When Poodles Fly...
Exactly 1 year ago today I lost my precious Spooky-girl. I am still so shocked and saddened by her loss. It has been an extremely hard year, but I have also been given many signs from Spooky that she is ok and that she is with me. She never ceases to amaze me with how obvious she is with her signs. Today was no exception, and I share this story to give hope to all others who may be wondering if their pets are ok.
On April 29, 2002, I lost Spooky tragically when she had a heart attack at the groomer. She was
only a year and a half old and in seemly perfect health. It was a shock, and I was and still am devestated. I still miss her every day -- there is never a moment she is not on my mind.
The most obvious sign from Spooky -- actually obvious isn't a strong enough word -- was Lacey coming into my life. Lacey is also a black toy poodle, with a white mark over her heart. The
breeder said that the white mark was her only "flaw", otherwise she could have been a show dog. One man's "flaw" is another man's "sign". The most remarkable thing about it all is her birthday. Lacey was born on April 29, 2002. This is the exact day that Spooky died. It's impossible for me to not catch that sign! (Spooky knows her mommy is/was a skeptic.)
I have had small signs, but today I received another that is pretty strong and obvious as well. I sent up a special balloon today in rememberance of Spooky. I am about 1000 miles from where she died, and I have been very upset that I was unable to let the balloon go where she lived and died. I send a big silver and red balloon that said I LOVE YOU on it, I tied a long silver ribbon to it, and I also attached a silver locket with a lock of her hair in it. I have worn a locket with her hair in it for almost a year now, so it was very hard to "let her go". It was a windy day and as I let go of the silver cord and said goodbye, I took comfort in knowing that SPOOKY FLEW! I watched as the balloon with her fur attached climbed up and up until I could no longer see it.
As you can imagin, this was an extremely emotional event. I needed to compose myself before I
came back to my family's house. {They would not understand grieving over a poodle after a year,
and they have no idea that today is a monumental day for me.} As I came back into the house,
my 5 year old neice greeting me with a surprize she got from her babysitter. She had a little black toy poodle beanie baby!
Once again, Spooky came through when I needed her most. I love you sweetie! Until We Meet Again... Love Mommy
Happy Birthday Lacey Lou ----the gift of joy sent by my sweet angel Spooky because she loves her Mommy. |
