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2nd January 2006 Ok folks, bad news: The forms don't work on my site. I've tested two of them and I've made a new one and tested that, and they all say they have errors:
There was an error while processing your form input:
So I will see if anything pops up in my inbox if it is doesn't then the forms aren't working, which is a shame. If anyone can help me with forms, I'd be glad to hear from ya.
16th May 2005 I'm writing to try and adjust the tone of this section, I think the entry before last may have thrown it off a bit much. If it scared you into worrying about me, then that's good, if you act on it in the right way; on the other hand if it puts you off talking to me or gets you to try and have me condemned then that's obviously the wrong reaction to have. Not every individual entry here is an exact depiction of my thoughts, but each is trying to say something, whether or not that thing needs to be said. So, bear in mind the difference between various dates and various moods, and you should reach the current conclusion that currently I'm very much so-so. I don't know what the solutions are to my problems, nor what my problems are, but I do appreciate your compassion, and if that's not showing then I at least appreciate your respectful silence in these matters which is completely justified and not at all unexpected. Thank you indeed for reading. For your attention other places where I'm expressing myself are H2G2 U1473918 and My MSN Space which of the three is most reliable cannot at all be decided at this stage, feel free to ignore one or all of these. See ya soon!
8th May 2005 Happy VE Day. Although I haven't updated this page lately I have been doing more on h2g2, feel free to visit my personal space there.
3rd April 2005

I feel sad again, and alone. It's funny getting that after seeing some of my best friends whom I haven't seen in a long time. I love all my friends, and my best friends mean a lot to me, so it's a bit strange that I'm now feeling this way, and I don't have the answers.
It feels strange writing all this on a page which nobody ever seems to read, it makes me wonder whether there are reasons they don't read it. Most people don't know it exists, but it is now clearly labelled and accessible. Is it possible I told some people not to read it because it might contain something important? Maybe. No matter how much anyone cares about me at the moment I don't believe they're reading this. But then does that really matter? Well that depends on what goes in here, and at the moment it represents a unique, but not necessarily substantial, portion of my expression.
When there's nothing changing on the website and I want to write, then I write about myself.
Things change on the website when I have something to put out here. At the moment I feel the only things worth putting up are the pictures and these entries. What else would ever be worth putting up? I'll tell ya what, if I make any more noteworthy qbasic programs, I'll put them up. If I think of anything new, or create anything, I'll consider putting that up. I might write out all my opinions on things, but I'm not sure that'll be all that constructive.
And Tom, of course I don't blame you for not being 20, I envy you for being 19, and I wished I could stay 19 too. I can't.
My cat, Tina has a birthday today, she's twelve years old.

I feel emotionally drained. Do you ever get the feeling, when you say to yourself "Well, maybe I'm not meant to be happy." or "Maybe I don't deserve to be loved." I probably don't deserve to. Not unless capacity to love people counts as a qualification.
Nobody deserves the kind of love that Jesus showed when he died for all of us. That was kind of the point. So shouldn't I be so glad? I feel I'm loved much less than I need, but really I'm loved much more than I deserve.

Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

2nd April 2005 Hi. Today I went to Tom's house with Jess and Gandhi. I mean Jess and Andy, but I misheard Jess when she told me, "Andy is coming" and we thought it was funny so we're going to see if it sticks.
Tom is working for Royal Mail, and he seems really tired. I choose to interpret it that he's tired and not pissed off with me. So, he says don't work for the Post Office because he seems to be having a fairly rotten time of it. Conflicted am I, therefore, because it's my short term ambition in working terms.
I now know how to play top trumps. Before I played I couldn't really see anything to it, and it seemed rather lame. Now I've experienced it, I still think it's a bit lame, but that shouldn't take away from all the people who take pleasure from the game.
Also, apparantly the Pope has died, God rest his soul. -|-
He was a great Pope.
Also, Christopher Eccleston has quit Doctor Who. I find this silly and depressing. I don't want to go into too much detail because I haven't really lived through Dr Who so I shouldn't be talking about it.
1st April 2005

Dear Diary, I'm afraid this will be my last entry because I'm tired of life and I'm sick of writing on this stupid website and it will be the death of me!

