Things are going well this morning. Jon called at 11:30 this morning and we are going out to do some errands and have lunch together. He may go to play golf with his friend, but I am going to see my sister & new nephew today, maybe with Jon, my sister would like to meet him I think, and I really want him to meet her. I guess no one that I have ever dated has really had much contact with my family, but I want to try to change that. That is the only way they are going to accept things I think.
I am still on vacation from work, at least for today, maybe for the rest of the week. As I said, things are going well, and this truly was a good morning. I always have to outcry to hear from people, but I guess that is okay. I would like to hear from you. I look at the statistics and know that there are really a lot of people who read my journals, and that is really cool. But it would be even better if I got emails from you like I used to. shrugs, I'll stop begging now, but I hope you are doing well, where ever you are. Have a great day.
I have started a couple of entires like this before, but they always meant something different. Today was great. As I said, we went to run errands for part of the day, and then had lunch at Johnny's Pizza in Marietta. They had unbelievably good white zin, I was very impressed.
Anyway - It was great just spending time with Jon, the more I get to know him, the happier I am that we are together, because we just fit so well. We like the same things we have similar backgrounds and beliefs, it's really great.
So after dinner and some shopping we went to my sisters so she could meet jon and I could see Perry. Vicki really liked him, she kept telling me over and over on the phone (believe it or not her opinion is really important to me.) so I have had an all around great day that is coming to a wonderful end, we got a change to spend some time alone to get to know eachother even better before he had to go home for dinner with his parents. Again - forever sighs.
Good night...
My day has been rather uneventful as of yet. I went to work early this morning and got a few things done there that I have needed to do for a while. I called to Jon at 11:15 and woke him up (I felt really bad.) We talked for a few minutes and then I went back to work. I think he had lunch with his dad a little later. I have a dentist's appointment for fillings at 2pm today with Dr. Reznik. It was AWESOME. I have never had such a pleasant visit to the dentist. There was absolutly no pain whatsoever, no even any discomfort. I was out of there in half an hour.
So, basicly, I am just bumming right now. I drove around for a bit before I came home then called Jon. He is sick :-( I really hope he is feeling better soon, I have such a good time when I am with him, and I feel really bad that he is sick. (do I sound like a pathetic little school kid yet? that is how I feel.)
Anyway, as I said for the most part, uneventful, maybe it will get more interesting later.
What is this feeling of power and drive that I've never known, I feel alive. Where did this feeling of power derive, helping me know, why I'm alive. I have a thirst that I cannot deprive, never have I felt so alive.
I end my night on an okay note. I talked with Jon for a long time tonight, which is always a positive booster for me. I worry, perhaps too much sometimes. One thing I have learned as I go though life, is that nothing is for free along the way. I have a new hope though for a new chance to find a new role to play, and as I have articulated over and over to him in the same words it seems. I am excited. I am worried as I said, that I will be too much for him, but I am trying to watch myself, to be careful because this is someone that I don't want to loose.
I have a new dream. I have one I know that very few dream. I would like to see that overdue thing even though it never may come true. A new love - though I know there's no such thing as true love, that's my dream.
Even though I've hardly known love, still I feel that this dream is my dream and it's one that could come true with someone. And that is what I'm always looking for.
A new world, where these dreams come true, the only thing I want to as of that world is just once before it's time to say adue, I just want one sweet chance to prove the cynics wrong.
