Welcome to the Hellpen

Well, here you are. You got yourself into this! If you'd like to go to Killing Me Softly, Seeing Red or my other sites at any time, either press the back button on your browser or use the links at the bottom of this page. You will find some of my stories at KMS, but you will find my entire repertoire here. Essays and rants, however, along with manipulated graphics and all that good stuff, will be at KMS or my other sites.

PLEASE NOTE that if you read my stories, you are heretofore considered warned that if I saw it, you might end up reading about it, spoilers & all.

Now, please enjoy these stories and poems, listed in no particular order. And remeber - don't be a hack, give feedback!

Almost

Kendra's story. Season 3, Dru killed Buffy instead of Kendra, and Angelus's soul was never returned. They face off. P. G. 13

Sonja Marie's PoemM

A poem I wrote to ingratiate my way into Sonja Marie's Buffy links for KMS. Let's hope the tactic works on this site, too! G rated.

The Difference Between Us

A poem about me and Druscilla. Explained inside. About being black, woman and crazy. A poem. p.g. 13

Dark Blood

Another poem about blackness and Druscilla. A reaction and thoughts on her killing Kendra in season 2. G rated

Evil Xander

Dark Jester said there wasn't enough evil Xander fic out there. So done made a fic. Animal torture. Food contamination. Xandrew luvin' off camera. season 7. For all this creepiness? NC 17, despite there being no sex.

Evil Xander 2

I made a website after writing these two parts. I tried to make a series and it didn't work. I keep meaning to end it with a final chapter or poem, but that hasn't happened yet. For now, the gang talks about stuff and Xander and Andrew shag. For all this creepiness? NC 17, despite there being no sex.

Not A Boy, Not Yet A Man

It's 1700 and something, and Angel's twenty. His sister is eighteen, and he rapes her. Not a lightweight fic. Talks about all kinds of family disfunction and incest. NC 17

Ch. 2; Enter Rona

Current day. Angel sees a therapist about the past he can't ignore. That's when he starts to remember a young black streetwalker he met in 1950s L.A. It's Rona, the S.I.T. from season 7 with cute dreads. By now it's pretty much A.U. cause I messed with the timeline so much. Don't know if I'll finish this, it seems like several stories weaved into one. p.g. 16

Cause I Gotta Have Faith

Faith and Angelus want to be together, but she's a redemption seeking Metis Slayer, and he's a homicidal maniac. So there's obstacles. Character deaths, rape, kink, and a happy ending. NC 17

Angel Suave

A poem about the ridiculousness of Buffy and Angel's season 2 relationship, at least from the perspective of reality, not fantasy and romance. G

Don't

Short. Angel and Spike talk. Angel decides to go somewhere away from their family and Spike can't intervene. Hints at suicide, or whatever you want. P.G. 13 for content.

Buffy Acid

My response to the implied moral slant of ep. 17, "Lies My Mother Told Me". Buffy and Spike don't fare well. Character deaths, necrophilia, violence, dark humour. NC 17

Spike's Recovery

Spike celebrates 90 days clean and sober. A short funfic dedicated to my family and Ed.(note, I'm in no way affiliated with any 12 step group). G rated.

Spikes'lay

Spike and Buffy. Takes off from the attempt-turned-rape in Seeing Red. Kink. Rape, humiliation, romance-rape, bondage, allusions to Buffy and Riley, and all that. Some chapters may include offscreen enemas, watersports and stuff. Be warned. This series is NC 17

Ch 2; Trapped

Ch 3; Anticipation

Ch 4; Buffy Goes Aguilera

Ch 5; Angel

Pledge Week Ch 4; $10 Whore

My cheap two cents of a round robbin fic at Buffynoncon yahoo group, entitled "Pledge Week". Season 4. Riley isn't all kind and understanding of Buffy being the Slayer. She gets drugged at a frat party and gang raped for a week ( so far). This chapter has electrolysis, tatooing, collaring, humiliation-rape, anal, facial, and a freaky ass character that reminds me of a cross between my ninth grade imaginary crush and a neo nazi. Shudder. Not a nice fic. NC 17

The All-Powerful Writeur...Or, Ryan And Gloria Fans

An Oz(the prison drama, not wolf boy) fic. Ryan and Gloria needed to get it on. I let them. A bit of fantasy element, and a bit of anti-white racism on the writer's part. But that's me. I had an explanation for it, but it's at my old site, or KMS in the "non-buffy fiction" section. NC 17

