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										| CHAPTER ONE
										Thunder boomed. Sydney Morgan jumped slightly as cracks of acoustical energy 
					followed. The overhead lights of Farnsworth Investments flickered. 
					Ignoring this early morning summer storm, Sydney turned back to her 
					new secretary, Tamika Harris. "I realize 
										this is your first day here, so let's get some things straight. I do hope 
										you're good at prioritizing. I expect all of the transcription and the filing 
										completed at the end of each day-" Suddenly, static crackled through the 
										intercom on Sydney's desk.
 "G'morning 
										Sydney!" Albert Tibble's voice came through. "If you have a free moment, let's 
										talk!"
 Sydney rolled 
										her eyes upward. It was way too early, she thought, for Tibble to be calling 
										her into his office.
 "I'll be 
										right there Albert!" She flicked off the intercom, then aimed a rueful smile at 
										Tamika. "One does not wait for a free
										moment when the Vice President summons." She grabbed a pad and pen, got as far 
										as the doorway, then turned, and smiled. "By the way, welcome aboard!"
 Seconds 
										later, as series of thunderous explosions pursued Sydney down a monotonous gray 
										corridor, her mind created a list of reasons why Tibble wanted to see her now.
 He 
											didn't like the last analysis she'd completed, or another lay-off was in the 
											works-her name heading the list. No! Worse. The firm changed to a less 
											comprehensive healthcare, an HMO that would probably not cover all Brian's 
											needs. The last thought produced nausea.
 When Tibble's 
										secretary signaled Sydney to go on through, she took a breath before gingerly 
										stepping across the expensive Persian rug that boasted unique shades of 
										burgundy and gray. She headed toward the large desk and sat down on a tufted 
										winged-back chair that flaunted its own distinct red and black color. Light and 
										airy, the spacious office contained a slew of expansive floor-to-ceiling 
										windows, attributes her office clearly lacked. All served as poignant reminders 
										that years ago, if she hadn't been so impulsive, so blinded by anger and 
										wounded pride, she might possibly be enjoying a similarly decorated office with 
										as many, if not more, wide sweeping windows. Inwardly she snorted, picturing 
										her unique view of Farnsworth's parking lot.
 "Sydney, 
										please have a seat," Albert Tibble absently commanded, obviously unaware that 
										she was already seated. All she could see now was his balding head, as he was 
										focused on a manila folder, a rather thick manila folder. She shifted in the 
										chair as that same thick manila folder stirred her curiosity.
 Get 
											on with it! Her mind urged. Years ago she'd learned to project a screen 
										of self-confidence that allowed no one to detect what was really going on 
										inside her.
 You 
											can be as nervous as hell, but don't dare show it!
 Words 
										expressed by a man she had spent years forgetting, or at least dismissing from 
										her daily thoughts, but whose words at moments like this come in quite handy.
 Tibble's head 
										suddenly lifted. He slipped off his rimless glasses, placing the end of one arm 
										into his mouth. His faded brown eyes regarded her with a measure of interest. 
										He then folded the frames and placed them on top of the enigmatic folder, 
										essentially refocusing both their attentions back to it.
 "We have a 
										firm here who's going public," he started, "and has requested the use of our 
										services in underwriting their IPO."
 Sydney 
										nodded. Ignored the distant groan of thunder. Ignored the butterflies in her 
										stomach.
 "Although the 
										telecommunications industry has slowed," Tibble continued, "this company has 
										held its own through smart strategic moves." He returned the glasses to the 
										bridge of his nose.
 Sydney 
										nodded, holding back any comment. Tibble, she knew, preferred to finish his 
										spiels without interruption. But the 
										man did ramble. She pushed aside images of similar manila folders piling up on 
										her own work-buried desk.
 "The guy in 
										charge is quite the entrepreneur having built his company from scratch."
 Her eyes 
										traveled down his stubby fingers that caressed the edge of the yet unnamed 
										folder.
 "The 
										shareholders are looking to sell enough stock to raise monies for expansion."
 She felt her 
										heart flutter. Ah, a "big one" and pictured in her mind's eye 
											promotion rising like a sweet welcoming sunrise.
