You're waiting for a magic moment
So that we can be friends 'til the end
I'm saying it's not going to happen
You left me broken; well never again
I've died too many times to be heartbroke
I've waited for some day to come
I'm casting for a new independence
And where I am isn't where you count
I've waited for a mgaic moment
Where you would fall in love with me
You acted like it could happen
Well now I must set both of us free
They told me there's no magic from you
I should have known it from the start
But I kept drawing to you closer
And what I found is there's no heart
So if you find some magic moment
And you can figure me out
Just let it be known that I'm sorry
But I'm happy now and that's the end
Sometimes we feel quite sadly
and our friends can be so far away
reality strikes us very badly
as we look to a brightful new day
Everyone tells us they're right
loneliness crowds in our sould
and even though we try with our might
i know who is in full control
now the future can be in full sight
even though upon it we have no pull
Perhaps we need to love above
holding His will and His love
i think we can know His path
love lets us work out His math
love moves in us working good
if we respond to it as we should
people will look at us with fright
scared that they're wrong and we're right.
Sometimes it's hard for me to say just how I feel
But I want you to know Wherever you go
You take a little piece of me
I miss your smile and warmth and the beauty inside you
And I have to admit With all of it
You are such a blessing to me
I need to tell you how much I truly do love you
And come rain or shine; the plan is diving
And I hope you are very happy
What have I to guarantee?
You say I'm not real; though it seems
You're the one who stole my heart
You traded me for your own lies
Now I'm broken because of you
And I don't want to be hurt again
If you were my friend then you'd see
That those things in you kill me
I'm sick of writing poetry to free
I'm sick of trying to be healed
I just want to die and be left alone
I just want to rot in the ground
But a couplet for you to rhyme
If you even care to take the time
And now it's not so discreet
The way I'm falling for you
The burden I carry within me
Longing just to be close to you
For I long for a hope to touch
And I see your gaze anew
I surrender my thoughts and
All of my control to you
Singing forever a mystic life
Wanting to change my path
Blazing beside me; justified
In the path that we'll choose
I can not go on forever alone
I long for loneliness to flee
I'll crave forever a mystic life
Then I'll know my heart is free
How can I go on living so alone
Without your touch on my heart
Why do I crave the healing you bring
Why does my heart for you cringe
I must be crazy to fall for you
And I think it's starting to show
Oh if you only knew what I'd do
If you'd let this love of mine grow
You make me fathom endless joys
You spring up water to my soul
I'm sure you are someone for me
Someone I could live for alone
Please let me be with you for always
You and I could rule it all
If you do not then I'll die anyways
But at least I didn't die alone
I miss my best friend
I wish she was here
Just to hold my hand
And make my clouds disappear
I pray that she knows
What to me she means
My love; I hope it shows
In the times that are in-betweens
I can't believe she's away
It hurts and causes pain
I think about her everyday
Just to say something insane
Take off all you want from me
Until I'm how it's to be
And then you'll see me shivering
In the corner by myself
I can't help who I have become
Though it's cause of love
Maybe I should've given it all up
And then I'd be in hell
There's nothing left for me to do
I have made sure too
I'll keep going on without you
My life is off your shelf
Though sometimes I fall; scrape my knees
He's over all; He wants me to be free
And I run the faith for everyone to see
I will be better cause He's all to me
I never knew love as a child
Growing up was such a misery
I faltered a lot along my deadly road
But He was there to catch me
I keep moving on to a new chapter in life
And I know that the road will be so hard
But I will no matter where I go
Continue on when He's with me
Growing up in His marvelous grace
Standing strong in a neverending faith
I can look back with confidence in all
Because I have been totally made clean
Can we go back to the way things used to be?
When you were still you and I was still me?
Back before the colors had jaded our world then you'd see
It was just for you and me; happiness, not one, but three
Well ther is a blue sky
But it quickly turns away
Something's happening to me
My skies are becoming gray
I loved you much more than I ever knew before
Your love swept me away
Now I see a new world
It is fading fast away
Now an opening comes
But it shuts out all the day
I have done so much more than I thought before
I could slowly walk away
If there are more answers
Than this world of ours it knows
Something greater's out there
A love that's dying to show
I know no more than the things I did before
I needed to be away
Something's happening
Something's just not known
Something's arriving
Something's dying
If I die today
Will you love tomorrow
Or is yourself
The only one you know
You loved me before, now just love me once more
If you don't I'll die today
When Everyone sleeps I am happy.
Because the skies they fade away
And I don't have to fear my life.
I don't have to pine all my days.
So spring up a new life to me.
So that I may fully obey and believe.
I know that you are always near.
Chasing away my doubts and fear.
Help me in all things possible.
Let me know the way of truth.
Let your love in me be unstopable.
Let me know it and let it be loosed.
Everywhere I look I see your eyes
You look with contempt, I sigh
Cause I don't know anything anymore
And I know everything I've ignored
And I watch you in my memories
Looking down and smiling, it's seen
And I wonder where did I go
When you left me here, alone on this earth
I still remember your smile
When you praised me, I cried
Cause I didn't deserve it at all
But I knew I was special afterall
I forget to be it many times
Though you taught me, I lied
Cause I didn't believe you ever then
Now I get up after my fall
I can't take your coindence
I must have a new innocence
I am stranded in a world of my own
Away from God and His sovereign throne
So where can I turn in the midst of strife
When I no longer want this part of life
How can I become clear and free
How can I make you go away from me
I love life and it is my own
I chose a wrong path to begin
I moved on too quickly away from you
And now I am helpless; what can I do
Make me your own; make me true
Bring me to where I should be
I must gaze upon your eyes so blue
Please give deliverance to me
I cannot dream of a life alone
I know where I am at home
I press on to the goal cause I must stay
And eventually he'll show me the way
My heart was enflamed with the pride of youth
And my mind was full of empty dreams
I could not understand the plan he had for me
And how quickly I turned from his loving grace
Oh if I could take back the world
And the ways of my sinfulness
If I could just make it go away
To struggle with the pain and the burdens of this world
I cannot find out where to stand or where I should be
And the consequences are so heavy
So now I sit here alone and ponder these things
And I rush towards the newness for me
I just want to be all he wants for me to be
And I pull close to his tender loving arms
And then he takes back the world
And the ways of my sinfulness
He makes it all just go away
He frees me from burdens and he dries my many tears
And my consequences though they still remain
They are not as quite so heavy
Sometimes in the night I cry to you
Where God do you want me?
What do you want me to do?
Why can't I just follow you?
When time seems so shallow
You seem to fade away from me
And I cannot explain why you love me
Sometimes I cry at night
Wondering just where you are
If I could just reach up and see your face
Then that would be, just enough for me
There are so many mysteries
That I don't know
There has to be a reason for all my pain
Sometimes in the day I hear your voice
"Please go and show the way."
"Say what I've told you"
"Just trust and live in My Holy name"
Sometimes I cry at night
Wondering just where you are
If I could just reach up and see your face
Then that would be just enough for me
I know you are near me
You pull me close to you
I can't explain why you love me
One day I will know the answer
Sometimes I cry at night
Wondering just where you are
If I could just reach up and see your face
Then that would just be enough for me
And with all of the mysteries
That someday I'll know
Ther was a reason for all my pain