MY LIFE - 2003

Social Experiment #317 - Sunday, October 12, 2003

I want to like Nichole. I really do. Behind the crabby attitude, undersized clothes (please, for the love of humanity, you're not THAT small!), and little-kid like personna, there's a half-way decent person in Nichole. Every now and then, you see it too. It's only there for a fleeting second though, so if you blink, it's gone.

The honest truth about Nichole is that she's annoying at best. She thinks she's more attractive than she is, she thinks she's more adorable than she is, and she really seems to think that I should go out with her.

Uh, let me think about this. Gee, I'm sorry, but even if I wasn't taken right now, I still wouldn't do it. I have never been attracted to Nichole in any way and she cannot grasp that simple concept. I have done just about everything I can to try and beat it into her head, but she still insists and chasing after me.

I'm curious to see how she handles me being taken in the long run. She didn't do too well after she found out I was dating Megan, going so far as to call Megan names. That obviously didn't sit too well with me as I cornered her one night and told her I didn't care what she thought about the girl I was with, but if she kept running her mouth, she was going to get into some serious hot water.

She eventually cooled off after I chewed her out a couple of more times. I'm not going to get into what was said, but it wasn't nice. I don't mad very often, but when I do, it's usually memorable.

In any case, I don't think she's going to try anything. Not only does she have no clue where Ally lives (and won't know as long as I can help it), she doesn't know the girl so she can't really say anything about her.

I just don't want to have to deal with any outside drama with Ally. I had enough of that with Megan to last a lifetime, not that I'd stop seeing Ally if that were the case. I'd just like to avoid it if at all possible. Ally seems like a pretty great girl so far. She's going to keep me on my toes, which is something I like about her.

Getting back to Nichole though, today was a day where she was just a pain in the ass. One minute, she's happy as can be, the next, she's crabby as hell and just being rude to all the customers. My favorite is when she gets an attitude with a customer, the customer complains about her, and she can't believe it or understand why.

Uh, yeah Nichole. You're funny.

Work was a drag today though. My mind really wasn't there at all. When I wasn't think about Ally, I was, uh, thinking about when I was going to talk to Ally next.

The girl has a firm grip on me right now and I think she knows it. I just love talking to her. I hate that I'm not going to be able to talk to her tonight (Sunday night) because I'll be at work. I really want to find a way to get out of work early, but it won't happen. It's not that big a deal, I just want to talk to her as much as I can, especially since I don't lose minutes on my phone during the weekend.

We didn't get to talk as long tonight either because she had to eat dinner and then she had to be off the phone at 9. But we did get to talk a little bit about this and that.

I really like learning about her and listening to the things she says. She's genuinely funny and seems to have a lot of energy, which is something I will not complain about. I've already told her that I like her voice. I'm not sure if there's an accent there or not. I guess that's what it is, but I have no freaking clue right now. It just sounds so cute that I can't help but smile when I listen to her, especially when she gets going.

So the day wasn't all bad. I got to talk to my baby a little bit and hopefully I'll get to talk to her before too long, probably Monday night after work.

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Even though this entry is dated Sunday, it's actually Saturday night. I'm writing it early because I'm working until midnight Sunday and I have to be up at 7am Monday to work at 9am. In case anyone was wondering.

The whole thing with Ally has been sudden, but it reinforced something that I asked about in my Bolt tagbook about being single and if anyone had any suggestions. The overwhelming suggestion was to not chase love since love will find you. I read all of those and realized what everyone was saying.

I also realized it last weekend when I was sitting in a bar with a friend at the Harry Buffalo, looking around at the girls that were there. I didn't feel the need to get up and approach all those girls because something told me that if something was going to happen for me, it probably wasn't going to be there. I was there to watch football games and have a few drinks. If a girl decided she wanted to talk to me, then more power to her.

I haven't been searching for love, driving myself crazy the way I normally do. I just kind of let things take care of themselves. I didn't read notes from people online thinking "Maybe this one will work for me." No, I just replied wtih "thank you's" to compliments and answered questions that people had.

In fact, the note from Ally almost went unnoticed since I had looked in her profile and saw that she had a boyfriend, at least according to her photo album. I replied to her note though, just because I felt it would be nice and she seemed like a nice girl from her profile.

Well, in a matter of a couple days, I was talking to her on the phone, she was thinking we'd make a good couple, and the rest has become history.

It's just amazing to me how it all just kind of happened though. Here I am, talking to all these different people, and this one girl just stands out from the rest of them. Sure, she was aggressive in how she wanted to talk on the phone so soon, but it's a move I found very flattering. When that first conversation went well, I knew I had a winner.

It all harks back to what most of the people said though. Love would find me. And it has. I have a girlfriend that I can't wait to meet and miss so much when I'm not talking to her.

So thanks to everyone who told me just to be myself and let things come to me.

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One thing that I found singularly impressive about some of the people who wrote me notes after my member of the day thing was the number of girls asking me about writing. Not asking me about why I write what I write, but my form, my style, and how I present my thoughts. There were a couple of people who just absolutely picked apart what I had wrote and analyzed it perfectly, then asked me if I could help them with their own writing.

It was very flattering, more so than the number of girls who thought I was hot, cute, or anything like that. The people that had taken the time to go into my journal, read what I had written, and then go to this site and do the same thing, those were the people I was impressed with.

I've also been impressed with the number of people who read what I wrote in my profile and then wanted to know more about something that I wrote, whether it be about music, my tagline, or even about one of my book suggestions.

The people that went beyond just saying "hi, you're cute, wanna talk?" were the people that got the best replies back. Well, Ally got good ones too once I figured out she was interested in me. But otherwise, the better the note, the better the reply.

I also received some very good responses to my questions that were in my tagbook. Some people went well beyond what I was hoping for in giving me answers and those people are the people I will be tagging back the soonest. It's just hard to find time to tag back the hundred or so people who tagged me orginally.

I will say that I've been impressed by some of you people who've talked to me. You've given me a lot of things to think and talk about. It's a nice change of pace.

Now if Bolt would cooperate and let me check my notes again. Damn does that site get annoying.