Sunday, August 1, 2004
I have special needs. There's no other way to put it anymore. Everyone knows it too. You can't say anything that would prove otherwise either, so don't even try. I know the truth.
My latest example took place last night. I stepped on an empty 2 liter bottle of Sprite, nearly falling into the wall and giving myself a nasty bump. Don't ask me what an empty Sprite bottle is doing there in the first place. There are about four of them by my sister's room because it must be too hard to throw them out in a normal fashion. Also nevermind that the one I stepped on was nowhere near where I should've stepped. Also forget that it was dark when this occurred.
I have a knack for this sort of thing. I am gifted. Nobody else can do the things that I can do. Nobody should want to do the things that I can do. These things, they won't win you style points.
For example, walking through doorways is always interesting. I must have a problem where I lose my center of gravity when I go through a doorway, causing me to lean to either side, promptly hitting one side of the doorway or the other.
I had just explained this sort of thing to Jessica last weekend on our first date when upon leaving, I proved what I had just said. I walked into the doorway.
I also have a penchant for walking into doors, whether they be open or closed. When it's closed, usually it's because I didn't wait long enough for myself to turn the doorknob. I know, it sounds ludicrous, but I do it all the time. Grab the doorknob, try to push door open, then realize I have to turn the doorknob first.
When the door's open, well, I don't have a real excuse for that other than I'm just a grade-A klutz. I do this all the time as well.
Another example is that I can't walk straight. I can't. I don't know why either. I can only hope that I don't get pulled over late at night for whatever reason and get asked to take a sobriety test. I'm probably the only person alive who could be sober and fail it because I can't do the things they ask you to do. That includes walk in a straight line.
I have a tendency to walk into walls as I'm walking through a hallway. This is a frequent problem in narrow hallways. Again, I don't know if my center of gravity is off or something, but I don't think walking into a wall is something that most people do on a consistent basis.
I walk into the counters at work all the time. I nearly fell over a stool at work one time because the thought of moving to the side to avoid said stool didn't register in my head until it was too late.
I don't fall down steps a lot though. No, I fall going up the steps instead. It must be a talent because I don't know of anyone else who does it with the consistency and frequency that I do it.
I hit my head on various things all the time. I haven't done this in a while, but I've hit my head getting in and out of my car, on cabinets in the house, various things at work, and other objects that usually don't give much and hurt a lot.
I seriously have special needs. I wish I would've known about this when I was in high school. I probably would've qualified for one of those special needs classes. I was probably worse back then too. I remember numerous occasions where I'd smack into objects such as desks, chairs, and even lockers.
If it hurts to walk into it, I've probably done it.
I suppose you could say I'm quirky, that I'm different. But let's be real. I'm gifted and not in any way that any of us wants to be gifted.
I only mention this because I've walked into my doorway twice today.
I have no idea how I do it, but I manage to do it. I'd like to say I was distracted at the time, but I can't because I wasn't on the phone or anything like that. I was just walking. Really poorly anyway.
I've always found it interesting the sheer number of differences in the personalities of people. It's always been amazing to me that some people are ambitious and goal-driven to the point that they don't quit until they succeed, while others give up at the first sign of trouble.
I find it interesting that some people don't hesitate to burst into song (usually when they can't sing), while others wouldn't be caught dead singing, that is unless you get a few drinks in them first. For those who care, I've only burst into sing for a couple of people, one being Megan and that was using the high-pitched voice I like to use.
I find it interesting that some people like to take charge of situations and really show leadership while others are content to sit by the side and let someone lead them. Me? It depends on the situation. At work, I tend to take charge of things, but when I'm out, I like to see what others want to do instead.
It's interesting that some people are clean to the point of obsession while others could care less that the room looks like a landfill. Ironically, it seems the clean people can never find anything while the dirty people can find anything at the snap of a finger. Explain that one to me.
Some people are always happy while others are always sad. Some people see the glass as being half-full other see it as half-empty. For those keeping score, I'm usually happy and the glass is empty after I'm through with it.
Some people love certain animals while others hate those same ones. Some people can get along great with other people just because they're like that, others find people oppressive. Some people like to look like a million bucks, others look like they were run over by a million bucks.
For all the differences that people have from one another, it's what makes people so damn interesting to me. You never meet someone who's the same as the last person you met. It's also why meeting people can be so treacherous sometimes. Just when you think you know someone, you find out a quirk they have is less-than desirable.