April Fool's

In fact I had an excellent, excellent night out. I don't know what I was worried about, well I do, but I needn't have worried, it went really well, easy for me to say because I had lots and lots to drink, which was nice, and I'm still a bit tipsy now, which is why I'm using lots and lots of commas, and I trust you won't mind, because you've never really complained about my punctuation before, and my phone has bleeped which means I can celebrate getting another message, woo-hoo, and thank you all so much who gave me a good night out for me twentieth, I know sometimes I think I have no friends, but I will be seriously redressing this view, but of course I will be spending the next few weeks studying anyway, so what they hey, I hope somebody reads this sometime, have a nice life, God bless you.
Neil

31st March 2005 Dear Diary, I've just been to one of those quiz-orientated sites, and have determined 'my color' just so you know:
BLUE: You give your love and friendship unconditionaly. You enjoy long, thoughtful conversations rich in philosophy and spirituality. You are very loyal and intuitive.
Find out your color at Quiz Me!
Today is the day after my birthday, I am now 20 years old, wow. That's funny, because I remember being a fraction of that age a little while ago.
Tonight we're going out in Croydon, hopefully it will go well, not that I'm still worrying about it.
Today I worked in the Fair Trade Shop in Croydon. Yeah.
Weirdly enough, I heard somebody there talking on the phone to somebody called Claire in Dalston (Hackney), although it's apparantly only a coincidence, and not the Claire I met before who went to live in Dalston/Hackney. Really funny coincidence though.
Fate seems to leave a lot of room for interpretation. There are signs, and there are signs. This is not the latter though, I'm not convinced it means anything.
28th March 2005 Dear Diary, just to let you know I'm well.
Went out with the uni crowd on Thursday night, which was great. As I've been telling everyone so far, I feel like I'm on a significant peak within a broad and deep trough. I can't tell yet whether this means I'm on my way back up or whether it's just temporary. There are still lots of things ahead: a drink on Thursday night (please come celebrate my birthday and please don't notice how mediocre it is) Fair trade work, Brooke Street to see, and of course exams to revise for.
Also, Saturday things went semi-as-planned with the old tenisonians. We (Lerys, Laura, Adam, Sai, Clarkey, Esther, Fiona, Karen and I) went to pizza hut and then to the pub, can't really fault it honestly.
Tonight I've stupidly been playing civ2 after a fairly long absence from it.
Anyway, if anyone is reading this I hope I see you soon, or talk to you, and please be inclined to sign the new guestbook for 2005.
20th March 2005 Dear Diary, I've completed half my week's homework and it's only sunday night! Aren't I good? Unfortunately I have a double helping of Elementary Number Theory homework this week. Hmmmm, and that includes a mini-presentation on thursday afternoon. In the immortal words of the guide - Don't Panic.
  • I've seen the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy movie trailer, this latest trailer is excellent. I'm not sure if you've seen any of them, but you really should, and then perhaps see the film, too.
  • As you can see I've changed the format of the editorials page slightly. Next up for changes is the guestbook. It should be ready long before there are any guests here.
  • 19th March 2005 Dear Diary, after prolonged exposure to life experiences (and to the poetic environment of Mornington Crescent) I've come up with the following Haiku:
    Getting to know each other
    Spend time together
    Won't last forever
    I thought it was worth putting down somewhere because it rhymes as well.

