Rememberance


As I sit on this lonely beach, with its gray, overcast sky,

My thoughts go back to happy times, and I wonder, "Why?"

All I wanted was to be happy, to enjoy the good life;

To have a nice family, and a loving wife.

All this came to pass; how easy it came to be.

Beautiful children and a loving wife for me.

But it all came to an end on a cold April night.

My wife passed on to heaven; she had lost the brave fight.

Thank God for my mother, for this I must say;

She loved all of you until the end of her day.

For the years pass by ever so fast,

The children grow up; childhood does not last.

So here I sit watching the seagulls play,

wishing to go back to that sad April day.

I would take my wife’s hand, hold it ever so tight.

So remember your mother, who loved you to the end.

Who wished the best for you; you will surely see her again.

And remember my words about that cold April night;

Love may come only once, so hold it ever so tight.

As I grow older, and the years go passing by.

I still look at the sea and wonder, "Why?"

Wishing life could have dealt a better hand that day.

So she could have lived to see her grandchildren play.


Author unknown


When I first read this poem, my thought was "How sad". But once I read it over again, I realized that the author was not just expressing sadness. He was talking about several emotions. Sadness, Thankfulness, and happiness. He thanked the right person for the chance at having so many happy memories. God gave him enough happiness to fill a lifetime. It may have ended on that cold April night, but the memories will live on for his whole life. God gave him a true gift. The author is, and should be thankful for it. Many do not get the chance he did. Or they waste them away.
I pray to God that I haven’t wasted mine away. Many "sad" things have happened to me in my short 24 years. The loss of my father, a failed marriage, and the loss of many other loved ones. But God has given me many, many happy memories. And nothing can take those away from me. I just pray that He sees it in His plan to continue giving me those happy moments, so I can turn them into memories.
Derek "Fester" Boutwell


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