It keeps things interesting and it keeps me going from day to day.
Which reminds me of a discussion I had with Jessica tonight. I have things to live for and always have. I've never been one to be so down that I can't find a reason to live anymore. I have reasons to live. There are four of them in this house alone. There are five more outside of this house. I live for the people I care about.
If I gave up on life, I'd be giving up on them and that's something I could never do. My mom alone is enough to keep me going because she's been through so much and put up with so much.
It doesn't matter how much things can turn to shit. I have reasons to live. I always will.
For those keeping score, I live for my mom, my two sisters, and my nephew; my friends Mike, Jen, Sarah, and Megan; my girlfriend Jessica. Not necessarily in that order either, but those are the people that keep me going from day to day.
Without them, yeah I'd feel lost, but I still wouldn't give. Because I live for myself as well.
I rented a couple of games to play this weekend, and given the situation that Jessica's dealing with, I've had plenty of time to play both games. One is "Return to Castle Wolfenstein" and the other is "Chronicles of Riddick: Escape from Butcher Bay." Nothing really mind-blowing about the first game. It's another first-person shooter, but it's fun and it has a nice storyline to back it up. Nothing special though.
The second game is amazing though. I'll admit I don't like Vin Diesel much, but this game is really something else. The voice-acting is terrific, the graphics are amazing, and I've never played a first-person game where the combat actually really worked, but this one does.
I have a feeling I'll have a lot of time to play these too. Jessica's dealing with a situation right now and I really am powerless to do anything unless she asks me to, which she hasn't done. She knows I'd be there in a minute if she asked me to, but she hasn't so I can only sit and wait to hear from her.
I miss her like mad though. I'm seriously falling in love with the girl.
Nothing else really happened today or this weekend for that matter. I finally gave myself a haircut. Nothing major, but enough to at least keep me looking somewhat decent for a while. I didn't cut as short as I had been cutting it, but trying to keep it at a nice length. It seems to be popular when it's the length it's been at.
Next weekend is the weekend when everyone's going out. Depending on where we go, I either will or will not be able to take Jessica with me. If they decide to go to Dave & Buster's, she can go. If they decide to go to this bar, Corky's, she can't go. I'm expected to go out so I'm hoping it's D&B so I can take Jessica with me. I didn't get to see her this weekend, and while I should be able to see her sometime this week, I want to be able to spend a lot of time with her, something that hasn't happened yet.
All I really did this weekend was play those games, cut my hair, and work on various sections of this site. Most things won't be noticeable, such as format changes to older entries, but I did write a new message, wrote a new column in Come Again, and worked on some other minor format issues in some of the pages.
I've been productive with this site as of late and while it probably won't last, it's been easier to keep up with things knowing that there are people who are reading this site on a regular basis. It's nothing mind-blowing, but I'm averaging 5-10 visitors a day, which is far more than I had been getting a few months ago.
It's nice to be able to write and know that people are reading the things that I write. It gives a whole new sense of purpose to what I do, makes it more enjoyable to write.
The only thing I want to be careful of is repeating things I wrote in the past. I have a history of that simply because I forget that I wrote about a particular subject. It's usually not a major issue, but those who've read older entries will notice it.
I do have some things I want to accomplish in this site though. I need to finish up the "This is MST3K" section as soon as I can. I want to do entries from Simba again, something I did when he was a kitten. I want to do entries from Evin's perspective as well, something I've been meaning to do.
I would love to put in entries from other people, but no one's stepped forward and offered to do so. I can't make y'all write anything, but if you want to contribute an entry or column, don't hesitate.
I would love to one day have a site where you can read multiple opinions from multiple people. Nothing major, but it would be cool to have about three or four contributing writers add some spice to this site.
After all, just how much of me can y'all take?
Tribe Watch 2004
Today's Game
Cleveland Indians, 7
Kansas City Royals, 8
Summary
All of a sudden the Indians' starters can't pitch. C.C. Sabathia got roughed up, losing his sixth game of the year. The offense put up a fight, but couldn't overcome the deficit as the Indians drop their second straight to the Royals.
Game Notes
The Indians starters were roughed up in the series, but the defense didn't help matters...Sabathia continues to have trouble with economizing pitches...Grady Sizemore continues to impress, belting a two-run home run during the game.
Record
53-52; 3rd place; 6.5 games back
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