MY LIFE - NOVEMBER

Social Experiment #286 - Wednesday, November 13, 2002

You know it's going to be an interesting day when you get up in the morning from your alarm and immediately feel something rising up your throat. I just made it in the bathroom in time to spill everything that I had last night into the toilet. It was not something I'd describe as a pleasant experience and certainly not a way to start a day.

Then I went to get up and walk towards the kitchen area, but before I could even get five steps from the bathroom, I felt something again. I pretty much repeated this process for about 20 minutes this morning before finally managing to crawl back into bed, where I fell asleep.

Two hours later, around 10 or 11, I threw up two more times. I threw up three more times at noon. It was at this point in the day that I knew it was a lost cause to try and make it to any of my classes. I went back to bed and slept until 2, got up, and for the first time all day, didn't feel sick.

I'm still not sure just what the hell happened that made me throw up so much. Even at my worst, I usually only throw up a couple of times and I'm done. Today it just kept on coming and it was starting to get to the point of being absurd. I'm thinking I just had some little virus that finally went away, but we'll see about that.

The rest of the day went much smoother. I worked from 4-10 today, and surprisingly enough, work went well. Jessica, Nichole, and Lenny were the other techs and I got to work with Jim again, who as on Monday, reminded me why he was so missed in the store. The gay jokes do get old, but he's so damn funny with it that I don't mind.

Funniest thing he said? Not too long after Jessie had berated him with a series of comments (one of them comparing him to Satan; she was in a mood), he looked at me, started to walk past me and as he did so, the following line came out:

"Feminine itch got you down?"

The way he said it in a very quiet voice made it even funnier, plus the fact that it was so out of the blue too. Jim's a funny guy. It's a good thing that everyone finds his jokes funny, otherwise he'd been fired years ago. He's even admitted that.

Jessie, on the other hand, is kind of sneaky. She's adorable, sweet, and just a really great girl all-around, so you don't expect it when she starts saying weird things and doing stuff that you'd expect Jim or me to do.

One time she was playing with a desicant (one of those objects found in prescripton bottles to keep pills fresh; the ones that say DO NOT EAT!) and it popped open, spilling the little beads inside into my animal crackers.

To this day I always say she was trying to poison me and she kind of goes along with it too, saying stuff like "yeah, you know me."

She's also a very, very active girl. I tell you, if she has a moment of free time, I can't seem to find it. She's part of all these different things and goes to all these different meetings, it's amazing. She's just a really cool girl to work with too. It's hard to describe the things she does that you wouldn't expect because, well, they're so unexpected. One night she just completely rammed me after I told her I was going to have to watch her.

She also says things that you wouldn't expect, like comparing her one teacher to Satan, then looking at Jim and saying he's like her teacher, and in turn, comparable to Satan as well. Jim's response? "That's fine. Just call me Sir Satan."

I work with some great people.

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I have been pondering about this girl that I've been talking to who lives near me, a girl that I find not only very attractive, but a girl that I'd want to be with because we seem to like so many of the same things. She's just a really good girl to know and there seem to be some things about her that could work very well between us.

The only hang-up that might occur is that she does have a son and she has been married already, although she did try to make it all work again. These are minor issues so far as I do not find her having a son to be a problem, nor the fact that she's already been married. I'm more concerned with finding out more about her as a person than anything else.

As of right now, the plan would be for us to meet a week from this weekend and spend some time together. I'm hoping this goes well. I think it will though. I just get this feeling that she's a girl that would be worth the time, a girl that would see me for who I am, even though she's made it very, very clear that she's attracted to me.

I just want it to work though. If it does seem like it's working, maybe she'll be the one that I'd want to be with for the long-haul. I certainly think it would be good for her son for her to be in a relationship with someone for the long-term, but I can't and won't speak for her. In truth, it's way, way too early to even be considering that kind of thing.

Still, I hope that this goes well because there is a lot to like about her. She's a girl that I could see being with for a long time. It's hard to describe, but basically, she's my kind of girl.

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It's amazing how appreciated you feel when you get a note or e-mail online from someone who's radically different from you in your views, style, and tastes who thinks that you're a cool person. It's even more appreciated when this person thanks you for being that way.

I've gotten a lot of this, primarly because there appears to be a high number of goths, skaters, and punks who are on Bolt to go along with the preps. I hate using these terms to describe the people since I could care less for them (and care less if I'm using the terms right), but that's just how it breaks down.

It basically appears to be preps versus everyone else and it's a constant war of words. Preps calling the other people losers, the other people calling preps stuck-up and spoiled, and it's just to the point nowadays where it's completely absurd and makes no sense to do, but it keeps happening.

It all comes down to the ones who've had things and the ones who've had nothing. A lot of the people who haven't had much look at the people who've had things and feel jealous, almost hateful towards those people, but for what? It's not their fault that they've had things given to them, not their fault that they had parents who provided for them. Why are you mad?

Most of those hating are also in a lesser social position as well. That I can understand. A lot of the popular people won't make any concessions towards those they feel are less than them, and some of that is social position talking. They don't want to associate with someone who's not popular because it might make them uncool to other people. That shallowness is something I've seen many times. I've never been popular, but I've been more in the middle.

However, a lot of the hate is based around the fact that popular people have more. They have the most expensive clothes, the most expensive jewelry, and just all the stuff that other people could only wish they had. It's not fair to hate them for that reason. It also doesn't mean that they haven't face adversity in their lives. Many of them have. It's just a lot of people don't want to give them that credit.

It's pretty much one of those things where all sides can be blamed. The preps/popular people could make more of an effort to accept other kinds of people, while the rest of the people could try and understand that just because they may appear to have a cushy life, it's not something to hate them for.

It's one of those things that's going to live on though. There's always been that clash between different people in high school and it's always going to exist. People just can't get along and a lot of people refuse to change how they look at certain groups of people.

Me, I just want to get along with everyone and have a good time. I see no reason to hate someone just because they had more than me. I would love to be in that position, but it didn't go that way. There's never been a reason for me to hate based upon that.

That's society for you though. Certainly keeps things interesting. I just wish that it didn't cause so many people to get hurt.

Life...what a bastard.