MY LIFE - AUGUST
Tuesday, August 20, 2002
In case you couldn't tell, I did get my webcam replaced so now I can take pics again. This one seems to be working slightly better than the last one did. You can actually get a good look at my face now. So I should start getting angry e-mails anytime soon.
In all reality, I've been meaning to replace it for a long time now. I liked the idea of having a current picture up of me for you to see. I know firsthand how people put older pics of themselves up online, then you see them in person and they look completely different. I want people to see a pic and know that's how I really look.
I can also broadcast over the internet, but I haven't decided if I want to figure that out yet or not. If you have Yahoo! Instant Messenger, you can receive a live broadcast from me when I'm on (wservo9) and talking. I can also broadcast in the chatrooms as well.
You'd think that AIM would have some sort of function like that as well, but they don't. So AIM and AOL users, you'll just have to wait until I figure out the software better and learn how to do it.
The idea of broadcasting a live image on my website has intrigued me, but that won't be happening until we have DSL and a constant connection to the internet. Until that happens, don't expect to see me put the live image up on my site. Not that there would be anything to see anyway.
I got it from Best Buy along with a new CD, N.O.R.E.'s "God's Favorite." I like it right now, so I shouldn't be able to complain about not having any current music to listen to.
This season for the Indians has been just one disaster after another. Ricky Gutierrez, while not a great player but a decent one, is done for the year. Bob Wickman is done for this year and probably next year. Travis Fryman's probably retiring after this season. Charles Nagy should do the same. Jim Thome may or may not be back depending on the free agent season (and the pending strike).
They are way under .500. The pitching has been good and bad, the offense has been non-existence much of the year. Several players have been traded. Players are going up and down from the Major League club to Triple-A Buffalo. There are so many new players and faces that I have to take a guess who's batting when I turn on the radio midway through the game.
Jimmy Warfield died suddenly right after Charlie Manuel was fired as manager. Bartolo Colon finally figured out how to pitch just in time to be sent to the graveyard of baseball, Montreal. The team that showed so much promise early on has become a bunch of confused and injured ballplayers who don't know what's next.
Out of all this, there has been good things. CC Sabathia has figured out that he can't be overweight and expect to go long in ball games. He also figured out you need to hold the runners when they get on. Danys Baez has probably been the best pitcher on the staff since Colon was traded, but he needs another pitch so that if his curveball isn't working (like last night), he doesn't have to throw all fastballs. He's been pitching into the sixth inning most of the year though, so he's shown the most promise this year. I think it could be a fight between him and Sabathia for number one on the staff. Personally speaking, and no, this has nothing to do with Lindsay's infatuation with him, Baez has impressed me most this season and is the guy that I expect to perform best during the rest of this season.
We've been treated to a surprise performance from "Coco" Crisp, a young centerfielder playing for Milton Bradley while Bradley recovers from an emergency surgery. Crisp makes contact, has great speed, is a true lead-off hitter, and has invigorated the team a bit with his energy level. I think Bradley's about to get a run for his money with the centerfield job. If Alex Escobar can recover from his knee injury, the Indians will have a very good and very fast outfield.
As hard as it's been to watch the Indians at times, it could be worse. We could have a team like Tampa Bay out there, getting smashed by everyone they play. The Indians as a team have also played hard regardless, so that's been making it easier.
Here's hoping that in a couple years, we'll be enjoying another successful run.
It's been weird to think that in a couple days, I'll be back in school, sitting in a classroom listening to a teacher explain something to a roomful of people like me. I haven't been in a classroom setting in over two years and it's going to be weird.
I guess I should go back to Tri-C tomorrow and figure out where my classes are though. Nothing like going in and not having a clue where you're supposed to be and you have two minutes to get there.
I did that last time I was there and ended up dropping two classes because I couldn't find them and didn't want to look like an ass in front of a bunch of strangers when I did finally find it. I don't remember what the classes were though, so it's okay.
That was two years ago and it was about a little after I had stopped talking to this girl that I had met while at Tri-C. Like most cases, it started off good, but I didn't like the idea of me being used for whatever her purpose might have been in the long run.
I think my experience will be different this time, mostly because I'm older and I'm not the same guy I was back then. I'm not nearly as shy, I look way different now, and my personality has evolved since then. Look at the entries I've written from then and compare them to now.