 "The SEC 
										requires the stock be registered before they sell to the public. That's where 
										you come in. You'll draft up the report for the SEC's approval."
 Possibly 
											substantial pay raises...
 Tibble lifted 
										the folder, raising it several inches above the polished glass. As her eyes 
										struggled to make out the name pasted on the side, a streak of intense 
										lightning flashed through one long expansive window.
 "Promising 
										companies," Tibble continued, oblivious to the storm, "still can turn out 
										dismal failures." Deliberately, he lowered the folder. "We can't afford to 
										carry losers on Farnsworth's books. We don't need the aggravation." His gaze 
										fell heavily on her. Then he shoved the enigmatic folder across the glossy 
										surface. "I need your opinion on 
										this!" The folder stopped at the edge. Overhead thunder broke, rattling 
										windows.
 Sydney 
										ignored the dryness inching up her throat and stared at the voluminous file. 
										She knew what Tibble meant. He didn't want to be the only soul accountable if 
										this company turned out a 'dismal' failure. Slowly, she drew in a breath. 
										Exhaled. Reread the label.
 GS 
											ENTERPRISES.
 The mental 
										sound of the words rattled like an elusive pebble trapped inside the drum of a 
										dryer. A peculiar feeling of déjà vu tugged inside. Hadn't she heard the name 
										mentioned during a recent conversation? Hadn't she once recommended that same 
										name to-?
 "We need to 
										get moving on this!" Tibble directed. "You're scheduled to meet with their 
										people this coming Wednesday morning." He leaned his thickly set frame back 
										into his chair, crossed his arms over a barrel chest that a well-tailored dark 
										gray suit failed to disguise. "That'll give you slightly over two days to pull 
										this together. If there are any questions, call their legal counsel." He drew 
										out a business card from inside the folder. "Name's Greene...Attorney Harold 
										Greene."
 Another flash 
										illuminated the room, contaminating everything in its eerie glow. Somewhere 
										from the depths of Sydney's mind, a long affable face took form. A man with 
										thinning brown hair. Horn-rimmed frames held together strategically with wads 
										of yellowish tape. Harold Greene, who on more than one occasion would find 
										himself as arbiter between her and a certain CEO.
 The cotton 
										dryness advanced. She contracted inside, like the narrowing spiral found in a 
										whirlpool.
 She read the 
										name again-Harold Greene, Esquire. Was this coincidental? Red-letter warnings 
										resonated in her mind, attaching themselves to the initials G.S. 
											GS Enterprises...Grant Sinclair...exceedingly handsome Grant 
										Sinclair-too handsome for his own good, Grant Sinclair. Damn, she thought, he 
										had changed the company's name-and to one she'd once suggested but he'd 
										deliberately shot down to prove he was in control.
 Tibble, 
										unaware of her angst, ventured off on another spiel. Sydney searched his 
										creviced face for answers to questions she dare not yet ask. She felt rising 
										warmth, the words forming inside her throat died there. Because if this was 
										Grant's company, every emotion connected with that man's betrayal would 
										manifest itself on her face. Dare she take a chance and have Tibble detect her 
										reaction when he confirmed her suspicion?
 No! 
											She wasn't ready! She wasn't ready for the disturbing 
											probability that Sinclair was back in her life.
 You 
											can be as nervous as hell..
 She couldn't 
										even swallow. Somewhat unsteadily she rose from her chair, then
										braced herself against the massive desk. "I'll get on this 
											immediately." She winced at how her voice sounded like a dozen eggshells 
											breaking. Then she gently gathered the cumbersome folder into her arms, 
											thankful that her shaking fingers had something to grasp.
 "And you want 
											my impressions by Wednesday?" she asked, thankful her voice at least did not 
											quiver.
 "Preferably 
											Tuesday morning...early!" Tibble replied, cutting the time he'd previously 
											given. "I certainly hope those furrowing brows aren't an indication you're 
											having reservation about taking this one on."
