i made a decision to follow a raw vegan lifestyle (not just the diet, because this choice affects every aspect of your life) on february 16th 2001.
since then i have felt better & better & better. the way i gauge how great i feel - apart from looking gorgeous! feeling energetic, sleeping like a baby, waking up full of beans, being happy pretty much all the time & having previously unimagined mental clarity - is that when i 'slip up' & put cooked food in my body i feel pants:
my body aches all over, as if i have been in a fight, i wake slowly with gritty eyes & no will to leave my bed, i ferment in my stomach (eggy burps!), my head pounds, sinuses ache, eyesight goes fuzzy & i lose the power of thought i had previously enjoyed.
not to mention feeling heavy, bloated (stinky farts), lazy & miserable.
i did not come to this place overnight, i have read many books & met many people who have guided me along the way - & when i have been ready i have taken the next step (as long as it is forwards..).
so i now have a goal - i have met several people who have been following this path for 10, 20, 30 years & i want what they have. i have seen how good life & health can be. after a certain time of being raw it's as if a light goes on inside that person - they glow, (beyond our usual understanding of good looks, deftly applied makeup, surgical 'help' or inherited good cheekbones).
well, i'm saying YES please to that - whenever that light is ready for me....
it's not always easy, yet it's always easy. that's your choice. i've been through some pretty weird detox symptoms - days of nothing but sleep, weeks of insomnia, headaches, eye aches, runny nose 24/7 for one month, sinus draining, spots - facial & back, hair falling out, ulcers & bad breath, crazy overwhelming cravings, fuzzybrain syndrome - for one whole week, & chronic flu-like symptoms 28 days after quitting chocolate & green tea. (that's another story..) i have seen similar stuff with many clients also - usually the hardest thing to quit being bread of course!
what an incredible adventure - to know that my body is letting go of all this unwanted poison is such a trip - this all with the help of colonics (of course!) & more recently with conscious connective breathwork, an incredibly simple, but so dramatically powerful healing therapy - move over counselling - breathwork will change the face of the 'dealing-with-your-baggage' industry.
so now it's six months & i feel great - i am raw because it works.
each 'slip' is a usefull reminder of why i do this, how the rest of the cooked world feels on a daily basis & how far i have come on my journey. if i can do this anyone can, there is nothing special about my powers of control, decision making or reading skills.
ps. being raw does not make your perfect of course, it just makes life much easier & much more fun. you become better able to catch yourself, before repeating past patterns of behaviour (being a fool) - you can develop compassion, understanding & intuition beyond previous experiences. you still have the same old 'issues' to deal with, (if you ignore them when raw they can get really grisly) but usually the inclination is to want to simplify your life, beat down that ego, avoid discord & have more fun.
cos afterall, it's all about having more fun :-)
suki x
19th august 2001 |
