-- post mental --
from Anna Karenina
Tolstoy stand as one of the great
novelists of his time -- of all time. His War and Peace
remains one of the monstrous books of fiction. After writing Anna
Karenina, however, all he renounced all his previous works
saying he "wrote everything into Anna Karenina and nothing was
left over.
Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is
unhappy in its own way. Everything was in confusion in the Oblonskys' house. The
wife had discovered that the husband was carrying on an
intrigue with a French girl, who had been a governess in their
family, and she had announced to her husband that she could
not go on living in the same house with him. This position of
affairs had now lasted three days, and not only the husband
and wife themselves, but all the members of their family and
household, were painfully conscious of it. Every person in the
house felt that there was so sense in their living together,
and that the stray people brought together by chance in any
inn had more in common with one another than they, the members
of the family and household of the Oblonskys. The wife did not
leave her own room, the husband had not been at home for three
days. The children ran wild all over the house; the English
governess quarreled with the housekeeper, and wrote to a
friend asking her to look out for a new situation for her; the
man-cook had walked off the day before just at dinner time;
the kitchen-maid, and the coachman had given warning. Three days after the quarrel, Prince Stepan Arkadyevitch
Oblonsky--Stiva, as he was called in the fashionable world--
woke up at his usual hour, that is, at eight o'clock in the
morning, not in his wife's bedroom, but on the leather-covered
sofa in his study. He turned over his stout, well-cared-for
person on the springy sofa, as though he would sink into a
long sleep again; he vigorously embraced the pillow on the
other side and buried his face in it; but all at once he
jumped up, sat up on the sofa, and opened his eyes. "Yes, yes, how was it now?" he thought, going
over his dream. "Now, how was it? To be sure! Alabin was
giving a dinner at Darmstadt; no, not Darmstadt, but something
American. Yes, but then, Darmstadt was in America. Yes, Alabin
was giving a dinner on glass tables, and the tables sang, Il
mio tesoro--not Il mio tesoro though, but something better,
and there were some sort of little decanters on the table, and
they were women, too," he remembered. Stepan Arkadyevitch's eyes twinkled gaily, and he pondered
with a smile. "Yes, it was nice, very nice. There was a
great deal more that was delightful, only there's no putting
it into words, or even expressing it in one's thoughts
awake." And noticing a gleam of light peeping in beside
one of the serge curtains, he cheerfully dropped his feet over
the edge of the sofa, and felt about with them for his
slippers, a present on his last birthday, worked for him by
his wife on gold-colored morocco. And, as he had done every
day for the last nine years, he stretched out his hand,
without getting up, towards the place where his dressing-gown
always hung in his bedroom. And thereupon he suddenly
remembered that he was not sleeping in his wife's room, but in
his study, and why: the smile vanished from his face, he
knitted his brows. "Ah, ah, ah! Oo!..." he muttered, recalling
everything that had happened. And again every detail of his
quarrel with his wife was present to his imagination, all the
hopelessness of his position, and worst of all, his own fault. "Yes, she won't forgive me, and she can't forgive me.
And the most awful thing about it is that it's all my
fault--all my fault, though I'm not to blame. That's the point
of the whole situation," he reflected. "Oh, oh,
oh!" he kept repeating in despair, as he remembered the
acutely painful sensations caused him by this quarrel. Most unpleasant of all was the first minute when, on
coming, happy and good-humored, from the theater, with a huge
pear in his hand for his wife, he had not found his wife in
the drawing-room, to his surprise had not found her in the
study either, and saw her at last in her bedroom with the
unlucky letter that revealed everything in her hand. She, his Dolly, forever fussing and worrying over household
details, and limited in her ideas, as he considered, was
sitting perfectly still with the letter in her hand, looking
at him with an expression of horror, despair, and indignation. "What's this? this?" she asked, pointing to the
letter. And at this recollection, Stepan Arkadyevitch, as is so
often the case, was not so much annoyed at the fact itself as
at the way in which he had met his wife's words. There happened to him at that instant what does happen to
people when they are unexpectedly caught in something very
disgraceful. He did not succeed in adapting his face to the
position in which he was placed towards his wife by the
discovery of his fault. Instead of being hurt, denying,
defending himself, begging forgiveness, instead of remaining
indifferent even--anything would have been better than what he
did do--his face utterly involuntarily (reflex spinal action,
reflected Stepan Arkadyevitch, who was fond of
physiology)--utterly involuntarily assumed its habitual,
good-humored, and therefore idiotic smile. This idiotic smile he could not forgive himself. Catching
sight of that smile, Dolly shuddered as though at physical
pain, broke out with her characteristic heat into a flood of
cruel words, and rushed out of the room. Since then she had
refused to see her husband. "It's that idiotic smile that's to blame for it
all," thought Stepan Arkadyevitch. "But what's to be done? What's to be done?" he
said to himself in despair, and found no answer. (Born into a family whose ancestry includes a count, Leo
Tolstoy saw education as the one instrument of changing
the world. During his travel around Europe, he investigated --
and later published -- magazines and textbooks on educational
theory and subject. His fiction grew from his diaries.
This text is from the translation of Constance
Garnett.)
Chapter 1