    Links

  • My Photos
  • Orange MC
  • KCL MathsSoc
  • My MSN Profile
  • Now after spending all day on the computer I think I'd better get some work done.
    15th March 2005 Dear Diary, I think I'm doing really well in the Geometry tests.
    At the moment I'm quite tempted to play civilisation II. I know there are many more productive things to do.
    14th March 2005 Dear Diary, two nights in a row, eh, I might be making a habit of this diarising.
    I had a nice day. It was weird but fun hanging around with some old friends at Uni. That's the simplest way I can put it. Leaving that aside, it was good for a few other reasons:
  • Al showed up at Uni! Which is nice in itself, next time perhaps we'll both stick around, but not this time.
  • Yves and I explained Number Theory questions to each other. I regret to say I was too distracted to gain the full benefit of what he was saying, but it was along the lines of using group theory to prove that a is a primitive root mod p if both a is not a square mod p and a^2 is not 1 mod p. The answer follows from the extra info that (p-1)/2 is also an odd prime. The other details escape me for the time being. I shall have to apologise to Yves and somehow regain access to this mathematical feat.
  • I had another Geometry test and it didn't seem very hard at all. Either I'm getting smarter or the questions are getting easier. If I get full marks in this it will be a hatrick of geometry tests, which should count for 20% of the module, which would be very fortunate indeed.
  • Had a chat with Louise about life. It's nice to have someone to talk to who's completely unconnected with anything.
  • Found a CD of family photos from Christmas 2003. (Last Christmas...) Interestingly, Mark isn't in any of them and May is only in one of them. Considering we were together for 17 months there are surpringly few pictures of us to be found. I guess a major factor in this is my lack of a camera. (Yes I know I have the polaroid.)
  • My internet explorer has recently been crippled by spyware. We seem to be at the mercy of anti-microsoft terrorists. It's not clear what their demands are but I'm really pissed off about it. On the upside, I have mozilla firefox now, which is kind of nice, but I'd much rather have a healthy PC.

  • This has been quite a long entry then, I think I may use this format more often. Tomorrow is the Ides of March, also known as Cheryl's birthday. Is anyone ever going to read this? Will I ever stop asking things like that? See you soon.
    13th March 2005 Dear Diary, It's midnight on 13th March 2005 I'm just about to go to bed. Photos page has been updated again and I'm on the verge of putting up a shortcut to it on the nav in addition to the only other links which are on this page. Noticably there are still things on here that need doing. But on the whole a lot of stuff may get put off til after the exams. Lots of things are coming up soon - the exams, easter, my birthday, star wars episode III, the hitchhiker's movie, fair trade shop volunteering.
    On a separate note, wasn't comic relief fantastic? I thought it was. Anyway, I'd better go now. Goodnight.
    23rd February 2005 Hey. I had an interview-type thing today at Gatwick, and I got through to the next stage, hoo-ray!
    More News:
  • At the moment I'm listening to Muse on CD, just for the record.
  • Oh, and I got encarta virtual globe back on my computer, it's so cool.
  • I'm making a campaign in age of empires based on the book of Genesis. Fun!
  • I got 100% on both my Geometry I tests!
  • I still have my cold
  • Saz is going to send me back my scarf apparantly

  • That's all for now, talk to you soon hopefully.
    15th February 2005 Friends, Romans, countrymen, lend me your eyes.
    My friend Adam has just made his TV debut (no I didn't bother posting it on the website, what good would that do?) but anyhow, congratulations are in order. I've already been asked by Anoushirvan (from KCL) to pass on congratulations to the Adzter, and I'd like to add to that my personal tribute to my oldest TV-star friend, Mr Adam Pearson: God bless you Adam, you rock, see you in the future.

    Next up, photos are still new.

