MY LIFE - AUGUST

Friday, August 6, 1999

It was a very long day. Very long. I've had a massive headache since right around 4:30 after having several problems with a couple of prescriptions. The day started off fine. I was up in plenty of time and I got to work when I supposed to. It just kind of went downhill from there. One thing I learned is that the week of August 15-21, I'll be working six days. Fine, I knew that one already. What I didn't know is that I'm going to probably have to work more than 8 and 1/2 hour shifts like I do right now. There was discussion of me working odd ass hours because of Debbie's vacation and Jenny's last day being the 16th.

There are going to be a couple days where I could be working nine, ten, maybe even eleven hour shifts during that week. It'll be great pay because of all the overtime, but it will certainly tax me majorly. I'll almost certainly be too exhausted to do much of anything once the week's over with. If Debbie takes her vacation one week earlier, I'm fine. Instead, I have to deal with this now. Crystal tried to tell me it wouldn't be so bad since she'd be working with me, but that's not much. Especially when I think about possibly putting in nearly 50 hours that week, if not more.

My whole head hurts right now, even my neck. It's a tension headache, so it's a bit more difficult to get rid of than most headaches. It just got so crazy for a while from 4 to 4:45. I think Steve had a headache from it all as well. The rest of the night was fairly quiet, which was good since there was a lot that needed to be done. One thing I dislike about being a shift supervisor is that I have additional work to do now on top of my pharmacy work. It's been made a little easier since the associates will listen to me when I tell them to do something, and I think it has to do with the fact that I'm a bit more patience and calm when it comes to handing out projects. People have been a lot more respectful of my authority than they are of Mike's which is sure to drive him crazy too.

Speaking of Mikes, Shoe called off because his truck broke down. This time it was in Brecksville. It seems whenever he calls off, he's in some odd ass location. One time, he was in Akron and tried to call off. He said that day he forgot he had to work, which was bullshit since he had been in earlier and had said he would see us at 5. We basically told him to get his ass up here and work. He showed up at least. Anyway, he's always in some odd location. This time it was Brecksville. That truck is not worth all the trouble it gives him. He's so damned loyal to it though.

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I haven't really been online with my instant messenger service lately, partly because I haven't really felt like talking to anyone at all and partly because no one has e-mailed me back in about three or four days now, and that really bothers me. It's hard to say which one has a bigger impact on me being online or not, but they both play big parts. I truly have not felt like talking much, which I know makes a lot of people mad for whatever reason.

The e-mail thing bothers me the most though. Of the six or seven people who I talk to through e-mail, only a couple e-mail me back regularly, and regularly's beginning to become every four or five days it seems. One thing I've always done is when I'm not getting replies to my e-mails, I stop going online. It's not really anything all that personal, but I hate it when people don't reply to my e-mails. There's just been something about it that's always bothered me about it.

I have been a bit withdrawn lately, and I'm not even sure myself why I'm doing it. Something's bothering me, but I can't quite figure out what it is (outside of the lack of replies to e-mail). At work I've been much quieter than I ever have been before and it's been bugging Crystal (who knocked me over at work today; thank you very much for that one) a little, but not too much. I also haven't had much of an appetite lately, and when I do eat something, I'm quick to lose any taste for the food that I might have had.

Most of this is due to stress, but from what? I don't have to worry about my dad right and I'm in a very good position at work, outside of the tremendous amount of hours I'll be working in just over a week. So what's causing all this? I have absolutely no idea. I just can't seem to figure out what's causing all this stress. Crystal's obviously noticed it. She said that I looked like I was incredibly stressed and then later said that I just looked like I was completely out of it, which I was. It doesn't answer why though, and that bugs me.

It could just be a phase for all I know, but I'm not totally sure. I'll just have to see how things go. Oh, and if anyone's wondering when I might sign back on with my instant messenger, I really don't know. I could show up for a couple of minutes every now and then, but I don't think I'll be using it much. I'm sorry if anyone's wanted to talk with me, but I'm just not really into talking right now.

Tribe Watch '99

Last Game
Cleveland, 2
Tampa Bay, 4

Summary
The Indians failed to take advantage of opportunities at several points in the game while the Devil Rays got a series of bloop hits to score three runs and win the first game of the series. Tampa Bay scored first, but the Indians answered with Two runs thanks to RBI singles by Enrique Wilson and Enar Diaz. Dave Burba had control problems with two out in the sixth, allowing Paul Sorrento to walk, then gave up a couple of bloop hits allowing Tampa Bay to take the 4-2 lead. The number 3, 4, and 5 hitters in the Indians line up did not have a hit in the game.

Game Notes
The Indians lost yet another player to injury, this time Jacob Cruz, who tore a ligament in his thumb trying to stretch a single into a double. He's out for the year....Center fielder Kenny Lofton may have to go on the disabled list with his hamstring still not fully healed....The Devil Rays continue to play the Indians tough....Charles Nagy goes for the Indians tomorrow night.

Record
65-43