The memories of you are fading
Like summer into fall
I opened my eyes wide
Cause I cannot take it all
But I left without the memories
That I wanted to share with you
If you knew just what you meant to me
The you'd want to love me too
And now I'm so full of pain
Sitting in my room alone
Though that's not where the story ends
We'll see each other very soon
I'm sick of the fucking pain you bring
I'm sick of sheltering the things I think
I'm tired of all those empty games
That you've played with me
So wipe that shit-ass grin off your face
I'm no longer going to take second-place
I've been abused to much to love
And so please just let me die
Life is too unimportant for me to die
Life is too miserable for me to live
So just kill me now so that I can
Be in peace without you
Your eyes melted me when we first met
And I knew in my heart how I could be content
I've never quite known love like this before
And I pray that there will be so much more
I love you and I guess I think it's untrue
It makes me cry when I think I'm losing you
My mind wants to die when of you I can't dream
Maybe I'm as crazy as I may seem
I just want you to be here by my side
With you as my love; my only bride
I can't live without you forever near to me
If you'd let me make you happy then you'd see
So now I'm waiting and I'm hoping for you
To tell me you love me and want to be with me too
So now I'll just say farewell and pray of what could be
An endless romance and an unbelievable journey
I wish you were here
Sitting right beside me
Laughing at my jokes
Drying off my tears
I wish I could hear
The things you've said before
Your gentle words of wisdom
You know that I love you
But we do have the eternal hope
And a perspective not to be outmatched
This future gives us wisdom and
The wisdom gives us future
The way you're in my mind at night
And you rob me of thought in the daytime
I'll always try to hide back this feeling
Yes I think I am starting to fall in love again
So many memories of you come to mind
Your beauty and your smile; I sigh
If to but only have you here with me
I think I'd be happy for all eternity
I get so happy when of you I write
It makes me wonder and makes me cry
Though I'll never understand it all
Will you come with me wherever I walk
And maybe this should be my last line
But of you I can only think to rhyme
Maybe I'm the silly romantic to the end
But I think I am starting to fall in love again
It's an internal bleeding that's what I got from you
It's an incredible feeling now I'm not here with you
I've a separate disorder I feel helpless and blue
It's for turning the corner this is what it's come to
Maybe the skies will be greener when you're gone
And all of my lifelong dreams will come true
But I hope that someday we'll be together again
If not then what am I supposed to do?
I can only hope to imagine great things coming soon
And if they don't; then my dream won't come true
So I pray that the hardest roads are over fast
And then it will be just me and you
As I drift into the open skies with you in my mind
May I always dream sweet dreams about you
Then I know that at least I am happy at night
And the memories will happen soon
I don't want to be another page stuck in your book
I don't want to be another phrase in one small sentence
I want to be here from now until the end of all
I want to be someone who'll catch you at the fall
But you and I know better and we know it won't be
But you and I know better; we'll live eternally
Right by my side you'll be forever endlessly
So far from me is where you'll be when we die
I can't give my life to something not worth the cost
I can't give my life for something taking loss
I want to be someone who makes a big difference
I want to be here without a hope of forgiveness
I might not be the one who'll be there for you
I might not be the one who leads and protects too
But I will always be the one you've loved for long
But I will always be the one you threw off
Is anybody out there?
Does anybody care?
Is anybody list'nin' in my hour of despair?
When the walls are standing strong
Are they cold and bare
Is anybody out there? Does anybody care?
There's a road I'm traveling on through the course of time
I've been on down this road before
Seen so many signs
Now I feel I'm stranded; I'm lost; I've been left behind
Where on this journey can I go
Can I finally unwind
I can't ever believe myself or give my self any praise
I've been so lonely at that point
I stand in my grave
I can't ever turn back my ways so I am enslaved to them
I just want to give up all hope
And then let Him in
I've been taken for granted I've been shut down
I've been left alone to die and
Fall in a hole
So, won't you kill me now; won't you just do me in
I need a path to run; a path to escape
A place to begin
Surely there's a good road a place somewhere not here
I need to come back alive and live for Christ
And never die
I will be on that road soon and there I'm not alone
I just can't believe he died for me
To give me a home
So here we are because You died for us
And we can praise you for your gift
A purity that you provide for us
A way to cleanse us from all sin
Love comes and fills our hearts with joy
Love takes our guilt and sin away
Love moves so we can understand
The world; The ways of You
So take my ways and change me Lord
And crush my vain conceitful pride
Break my will so I know only you
You must have my full control
So consecrate my life for you alone
And make me Holy as You are
I want to be the living sacrifice
I want to follow only You
And so since You are God
And I am just a man
Walk closely beside me
Walk with me hand in hand