    Finally, Valentine's Day has come and gone. Or has it though, has it? Yes, it has. Believe it or not, it's over for this year. And the greatest surprise I got was, nothing happened. This is embarrassing, that there doesn't seem to be any embarrassment to add to the list. Maybe if I dig deep enough I can come with something, but that may be over-intrusive. See neilisms#FFF
    13th February 2005 That's funny, I thought I wrote something here recently, but I haven't. :-( Well, isn't every entry going to begin like this? Should I quit writing like this every time?
    The news is: PHOTOS have been uploaded to the website. I rarely take pictures because my camera is a polaroid, and I don't usually have film in it. I got it for Christmas one year, either Christmas 1997 or before that. At first I used to take pictures of my relatives, and I took a few pictures of my eye, and then I gave it a rest for a couple of years. I had took one picture when my web social life was at its height in 2001, it didn't come out well, as u can see. After that I used to turn my attention to the loft window. I like looking out of the window, it works on so many levels... you got the people on the street, the buildings over the road, then the hills and the skyline near the horizon, then the sky, which has a number of things in it, including (but not limited to) clouds, the sun, the moon, stars. Of course I was rubbish at taking pictures so don't expect so much from the gallery 1, & 2.
    Also, I'm learning to read guitar tabs. It's much cheaper than sheet music. Unfortunately I'm not bothered about actually learning the guitar, so it's slightly ironic.
    24th June 2004 Argh! England have been knocked out of the European Championships. Oh well, it was almost inevitable, but I was really attentive to it this time, as if there were a real chance. It's a pity; though if the roles were reversed, and we were the host nation, I don't think we would think much of knocking Portugal out of it.

