I used to pretend
          that I'm fine
             hiding inside

my castle wall
          protected
                sheltered

      from the world
               it's prejudice
               it's lies
               it's tragedy

I was quite contented
         in my makebelief
                             world
                 of perfection
          of beauty
                  until
                    it crumble

and I was forced
                  to face
                     reality
that I can't be
        on my own
            all the time

that I need to live
           to be with people
           to share
           to laugh
           to cry

but I've been
       on my own
              for awhile

it's hard
to have company
once again
          to give
              to love
                  to live
                    one more time

I've given
          so much
                  before

I've lost
         a lot

Am I to blame
If I rather
     choose my
          own company