virus inside me by britt
kill my breath//don't let me breath//burn my eyes//don't let me see//crush my dreams//don't let me be//be the virus//inside me
(i have to write more...i haven't gotten around to it yet)

______by bea
you said you would always be there//you said you would dry my tears//i thought you ment these things//i thought you seriously would
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
how could you have fooled me so greatly//theres a billion girls in this world//yet you choose me to play your games with
your games ruined me
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me//from jackasses like you]
could you finally reduce me to this state//have you finally reduced me to this state?//could i have not realised what you were doing to me?//was i that blind to everything else?
i can't stop this crying//i can't stop these tears//how did you keep lying to me//after so much pain already?
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
looks like life is nothing but a lie//looks like i've sought out more from your eyes//who show's the real stupidity here?//me or you?
you are not the strength//i know i can overcome you//i know i can get back//if only i could find the courage...
i know i have to confront you//but will i be able to confront me first//will i be able to control my pathetic emotional self i posses?//i deserve answers from you, don't i?

[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
you are the strength//you are confidence and capability//and what am i?//i am desperation and tears
why didn't i listen to everyone that said//"what the hell are you doing?"//"what the hell are you thinking?" //all good questions
i thought you were sweet and adorable//i thought you would be perfect for me//i thought i would allow myself to believe your lies
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
i let my guard down for the last time//fuck this, let me not love//let me die an unloved bitch//it would be happier
i'd be happier this way,//happier without having to care about soemone else//happier to have only myself to carry when broken down//but i would find myself too lonely
whats love?//whats love got to do with anything?//nothing//its just as problem i'd have to deal with
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
i was told not to complain about it//i'll complain if i want//because the words i speak//are the cold hard truth
i can't believe you did this to me//yet, look at me//i still love you//i don't beleive what has happend
if these tears start again//i'll go cry to someone else//someone who may care//someone who is there
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak/i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
you bastard//i'm going to be sick//i'm a fuck up now//a fuck up in life
send myself to hell//send myself to heaven//just get me the fuck out of this world//and off this earth
who are you anymore? //waiting for me to fall? for a simple laugh?//another who wants me to fail so you can win?//are you wishing me to lose?
[i didn't think i could be tricked //i thought my paranoia would save me //from heartbreak//i thought my paranoia would protect me //from jackasses like you]
from jackasses like you
*k, this song does have a story. my friend stephy \m/ wrote an entry in her dead journal a lot like this one and i made a song out of it because it was really...i can't say nifty cause thats not true...but good for songness...:P and i wrote it into a song...like it stephy!? \m/*

pathetic little cage by bea
i woke up this morning// and couldn't see anything//everything was black// just like my life
no one to hold/ no one to be held by/ no nothing but / the pathetic little cage / i keep myself in
no door to leave/ no window to open/ the walls are closing / in on me/ and there isn't any air in here