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Hi, this is the story of myself Sara, from Australia and my love Benjamin, from Tennessee.
I met Benjamin online, actually through a room mate of his, he was then in the Marine Corps and I was actually somewhat involved with his roommate. Benjamin and I spoke one day, and wow! he blew me away, I found our lives so similar, his love for martial arts, his extreme intelligence, I enjoyed talking to him. We became friends, I must admit, I had since seen
pictures of him on his website and he just fit the entire package, he was gorgeous!
Well Benjamin and I continued to talk as friends, which was
incredibly easy to do, his conversation was always, intelligent and stimulating, and another thing I found, I could be totally at ease with this man.....as the months progressed his room mate and I were no longer, Benjamin and I became closer, I wasn't sure of these feelings at first, all I knew is that my heart skipped a beat whenever he came online. If asked, at what point did I fall in love with Benjamin, that I cannot answer, all
I know is I was feeling these incredible feelings, feelings I had never felt before.
I am an extremely independant person, very fiesty, I speak my
mind and have definately been called heartless at times. Benjamin soothes me, he makes me feel at peace, he has this incredible effect on me, that I have never experienced before, what is it? Its my other half falling into place, its like an over bearing sense of relief, I feel completed...whole....
There is one problem in all of this, I am in Australia and Benjamin is all the way over in Tennessee, it makes no difference, I love him and I want to be with him and who said you cant find your soul mate thousands of miles away....he has made me a much nicer person, he has taught me to show my
heart, he has collapsed those huge walls I had around my heart, and he did it with ease, he is compassionate, sensative, caring, romantic, intelligent, honest, loving, sexy and he is my baby.
He sometimes infuriates me, makes me sit up and think...'who the hell are you?, to come into my life and know me so well, touch me so deeply, love me so much"...I thank god everyday that he
did.
I dont know what the future holds for Benjamin and myself, as I
have just been diagonsed with terminal cancer, but I know this, he is apart of me, he is my life, my love, my one true love and without him I am nothing, to share his life even for a little while, is worth everything. He is my bestfriend, my confident, and soon to be my lover...the man I want to spend my life with, the man I want to hold, to love, to cry with, to laugh with.
Benjamin...I love you with every inch of my soul, you have completed me, you are my soul...forever baby!
Sara
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