Can something so small
be precious to God?
More important are we
due to our size?
A life on earth began,
but to heaven was quickly called.
Our child, our little angel, who now flies.
Your wings you earned too soon.
Watch over us from your side of the moon.

PREGNANCY LOSS

We called you "little one", "junior", we loved the hope you gave us, but we lost you

This is our story




The following is the story of our miscarriage. It is about my husband and my feelings and the events that took place. Some of the information is a bit graphic, but I included it because I wish I had had a little more information on what to expect at the time. Even though I was a Labor and delivery nurse for fifteen years and I watched my mother go through several miscarriages, I was still frightened by the unknown. Maybe the following account of our experience can help someone be better prepared for the mental, the physical, and the emotional pain.

First, I would like to thank the enormous outpouring of support and information from my cyber friends who had also had miscarriages and the support from my personal friends. The contact that I had with my cyber friends through Olen's Conceiving Community Bulletin Board and their e-mails made me feel so much more secure and less alone. THANK YOU!

MICHELLE, HEATHER
APRIL, ANITA
DAN, WENDY
GEORGETTE, JILL
JACKIE
AND TO MY GOOD
PERSONAL FRIENDS
LAURA, JEANNIE and LISA


So this is how it went. If I am kind of straight forward and to the point, please bear with me and remember that I am a nurse and most of us nurses are trained to be that way.

July 25, 1997, was my last menstrual period. The next month when I did not get my period on time I did a home pregnancy test and it was positive. What joy, what excitement, what anticipation. You see, I have two children, a fourteen year old daughter and a twelve year old son from a previous marriage. Their father has been very cruel to me and has allowed me sporadic contact with them. I miss them terribly. I miss being a part of their lives and watching them grow up. I miss being a mother. My husband has a son from his first marriage. He is seven years old and lives in another state. My husband has less trouble being able to see his son, but of course still wishes he could spend more time with him and be more of a daddy. So, even though we love our other children dearly, we decided that we really missed being able to interact more closely with a child, so we decided to try to have more.

I had never had a miscarriage before, and assumed I would not have problems apart from my concerns aobut having had thyroid cancer seven years ago and the possible ramifications of how that could affect this pregnancy. I was assured by health care practitioners that I should be fine despite my thyroid condition.

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