Back then, I wrote mostly about how much I hated people, how immature I thought some people were, and how much my life sucked. I was very anti-social back then, which made going to school a difficult task. I'm not as anti-social, I look better, I dress better, and I have a different outlook on things.
In a way, I'm looking forward to being around all these different people. I've never made friends very easily before, so I'm kind of curious to see if anything happens in that regard. I know I'm easy to talk to, otherwise I wouldn't have heard so many different things from so many different people.
Now, I know by about the end of next week, I'll be all pissy at school and will be trying to figure out a way to stop going. I know it because I know how I am in a classroom. I'll be half asleep all day, I won't want to do homework, and I certainly won't like getting up at 6:30 in the morning to be in a classroom at 8:15 somedays. Monday's my easiest day, since I have only one class, and it starts at 1pm.
I'm out of school by 2 everyday, so it's not all bad. I do have a pretty nice break on a couple days in between classes where I can go get something to eat, do homework, and study up a little bit. I did that partly on purpose and partly because it was the only way my schedule was going to work.
I think I will definitely have to try and sign up sooner next time. That way, I get the classes I want, when I want them, and make my life much easier.
HA! That'll never happen. I like making things difficult for myself.
The entry I wrote the other day where I talk about what kind of girl I like and Lindsay in particular sparked off some interesting e-mails from some people that I guess read the stuff I write on a regular basis. That and my column on swearing.
The thing with Lindsay got me some questions, mostly why I'd start writing about someone I like. I admit, I've very rarely done that in the past. Even when I was in my relationship with Tabitha, I wasn't writing period, so I wasn't talking about it. I've always been hesitant writing about someone I might like because I did it a while back and it came back to bite me in the ass. From that point on, which I believe was a few years ago, I've made it a point to not mention those things.
Well, I now think I should have to begin with. First off, I very rarely have anything bad to say about a girl that I might like (events from this year excluded), second, this is my site and my opinions, and third, I want to be able to look back at how I was feeling about a girl and not be guessing about what was going on.
Go on and read the older entries. You almost never see me mention a girl, just kind of tease you with information that there might be someone I like. More often than not, I've read something and wondered what the hell I was talking about, more specifically, who I was talking about.
There have been cases where I really liked someone, but didn't say anything about it here because, well, I don't remember why. I guess I was trying to keep that part of my life as personal as possible.
I'm not going to do that as much. If I like a girl, such as Lindsay, I'm going to say so. Lindsay's made it known to me that she doesn't mind me mentioning her, and while I don't really need her permission, it's nice to know that I have her approval. It also goes without saying that if she didn't want to be mentioned, I'd stop.
The basic idea that I'm trying to get at is this: no longer will I not talk about something just because I don't want to piss someone off. If I say something that does piss someone off, it's not intentional (unless I'm pissed off myself). I'm not going to worry about someone overreacting to something I say anymore.
I've let people dictate the things I'll write about too long. I started revealing more earlier this year when I talked openly about my break-up and the things surrounding it. I showed more by talking about the couple of bad incidents with girls I have met since then. I've taken some bashing from those girls and continued on with writing about the situations involved.
I'm not going to sit here and worry about what other people think and then not write about something subsequently. I did that back when I was just starting off. I could've written so much about so many things that would have revealed so much about me, but didn't because I didn't want this to be too personal.
Now, that doesn't mean every single detail is now going to be covered. I'm still going to keep certain things private. I'm not going to spill every last detail about every last date that I might go on.
If I hang out with someone, I might talk about it depending on how it went. It's still up in the air. If someone pisses me off, I'll probably talk about it here. If something deeply personal happens, don't count on reading about it.
In essence, I like Lindsay, I would like to get together with her sometime and talk about things with her. She's someone I both be serious and incredibly goofy with. It's been a good combination to this point.
What more is said on this, well, that's dependent on time. All I do know is that it should be interesting.
One last thing that's probably going to seem really stupid to you all...I ate tacos tonight for dinner and didn't have an eruption in my stomach. I think that's the first time in several years where I've been able to eat tacos and not regret it.
A small victory and probably the last one I'll have with my stomach. Piece of fucking shit stomach. Why do you have to be so cruel to me?
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