I've found myself unable to smile I've found myself unable to frown I've found myself waiting for happiness I've found myself revelling in depression I've got to be me I can't be the smart kid you want me to be I can't carry responsibility I can't not smoke I can't not drink I can't not be lazy I can't not be tired and ambitionless I can't live for anyone else I'm not gonna waste my life I'm gonna die today and I'll die tomorrow and everyday from now on until I am born again I've found minute pleasure staying up all night and falling asleep in Mr. Dorsey's class I like Mr. Dorsey but I have to stay up at night I need it I'm egocentric and self-motivated to be selfish I'm an asshole I'm an outcast I'm a wanna-be artist, living in an industrial, living-dead society I drink coffee Coffee is a stimulant Coffee is a drug Coffee is a lifestyle Coffee is a distractor All I have to look forward to is a warm, comfortable coffin And the tingly, tickle feeling of worms crawling in my eye sockets and out my nose I must learn to love death before I can live I must forget all of you before I can remember myself I must live I must die The world oozes on©Copyright 1995 Jay Blazek Crossley
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