The depression you encounter can vary from mild to extreme and suicidal. Here I want to address what it has been like dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts and not to discourage you, but let you know that you are not alone. Hopefully in this section as well as others I will be able to get some information for partners and loved ones up, if not make and entire section for that alone
Many of us, especially childhood sexual abuse survivors, were unable to let go of our anger toward the people doing things to us and deal with the hurt it caused us. As a result we face depression and focus that anger and hurt back towards ourselves or the ones we love and feel close and comfortable with. This can put an incredable amount of strain and disruption in any relationship. Also as we become lovers and parents I and many others have no positive or healthy role models to look to or to fall back on in dealing with emotionaly charged situations. This means that when we try to break the cycle of abuse, we have to first hault our natural reactions and second re-think everything we know and try to decide what is best. It is very hard and exhausting. Sometimes making what seems to be simple decisions to the rest of the world can be exremely daunting to survivors of abuse and sexual abuse.
