Tuesday, June 15, 2004

If anyone would've told me that the spring would've gone the way it did, I would have laughed my ass off at you so hard that, well, it wouldn't be pretty. It was a good spring for the most part. I hung out with friends, had a blast, and wasn't concerned with dating in the least.

Sure I talked to a few people that I thought would be worth talking to, but for the most part, that didn't pan out the way I thought it would. There was always something that would happen to cause me to really not want to talk to said person anymore. It was very rare to find a person that didn't do or say something that completely made me stop in my tracks.

The weather was bizarre around here this spring as well. Most of it was warm, but it also stormed a lot this year, causing flooding problems left and right. We didn't have any trouble here, but I know other people have.

I'm very much aware that I haven't written in this site much this year either. I made a half-hearted effort in the first two months to write, but slacked off over the last few months for various reasons.

I've met a few people, got sick of the internet, then made one last stab at talking to new people online and the thing I least expected to happen, well, happened.

I met a girl. Not just any girl, but a great girl. The kind of girl I've been looking for my whole life. The kind of girl who is willing to treat me just as good as I'm capable of treating her. It's only been slightly over a week since we first met for ice cream and had a good time, but something just feels different about her.

I think any girl that gets a guy flowers in response to receiving flowers is more than worth any time and effort that I might have wanted to put forth.

I still haven't completely gotten over that either. Nothing lifts you up more than walking out of your store after a long day at work and seeing flowers sitting on your car, then to turn around and see this pretty girl walking towards you. It just made my day when she did that.

Molly is her name. She's just been amazing to me so far. She cares, she's fun, she likes to laugh, and she's just remarkable to me. It's hard for me to take it slow with her, but at the same time, I realize that she doesn't want to rush into anything, although I feel that she is intending on having a more serious relationship with me.

One time we had talked about past relationships and I mentioned that I had been in only two serious relationships. She looked at me and asked with a smile if she was mistake number three.

She's incredibly attractive to me too. She's a small girl, but she's so damn cute that I can't help but look at her when I'm with her, something I know that bothers her, but I can't stop. She just looks that good to me. I only hope that she thinks the same as me.

In that aspect, this summer's off to a fantastic start.

However, the discovery of two kidney stones, one in each kidney, has put a damper on the start to this summer. I hadn't exactly asked for this, but now that I have them, I have to deal with them and just let nature run its course in getting rid of them.

I first knew something was wrong yesterday at work though. I woke up and didn't feel great, but as the day was going along, I felt weaker and weaker, and I kept getting nauseated. That's not a good sign in itself, but when I can barely stand up, that's a whole new ballgame.

I never sit down when at work, and yesterday I sat the whole day. It wasn't a good day for this to happen either, being a Monday and being by myself for part of the day at the drop-off. At 3 I asked to leave early and I was allowed, simply because I just looked like hell. Everyone kept asking if I was okay or not and that said a lot to me.

Most of the evening was spent talking to Megan and Molly about what was going on. I hadn't really heard much from Molly but when she found out I was hurting, she continuously called and text messaged me to see how I was doing, something that I greatly appreciated from her. Megan also showed concern, but that was from us being such close friends.

I'm not doing too badly right now, but I'm still uncomfortable and I know that when the stones are passing I'm going to be in a world of pain. I know it and I'm not looking forward to it either. I have some Vicodin to get me through, but I don't want to use it until I'm absolutely sure.

I don't think it's going to put a damper on my summer though. With Molly and everything else going on, it should be a good one.

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