Thoughts
fo shizzle
October 31, 2001
i feel trapped...i am trapped by my emotions that i can't handle, trapped by my parents....trapped by my school, and currently , i am trapped by mrs. tyson into feeling like a freshman. :-p i need to get everything done on time, i'm tired, and worn out. i need a break. i need to get rid of all this stress, but the secong one thing ends, a new problem begins, and i can't take it anymore. perhaps the loads of candy i'm anticipating on recieving tonight will help my dilemma...or perhaps it will just put me even more behind than i already am. droopy. droopy is a nice cartoon character...i wonder why we don't see him on tv anymore? "there are three things that you should never discuss with people: religion, politics, and the great pumpkin." --the little geezer from Charlie Brown that carries around that stanktified, snotty blue blanket.......i'll pay someone to run me over....no, perhaps shooting me will be less painful. ok, i'll pay someone to shoot me. put me out of this misery. i'm sick of teachers (mrs. shrout)telling me all day that i'm dumb, stupid and lazy. I'm tired of them feeling as if they aren't giving us enough work. as if we don't have 5 other classes, college applications, scholarship applications, and shit in our own lives to deal with. they are peices of shit that i can't deal with right now. i can fail ap cal and still graduate, so i'm not fretting that. this eases my pain somewhat. however, i still want to go away from here. i'm sick of being trapped and tortured.....while contemplating death, faru imed me the following. " I am dressed like a pimp. I have a lime green jacket, a big hat with a feather, gold shoes, and of course my pimp cane. I can pimp your Ho. Be careful of my woman, she will try to make you sell her your soul and she is very tempting..." upon reading this, i realized that i enjoy life for the silly things. funny how saying one stupid thing to someone can change their mood in an instant...
October 30, 2001
for everyone that cares enough about me to read my thoughts...i appreciate you. you give my life meaning.
October 29, 2001
Nor this one
October 28, 2001
i don't remember this day.
October 27, 2001
lalalallalallalalalalalla.......a couple nights ago...i had a strange dream. in this dream, me, moose, and saaraa were eating vegetables for breakfast around a table. then moose started singing.....then he said to me, "why aren't you singing, uzma....sing uzma, sing!" i got scared. then the alarm clock went off, thank god.
October 26, 2001
Today was senior pep rally day...the day where superlatives are handed out. although we voted on senior superlatives, an atrocious fraud occured as only the student council members and the wench that is mrs. teasly voted on them. not to mention our senior t-shirts, which mrs. teasly decided upon, are the color of poo.....literally. heehee.......oh, yeah. today was the day i told hashbrown. it made me feel better :-D however, now, the fact is somewhat real. oh well.
October 25, 2001
Im in the library on this fine thursday morning. It is really cold here. I am currently scanning the walls of the library, looking for my senior project sign..can't find the darn thing. anyhooo....nothing is going on...yeah right, i don't think this could be farther from the truth. let me just list for you all the stuff i have to do this month: book cards tomorrow, essay revision and essay on an essay due on monday...ap cal quiz tomorrow, i gotta suck more money out of my parents to give to those money hungry, advantage taking leaches of college admissions...i gotta get my reccommendations done, transcript...ESSAYS for the application...that stupid scholarship application...the godforsaken senior paper rough draft on the 9th, my final hope for getting a good grade on the sat on nov 3...gotta get the design for the t-shirts...gotta go to the company for an estimate...gotta get the money for cultural club fundraiser by next week...senior paper final draft due on the 30th. ok...i feel a lot better. not really. but it's nice to get some aggression out early in the day so you don't have to worry about it later. bell=i'm out.
October 24, 2001
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH….I was having a good day till I got home. Then I watched a block of music videos by Michael Jackson and I became jolly once again.