 Sydney 
											thought of Brian's baseball game later that afternoon. She had promised her son 
											she'd be there this time. She could pull it off. Sleep was not an option. "Yes. 
											I mean no. I mean...I do want this."
 Tibble's 
											regarded her with mild curiosity. "Look at it this way, Morgan, when you meet 
											with them on their own turf, you're sure to get a free lunch."
 
 ***Moments 
											later, before returning to her own office, Sydney ducked into the ladies room 
											where she soaked a wad of paper towels in cold water and applied them as a 
											compress to the back of her neck. Furiously, she tugged more paper towels from 
											the holder, simultaneously releasing a string of sharp expletives. Her life was 
											finally in place, her past put behind her. She glared over at the enemy-the GS 
											folder lying innocently on the cold marble countertop. Several options rushed 
											through her mind. She could flush the pages down the toilet. Or better yet, put 
											that new shredder to good use.
 Sydney heaved 
											a sigh and darted one more hateful glance at the folder.
 
 ***"We've got a 
											priority one," Sydney informed Tamika, deliberately holding down her panic as 
											she walked into her office. "We're handling the GS account." She looked at 
											Tamika, as if expecting she would recognize the name, stand to attention, 
											perhaps even salute. "We need to get a report back to Tibble tomorrow morning." 
											Sydney released a mild expletive. "I have to be out of here by six-thirty. I 
											won't have time to go home and change." Cautiously, 
											Tamika ventured closer. "Don't worry, I'll work extra tonight, and I'll 
											rearrange my schedule and come in early tomorrow."
 Sydney 
											smiled, appreciating the effort. She dropped the folder on her desk, knocking 
											over several decorative desk puzzles, plus a double-framed photograph whose 
											edges were garishly decorated with an assortment of bright colored buttons. 
											Brian had insisted she keep it on her desk. The puzzles helped her maintain a 
											degree of sanity and, she ruefully noted, would get good use in the upcoming 
											week.
 Tamika picked 
											up the overturned frame containing two 3" x 5" photos. "What a darling little 
											boy!"
 "My son," 
											Sydney said
 Tamika's left 
											brow lifted slightly, and Sydney sensed she was probably looking at Sydney's 
											naked left hand.
 "Yes, I see 
											the resemblance, especially the blonde hair. And this nice looking man in the 
											other photo, I gather he's your husb-"
 "Yes. 
											Unfortunately, he died in a motorcycle accident." Sydney did not bother to look 
											up, but continued to straighten out the puzzles. "I was pregnant at the time 
											with Brian." She felt her words sounded rehearsed, but she also knew they were 
											usually enough to stop further questioning.
 Tamika gave a 
											sympathetic nod. "That must've been a terrible time."
 "Yes, it 
											was," Sydney replied softly, then took the frame from Tamika's grasp, shoved it 
											behind the puzzles. She redirected her attention to the GS folder, whose 
											dimensions now appearing more intimidating on own her smaller sized desk were 
											still not as intimidating as Tibble's words.
 "You'll 
												meet with them on Wednesday!"
 As she ran a 
											manicured fingernail along one side of the folder, she felt a sudden sharp 
											pain.
 GS 
												Enterprises...Sinclair Associates. Out of your life forever? Yeah, right, jokes 
												on you kid!
 She touched 
											the cover, its porous surface absorbing blood from her finger. Pulling her hand 
											away, she noticed the paper cut. Absently, she sucked her injured finger, and 
											with the other hand, flipped open the cover. She Sensed Tamika's eyes drilling 
											into the middle of her forehead. Although well over a decade had passed, images 
											of him eddied through her mind-each one threatening to hurtle her into a 
											swirling vortex of time that would send her back into that shadowy past where 
											memories could rise like bones from a grave dug too shallow.
 "Sydney, is 
											something wrong?"
 As if she'd 
											touched a hot plate, she jerked her hand from the folder. But not before 
											reading the first line again-Grant A. 
												Sinclair, CEO and President of GS Enterprises.
 Tamika put 
											down her steno pad, then reached across the desk.
 "No...I'm 
											fine."
