7:39pm

Maybe I'm just hallucinating about everything in this relationship. Thinking about so many things that might not be true. Every single moment when I think about this relationship, I felt as if... I really don't know how a relationship suppose to be. I understand that whatever I want, I won't be able to get it. Are we moving way too fast? Am I just thinking so much? I really don't know. *sighs*

Valentine's Day was okay. There's a certian moment when he can be so annoying to me. We don't even understand each other very well. What gets me was the time when he came over, gave me flowers and other stuff. Then when we left, he said, "You thought I won't get you anything for Valetine's Day, huh." Said that like two or three times. For me, I really didn't care, like I told him. As long as I get to spend some time with him for "our" first Valentine's Day, it's all good to me. One part that really gets me when his phone ring while driving me home. All I wanted to do is to see if any of my family members would call, not pick up the phone. It's not my phone why would I want to pick it up? Fuck... that piss me off. He told me, "Don't pick it up." Duh, of course not. Then he took the phone away from me, and look at the phone to see who's calling. I wanted to know too, since I'm his girlfriend. When i peeked over, he turned his p hone the other way, not letting me see who was it. I ask, "Who is it?" He answered, "A friend." in a stupid stupid tone of voice. "I guess she called to say 'happy valentine's day, but it's too late anyways." Of course I knew it was a girl. All his friends... well, practically most of his friend knows that he have a girlfriend, but to what i think is the not all his "girlfriends" knows. There's maybe other times when he talk on the phone with another girl, he tells e to be quiet. I mentioned that before huh. Yes, I did.

Thursday, February 13, 2003

1:35pm One more day til Valentine's Day. Am I excited? No. I'm not. I'm very disappointed. I won't be able to spend this time with the person that I care most, Trung. *sighs* He's working tomorrow. How sad. This would be our first Valentine's Day together. I want him to spend this special day with me no matter what. But then, I really don't want this to interfere with his job. O wells... I may say that it really doesn't matter to me, but deep inside, it really does. A special day with no one. Feels just like I'm single again. *sighs* I don't really know why I feel this way... Anyways, Trung wanted to see this homepage that I made. Should I just let him see it or not? haha. No. Why? Because he might misunderstood what I wrote about him. But then, you know, I can't hide anything away from him. I really miss him a lot. Even though it's just only one week that I haven't seen him, it seems so forever. He's over at his place working so hard, and I'm just sitting here doing really nothing. I feel so useless. Plain dull. Everynight it gets so boring after Trung and I end only conversation. I couldn't sleep til 1 or 2 in the morning. Why? I don't really know. Everyday and everynight I feel like I have nothing else to do, wasting so much time doing practically nothing. Argh, I don't like this at all. =( Wednesday, February 12, 2003 12:50pm *sighs* I'm so bored right now. Not much to do. Ugh. Hopefully I get a job soon, so I will be doing something. Yes yes. Lately, I really don't know what's wrong with me. Sometimes I maybe just thinking so much. There are other times when I just want to end this relationship with Trung. Well, he didn't do any wrong to me. He treat me all his best. I really appreciate that. ::hugs:: But, every night talking on the phone, he's just plain nothing. Well, he does talk at times, but I don't know what to talk about. When we're always together, we DO find things to do, but if the whole time when we don't have anything else to do, it gets so BORING!!! It's like staying at home, except more relaxing. That's about it. Okay, enough about my problems, today... I didn't do anything, so it's so boring today, beside going to school. Around @ 2, I'm going to go hang out with Thai Star and couple of other people. Cool eh? We're going to eat! Yup Yup! At my mom's Pho Place!!! Woohoo! I'm freaking starving!!! Anyways... about in an hour left... me go... yes yes... Monday, February 10, 2003 5:56pm Hi! Wowser today, I finally made this page... took me while having ideas at school and now having time to work on this at home. I'm so proud of myself a little bit not much. Boys, boys, boys. Last night, I was worrying for my ex, Vinh, for a bit. Usually he would always call me, but then he had his own bad days. So yeah, no chitty chat last night. *sighs* Gets me worried. *OF course!* Anyways, Valentines's Day is almost here and I don't really know whatt Trung is going to do because he doesn't konw if he could get a day off that day. *sighs* Owells... If no plans for me, I'll go take pictures with my friends... Man, have to wear a dress though. ugh. This sucks. hahaha << previous posts .*::*. next 5 posts >>