October 23, 2001
I had a dream last night about a mummy...didn't seem to important. anyhoo...i'm bored. i'm bored...and i'm bored. this afternoon, i must go to the old folks home to help set up for their halloween carnival festivities...meaning i get to steal some free candy. :-D other than that...i am bored. i am bored...i am bored. nothing to look forward to today. perhaps i should look forward to the ketchupy french fries i will consume come lunch time. Perhaps i can look forward to...well, nothing else!!! whoo-hoo, zippadi do da. I am bored. lalalalalal....yeah..lalallaalaalla. ok, i don't know anything, i am so smart...i am so smart...s-m-r-t...i mean s-m-a-r-t..........lalalllalala.....these are completely random thoughts from my brain...i am literally typing whatever comes in my mind...frenchfries are good...i wish i still had art this year, woulda gone on a field trip to atl today if i did. lalallalalalalalallallalal.....hum ko humise churaloooo....i need to go to pink monkey and study up for oedipus....dil mein yuhi tum chupalooooo......hum akele..kho na jaye, dur tumseeeeeee hona jayeee....paas aooo, galee sey lagalooo. that's all i have to say about that.
October 22, 2001
Last night, i dreamt that I was walking ou tof this big house onto its lawn during the twilight hour of the day after the sun sets. As i walked down this lawn, I saw these adorble bunnies here and there, and as i went to pet them, they would hop away. then i saw this one bunny that was light blue with sparkles on it's fur. This magical bunny hopped up to me and said, "You hate me, don't you!" I then replied, "No, i don't hate you. You're beautiful, and i just want to pet you." Then i petted this magical bunny, and after that, i found myself sitting on some sort of concrete fence overlooking the lawn and the house and the bunnies. As i looked to my left, i saw a beach, a light pale gray color...kinda foggy. Then out of nowhere, i realized that i was sitting on the fence with a whole bunch of people i didn't know. A bee then came, and i covered my head to protect myself from it, but it got onto my palm, and i ripped it off my skin then my alarm clock went off. Twas the most vivid dream i've had in a while. bunnies and bees are supposed to foretell good luck. So luck...i'm waiting.
October 21, 2001
"Check mah baby mammmmmmaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!"---Lil Wayne and the Cash Money Crew. This is what i learn from school. We ate bhel puri......Bhel Puri= Yummy in the Tummy. Not for the mouth, however, since is has become pungent again.
October 20, 2001
lalalala....ta ta to my birthday party. :-(
October 19, 2001
lalallallalallalalalalallallalallalallalalalalallala.......i ate onions so my breath stinks. yay for me and my sour, pungent breath. I have nothing in my mind to speak of. It's too early...only 1:15, thus, I am brain dead. It's just sad thinking about graduation in only a couple months.....when i'm at school, all i wanna do is leave, but thinking about leaving the people that i've spent the past....what, like 11 years with is sad. I mean, you share your past with these people, reguardless of whether you like them or not, they are a part of your life. And come May 18th, i'll never see these people again. :( hopefully, i'll get past this gross sentiment by the time summer approaches.....................ok, so now, i've realized i can't open my mouth to people since everyone seems to have a big mouth of their own. damn all you bastards.
October 18, 2001
Tis a bad day. I'm sleepy and cold. I'm sleepy and cold, and I have goo trickling from my nose. I'm sleepy, cold, have goo trickling from my nose, and i'm sitting here in a class full of freshman. I'm sleepy, cold, have goo trickling from my nose with a class full of freshman, and I have an ap calculus quiz at the end of the day to dread because i failed the last test and i HAVE to pass this quiz with a 100. In addition, i just realized that today is report card day. Damn the world...but more importantly, damn this weather and my trickling nose. I tried writing this on my thoughts page, but since geocities is a biatch from hell that's in on the plot to make my day a biaaatch from hell, it wouldn't let me save it.
October 17, 2001
For whatever reason, everything that happened today felt surreal....as if i wasn't really a part of anything, just kinda looking in on my own daily life as an outsider or something. I guess because at lunch today we all discussed our uncertainties and fear about the future, and the fact that our parents will never be happy with anything we do. In Katie's words..."aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" On a lighter, note, while looking up quotes for the yearbook, i stumbled across these lovely sayings.