    I'm going to put here my excess MSN display names:
  • Better to be thought a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt
  • Hey, you sass that hoopy Lerys Campbell? There's a frood who really knows where his towel is.
  • Six of one and half a dozen of another
  • Bewade the mires of Arch
  • 30th May 2004 Hey. I left it again didn't I, silly me. This editorial has more and larger gaps than a dodgy film plot.
    It's my Nana's birthday today. So Happy Birthday Nana!
    Nothing much has changed on the website in the last few months. (Except for a few people I haven't met, which is interesting, and hope to hear more from them!). No further changes have been scheduled, because changing the site will not change the fact that nobody visits it. Time is very precious, and while I'm not exactly a busy person, there are up to 10 things I could better invest my time in. (Sorry to say it) Priorities include actually getting a job, and another website which I have to work on.
    21st March 2004 Hello. It's time to write in the editorials again. (I had intended to write here much more frequently)
    So, here we are. I'm fine, and I hope everyone else is too, but either way let me know, I'd love to hear from you.
    Thank you Lerys for continuing as ever with interspersed entries in the guestbook. Looking forward to actually talking to you or seeing you sometime soon because this is not the best way to keep in contact. Rock on, or whatever else it is that Archeology students do at Winchester.
    A notice to everybody who knows me... I'm inviting you round on Saturday 27th. Please come, if u feel like it. It will be good to see you all. If anyone actually reads this in time, feel free to e-mail me for more info.
    God bless you everyone.
    12th February 2004 Wow... it really has been a long time since I've written in here now. So much time has passed. I should state for the record that I am studying Mathematics at KCL (King's College London) and it's quite great. I was actually reminded of the continued existence of this website by Yves, from KCL, so I'd like to say "Hi Yves, and thanks for visiting, and please sign the guestbook!".
    Yeah, so I had an interview in September, and KCL let me in last-minute. So, this means I'm still living at home, which I was obviously quite pleased about because I get to still see my friends every week (well, guys, haven't heard from you much lately, but I'm still here!)
    I quite feel like playing chess, but I don't think anyone else does right this minute. If anybody out there is up for a game, let me know. Also, if anyone really wants to play board games again (like when we played Risk, Monopoly) let me know that too. If you follow this link you'll find a form to send to me if you're interested in a games-day/games-evening.
    I'm thinking of bringing in some more interactive things (well, formish things, where you can input information of your own of some kind through some means of my choosing. Like a form, but hopefully better.) So, if any of these crop up, please feel free to try, otherwise they will just sit there unused. (But don't worry, I haven't put them up yet.)
    REMINDER: WHY NOT SIGN THE GUESTBOOK RIGHT NOW?
    28th August 2003 Has it really been a whole month since I wrote in here? Wow. Well the last month has been really very good. The first week of August was very good, and so was the 2nd week. After that I got my results, which were kinda what I expected, I had a pretty good day at the time. Then I worried about university places. Then in the third week I went to Soul Survivor, and had a great time. Then I got back, and found I had a university place at Exeter, and then I had a great day. Then in the fourth week I spent my time on computer games, but it's not so easy to get 24/7 access to this computer. Consequently I spent some time getting quite bored, and missing Mayuri. Yes it's true, and she has been on holiday for this week, and it's only a couple more days before she's back. I've also been getting headaches and possibly a cold. Oh yeah and I've been working in the C.T.B.C. office, making a database and I'm supposed to make a website for them too. We shall see.
    Hope you're having a great week. Bring on Sunday..!
    27th July 2003 Hi there. I'm still very happy (although this particular happy is even happier than the one a month ago, I'm still using the same words, very happy).
    I'm so happy that I don't even feel the need to make progress on my website.
    It is as it is, I'm keeping it stable for a while, while I subtly neglect it. Did you notice five two-letter words in a row? Well, did you?
    I'm vaguely aware that there are a whole load of people out there who I need to keep in touch with. It looks as though they are all ignoring me. Well, if that's the case I hope you don't lose touch with each other. If you feel like it, you can write into the website and I can post some on the site. I don't know why you'd do that but, wahey it's an idea.
    13th July 2003 Hallo. Despite my two weeks of freedom from all types of work, I haven't gotten round to writing much in here. Well, I'll give you an update. The site is pretty much as it was, I don't think everybody has seen the pretty decent state that I've put it in, so I'm going to keep it as it is until I'm satisfied that there is a need to move it along. Thank you guestbook signers, if you haven't signed my guestbook yet, sign it now. If you have already, then feel free.