 Sydney felt 
											as if she had been pushed over the side of a raft, thrown into swirling 
											whitewater rapids, swept up, pushed, dragged, and submerged into an 
											undercurrent of raw visceral emotion. Unable to breathe as the foggy grayness 
											attempted to pull her under again, she helplessly watched herself drown as her 
											mind dredged up more images of that regrettable weekend she had shared with 
											that man. She walked over to the one narrow window that offered that priceless 
											parking-lot view, and pressed her forehead against the cool surface. Morning 
											traffic was easing up. Hartford was a great place to submerge one's identity. 
												Or so she'd thought.
 A city of 
											insurance companies, banks, and investment firms, a place where you lived and 
											worked in relative anonymity until eventually you became like one of those 
											look-alike compacts that now lined her view. 
												Or so she'd thought.
 She turned to 
											Tamika. "Yes, I could use something-tea, coffee, anything."
 Tamika made a 
											quick exit.
 Sydney turned 
											back to the window where his reflection emerged. How could she face him after 
											all these years, let alone work with him on this account? Out of the corner of 
											one eye, she glanced at the folder. Then at her son's picture. 
												If the truth were known about her and this man..
 Suddenly, she 
											could hear whispered voices with side-glances cast her way from her inquisitive 
											colleagues. How she detested gossip.
 "This should 
											help," Tamika said.
 Gratefully, 
											Sydney took the cup of steaming coffee from her.
 "Look, let's 
											take a break, then get together on this."
 Tamika, still 
											looking a bit confused, made another exit.
 Sydney 
											settled behind her desk. The storm raged outside, and the one inside her was 
											just beginning.
 
 ***Parents and 
											friends waited, anxiously, on bleachers, tucked in lawn chairs, sprawled onto 
											blankets spread across a summer-scorched grass. Overhead lights flickered as 
											sunset came. Suddenly, blue and red uniforms spilled out from opposing dugouts. Sydney, 
											carrying a pair of high heels in one hand, a box of popcorn in the other, 
											struggled to reach the top of one bleacher. Once seated, she peered over at the 
											scoreboard.
 The score 
											tied, top of the sixth.
 All Brian had 
											to do as the Phillie's pitcher was strike out the rival team's next three 
											batters. The championship was in the bag.
 Simple 
											enough, she thought. Nonetheless, Sydney's fingers anxiously squeezed the 
											cardboard box.
 A poignant 
											lump formed in her throat as Brian positioned himself on to the pitcher's 
											mound.
 After the 
											game, they were headed for Bradley Airport where he would board a flight to 
											Sarasota, Florida and stay with her parents in their new condo located off 
											coastal waters.
 "Walk's as 
											good as a hit!"
 In one fluid 
											motion, Brian pitched the first ball.
 "Steee-rike 
											one!" yelled the Ump.
 A 
											synchronized groan rumbled through the opposite stand.
 Sydney sucked 
											in the warm July air.
 "Steee-rike 
											two!"
 She exhaled 
											on the following rumble.
 Brian, 
											completing his third wind up, released the ball.
 WHACK!
 In horror she 
											watched the ball's trajectory carry it past the bright lights. As it made a 
											re-entry, it hopped several times before the Phillie's shortstop scooped it and 
											hurled it to first.
 "SAFE!"
 The next 
											batter wiggled into position. Again Brian readied for the pitch.
 "Why is that 
											southpaw wearing that Mickey Mouse mitt?" someone suddenly shouted.
 Sydney felt 
											her lips contract into a thin smile.
 "Don't let 
											the glove fool you. He's the junkman," a young male voice cried. "Morgan 
											pitches the whole enchilada-fast, curve, knuckle-"
 Moisture 
											stung her eyelids. Brian sometimes pushed the rules with his pitches. Although 
											his coach did not encourage curve balls, as they were tough on young players' 
											arms, Brian did what was necessary to 
											win.
 Brian needed 
											no defense from her.
 WHACK!
 Jolted by the 
											definitive sound of ringing metal, she strained to follow the disappearing 
											sphere into the starless sky. Brian repositioned himself directly beneath the 
											ball.