"Don't
let Krusty's death get you down, boy.
People die all the time. Just like that. Why, you could wake up dead tomorrow.
Well, good night." - Homer
DO RE
ME, by Homer J. Simpson
DOUGH... the stuff... that buys me beer...
RAY..... the guy that sells me beer...
ME...... the guy... who drinks the beer,
FAR..... the distance to my beer
SO...... I think I'll have a beer...
LA...... La la la la la la beer
TEA..... no thanks, I'm drinking beer...
That will bring us back to...
"Aw, hell diddly-ding-dong crap!" -- Ned Flanders
Operator! Give me the number for 911! - Homer
Marge:
Homer, did you call the audience "Chicken"?
Homer: No! I swear on this bible!
Marge: That's not a bible. That's a book of carpet samples.
Homer: Mmmm... fuzzy.
"Step
aside everyone! Sensitive love letters are
my specialty. 'Dear Baby, Welcome to Dumpsville. Population: you.'" - Homer
October 16, 2001
I wore a black sweatshirt in the searing heat today. I'm dumb. the pink fruit is something i am over. Fall's a coming, watermelons are out of season. I don't know why i'm talking about watermelons. I used to eat them a lot during summer. I guess i miss summer. Summer is good. It is a good thing to be alive during summer. I didn't do anything during the day. I learned what moong means. yay for me and the great knowledge i'm recieving in school........"in my darkest hour, in my deepest dispair, will you still care? will you be there? in my trails and my tribulations, through my doubts and frustrations...in my violence and my turbulence, through my fear, and my confessions. In my anguish and my pain, through my joy and sorrow, and the promise of another tommorrow. I'll never let you part. For you're always in my heart." ---Michael the great.
October 15, 2001
Me turn in application and get monster off my back... :-D Water, water, water. damn the melons of water.
Why did the monkey fall out of the tree.......?
October 14, 2001
KKKG SOUNDTRACK MAKES ME :-D oh, yeah, damn watermelons.
October 13, 2001
i took 3 Sat II's on this sat.......then hajra, shaylee, lisa and navyata and i proceeded to taco bell where i tried the code red mountain dew for the very first time......tastey beverage it is.......oooooh, yeah, at evans, we all discovered a gel pen dispenser :) me get blue gel pen :)
October 12, 2001
Ummm.......................today........today was homecoming/pep-rally day! Started off decorating my burger king crown while watching CSI in chem......then got on aim in computer apps.....then went to current issues got a lay......or however you spell it. Basically, the theme of the day was being and acting stupid because we are seniors... :-D anyhoo.....i then proceeded to fail a test in lit......we played with marbles in physics.....then we all failed a test in ap cal.....we then proceeded to the peprally which stunk like all the other ones do. :-p
October 11, 2001
No time.....i'll write about today tommorrow.
October 10, 2001
Almost died again because of saans. Damn the world. I'm a weakling. Maybe i should dress up as enrique since tommorrow is hero day......maybe no.
October 9, 2001
Mujko saans hora hain. Mein calculus mein fail hori hu...kyu ke humaray teacher ko kuch patha nahi hai.....nahi...patha hota hai, lakin hum logo ko kuch bathatha nahi hai, kyu ke hum ap class mein hai. Iss liye, hum sub ap calculus mein fail horey hain. Aab, mujhe vocabulary karni hai.
October 8, 2001
NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NEVER count your chics before they hatch. I knew i shouldn't have.....but i did......we all did this past weekend. Now our eggs have been shattered. What a world, what a world, what a world!!!!!!!!!!!! What a cruel, nasty world. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
October 7, 2001
when we all grow up.......all ansari people should move to a litte town in wyoming. pretty soon, wyoming would turn into ansarioming. that's all i have to say about that.............hero.