    As for me, myself personally, I'm still very happy. Enough said. I should like to hear from you again though, what are you all up to this summer? At the present moment, Sunday late afternoon, I'm a little bored and may be resorting to reading Principia Mathematica or playing Civilisation II.
    Speak to you soon...? Neil
    26th June 2003 Whoooohooo! What a day. What - a - day. Today's the day of my last exam ever - Cosmology. (Note the song,
    "Don't know much a-bout Cos-mo-lo-gy
    Ev-en-less nu-clear part-icle phy-sics
    Nev-er look'd at telecommunications"
    It *almost* fits the tune.) So the cosmology revision page isn't going to help us now. I'll keep it up there for a laugh.
    I don't know exactly what the rest of you did after the exam. I hope you're enjoying it. I don't know how far or how fast the rumours of what I've been up to will travel... so if you want to know more then Seek me out. I hope you're going to keep in touch. It's up to all of us you know.
    By the way, I'm very happy.
    24th June 2003 Hello. I am being allowed a mere minute to write this, because my sister feels entitled to use of the computer right now. In answer to Sazzy's question...
    "I just wanted to say were you pissed or just really madly happy when you wrote your last editorial?? It was mad and well done on the pub...a normal event. Good. Hope to see you at Amys Bash as long as your not too weird. "
    the answer would have to be yes, both of those. Yes I will be at Amy's on Friday, and I've already said I won't be weird. What is it you people have against drunken-Neil, sheesh.
    Midsummer Night Heeeeeeeeelllo out there. Tonight is midsummer night, or so I am informed by dictionary.com. And it has been quite a night. A rather amazing night by my standards. In other words, really great. There's a first for everything, tonight I went to the pub with three of my best mates. Which, in itself is excellent, but we ran into some more people in due course - cool! We drank in moderation. I probably consumed the same amount as the infamous "Nickey's party" but I think I was far less embarrassing this time. 20th June, it's also the one year anniversary of having seen Spiderman the Movie, and more importantly, of regaining my long-lost ability to burp. Oh wow, I'm so weird, I'm so high, isn't life great. Yours happily, Neil the Freak.
    In case you forgot, the site is in good shape and I have two new guestbook signers who may or may not be Patrick and Olivia - can we get some authentication going on that? Thank you. And thanks for signing, you guestbook signers rock. And so does the Evanescence song which just got knocked off by the Fast Food record.
    From this day the nights get longer, which means... greater star visibility - Yay.
    Clear Skies,
    (2nd signoff) Neil T.
    5th June 2003 Hallo. I'm in the middle of exams. I really wish I had done better in my P4, but that is in the past now. Just have to really get down to revision. Coming up next: Physics (mod 2 retake, friday) German (monday) Maths (P3, tuesday) German (wednesday). I'm at that stage of "4 down, 9 to go".
    You may be glad to know I've changed the guestbook questions, so it's no longer in the form of an exam. So, while you're here, sign it.
    The other thing I'm adding to is the Neilisms page.
    21st May 2003 Hello there. About time I actually wrote something in here. I have updated my site you know. For example, the guestbook hall of fame, which is quite reasonable now.
    Oh, and let it be set down in stone (or whatever Geocities servers use) :
    'Bless�d are Adam and Pippa, for they shall inherit the Room.'
    18th April 2003 (Good Friday) Hallo. Again. Hi. *Neil twiddles thumbs* Yes. You still here? Yes? well that's great. I don't seem to have anything to say at the moment. I've just remembered I was suppose to push through a whole load of new stuff over the holiday, which I probably won't have time to do now. It's the end of the first week and so far all I've done is read a few pages of Der Besuch Der Alten Dame. Great book by the way. In the last few days I spent more time than that reading Red Dwarf. Next week I'll really have to get down to work. Maths revision, Physics revision, Chemistry revsion, German Oral Prep, German Listenings, German Essays and of course German revision. People told me not to do so many A-levels, do you think they were right?
    Anyway, thanks for signing the guestbook (what? you haven't?? GO SIGN)
    5th April 2003 Hello again. Short time no write. I think I must have been tired when I wrote the last one, I seemed to come out with the usual vague rubbish. I am young, and I do feel young, most of the time.
    Some updates I shall tell you:
  • The Index has been changed a bit, and I've added a link to HHGTTG Section (Collaboration between me and Lerys) I will add some more pages to that section as Lerys seems to have done the majority.
  • I'm adding a Chess program to my QBASIC page. (Wow...)
  • I've answered the Neilisms FAQ so far submitted (Except for Jess's last one, which I couldn't make out)
  • So, look around and marvel, and submit questions, and talk to me.
    4th April 2003 Hallo. It seems a lot more natural to say hallo than to say hello these days. What has become of me? Hallo. I guess it depends t'whom I'm talking, but I don't know who that is right now.
