Is that you I see?
Is that you I see standing there,
There are chills running through my veins.
They're there because of you,
You don't know how my heart pains.
You were my sunlight,
You shined through it all.
Now where are you?
When I'm going to fall.
I miss you every second I am here,
No one will ever truly know.
I cry tears for you on my pillow,
The hurt I feel has to show.
I long for the day I can touch,
The day I can see, your wonderful face.
I want to tell you that I love you,
Take me with you to that special place.
You left me that night,
But you were going to come back.
Why did you leave me?
My heart has turned cold and black.
I need to hold you,
See you just once more.
I am waiting for you here,
Just walk through the door.
I have so much to tell you,
Why didn't they give me a chance?
To tell you, you were my world,
You put my whole body in a trance.
Everything I did revolved around you,
You were with me everyday of your life,
I would go crazy if I didn't see you.
Where are you now when I want to be your wife?
We had our lives planned out,
What kind of a house we would live in.
The children that would be ours,
They would have your eyes and your grin.
The way we would talk for hours,
Just thinking of what our lives would be.
You were all I had then and now,
What made you leave here without me?
We said we would die together,
You forgot to take me along.
I can't explain how I feel,
Life is just so meaningless and wrong.
How much I just want to kiss you,
Feel your breath upon my cheek.
Watching you across the room,
You would make me so weak.
I miss the way you'd make me smile,
By doing all of those little things.
Now I can hear God's laughter,
I wonder how you look with wings.
You were always my angel,
I knew you were from heaven above.
I am so glad God gave me you,
You will always have all my love.
The hole inside of me is for you,
It will never be filled by anyone ever.
Because if you remember baby,
It was you and I always and forever.
I will never let go of you,
You taught me so much.
Please never let go of me,
I'll always long to feel your touch.
You are still my life,
That's why I'm lost without you.
Now I look at your pictures,
Without you I am so blue.
There's a warmth upon me,
Because I can feel you near,
When the goose bumps begin to show,
I know that you are here.
I wonder if you're touching me,
Brushing your hand against mine.
Touching my cheek ever so gently,
Kissing my lips so soft so fine.
Why would anyone separate us?
I belong to you and you to me.
Why did they have to intrude?
Why couldn't they just let us be?
I'm going to go for now,
But you will be mine forever.
So there's a kiss for you on my lips,
I can't let go of you not now or ever.
Dwayne,
Hey baby, I'm wondering what you're up to?
I feel you are standing over my shoulder.
I can almost feel your breath on my neck.
Do you know how much that I miss you?
The three years you gave me were the best years of my life.
I only wish that our plans could have happened.
I would love to be your wife.
You were the only person to ever really love me!
I know you did.
So have no fears of me not knowing that you loved me. Okay?
You gave me the strength I needed everyday.
If I had a problem you helped me through it.
If I had a goal you helped me succeed.
I really don't know what to do without you.
I keep seeing your face as you left me that day.
The smile you gave me last.
And the words "I love you" that we said to each other.
You said you would be back in a little while.
So I am still sitting here waiting on you to come back for me.
Please don't make it take too long.
Because everyday is a little bit harder and I want to live less every second
that I can't see your smile.
No one understands me.
I don't even feel like there is anyone I have to talk to anymore.
I need you here so much. Just to see you and hear your encouraging words.
My whole body aches to hold you and my words long for your ears to be near.
I feel as if all the life inside of me has been sucked out.
There is now will to survive left.
I keep praying that God will send you back to me. Or bring me to you.
If everyone knew how happy it would make me I don't think they would cry.
Because you are what completed me and without you I am lost.
I think lots of the accident and I try to figure out what happened.
I will probably never really know. But I know that you, my innocent baby had to die.
It is so unfair. Life has become too unbearable without you.
So you tell me what am I suppose to do?
Every song I hear reminds me in some way of you.
Every time I hear your name every bit of my being begins to cry.
I'm wondering where my baby is.
The way you would look into my eyes and tell me how much you loved me,
was something that is so indescribable.
The way you would tell me something to make me laugh.
When I would get mad at you, you would look at me and the anger would go away
as you made me smile from ear to ear. I have never met anyone like you.
I know that I never will. Why did God take my special angel to heaven?
He must have missed you too. But now you're there with him.
Tell Him I said hi, to take care of you for me.
Oh and PS can I please stay in your mansion with you?
I have been separated from you for so long I know I can't make all eternity away from you.
So tell God I am trying to be good. Let him know how much I want to come up there.
Maybe he'll help us out. I love you baby. Guess I better go now.
But I will never leave you forever. Because you are a part of me and I am a part of you.
No matter how far we are away from each other. Remember that!
Love You Always,
Wendy Marlana Porter
Good night, sweet dreams, don't forget to pray, and I love you...
A poem by his mom SON
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Love from Wendy