 Again, she 
											held her breath knowing the ball was coming straight for his eyes. Most kids 
											flinched at the sight of an approaching ball, letting it fall to one side.
 Brian let it 
											come right at him, he calmly reached upward, caught it into that 'Mickey Mouse' 
											glove. Launched it to his second baseman in time to tag the incoming runner.
 "OWWWT!"
 The next 
											batter approached the plate, his young face scrunched into a pained expression 
											of pure concentration.
 Brian, taking 
											his cue from his catcher, raised his arm into a wind up, threw three fast 
											pitches, each one crossing the strike zone, each one drawing a strike. On the 
											third out, Brian's team came up to bat.
 It wasn't 
											long before the Phillies had the bases loaded, with Brian on deck and two outs 
											against them. If he struck out, they would go another inning and the other team 
											could turn the tide.
 He knew it. 
											She knew it. Everyone in the ballpark knew it.
 At this point 
											Sydney couldn't tell if she'd been eating popcorn or cardboard.
 Brian no 
											longer wore the glove, and the reason for wearing the smaller size was now 
											obvious.
 "Hey, that 
											kid's missing a right hand!"
 Sydney 
											stiffened and bit her lower lip.
 "How in Sam 
											Hill is he going to hit the ball?"
 She tasted 
											blood. Let them see for themselves. 
												Watch a boy with a formless stump for a right hand play ball.
 "Why doesn't 
											his coach put in a pinch hitter?"
 That coach, 
											she was tempted to explain, had shown Brian how to hit a ball by using a 
											backhanded approach instead of the usual forearm swing. A swing he'd perfected.
 Sydney merely 
											smiled, choked back the expletives that begged for release.
 The first 
											pitch whizzed low over the plate straight into the catcher's mitt.
 "BALL ONE!"
 The second 
											pitch, slightly higher.
 "Steee-rike 
											one!"
 Murmurs of 
											doubt grew, rippled like storm-driven waves. Sydney looked neither to her right 
											nor left, but kept her pupils fixed on the form crouched below the blue batting 
											helmet.
 WHACK!
 The elusive 
											ball floated out of the outfielder's reach, landing on the opposite side of the 
											fence. One by one, Brian and his teammates circled to home.
 
            "Omigod...omigod...they did it!" she cried as caps and gloves flew in all directions. She turned toward 
											the 'voice' that had spouted off about her son's playing ability and shoved the 
											mutilated box of popcorn at him. "Here, you need this more than me." Abruptly, 
											she turned away from his shocked expression, and holding a shoe in each hand, 
											made her way back down the bleacher."Hey Mom, 
											we're undefeated!" Brian shouted through the silver-wired mesh. "We're number 
											one!" he cried over the din of screaming teammates.
 Almost at eye 
											level, Brian was fast approaching her five-foot-five height. His broadening 
											shoulders would eventually give him a build much like his father's. She could 
											only nod in response to his words, then blinked to clear the moisture from her 
											eyes, all the while remembering Wednesday's forthcoming meeting at GS. She 
											pushed aside the disquieting feeling that gnawed inside her -- a feeling that 
											felt not unlike one felt by approaching impending doom.
 
 ***Sydney 
											pressed down on the accelerator, cautiously eased into the traffic and prayed 
											the aging Celica's engine would not stall as it had been doing lately. "Brian, keep 
											your seat belt fastened at all times, listen to what the flight attendants tell 
											you. Make sure Gram calls me when you get in, and-"
 "Aw Mom, I'm 
											not a baby." He tugged his cap down concealing a pair of rolling eyeballs. Then 
											he turned toward her. "You won't forget to feed Augie and the hamsters?" he 
											asked, giving his own 'to-do' list. "And make sure you check the lock on his 
											cage. And you better get him some more crickets. Augie likes an occasional 
											snack. Not too many or he'll get too big for his cage. Gee, I wish I could take 
											him."
 Sydney let 
											out a sigh, wishing the same. The iguana hadn't been her pet of choice to say 
											the least.