    I am eighteen years old. Yes, it's true. My cat, whose name is Tina, is 10 years old as of yesterday. We're both getting old it would seem. I feel prematurely old. It's an odd feeling, and it reminds me of losing at chess. The end awaits us all.
    I'd like to say that Chess-using-cards went rather well in it's premiere match on thursday, and I won. The reason being that when you play using cards your oponent can't really visualise what's going on on the 'board' of cards. I'm going to write some standard guidelines in case anyone's interested.
    So, let's reflect on the differences of being 18.
  • Can vote - - except there's no election this year.
  • Can be imprisoned - - except I've broken no laws.
  • Can marry - - except there's no one to marry.
  • Can by alcohol - - but haven't got time to party til after exams at which time I will seek a summer job
  • I should be able to write cheques/use credit cards and get myself into debt.
  • 030303 Hallo. Ich screibe Ihnen, meine Gedanken aufs Website zu verwirklichen.
    Thanks for the signing Lerys (and prev people's too) but thanks in particular for letting me know the news: Saz's site is back! It may be just one page, but it's a great page. I'd assume she doesn't mind my mentioning that.
    An update on my own mental state: I'm okay. Mild despair and quiet freakiness and overanalysis have become just too darn irratating for everyone else, so I'm working on a change. I probably mentioned that already, and it's about time I just got on. The current social/politcal surroundings are one factor contributing to a prevailing lack of hope that I am feeling for me and this world. That is where we go wrong, for we must never ever ever ever give up. So if you can see some hope, enlighten me.
    23rd February 2003 Hey there ye loyal guests. I'm taking this opportunity to say an all-round thank you for everything that everybody has done in connection with this website. It may or not be much, but thanks all the same. I retract the remark about it being a waste of space. Maybe it is, but the majority of the internet is, in my opinion, just as much a waste of space as my website. [begin rant] I used to like the internet, but now less so. MSN as a whole has become quite irratating, and e-commerce is so annoying. Web advertising has manifested itself so deeply in the internet, pop-ups have become the norm and hardly anyone complains. There are even pop-ups which advertise ways to get rid of pop-ups. Then there's the relentless junk-mail. Companies seem to go to such lengths to bypass your inbox protection protocols to litter your e-mail account with junk. There are the ones that pretend to know you, and the ones that pretend that you contacted THEM first, all just so you bother to open it only to delete it. I could go on, but I won't. [end rant]
    Recent Updates: Guestbook; Neilisms.
    18th February 2003 Hallo. I'm feeling glum. I've realised how pathetic I am being about myself, and how selfish and stupid it is. I've decided I'm going to change. If only it were that simple. Real change must come from within. It's not like there's anything really stopping me. At the moment I don't feel like doing anything at all. But what's my excuse for this apathy? I have none. So if you see me out there, in that big bad world, assure me, "There's hope out there for all of us, even you.", or just tell me, "grow up for heaven's sake".
    I'm over the fact that no one has time for this website. It's a waste of space anyway. Enjoy your halfterm break if you're (un?)lucky enough to still be in school.
    14th February 2003 Hi, welcome back. Happy St Valentine's Day. But, more importantly, it's the end of half term so many of us find ourselves facing 9 days without lessons - woohoo :). The Neilism list has reached #7. Please help me come up with some good questions for Neilology, sign the guestbook. Thank you Jess, the most recent signer (currently ranked No.2 if you noticed the table). Your question will be added shortly.
    Tomorrow is the day of the great anti-war peaceful protest. By the time you read this it will have already happened and hopefully things will look more promising. I urge you to join us in saying NO to war. (It starts at Embankment and we're walking to Hyde Park)
    1st February 2003 Well, have you noticed the site has been updated? You must admit it looks different to the last time, when was the last time? Never mind. I haven't updated the site this week, or have I? Maybe you should check...
    As for life... well it could be a lot worse, but I wouldn't say it's going 'well'. The problem with my life lies with me myself, I am the problem. I am 'a slight wreck' through no fault but my own and I ought to really change my outlook and behaviour. Currently muddling through a nervous breakdown which was for the most part unprovoked and unnecessary. If you see me next week, tell me who I am and tell me to get over it. If you don't want to do that you have only one choice which is to sign the guestbook as fully as you can.
    22nd January 2003 Woo-hoo, big changes have occured in the form of a frameset. This involves having a row of letters by which to navigate the main sections of my site, some of which have been updated recently. If for some reason you are not currently in the frameset, please click here to remedy it.
