"He Loves Me !"
By Pam Sneed
August 1998
Me in March 1995
I started WD more than 3 years ago. Before I started, I was 254 lbs of
MISERABLE!
I had grown up with food as one of THE most important things in
my life and tried to let it soothe my pain and meet all my needs. I have
been a Christian since a child, but have let food be a BIG idol that has
really squelched my relationship with my Lord. I regret that I wasted so
many years satisfying me in a very non-productive (actually destructive)
way.
After marriage and college, I had gotten myself up to 170 lbs. Then,
I had 5 babies in 6 and ½ years and gained weight with each one (that I
couldn't lose after). After the 5th baby, I gained more weight, topping any 9 month pregnancy weight. That was the 254 lbs high, which was really a VERY LOW time in my life.
I lived for food each day. I binged when no one was looking and ate every minute
that it was possible. I planned all my "good times" around food. I spent
massive amounts of money and time planning and buying this food and then
having rendezvous(s) with it. It was destroying me, both physically and
spiritually, and it was destroying my family. I am ashamed of my past, but
yet God can get the glory, because he did DRAMATIC changes in my life that I
can tell everyone about!!!!
In April of 1995, God got a hold of my heart and showed me that I must turn
to Him. I was overwhelmed with this massive wall I had built between us,
but as I begin to confess, He melted that wall and pulled me unto Him and
forgave me! He is such a great God!!!!!
I started WD in May of that year and was coordinator at the same time as I started.
(For those of you that are thinking about coordinating and you haven't "succeeded in WD yet", just do what God prompts you to do. No one in my church even knew about WD when
we started, so it was all God's doing that has built this up into a huge
ministry in our church!)
I begin to die to what I wanted and let God have His way in my life.
It was tough to die to ME! I would grieve over my food and sometimes even get angry at God that I had to stop when He was telling me to. But early on in the program, I decided that this was THE only way to lose weight, and I MUST submit to the God who loved me so much.
I decided that I would choose HIS way and eat only when it was okay
(between hunger and satisfaction).
