MY LIFE - MAY

Sunday, May 19, 2002

I am amused by petty shit. I think I've proven that to people around me time and time again. The most insignificant thing can catch and hold my attention for long periods of time and leave me infinitely amused. It's also the thing that gets me in trouble. If I'm amused, I'm going to see what else can happen with said amusement. If it's a toy, I'll invariably find a way to break it. I can't help it.

I still remember these toys we used to carry in the store. They would say things when you slammed them on the ground (or as we found out, even when you lightly set them on the counter). The sayings were pretty generic but they had us all amused for a while. Some of them were actually funny for a while. Then after about the hundreth time, they weren't funny.

We also found out that these things couldn't handle the beating they got from us. Day after day of us slamming them down eventually wore them out. Suddenly, they weren't very loud. Then, they'd just stop. No more noise would come out of them. I guess it's a good thing that no customer was every brave enough to buy one of these things anyway. They certainly weren't going to work after we were done with them.

CVS released them again a few months later, but this time we were past those toys. They barely saw the counter top, much less any kind of action.

What was it that had us gripped? Those damn smiley face balls that giggled when they were hit. The sound of the box laughing when I dropped it still leaves me with less than fond memories. I did not like those things.

But anway...

I haven't written anything for three or four days because the editing features were offline while Yahoo!Geocities moved to a new server. So while you could look at my site, I couldn't do anything to change the content for a while there. While I certainly could've written entries, I decided to pass my time talking to people online and other things of more relevance at the time.

There really hasn't been much to talk about anyway so I didn't think you were all really missing out on much to begin with. I do kind of feel bad that I gave a bunch of people a link to this site knowing damn well I wouldn't be writing for a while, but I did it so there's no sense in looking back on it and regretting it.

My Playstation 2 library continues to grow larger though. I don't get to play my games much though anymore, so why I buy them is more or less gaming instinct from all the years when I used to play video games every living moment of my life. For those who are curious, here's a list of my games:

* Burnout
* Gauntlet Dark Legacy
* Grand Theft Auto III
* Gran Turismo 3 * High Heat Baseball 2003
* Hot Shots Golf 3
* Madden NFL 2002
* Max Payne * Medal of Honor: Frontline * NBA Live 2002
* NHL Hitz 2002
* Red Faction

So yeah, I still like video games. But I will not be caught playing video games if it's nice outside. I'll be outside wreaking havoc instead.

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Work has been going pretty well. We seem to have a pretty good crew now and hopefully no one will quit this time. It seems every time we get a good combo of people in, someone quits and that sets off a chain reaction, usually leading to more people quitting and us hiring someone who's not exactly what we wanted to hire.

Right now though, things are going pretty well. The new people aren't flipping out over the workload and seem genuinely interested in learning more about the job. It helps that most of them actually are interested in going into pharmacy rather than just some young person who's just looking for any job they can get. We have people who want to learn and that's helped.

We also don't have the strained relations between coworkers that we had before. I haven't heard a whole lot of backtalking, which in my store, is significant since there's usually a whole lot of backstabbing going on. Right now though, there's been pretty much nothing but praise for our new hires and that makes me think that this summer should go fairly smoothly, although we'll see how long that lasts.

The new people also have senses of humor too. It's made things much easier for people like me who joke around a lot at work since they're laughing and smiling as well. No sense of humor makes it hard for me to really relate to someone and has made for more than one rather bad scenario.

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I was thinking about how I would like to somehow become a contributing writer for a newspaper or magazine and just be able to write about things from my perspective in a medium where I know people are going to read what I say. I would like to do this because, well, because I think it would be an interesting experience.

I'm not sure what I'd write for. I'm not a teen so I couldn't sit there and write anything for a teen magazine (not so sure that I'd want to either), and most other magazines really don't allow for free running columns either. You pretty much have to stick to certain topics of discussion.

So maybe this is the best place for me to express my thoughts.

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I think too many people are too concerned with initial impressions of people when they first start talking. I've gotten the impression that when I'm talking to someone for the first time, they expect something from me that I may or may not be showing or expressing. It's like they expect me to say certain things or talk in a certain manner, and if I don't come across like they thought, then they lose interest.

This doesn't really bother me simply because I'm not too interested in talking to someone who'd judge me to begin with, but it does make me wonder just how many people I'm going to have to talk to before I really start meshing with them. There's been too many times where I've been the only one talking and the lack of any kind of helpful response doesn't really do me a whole lot of good.

I especially despise one word answers. Those bug the shit out of me because there's really not a whole lot I can do with one word answers. If I ask you a questions and you give me a sentence with something I can work with, that's really all I need. However, answering with "yup" or "no" really doesn't help me out.

I might be expecting too much from people. Some people just aren't as talkative online as they are in real life. Some people just don't really seem interested in talking online or don't know what to say. I know I don't know what to say most of the time, but I at least try and come up with something. The worst that can happen is that you don't like what the other person said and decide that talking isn't such a good idea.

I've met some pretty interesting people online thus far, but I've met too many people who started off interested, then stopped caring. I've also found some people who don't even bother answering me or writing me back when it comes to e-mail. I can understand if I said something that made you change your mind, but I can't believe that it was something so horrible that you couldn't at least write me back.

For the most part though, it's been an interesting experience, and I'm really enjoying it actually. I don't think one can have enough friends.