
Being myself
Is the only thing I see right.
It's not going to be,
I see it to clear
I hide nowhere
nothing to fear
I know
What I shouldn't see
It's behind those doors
It can't hide from me.
Life is a mystery
To tightly closed eyes
But to open sights
We see are soul cry
Protect the world
Bury me deep
When the world dies
Then the souls will weep.
When I die
I will be back
In this time of ours
Heart, is all that lacks.
I did my part
Nothing else to do
With your death
I had to move
Tears pouring down
I cry no more
I cried last night
With puddles on the floor
Taking my heart
Right out of my chest
I cry no more tears
Here in silent rest.
I'll move heaven and earth
To see you again
Dried out eyes
From crying over my friend.
Stoned no more
Sober now
All for you
How does that sound?
Buried six-feet deep
In frozen dirt
Your sudden death
Caused me much hurt.
Poking, touching
Scratched and burned.
Life is wrong
Make a U turn.
Toast is burnt
Food over cooked
Life is a game
Just don't get hooked
Free in every day
Sun burning bright
With the moon
In the dark of night
Needles under my skin
Shooting drugs up my veins.
Feeling very good
Messing up my brain.
Not safe here
Nowhere to hide
I'll sit here
And prepare to cry.
Stop the pain
Let me go
The pain I have
Is killing me slow.
The turning of my stomach
The burn of my heart
I wish I was with you
And we never part.
Many miles from you
Friendships never end.
Love you like a sister
Or as my best friend.
I'm here for you
You're there for me.
That's the way
It has to be.
Wicked sun
Wishful moon
If I had my way
I'll see you again soon.
Moving flower
Black clouds
Not seeing you
Makes me frown.
Purple sky
Red sea
So much blood
Let me bleed.
Green moon
Blue stars
The pain I fell
Weighs a car.
Colors are wrong
Life is too.
The memories I have
Are stuck like glue.
Black all over
Dreams being crushed
Not seeing clear.
Our backs are pushed.
Death helps no one
Causes too much pain
Life of confusion
Life that's afraid.
Good or bad
Wrong or Right
Can't give up
Must put up a fight.
Root of all evil
Is linked to greed
But with out it
We wouldn't be free
"I will not stop
Until you choke!"
Satan says to me
With his hands at my throat.
He destroys my life
Though thick and thin.
From killing of friends
to the zits on my chin.
Why doesn't he take me?
Am I to strong to take?
Destroying my life must be
The real piece of cake.
I must be to strong
He destroys my life
It is the only way
To cut me with my own knife.
What are friends for?
All they do is talk
Drive around
And never want to walk.
I always do what they tell me to
But what about my self?
They take my feelings
and stuff them on the shelf
I recall all the important dates,
Like when we first met.
But when a important day comes for me,
The always seem to forget.
I never did understand it,
Why do they forget me?
What will they do when I leave?
Will they think of themselves as free?
I'm always there for them,
And they're always there for me.
But you don't know
What is said under the tree.
They have a prank pulled on them,
And they think they'll never get over it,
But when you make them mad,
That prank has a new target.
But what do I care?
I have no control of my life!
What will happen when I'm older?
What about my wife?
When ever you make them mad
They'll tell it to your face.
Don't try to fight
You have no case.
But they are my friends,
And I do care for them,
They might not be perfect,
But I will miss them.
I will miss them
I don't know how I'll go on.
But over the years
We all did bond.
Looking though a window
Watching birds fly by.
Sitting here thinking
Of the last time I got high.
I never really liked it
Glad that I quit.
Now I do nothing
Nothing to do but sit.
Why did it happen to me?
I thought he was my friend.
We talked all the time
And now it's the end.
Why did they take his life?
Why am I blamed?
Is someone playing me?
Playing me like a game?
Is it just around the corner?
Is it high flying with the doves?
Questions I ask
When I think of love.
Why do I search
I know where I can find.
But it is to late
It is far behind.
Maybe, I'm doing right
There could be someone better
What happened in the past
Will not matter.
People are weird,
They go out just to be seen
They don't like the girl
They are very mean.
Love is not to be toyed with.
It is a real emotion
The ones that abuse it
Are never in motion.
Love
An emotion I use to feel
Myself
The only one I kneel too.
Crime
A ticket to jail
Drugs
A life that has failed
God
There is no such thing
Sex
Makes you feel like a king
Roller-Blades
Is my only sport
Crap
The way I feel in court.
Gone though many things
Some good and bad
We got in some fights
Getting very mad.
It only make us stronger
We share our lives even more
Having fun with a séance
Pounds on the door
At Daylight Doughnuts
We were playing pool
Stealing all the sweats
Thinking it was cool.
Saying many things
"We'll be friends forever."
Even over seas,
Or maybe to Denver.
You'll stay my friend
When your rich and famous.
I'll remember you
Just don't forget Russ.
So many choices
Though out your life
Can't make them all
Just over night.
Making the wrong one
Could hurt so bad.
Don't take it personal
And don't get mad.
Wish to have one thing
A remote for this life
Go back in time and
Stay for the night.
Go on back
To see you again
Spend as much time together
With you as I can.
Whoever said
"Family is the most
Important thing in life."
Better become a ghost.
I hate my family
With all my heart
They talk to me
They shouldn't start.
Make no sense
All to blind
Think of themselves
Only one mind.
Support me not
Schemes I take
Molding myself
Into someone great.
Try to clone
Me into them
Took the blood
Of better men.
Ring of hate
Loath me more
Shine your lights
Day number four.
I will win
Have to much
Never hurt me.
Not going to touch.
I alone
Save my soul
Eternal youth
Is my goal.
Reading heads
Swimming by
Read of hate
And see them cry.
Fight to much
In a ring of hate
Save yourself
Close the gate.
Ugly one
living upstairs
Gave life to me
But I don't care.
He gave me life
Then he abused it.
Hits so hard,
I can not hit.
Hits against the wall
And hits to the face.
Was to slow
Must go at his pace.
Because of him
I am fucked up.
Kicked in the groin
Now I wear a cup.
That ugly bastard
Is the king of rats.
He'll never catch me,
He is to fat.
I'm hungry
Feed me now
Stuff my face
Feed me like a cow.
"Mmm Good"
"Have it your way."
Even more hungry
What can I say?
McDonald's
Taco Johns
Free food
I am gone.
Movie popcorn
Gummy bears
I'm so hungry
I'm pulling out my hair.
Pizza pie
Ice cream cake
Even more hungry
As I stuff my face.
More people know
Of my Insane life
I'm to crazy now
To use my own knife.
Blood in veins
Red colored eyes
I'm to gone
To even cry.
When I go
My dad will to
Not right now
It's to soon.
Bullet holes
In my head
It is to late
I'm all ready dead.
Escape from blackness
On eight wheels.
My life is black
What's the big deal?
Blackness surrounds me
With hatred burning
On eight wheels
I keep on turning.
Blackness all around
I won't stop to cry
Jump right over all
Flying high.
Being happy
Is not free
Landing hard
On my scraped knee.
I will escape
But cannot flee
On eight wheels
The world I see.
Evil red eyes
Life is mean
Know a little
Life in three.
Always out
In the night
Hate the sun
Hiding from the light.
Black magic
Is a bitch
Evil girl
My living witch.
Past lives
I see clear
I know too much
Nothing I fear.
Deep inside
My hatred burns
Can't be true
My life has turned.
Hate has me
Controlling my mind
Not here anymore
I'm not as kind.
A rifle in my hand
And a mask on my face
See who dies first
Let's being the race.
Up here alone
I see everyone
Just a couple more shots
And the job in done.