    The reason I set this up was partly to reduce the frequency of the adverts, however this has proved futile because they come up even when you're using the frameset. Pity. Still, I hope you find it some use. Hopefully you won't notice the plagerism when I add a drop-down menu to it.
    On the Examination Front, I am facing A2 Chemistry on Friday, and A2 Physics on Monday. So, I'd better get back to revision.
    17th January 2003 Hullo. Some sombre news to break to you if you haven't already heard, Sarah has closed down her site - temporarily. I hope it returns before the summer, and when it does, you might want to take a look. (Well, it's not thatsombre news, she was cheerful enough when I last saw her.)
    The Guestbook questions have been updated again. The plagerism has been vanquished but if you still have complaints let me know.
    16th January 2003 Well, M2 is out of the way. It went badly. Badly, not disastrously, but badly. More coming up, yay-not.
    The site: Well, someone else has signed my guestbook, but I don't know who it is. Judging by the 'hallo moto' I'm inclined to say that it's Lerys. I could be wrong, so correct me if I am. No one has yet correctly identified my eye-colour. Sorry if you think that question is plagerism Lerys, I might change the questions next time I get the chance.
    At this point I'd like to insert a link to wavm.co.uk because maybe then Stephen will not fill guestbook entries with it quite so much.
    Updates are coming in the next few weeks or months i.e. after the exams.
    Feeling a bit encouraged by the influx of guestbook entries, and I am still going to make the relevent changes I mentioned before.
    12th January 2003 Today is my friend Nick's birthday, so I'd like to give him a mention. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK. He shares his birthday with friend Swapon so, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWAPON. Not only that, it was Tom Smith's Birthday yesterday, and Adams party so (in separate breaths) HAPPY BIRTHDAY TOM ; HAPPY BIRTHDAY again ADAM. I haven't got any of them a card yet and I'm feeling quite guilty.
    Not only guilty, I'm quite depressed. The big factor in that is Wednesday's exam, which it looks like I'm going to fail (but I really really hope I don't). Tried revising today and I was stuck on the same question for 2 hours. If anyone wants to get some serious revision done with me over the next 2 days I would really appreciate it, and the company.
    Ok, now the WEBSITE. Well, I was surprised to find 3 new entries in the guestbook, so thank you those 3. Stephen H, Lerys, and, most surprising of all, Andrew's mother. So, thank you. I'll have to make the relevant changes later, because I should be busy with other things.
    7th January 2003 Friends, Terrans, Countrymen... lend me your time and attention. See, it's like this, no one is signing my guestbook. To be honest I'm getting a bit worried about that. However, I suspect I'm overreacting and I just hope that in time people will come back here and send me some FAQ for the Neilisms. I don't see any other way of finishing that page as it happens. Okay, I've been going on a bit. This site is going to grow bit by bit, so if you are interested or if you care, then please return some day and help me out via guestbook.
    On a more positive note, I'm working on a page about myself, and a big subsection which I am quite enthused over, and I'm going to keep it secret for now. Heh-hee-hee.
    3rd January 2003 Hello again. I didn't get around to writing yesterday, so this is apparantly not going to be a daily thing. Unless I go back in time and fill in the gaps...
    Before I tell you what was updated today, I'll tell you about everyone else's website. Adam has added a couple of pages, which I've now read. Includes Homer and Uncle A. Lerys has a page on his friends but hasn't written on me yet. Good, don't try. Sarah's also in the process of updating her site. And, most dramatically, Tom's site has emerged from the shadows, and if you check it out you can see what he's added. Jess now has a page of proposed Harry Potter casting.
    As for my site, if you've still got time after all that, I've uploaded my QBASIC version of the card game Rummy. It sure works, though it takes a bit of common sense to run it smoothly. Tell me if there are any problems downloading things.
    Also I've made a few changes to the front page, and a little to Neilisms (needing Qs for the FAQs), and last but not least, I've changed the guestbook, So SIGN it, ESPECIALLY if you haven't already 5 times. But Lerys and Jess, thank you so far, and carry on if you want.
    1st January 2003 Hello, and Happy New Year. We have left that excellent panendrome of 2002 behind us, and now we must face up to the challenges of 2003. -sigh-
    Ok, the website has been updated, a fair bit. Changes include- Neilisms, Index, Friends, and I've just created an Editorials page. It wouldn't really fit on the front page you see.
    We have yet to discover whether this is going to be a full website diary possibly infringing on my inner life, or a collection of update notices and sharp, long, blunt* comments relating to the site and the visitors.
    *(two contradictions in 3 words!)
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