 "Brian, it's 
											not that Gram wouldn't appreciate Augie visiting them, but he's better off in 
											familiar surroundings." She could picture her mother now, standing on some 
											chair, peering down at Augie from a safe distance.
 "Gee Mom, I 
											wish you were coming."
 "If things 
											let up at Farnsworth, I'll try to fly down for a week. I promise."
 "I hope you 
											can make it for my birthday."
 "I'll try," 
											she said, hoping she could get away by then. Her workload had doubled over the 
											past several months, with no increase in pay or hint of one, at least not until 
											that morning. And then with Brian growing and constantly active, and the 
											insurance company willing to pay for "growth" replacements for his prosthetic 
											device. Which reminded her...
 "Brian, try 
											to remember your prosthesis is not a baseball bat. I've had to replace two in 
											six months, and the insurance pays for only one. I still don't understand how 
											you lost that second one."
 She made 
											decent money to get by, but having to pay out-of-pocket expenses for these 
											replacements had been adding more of a strain to an already over-stretched 
											budget. And what with the car now acting up.
 She glanced 
											over at Brian's hand concealed inside the glove. Brian never left home without 
											it she ruefully mused. He'd often forget the device, except on Halloweens-which 
											served as a perfect accessory for any pirate costume he could come up with. But 
											forget that glove? Not on your life.
 Grant 
												Sinclair.
 Suddenly, the 
											name sprang forth from some far hidden corner of her mind. After eleven years, 
											images of him still came too easily. His thick blonde hair, and those pale gray 
											eyes, compelling eyes that left an unforgettable image in any woman's mind.
 Someone had 
											warned her sheer power in an office environment was an enticing aphrodisiac. 
											But she also remembered how much she enjoyed watching him make those hardball 
											decisions. Decisions that at times moved mountains. All this had attracted her 
											to him in the first place, but all this now filled her with some remorse, even 
											regret, and a poignant reminder of her own indiscre-
 "Remember 
											Mom, make sure the hook is pushed in tight, else he'll escape-"
 "Don't 
											worry!" she answered, brusquely.
 "But you 
											don't like Augie. He knows it. If he gets out, you won't even try to catch him. 
											You won't touch him."
 "Look, I 
											admit, I'm not too fond of Augie, but it doesn't mean I won't take care of 
											him."
 "He likes 
											mainly veggies, but you won't forget to feed him those crickets?"
 She winced 
											inside, but forced a nod.
 Seemingly 
											satisfied with her response, Brian settled back into his seat then turned on 
											the radio. A Karen Carpenter song-an oldie but a goodie was playing. Sydney 
											suddenly reached over and pushed the scan button until finally settling on a 
											country western tune.
 "Gee, Mom, 
											with this traffic I hope I don't miss my plane."
 "Don't worry, 
											I gave us plenty of time," she replied, throwing mental threats at the car's 
											engine that it dare not crap out on her now.
 Brian's 
											attention drifted to the music, hers to a night where emotions for one man had 
											embraced more than simple business fascination. Back to a night where memories, 
											like pieces of balsam wood floating in water, refused to sink and invariably 
											kept resurfacing.
 "Are we there 
											yet?" Brian asked. His hair stuck out in unruly spikes from beneath his cap. He 
											didn't appear nervous. Her lips pressed into a crooked smile. Brian looked 
											forward to every adventure. Much like someone else, who because of this latest 
											development at Farnsworth, would no longer be a shadowy figure in her past.
 "We're here," 
											she announced, dismissing all thoughts of him
											as she pulled into the short-term parking area.
 Moments 
											later, they settled into stiff vinyl chairs. If she hadn't max out her Visa, 
											she was tempted to purchase a boarding pass for herself and let Tibble go to 
											that meeting in her place.
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										| LATE 1960's Let's elope!
 Lia Stewart 
											had made the proposal earlier that afternoon to Sean McIntyre.
 "Should I 
											bring a ladder?" he'd asked, as her mind replayed their last words.  "Or 
											use a disguise?  Do I knock three or four times on your 
											window?  
					Or do I whistle first, then knock--"
 "We'll meet right here," she'd laughingly instructed.  "At the maple tree."