October 6, 2001
lalu bhalu shalu galu. pink pink pink pink......pink mooon..........................................................................................................would you dance if i asked you to dance.....would you run and never look back......would you cry if you saw me crying......would you save my soul tonight..............would you tremble if i touched your lips.......would you laugh, oh please tell me this. now would you die for the one you loved.......hold me in your arms tonight. I can be your hero baby.......i can kiss away the pain...........i will stand by you forever......you can take my breath away........would you swear that you'll always be mine.....would you lie, would you run and hide.......am i in too deep.........have i lost my mind.....i don't care, you're here tonight. I can be your hero baby.......i can kiss away the pain.........i will stand by you forever......you can take my breath away. oh i just wanna hold you. I just wanna hold you.....oh yeah. am i in too deep.....have i lost my mind? well i don't care, you're here tonight. I can be your hero baby.........i can kiss away the pain.............i will stand by you forever...............you can take my breath away. and i can be your herooooooooooo...............(my song over.) when i have nothing processing in my brain, i sing the lyrics to good songs. currently, hero by enrique iglesias is my favorite of them all...............i think it's necessary to clarify that i'm not singing this to anyone in particular.......i just like the song because it's beauty-phul to me. :-D
October 5, 2001
Highlight of my day: I got to level 11 of Janitor Joe...and i reached the castle on mario..... :-D oh, yeah, i also learned some stuff in my classes :-p .........currently, there's an episode of oprah on entitled "islam 101." My thoughts on the show.......it's good.......however, i can never look at oprah the same way again.....yah, i know it's not her fault that she doesn't know jack crap about islam...but seriously...........everyone's ignorance these days is just mind-boggling to me. haha...i remember before all this happened, i hated the media for not having any brown or muslim people on television........i never expected the day to come when we would be hit by such a blinding spotlight. Now, i just wanna get out as fast as possible.
October 4, 2001
Twas a rather good day....got a crossaint egg and cheese sandwich from dunkin doughnuts on the way to school.....watched a propaganda style episode of west wing in current issues.....oooooooh, and here's the good part! Yesterday, good ol Kris added some games to my TI89 (for you bums that don't know what a TI89 is....it's the most advanced graphing calculator known to greenbrier)...............while most other kids in our school deal drugs or things of the sort.....us ap students deal games on calculators.........and today, i learned out how to access those games!! ....So during lunch, we played mario.....and discovered a program on the calculator entitled "Insults." Insults is a rather hilarious game that can be downloaded from your computer to your TI89......you simply press the enter key on the calculator, and the game provides you with a new insult each time! The insults are rather hilarious..........so now, i don't think i can ever be bored in school again. At this point, our entire ap calculus class has mario or other games of the sort on their TI89 ......for while we play games on the calculator, teachers will think that we "nerds" are working hard trying to solve some math problem. :-D the really dense teachers, anyways. we also voted for senior superlatives.....it was fun just thinking up of people to vote for.......in physics, people were reminiscing about the days past......and they started calling me uzma i'm sorry........like i haven't heard it a million times previoiusly. I also had asthma problemos starting fourth period. it didn't end till i got home. But it was still a good day............Currently doing homework on the ap calculus fact that Ho D Hi -- Hi D Ho / (divided by) HoHo = Quotient function.
October 3, 2001
We did Act III Scene III acting today..it was fun for me......but i think class thought it a trifle gay. other than that.....nothing going on.......i've been wheezing a lot lately. Wheezing stinks like a hoe.....like jamie and meenu on the street corner. :p Mujse buu arahi hai.....mein jaake naha thi hu.
October 2, 2001
I have nothing to say. My mom is currently talking to my aunt via my typing.........i feel gay.
October 1, 2001
La la la......la la la......la la la la la la..........dooo dooo doo. Tun tananana, tun tananana, tun. I hope you enjoyed my song.