DoubleMeat Special : Weaselmeat and Pickles

Really should be two chapters, but this site is pretty condensed. Season 6. Lesbian slash rape, het rape, watersports, humiliation, sex-with-choking, weasel-bashing. Buffy has to put up with some pretty tough conditions at work. NC 17

Shiver Me Fingers

Buffy discovers the joys of masturbation, and then gets raped. Sort of funny (I promise!) but if I tell you it'll ruin the surprise that makes it funny. Season 6 NC 17

Buffy The Slutress

Inspired by a title I saw at www.literotica.com. Really short. In fact, ridiculously short. That's what makes it funny (to me anyways). Rated R

Ch. 2 Frequency

Another pointless silliness I wrote. Buffy's friends find out who she really is, and work her. Group sex, forced body modification, bondage, drugging, het and lotsa slash. NC 17, but mostly just talk. Short.

Kamanur Pheiss

I think the title speaks for itself. Season 7. Buffy's nuts, like on the show. Willow and Xander and creepy perverts and decide to shut her up by inviting strange men to help them perform a ritual. Facials. NC 17

Kamanur Pheiss Ch. 2

Buffy's degredation continues. A cold shower, a facial from a man she put down repeatedly (Xander!!!), and learning her new place as Willow's lick-slut.

True Love

I got kicked out of an anti-spuffy group by meanies because I didn't love Buffy and hate Spike. So I wrote this. And smiled, knowing it would melt their minds with self-effacing fury. Spuffy, season 6 in Seeing Red. Rape, the bathroom scene, it happens. Victim blaming. Rated R

Ch 2; Cut Off My Hands, Baby

I tried to let it go, but several commentaries sparked this response fic. Complete with comment series from 'reviewers' (flamers!), to help you understand.

Buffy And The Giant Demon Chick

Buffy goes out patrolling and ends up almost meeting her doom a vaginally ingesting calcium fiend demon. Lesbian slash, sort of rape. NC 17

Ch 2

A month later, Buffy surrenders to the urge to eat blue giant muff. Rape, humiliation, watersports. Buffy/Spike (humilation/romance-rape), Buffy-Scoli(semi-consensual/rape/oral), Buffy vampires (fondling and frotteurism), Buffy surgically enhanced vampire, Buffy/ordinary vampires. Scat mention, bi-sexual male vampires, etc...

Ch 3

A completely different feel. Buffy is punished for her 'transgressions', by Angel and Spike. Whips, chains, D/D/s relationship. Gay slash, threesome, vampire/slut-wife/all-in-the-vampire-family vibe. Romance-domination.

Thoughts On Hallowe'en

A story I wrote after re-watching season 2's Hallowe'en episode. Not too favourable of Buffy. Rape. B/A, B/Trolls. Humorous to me.

Transubstantiation...Or, Blah Blah Blah

A share of humour, a share of angst, a share of romantic sex, and a share of creepiness and bizareness and then some rape. And just for good measure, a dose of Buffy and SMG bashing. Season 7. G/J, G/B, G/FE, W/K.

Tea And Games

A kinky little piece. Takes place about season 4 AtS and Season 7 BtVS. Not saying the pairing - don't want to spoil it. But there's Kink and male dominant/female submissive het. Offscreen rape, someone romantic in a severe way.

Bargain Basement Interior Decor : The Jesus Connection

A little bit o' Willow topping Xander, a little bit o' introspection into Xander's rape urges, a lotta angst, a little bit o' 'apocalypse nowish', and a kind of prosetry in 1000 words. Written for the Summer of 2003 Spanking The Slayerettes Kink-A-Thon Assignment Challenge.

Raping For Rubles

Written to while away the summer slow-down of fics and list discussions. B/S. NC-17. Some romance-rape, some (most) consensual, some whip, some D/s relationship, some voyeurism, masturbation, author death. Buffy and Spike find out just how sick her 'fans' really are, and then she wants time apart. Spike decides to teach her who she belongs to.

Ye Shall Rape What Ye Slut

The Grim Reaper comes for Buffy, mistakenly thinking that she's dead. Turns out she's just way too thin. He gets mad and rapes her. Humiliation-rape. Facial, toys, forced exhibitionism. Breast enlargement (just read, k?)

For now, only my fanfiction stories have been posted here. This may change in the future.

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