| Sorry | You | Heroine | Afraid | Brakes | If... |
| Looney | Alone | Pain | Confused | Runaway | Always |
| Savior | Leaving | Heartbreak | Children | Amber | Together |
| Bryan | Last page... | Home Page... | |||
Yeah there are more.....
I can barely watch
Football games
With out thinking of you
And reliving my shame.
You were my closest cousin
I pushed your brother down the stairs
No one to talk about it
No one seems to care.
Haven't seen you
For so long
You visit Grandma
But I'm was always gone.
I had a chance
To see you once more
But I was to good for you
And shoved you out the door.
So much in my head
I need to say to you
But none more important
Then to have been there for you.
I hope you can hear this
Cause I have one more thing to say
Before you turn your back away
I'M SORRY.
Everyday I wake up
And hope to see you
Hoping for that moment
You put me in a better mood.
When I see you
Worries melt away
Etch you in my mind
So you stay this way.
I look into your eyes
As they lighten up with laughter
You melt my pain away
As you make me tougher.
To soon to say
But I think it's true
Lets see together
I may love you.
I wear long sleeves
To hid the marks
I can't remember
How it starts.
Driving alone
No one is near
Don't have to worry
Nothing I fear.
Bright lights in front
And I was hit
My mom came to me
Next to me she sits.
I could see her pain
As she looks at me
She's hiding something
What can't I see?
I asked her if I was dying
I saw the truth as she started to cry
I asked for one thing
"Mommy, please don't let me die."
I would do it
But I'm to afraid
Of hurting my friends
And causing pain.
I'm afraid
Afraid of my past
With so much behind me
I'm finishing last.
I'm also afraid
To walk alone
All by myself
And no one on the phone.
Afraid of my future
And if it doesn't go right
I'll be in the darkness
Searching for the light.
Afraid of true friends
And getting to close
Cause they all die
And come back as ghosts.
Afraid of distrust
And what it does to me
Behind my back
Where I can't see.
The time is here
Everything is ready
All alone
Except for the teddy.
If everything
Goes according to plan
The world will be
Short one less man.
It won't be my fault
It'll be my cars
I'll fly away
To places afar.
The brakes are shot
So am I
No more silence
As you cry.
If it would happen
No one would know
Short one man
If I would go.
Nothing is left
For me to stay
Leave at night
Away from the day.
If I would go
Would anyone cry
If I would go
How much would you die?
If I would go
How fast would I leave
Afraid of the pain
How much would there be?
Seeing them
Feeling things
Knowing you too well
Looney King.
Going crazy
Life not normal
Afraid to look
Or to fuck my girl.
My new found power
Making it worse
My Tarot cards
Is the source.
Not laid back
Way to tense
Feel no pain
Running though the fence.
Lost my sports
Have only one
Killing me slowly
Way to fun.
Eight wheels
Keep me sane
On eight wheels
I'm not afraid.
Alone in pain
In this life
Drugs in system
As I try to fight.
No one cares
If I live or die
In my coffin
No one cries.
I scream
For them
As I'm carried away
By many men.
It can't be true
I do have friends
Where are they now
Is this the end?
Alone in pain
As I try to fight
Lowered into darkness
Of eternal night.
I was born
With so much pain
Tears poured down
Like little rain.
As I grow
It did ease,
I thanked the heavens
On my knees.
It's with my now
Within side of me
It's the pain
You can't see.
I fear my life
As I age
Pain Follows me
Though every page.
I will die
And others too
Will feel the pain
I always do.
At last I am free
Just what I wanted
Why is it so
That my eyes are never doted.
I am away form my past
Living in this lie,
No one knows the truth
Of how Jamie died.
I want them to know
But I don't want them to
My mind is a jungle
What can I do?
They'll laugh and tease
They won't believe me
They weren't there
When I hit the tree.
No one is here
I feel so alone
In the darkness
Where did you go?
No one cares
What I do
If I would leave
Would I find the new?
Want a new life
With friends who care
All the pain
I can feel my soul tear.
Escape from here
Take me away
I might come back
Some other day.
No one would know
If I would leave tonight
They wouldn't search
Only in the light.
By time of day
I will be far
I have the money
To get away in my car.
Always the one
To stay sane
Always sober
Hiding my pain.
Feeling Alone
Always outside the group
The only chunk
In the soup.
Always the one
With no one to talk
To feel better
I go on walks.
Always the one
That is single
Seeing them together
Gives me a fucked up tingle.
Always telling me
I'm way to sweet
Always walking
With just two feet.
Everything is fucked
In this life of mine
Often I am found
Just wanting to cry.
Nothing going
The way I plan
All the craziness
Is driving me mad.
Though the madness
Along you came
Reaching my heart
Melting pain away.
I often looked
For away to end it
In the darkness
Looking for an exit.
Within the darkness
Your hand reached for me
Guiding me to light
Your heart my key.
Never feeling alone
With you next to me
A new life
You allowed me to see.
What does one do
When he loses friends
And it feels
Like it's the end?
Tiring to hide
Bloodshot eyes
Always alone
As I cry.
Leaving for awhile
And I came back
My best friend
Is what lacks.
All effort wasted
Trying to keep him here
Being here alone
Is what I fear.
A heart full
Of fire
Learning of
Your desire.
Felt so right
In your arms
Life is over
Buying the farm.
Death seems right
For my life
Search in darkness
For my knife.
Love is dull
Pain is sharp
Red blood
Split on a tarp.
My body
Runs dry
Running away from you
As I learn to fly.
Your taken away
Before I met you
My heart was taken
Leaven' me blue.
I need something
To replace the pain
Heart of stone
Driving me insane.
Fatherless child
Losing his mind
Searching the streets
Trying to hide.
Life is stoned
Turned to clay
All pains stops
By the end of day.
You seemed so normal
Big mouthed jerk
Telling some lies
Who does it hurt?
I could see the truth
When I looked in your eyes
The pain you feel
As you try not to cry.
The pain you feel
Is with me too
I just met you
And you leave to soon.
Your beautiful eyes
Look into my soul
We are connected
Please don't go.
Our first kiss
Came from nowhere
It felt to me
Like I didn't care.
Looking at you
Like a piece of meat
In a race
Who was I trying to beat.
We spent more time
To get to know each other
Maybe soon
We'll go farther
Next time we meet
You'll be all mine
My missing heart
You had all the time.
Seeing the beauty
As we gaze at the stars
Is only matched
By the beauty of your heart
With your necklace around my neck
Keeping you close to my heart
With the hope
That we may never part.
You with me
Brought feelings a new
All the love I fell
Was never returned by you.
Learning you would rather be at the bar
Then to spend time with me
Finally seeing the truth
I was to blind to see.
Losing not only my lover
But also my best friend
Knowing pain and confusion
Realizing it's the end.
Loving you more then anything
With pain as it's cost
You may come back someday
Knowing what you lost.
But this is my shout
To say goodbye
I'm moving on
No longer asking why.