An Artist's Mind

It takes over.

It always does.

I should know better by now.

Will I ever?

I have to sink.

Always sinking.

I have to cry.

Don’t know why…

Deeper and deeper I go…

Inside you… inside me…

I can’t hear you anymore.

Nor do I want to.

So afraid to paint now.

My brush strokes hurt me.

Afraid to sculpt.

It won’t do.

Where do I take myself?

Your arms can make it better…

Just let go?

It has worked in the past.

Chemical living…

Improve your life.

Until you run out.

Then you are fucked.

I paint my face today…

Afraid….

I pierce my chest…

Forbidden right now.

Just go sing my death song...

Forgot it.

Go upstairs where you wait.

Cannot.

Want to die.

Lost my pride.

Want to die.

Lost my pride.

Want to die.

Lost my pride.

Want to die.

Lost my pride.

Dunno why…

Chemical living make me want to die.