 Once they were married, no longer could Pop interfere with her life. The thought played well in 
											her mind as she lugged the over-packed suitcase along the well-worn path that 
											led to the maple tree.  Once there, breathless, she leaned 
											against its side.
 It was all falling into place.  Still apprehension filled her.  Why 
											Pop suddenly needed those pants of his hemmed tonight.  Yet 
											she didn't dare argue with him to avoid casting suspicion.  She'd 
											gone ahead and hemmed those pants, even if it meant that she would be late for 
											their rendezvous.
 "I won't stop loving Sean because of what others say.  Or because of what you 
											think of him.  I can't stop these feelings inside.  
					I won't stop these feelings."  Lia had wanted to tell her father but knew 
											those very words would have fallen on deaf stubborn ears.
 She gazed up into the maple's branches at the makeshift fort of weathered- beaten planks where 
											she and Sean had spent the better part of the past summer.  
					Where they shared tender moments in what he'd labeled their 'secret' love nest.
 She shut her eyes and easily pictured him.  Pictured his thick coppery 
											shoulder-length hair.  
					Pictured him half-naked, wearing those cutoffs that barely covered strong muscular thighs.  The 
											image of him sent her heart pounding.  A faint smile curved 
											her lips.  
					She had come to know the man quite well over the summer.  Sean made her come 
											alive.  More alive than she had ever felt, or, she knew now, 
											would ever feel in any man's arms.  He'd unlocked not only 
											untried emotions but also a passion that left her wanting more.  He 
											had kindled a burning fire in her soul; one only he knew how to extinguish.  And 
											over that same summer she'd proved to him her willingness to learn what pleased 
											him.  In return, he'd made her feel loved, cherished.  
					Cherished, she mentally repeated.  What woman didn't want that from a man?
 A sudden breeze lifted strands of her hair.  Earlier she had been tempted to 
											pull it up in to a neat ponytail, but instead left it hanging wild--.
 "Wildflowers," he'd murmured to her once.  "Promise me you'll never cut it."
 Willingly, she'd made that promise.  She would never cut her hair.  She 
											would always wear it long and flowing just for him. Even when she turned the 
											ripe age of ninety-two.
 Again the words "Let's elope!" filled her mind.  His hesitance had produced a 
											cascade of doubt in her mind.
 "We should take it a step at a time," he'd suggested.
 She'd listened, but they were hollow words.  After a long nerve wracking 
											silence, he'd said finally, "Okay.  But it has to be tonight.  I'm 
											leaving for school this weekend."
 Sitting on the suitcase, the words sheer craziness swirled inside her head.  She 
											cradled her chin into one palm.  Glanced at her watch again.  Swallowed 
											hard.  He was late.
											 But then so had she been late, although by only minutes.  He'd 
											promised to be there at nine sharp.
 "You're not going to back out on me, are you?" he'd teased.
 "I suspect if anyone's going to back out, it'll be you, Sean McIntyre.  If you 
											jilt me, I'll never speak to you and that's a promise," although said in jest 
											they had been her last words to him.
 A nervous tic jerked at the side of her mouth.  Sally suddenly invaded her 
											thoughts but Lia quickly shoved her sister's image from her mind.  What 
											she and Sean had between them was totally different from what had existed 
											between her sister and that drifter who was looking to avoid the draft and 
											Vietnam.  She looked at her watch again.  Twenty 
											minutes . . . .
 
 ***The clock on the nightstand by her bed read eleven-thirty.  Lia peered into 
											the frameless mirror.  Dull, lifeless eyes stared back.  Long 
											dark hair hung limp, dripping wet. "You stupid fool," she hissed.  "That man's long gone.  You 
											were no more than a summer fling."
 She spotted a pair of black-handled scissors resting on the bureau.  Ones 
											she'd used earlier to cut material off her father's workpants.  Deliberately, 
											she picked up the scissors and placed the blades close against her scalp.  Unblinking, 
											she stared straight into the mirror.  
					On the hard oak floor, an erratic pattern of swirling ebony fell.
 
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